Hey guys! Sorry I've been doing only one update a week I've been busy with a personal project. Thank you guys for reading and reviewing. You all are amazing. And yes I will finish the story. Here is the next chapter.

Chapter 9: Tell me I'm Dreaming

JPOV: (Jon)

"Did you really have to stick her?" I ask Magnus as I feel clary's body relax into me.

"Yes I did. I didn't want her hurting herself or worse the baby." He mumbles combing Clary's hair behind her ear with his fingers.

"Why was he even in here?" I ask turning to Jace.

"I don't know why. I assume to apologize and see if she needed anything. I didn't think he anticipated Clary freaking out that much." Jace says slumping in his chair.

"How long will she be out?"

"Mild dose so roughly thirty to forty minutes. Hopefully when she wakes up it would be time to give her an epidural."

"Hopefully."

CPOV:

I feel like I'm floating my body is so relaxed that I just accept it. I'm floating in a cloud of darkness and I just want to lay here forever and never wake up.

"Clarissa?" A woman's voice call out to me. It sounds so familiar, yet joyful. "Clarissa can you hear me?" The voice calls out to me once more and I realize why it sounds so familiar to me.

"Mom?" she comes in front of me looking as beautiful as the day I lost her. Her fiery red hair, green eyes, and bright smile.

"Yes baby it's me." She walks toward me and I can see tears rimming her eyes.

"But how?" I whisper just as her hand reaches out to touch my cheek.

"I've been watching over you sweetheart. I knew when Magnus gave you the sedative this would be my chance to talk to you." She whispered back hugging me tight to her. I couldn't help but squeeze back.

"What is this? Why are we here?" I ask letting go of her and stepping back.

"To help you."

"What's wrong with me?"

"You're about to lose something sweetie." She murmurs sadly.

"Why me? Why? I've lost so much already! You, Simon, a real family, my father. I just want to have my family." I yell closing my eyes and pinching the bridge of my nose.

"Sometimes things in life happens Clary. If you have to choose between your child or your husband could you?" She asks wiping the tears off my left cheek.

"I can't do it. I can't pick! I love them both and want to have them both."

"You'll keep one alive that is suffering? And one alive to bring into this horrible world?" She asked taking a few steps.

"Choosing to lose my child and choosing to lose my husband is any better?!" I yelled. I remember why the last weeks of my mom's life we were at each other's throat.

"Better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all." She whispered as she begins to fade away.

I wake up gasping for breath holding my chest. I groan with the contractions and I remember where I am. Hospital bed in labor while my husband is fighting for his life. I lay my head back down. I'm on my side with the blanket in between my legs.

"I'm here Clare." Jon whispers from beside me and I forgot for a minute he was there.

"Epidural." I whisper back clutching his arm and my belly.

"I texted Magnus you woke up just hold on baby sis."

"Luke?" I whispered clinging to him like a newborn baby clinging to it's mother.

"He woke up calling your name we told him you were okay but in labor. The medicine has him loopy. But that was an hour ago. You've been asleep for almost two hours."

Magnus and Dr. Belcourt walks in the room with a two nurses and Jon eases off the bed allowing me to lay down in the center of the bed.

"I have to check you before I give it to you Clary." Dr. Belcourt says putting on gloves as Magnus checked her vitals. "You know the drill Clary open them up wide for me." She calls out to me and I can't help but feel weird once I open my legs. Something is wrong I can feel it. Call it mother's intuition but I can feel it. I look down at Dr. Belcourt's face and it explains it all to me.

"What's wrong?! I know something's wrong so just tell me." I yell trying to sit my body up.

"Clary you're crowning." She murmurs jumping up and calling for the nurses. Magnus following her in her wait.

"I'm crowning?!" I whisper deadly calm not sure what exactly her to do.

"Yes Clary you are crowning." Magnus takes my hand and puts it between my legs and I feel a big patch of hair. Oh no…

Well guys here you go. I know it's short but the next chapter will be longer. Next chapter will be a whirlwind as a result tho. Please review guys! Until next time.

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