The Life I Live Now

Chapter 9

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Who's Jacob?

The question still echoes in my mind. Alice had asked me it straight after I had told her to invite Jacob. It has been two days and I still haven't answered Alice's question. Thankfully Edward has been saving me from having to answer her. Alice somehow knows that asking the question around Edward will only lead to him being unhappy. She also knows that if she asks, Edward will find out the answer before she does.

Edward had walked into the room a few seconds after Alice had asked the question. I was terrified that Alice was going to try to force an answer out of me, but thankfully she had seen the fear in my eyes and didn't question me further. I know I have to tell Edward about Jacob soon, but preferably when we're alone. Edward had come into the room to try to help, knowing that it was the only way that he would get to spend the day with me.

"Bella?" Edward asked, breaking me from my thoughts. We're sitting in the library now, cuddled up by the fire. I look up at him. "We're going to have some visitors soon."

"Who?" I ask curiously.

"They're called the Volturi, they own our house and are the reason that we have to get married," Edward quickly explained. I looked at him with a confused expression.

"They're condition for us staying in the house is that all of us have to be married by the time we turn 21. Otherwise they will take away our house and we will have nothing." He explained further. I could tell that Edward felt horrible about the arranged marriage and the agreement with the Volturi.

I was surprised that Edward was being so open with me about something that so obviously hurt him to say. I buried my head into his shoulder and prepared myself to tell him the embarrassing truth.

"Edward it doesn't matter to me why we have to get married anymore. I know that we were both being forced into this marriage in the beginning, but now everything has changed. Now it's real, because I love you more than anything else, and I just hope that you feel the same way about me."

Nothing, I couldn't hear or feel any reaction at all from him. I looked up to see what he was thinking, and was met by Edward's lips on mine. "Bella, I love you more than anything in the world combined. I don't know what I would do without you," he whispered in my ear.

I smiled up at him, as I felt my cheeks heat up once again. I lay in his arms for what felt like forever, it felt so perfect just to be with him. I had never felt this way before, and never wanted to leave the comfort of his arms.

That's when I decided to tell him about Jacob. I knew at that moment that he would understand how I felt and why I had to invite him to our wedding. Edward now knew the truth about how deeply I felt for him, and he had taken that news a lot better than I had thought he would.

"Edward," I whispered into his chest.

"Bella," he replied, kissing the top of my head lovingly.

" I have to tell you something, I'm not sure how you'll take it. I really hope you'll understand and won't be angry at me for it."

He looked down at me and lifted my chin, looking into my eyes. "What is it, love?"

"Well it's about this boy that tried to woo me back in Forks. We were keeping it from our parents, and I was going to act upon my feelings soon. Then you came along, and my feelings are now gone for him. We were good friends before all that happened, and I sent him a letter explaining what had happened. We've agreed to stay friends and I would like to invite him to our wedding.

I looked up at Edward's face to see what he was thinking. He was staring blankly into the fire, he seemed to be in complete shock. I felt tears start to run down my cheeks, he hated me for this, I knew that he did.

"Edward?" I whispered softly, after a few minutes of silence. He didn't reply, he just kept staring into the fire. I started to worry, so I decided to try pleading for his to say something. "Please Edward, say something, anything at all. I don't care what you say, even if you're mad. Just please, Edward, please say something."

Tears were now running down my face. I decided that it might be best just to leave him be for a bit, and let him think about what I had said. I started to get up from his lap, but his arms quickly wrapped around my waist.

"Wait, Bella, please don't go," he whispered. I froze, he had finally said something. I sat back down on his lap and stared at him. He looked into my eyes, then kissed me softly.

"I love you, and the idea of you being with someone else kills me. That's why when you told me I went into shock. I'm so sorry for putting you through this Bella. Will you forgive me, my love?" he asked me, looking deeply into my eyes.

"I'm the one who should be asking for your forgiveness, not the other way around," I said indignantly. He looked at me confusedly. "I didn't tell you about Jacob when I first met you and I should have. I also didn't tell you as soon as I thought of inviting him to our wedding. So will you forgive me?"

"Of course I forgive you Bella," he said. Then he kissed me, this time was a lot more passionate than the others. We eventually broke apart, and returned to cuddling by the fire.

AN: Hey guys! Sorry this took so long! I have been soooooo busy lately and just had no time. I also had writers block and stuff so it didn't help. I hope you like it and I'll try to update soon, but I have exams coming up soonish and assessments due. Also sorry if there's a wee bit too much fluff, Kate told me to write angst, so I tried and it started sad, then somehow turned into fluff lol!