sorry for the long delay honestly i forgot about this i have to chpt12 on my computer... hehehe... how well better late then never
Max was cuddling with Alec in their bed, her feet stroked his leg encouraging. He grinned at her like a cat after a cup of wisped cream, his lascivious eyes looking at her with dark passion.
"You're so beautiful." He whispered to her, Max felt butterfly's in her stomach it was he was looking straight into her soul.
"No, you're the beautiful one." She whispered husky back, she saw a smirk on his face.
"Manticore had its perks." He shrugged and looked up at the ceiling and held her a little closer.
"You know what I mean, you're beautiful." She said it with love. Max saw Alec's happiness but tried to shield it. Max kissed his lips languid, in a way it hurt her that he was in a way still afraid to have her really close again. But she would break those walls again and this time be really careful, even if Alec admits it or not he was sensitive guy.
"Like I said you're beautiful." He wiggled himself comfortable on the bed like he was trying to get the topic out of the way.
"Are you hungry?" she asked, it was the only way to not push the issue. "I can get some."
"And get food poison? I just got out the infirmity I don't wanna be straight back there." He smirked at Max that got offended and shoved him with affection.
"I am not that bad." She smiled a little as she remembered Alec's expression as she forced him to taste a bite of her casserole. He had puked the whole night after.
"If you say so." He kissed her head and hugged her "just let's stay here for a little while longer." She smiled and rested her head on his chest. Her leg was resting over his leg holding him even closer. She was careful not to hurt his injuries.
After two hours without speaking Max looked up so se him just watching the ceiling "what are you thinking about?" Max kissed his chest, she was worried, no she was afraid that every second with Alec would be the last.
"Well you know blonds don't think so much." He said it lightly and lifted her leg off him and got off the bed. Max whimpered of the lost of his body. "I'm gonna to get some food, that way we both know that we wouldn't get food poisoned." He grabbed his well worn sweatpants and pulled them on and left her.
Max felt tears but told herself she was being ridiculous he would come soon. She sat up listing really carefully at his movements she was ready to dash to the door and barricade it if he tried to leave. "Alec?" she shouted after twenty minutes.
"Coming" he yelled back he came with a tray with two glass with orange juice and food that you cocked by only warming it up in the oven. "Voila!" he said grinning and sat on the bed. He pointed at one plate "that's chicken and curry with rise, this one is meat and French fries."
"And you're saying that I can't cook." She muttered playful.
"I never said I could cook." He pointed "witch one?" she shrugged "come on choose, how well then I'm taking the chicken." He started to eat hungry. Max never knew how hungry she was until she started to eat. He grabbed a French fries from her plate, she growled at him. It was pure instinct. Who said that girls couldn't be aggressive when it came to food?
Alec offered a chicken piece as a peace offering. Then it became fair play, they started to eat from each others plats as they ate from their own. The food was quickly gone and they where still hungry. Alec warmed two more plates and they started to eat again.
Max grinned as she ate with her hands and licking her fingers. He never looked at her unproven, or like it was disgusting. Sometimes he took food from her hand and shoved it in his mouth even if there was another French fry on the plate. Maybe it was some animal thingy she didn't know or care.
She stroked her belly and burped, he looked at her "what?"
"Good isn't it?" he licked his fingers and drank his juice. He stretched out "I'm taking a ´cat´ nap." He threw the carton in the trash and snuggled close to Max "you smell like curry."
"Look who's talking." She yawned and deliberate blew air at his face, he wrinkled his nose. She chuckled and wiggled herself closer.
"What am I? Your pillow?" he said it grinning. As an answer she bit his chest, he jumped "Max! I'm not a piece of meat!" he laughed it out.
"Your not? And here I thought you where." She laughed and said "Hush sleep." She smiled happily and closed her eyes. She wasn't even tired and she knew that he knew it.
He woke up after a couple of hours and stretched out and winched as the stitches stretched. "I wonder what Normal thinks we are." He glanced down as she titled her head up to look at him.
"He is properly worried about his golden boy." She grinned "or that I've have corrupted you or something." She felt a knot in her stomach "you're not leaving me again right?" she asked worried. –Don't leave again my heart wont take it-
Alec heard her worried voice and felt a knot in his stomach. "I couldn't, even if I wanted to." He said it shaky -You have so much control over me and I doubted you know just how powerless I am when it comes to you-
"Good" she said and held him close "I wouldn't want to tie you down." She said it calmly a little scary calmly.
Alec lifted his eyebrow, he had no doubt in his mind that she would do it. Weird enough it was comforting to know that she would do such a crazy think to make him stay. "Now I didn't know you where kinky," he said it lightly.
"I have many sides." Max smirked at him. She hugged Alec, never in her life she needed anyone and now all she needed was him and it was scary. She felt him go stiff she frowned.
"Zack will be okay, Logan got him to a doctor he will be healed in a few weeks." He closed his eyes waiting for her to yell at him.
"Oh, okay." was all she said he opened his eyes and watched her snuggle closer if it even was possible.
"Is that al you have to say?" he asked a little confused.
"What do you want me to say?"
"I don't know, I thought you be mad at me or something." He murmured while scratching his head.
"I am, mad because you left me and are mad at you for scaring me, for making me cry. But mostly mad at you because I could have lost you because your stupid pride." That made Alec react he sat up and tried to get a distance from Max that wouldn't allow it. She straddled him to make him stay.
"Well I'm mad at you too." He said it grumpy and looked into her eyes. "You picked Zack over me. No let me speak and you had his sent all over you, I'm pissed at you for making me this damn weak. I'm not supposed to be weak Max I am a damn soldier! I'm pissed at you because you made me cry Max, I don't cry!"
Alec slammed the bed angry and looked at her. "I am pissed because you broke me down completely, if I couldn't have you it felt like nothing mattered at all!"
Max breathed harshly. "And I am pissed for you making me feel anything at all. I never felt guilt in my entire life, you made me feel it for the first time! When I first meet you… you made me feel… something I don't do! I am pissed because I love you to damn much! I am pissed because right now am telling you everything and I…" he looked away he was choking back tears.
"I can't feel safe with you, because I feel fear. Because I know you will leave me for some one else. And I can't do a damn thing about it and I will be left alone all… weak." He sat exhausted on his place with Max straddling him.
"Alec…" she said it painfully "I never picked Zack over you. No, you're gonna listen to me now, its my turn now. Look at me Alec" She grabbed his chin "I told Original Cindy this and I will tell you this. I told her that I scare myself, I am ready to kill Zack if he ever tries to take you away from me. I feel like that all the time. What I'm ready to do to keep you near. I want you safe, I want you with me."
Max stroke his cheeks and kissed his lips almost sobbing. "Not with anyone else. I am selfish, I know believe me I know but I don't want to share you with anyone. What does that say about me?" she felt tears fall down from her cheeks "I can't lose you, even thinking about it hurts so bad." She choked the words and started to cry. Alec hugged her close and kissed her forehead.
"Sch its okay," he reassured her holding her closely to him. She shook her head tears dropping on his chest.
"No it's not. Please, please don't leave me." She hated herself for being so needy "I am not suppose to be this needy," she said out laud and sobbed. He hugged her even closer.
"Me neither." He whispered it into her ear. Alec kissed her desperately and she held him tight. He needed her closer, he rolled over her, he kicked his pants off.
She grinded against him and they moaned, she pulled his face towards hers and kissed him deeply. Her hands were pushing him down to her body. Their body's started to move in a paste that was slow in the beginning but got faster and stronger. They put all the frustration in the movements what they felt, everything. Max was sure that she made his back bleed as her nails buried in his skin.
Alec looked straight into her eyes as they climaxed, they panted harshly. He propped himself up on his elbows, Alec started to kiss her again, "Alec" she whimpered. Max pulled him back inside. She rolled over, his back rested against the wet sheets.
She never wanted to stop to never want to let him go ever again. She moved steady, she watched as his head pushed back into the pillow as she heard him moan with pleasure. Max wanted to stay connected with him forever, every second of every single day for the rest of her life. Max arched her back as she climaxed once more. Her body trembled of the sensations.
Max smiled at Alec that was grinning almost boyish. She licked his swollen lips and bit his lips, she marked him by giving him a hicky on his neck, he hissed in pain. Max looked startled at him that gave her a reassuring smile but grabbed her hand that she had on his abdomen.
Alec rose to kiss her but Max gently but firmly pushed him back and kissed him. "Max I love you," he whispered out of breath. She smiled like a thousand Christmas lights shinning in the dark. "Damn you beautiful," he said in total awe and smiled lazy. "Breath taking."
"I can hear that." She smiled at him that lifted the corner of his mouth in a crooked grin. "You're so cocky." She said coyly and grinned.
"I have a good reason to be," he chuckled at Max blushing cheeks. She lifted her hips and heard him groan.
"So do I." She smiled cocky at Alec that smirked back.
"I wish we could stay here forever," he whispered it tired almost defeated.
"We can," he crocked his eyebrow "let's."
"That's not possible, you know that." He heard her sigh "but we are okay right?"
"Better then okay." Max said and looked into his hazel eyes. "We are perfect."
They stayed in Alec's apartment for more then two week, kissing all the hurts they inflicted with each other. Soft music came from an old radio and Max stretched out in the bath. She felt Alec half sleeping, his finger drawing something on her belly. He got up from the bath to get the bottle of wine he had in the cupboard. She looked at her inner thigh and grinned as she saw love bits. Her body was a map of love bits, she grinned as she watched Alec stand in front of her.
Max knew that the marks on her body were nothing compared Alec's body, he had love marks all over his chest and neck. And his back… she had left a couple of scars from her nails, but he never complained. Sometimes she felt guilty from being to aggressive, but it was his fault. For an example this morning, she had been kissing his chest and licked his skin when he started to purring. Like really purring, it awoke apart of Max Alec refer as "feral Max."
And the purring he had, just made her hot, when she was stroking his back he started to purr that led to she almost assaulted Alec. But Alec was not total innocent, he could watch from a cross the room and literal jumped at her. He would growl and push her against the wall.
One time Max looked herself in the mirror and saw her hair looking all wild, she walked out to the living room scratching her side and then she would be toss over his shoulder and thrown on the bed to be ravish.
She scooted forward to give him some room, he gave her the bottle that se drank from and gave to Alec that drank. "You know that we have to face the real world soon you know, the food is almost gone." He said it husky and kissed her neck. She crooked her neck to the side to give him more to nimble at.
"I know Cindy must be worried." She took his hand in hers "so must Joshua."
"I don't think so… honestly I think everyone know that we needed some space." He compared their hands. Her hands where so much smaller then his but still she could lift him and throw him across the bed. "So we leave today?" he couldn't even speak right when Max locked their hands together and rested there hands on her stomach. Sometimes he just wanted to lick Max all over. To se if she really tasted caramel. He shook his head at the image.
"Small steps, we can shop some food." she said and pouted. She really didn't want to go outside. Alec offered the rest on the wine, she shook her head and he drank it up.
"Let's go"
"Now?" she whined.
"No better time then the present." He sat up, he grabbed a big towel and gave it to Max that pouted. He kissed her lips and dried himself "remind me to buy some cloths."
"Why?"
"Biggs borrowed me the cloths…" he didn't want to talk about it and Max was not stupid enough to pull it all up again when she was happy. She grabbed his cell phone as they walked the streets of Seattle, he rolled her eyes at her when she called her friend. He held her hand and pulled her in to a clothing store. Max waited at the exit and talked to Cindy.
Alec looked at the cloths "Can I help you?" a friendly voice asked from behind he turned around and gave her his best charming smile.
"Yes, I need two shirts and jeans." He smiled at the girl that blushed.
"I'm happily to assist you."
"How sweet." He grinned, she would undoubtedly give him a lower price. He followed her to a section. He grabbed to shirts, he looked around him to se for a dressing room. If it would fit him it would fit Biggs. "Where is the dressing room?"
"There is none." she lied to her teeth. Alec shrugged and pulled his jacket off and shirt. He heard her gasp when she saw his body. The marks after hot sex where visible to anyone that wanted see specially the girl that blushed. He tried the shirt that was to big "a smaller one?" he nodded and she ran to get him another one. Max walked in to se a flushed girl ran around looking for shirts. She shrugged and walked towards Alec that was trying jeans.
"Hey Max." He kissed her lips and she looked at him in disbelief.
"Why are you undressing yourself here?" she put a hand on her hip while waiting for a logical answer.
"There is no dressing room. I swear where ever I buy cloths there is never a dressing room." He whispered it to Max that was red with anger.
"Are you really that blond?" he looked at her questionly "it was a girl right? Alec she just wanted to se you naked stupid!" the girl that was running around came. "Are there no dressing rooms?"
The girl looked worried "hum… there is one at the back." She glanced at Alec that frowned. "Sorry" she said to Alec that shook his head in disbelief, he should be shocked and then thought about it
"Wait, so all the times…" he scratched his head.
"And they don't give the cloths either Alec, you can ask and they will point." Max said it with clenched teeth, all those people looking at Alec…
"Oh…" he walked to the dressing room and tried the cloths. "I really didn't know." He said honestly to a Max that tired to restrain herself, Alec could really be dumb sometimes.
"I know." She said shortly, Max grabbed his hand possessively. He got his discount and left with Max that hadn't said a word.
"Are you mad?" he asked like a little boy that was in trouble.
"No" she said shortly "but that's the last time you go shopping for cloths alone."
"Hey it's not my fault that women flock to me naturally." He said it mumbling and kicked a rock. "It's not like they want to know me just my body." he said it shortly, he never really had a trouble about it before. But Max made him feel like he meant something and was not just an object, damn her.
"I know." She said and looked at Alec "just it's hard to accept that they do that."
"I know I will never accept guys looking at you." He growled at that and squeezed her hand Max hand that grinned. They bought food that you just had to heat.
Max changed the topic and said "Cindy said hi."
"How is she?" he asked to be polite.
"Good, she said that Normal is missing you. She told him that you where in a car crash and was in the hospital, I was in it. He didn't care about me but got on the roof about you." She smiled at Alec that shuddered.
"He is seriously creeping me out! Let's swing to T.C I need to drop off the cloths."
"Let's drop of the food first." He nodded and they left.
They arrived at T.C late at night.
"Long time no see Princess"
"Missed me Mole?" Alec grinned to his friend that shook his head in denial.
"No"
"Sure you did." He said and looked around "is Biggs around?" Mole nodded.
"Yes, his gonna come here in about thirty minutes, the punk owes me money." He said it proudly and grinned at Alec, he hadn't yet acknowledged Max.
"Really?" Alec smirked and sat down beside Mole that gave him a gun to clean. Max rolled her eyes at them.
"He lost at poker." Max yawned. "I'm I boring you miss…" he stopped himself when he got a warning glace from Alec. Max choked on a laugh. "C'mon what should I call her?" Mole asked Alec that shrugged.
"I don't know Mole maybe my name?" Max said it sarcastically.
"That's not fun." Mole said it shortly "maybe like miss mean? No to plain. Miss almighty!" he grinned
Max zoned out as they began talking about some guy thing. She saw Biggs walking, no running away from Jan that was chasing him. "Hey" he said to them and leaned against Alec that looked at him.
"Why is she chasing you?" he asked with a smirk.
"I accidentally broke something." He grabbed Alec as a cover, "you said you owed me one… I'm gonna collect that favor" Alec chuckled at him.
"Accidentally? You broke it on purpose you hated that porcelain figure!" Jan spat out and whacked his head hard while he looked at her guilty.
"Who would want a damn clown as a porcelain figure?"
"So you admit it!" Jan smacked his arm angry that winced. She smiled at Max and flipped her black hair back. "Hey Maxie!"
"Hey" she smiled at her. Alec gave Biggs the cloths that smiled.
"Thanks" he looked at Max "are you okay?" he asked nicely and gave Mole a bunt of cash that looked if they where real and grinned.
"Yes, I am" she smiled at Alec that smiled at her and looked at Jan that showed the broken porcelain figure.
"You know it is ugly" Alec said it to Jan that stamped her foot. Mole rolled his eyes for being soldiers they where really immature and insecure about them self.
"I thought it was cute… it isn't?" she asked Alec that shook his head and gave her a reassuring smile. "Oh" she pouted and then laughed at Alec that gave her a hug. "Aren't you a real charmer" Jan said it with a southern accent.
"Yes ma'am" he said in a same southern accent and winked at Jan, Biggs stole a glance at Max that rolled her eyes.
"Charm my ass, more like you talk and talk and talk." Max said it boring that earned her laugh from Biggs that nodded.
"Where do you loyal stand Biggs?" Alec said it insulted. He pouted at Mole and said "You agree with me right?"
"Agree with what princess?" Mole laughed at Alec's expression that faked being sad "c'mon princess don't be sad then everyone will know that you truly are a princess." He laughed and stepped back as Alec smacked his arm.
"Honestly I feel bullied." He said it whining but grinned, "Biggs what is that?" he pulled Biggs collar down to se a big bruise from fingers. He frowned and grew serious, there was a fire in Alec's eyes.
"Oh its nothing really, I ran into an X5 that thought I was hitting on his girl." He rolled his eyes. Jan shook her head.
"More like Biggs was training and Gill one of the couples you know where talking to Biggs about training and Jack got jealous and choked him." Biggs smiled weakly to Alec that frowned.
"You should be careful Biggs I mean you know how it can be." he said it a little uncomfortable. And tried to shake of the feeling he got. "Couldn't you sense it?" he asked and scratched his head.
"Yes, but she was just talking, aren't I allowed to talk to any girl now?" he said it angry and flashed a dangerous look at Alec that put his arms in surrender.
"Allowed yes, good idea… no." He said it and looked at Max "think about it, what is the first thing that comes to mind when you se another guy be a little to friendly towards Jan."
"Kill him." Biggs said it without thinking and frowned "oh" Alec nodded and put a hand on his arm "well I don't care when you touch Jan."
"That's because you don't se him as a threat as I don't se Max as a threat." Jan said it calmly "this thing does change us, what ever we like it or not, it has."
"Who was your breading partner?" Alec asked Jan, he tried to se a pattern.
"I didn't have any, think about it, the couples that were formed didn't do the whole breeding thing or followed orders. But that's not the only reason, somehow our DNA changed."
"How do you know so much?" Max asked Jan and glanced at Mole that sat down to watch the show.
"I worked at the lab, I wasn't really trained as a soldier, as wasn't Alec you where more like undercover that's why the less built body." She glanced at his body. "I was only one of the people that looked who was the better match for the breading program" Jan said it insecure.
"Don't feel guilty Manticore gave you an order." Biggs said it shortly, if anything all Manticore creations had one thing in common that was that they where not comfortable with talking about their past. It was when Manticore burned down so did their whole past.
"So it was you that paired me and Alec up?"
"Um no that was ordered by some high boss, I know little about your files." Jan looked at them.
"All I know is that I was assigned to be your breeding partner after psy obs" Alec said it shuddering, he felt Max hand grab his. "Later to follow her and kill eyes only" Biggs ignored the last part.
"Wait a moment, you where assigned to be Max breeding partner? So why didn't you conceive a child?" Biggs frowned.
"I kicked his butt and said no."
"That's it? No offence Alec but you're not the most honorable people, I mean you just got out of psy obs, you could easily be right back or killed."
"I don't do rape." Alec said it darkly. "And it wasn't like I wanted to. She was a 09'r"
"Hey!" Max said offended, once again she was happy that it was Alec that walked into her cell and not some other guy that would have raped her, she shivered at the thought.
"Well he is right for years we where trained to hate you guys, and specially the clones you suffered a lot. Not many lived after that." Biggs said it sadly. He remembered a good friend that died at the age of nine for just being a clone.
"That I never got. The clone thing, Lydecer searched for us for years and there where clones already in Manticore, I mean Sam is my clone…" Max frowned.
"Max after 09 the clones where hidden, like they where already dead. The few who survived was reassign as X5R and send to different of training so its possible that this Lydecer didn't know or assumed that your clone was dead."
"What was your training?" Jan asked intrigued looking at Alec.
"An assassin, that meant being who you wanted me to be, I had to learn a lot of languish like fourteen or something and data, piano…" he saw Rachel's face and looked down "I got training how to get people to give me what I want." He said it thoughtfully then grinned "and here I am."
"What do you mean princess by being who ever people want you to be?" Mole studied Alec.
"Ever wonder why you like me in the first place Mole? I read you and be what you want me to be." Alec said it and his eyes got darker. Like the past was coming back to him. Max pulled his arm to get his attention and his eyes got normal again. Mole thought about it when he first saw Alec how easy he got him to trust him.
Jan bit her lip "lets change the topic." She tired to say lightly but failed. It was silence until they heard Joshua coming.
"Fellas here!" he hugged his friend into a crushing hug.
"Air!" Alec gasped and patted Joshua's arm that let them go. "How are you Joshua?" he smiled at him and Mole and Biggs exchanged a looks. Alec acted like the tension was never there in the first place.
"Good, paint new pictures. Alec and Max." He said proudly.
"Can I se them?" Alec asked nicely. Joshua nodded and dragged Alec away from the rest. Max looked at the three of them.
"What?"
"He often do that."
"Do what?" Max played stupid.
"Act like nothing has happened."
"Maybe miss here wants it like that so he will act like Zack thing never happened." Mole said it darkly.
"Shut it Mole" Max said it angry, Jan sighed.
"Let's calm down."
"Just admit it." Mole said it as he stood up looking down at Max that looked at him darkly.
"Shut up!"
"Stop it Mole" Biggs grabbed Mole's arm "Alec wouldn't want us to argue here." He said it and looked around.
"How do we know that? He can act."
"But he feels." Jan said it calmly "I don't know Alec that well but I do know he cares about us all." She said it firmly to brush every doubt from Moles and Biggs mind that were quiet. There was once again silence until Mole broke it.
"I'm leaving."
"Just don't blame Alec for doing what he learned to do, we all do it all the time. Pretend." Jan looked at Mole that nodded and left.
"Max are you okay?"
"Yes" Max bite back angry "sorry. It's just that I get worried about him."
"Aren't we all." Biggs said it tired and grabbed Jan's arm "let's go, take care Max."
Max sighed and sat down, she waited for Alec about two hours. Just as she was about to hunt him down she saw him walk towards her with a smile. "You should se the paintings, you look really beautiful in them." He said it softly and Max couldn't help but to smile.
"Yeah?"
"Yeah" he answered and looked down a little embarrassed then looked up at her that kissed him. She hoped he could feel the love that was in the kiss. "You think we would be in any drama this moth?"
"Naw, with the world…" She said and kissed him lightly and settled her arms around his hips. "Let's go home and hide" she whispered into his neck and kissed him.
He grabbed her hand and nodded "Yeah " she grinned at him.