Paige's POV Present
I was at the grill. I was sitting next to my mates. They were yakking about all kinds of stuff. I was talking with Nathan. I wanted to know what has happened since I saw him last.
"So are you still hunting with your dad?" I asked.
He was a good hunter back in the day.
"Yeah I'm still hunting." He said.
"How are Luke and Colleen?" I asked.
They are his siblings. When I knew him they weren't apart of the hunting business. They were being normal kids.
"Are they hunting as well?" I asked.
"Yes they are." He said.
"I heard you have a girlfriend." I said.
"Yes." He said.
"How long have you been with her?" I asked.
"I've been with her for three years." He said.
Then I started to become knackered from that long day. I only had interest in what has been going on with him. I used to have a crush on him. I hope we can still be mates. I would be disappointed if we couldn't. Then I went home.
Damon's POV flashback
I went to visit her flat.
She wasn't anywhere around. I went upstairs to go look for her. She was sitting on her bed. She was going through some stuff. The room was untidy.
We haven't been talking.
"Bi ,what are you doing in here?" I asked.
She didn't answer me.
I looked around the room. Photos were plastered all around the walls of war and violence.
"Bianca." I said.
I knelt down in front of the bed. She laughed.
"What?" I asked.
She laughed again.
"What is it?" I asked.
"I found my porn stash." She said as threw the photos in the air.
She smiled again. I was getting really worried. She needs help her. I can't do this my own.
"Bianca." I said
"To make it easier." She said whilst she was looking at photos.
She took a photo in her hand. She's starting to not make sense.
"Alright what the fuck did you take because you're not making any sense." I said.
"You have to accept." She said as she was moving around photos.
"Accept?" I asked.
"The end." She said.
"End? And what fucking end would that be?" I asked.
She looked at me straight in the eye.
"Mine, Damon." She said.
I looked at her like I was concerned. Then she fell asleep on the bed. I watched her like a hawk. I circled the birthmark on her forehead. I tried to pass the time by doing all sorts of stuff. I looked in the refrigerator to see if there was any food. I made her some food and put it on a tray. I carried the tray to her room. I placed it on a bedside table. I opened the curtains so she would wake up. She slowly woke up.
"Are you alright?" I asked.
She took a drink of vodka.
"Totally fucking dory." She said while I took the vodka out of her hand.
She laughed.
"Maybe just calm it down a bit." I said as I moved the vodka away from her access.
She looked at me like she was kind of upset.
"I'm not along here grinding my teeth." She said.
"Both of us for a bit." I said.
I know that are her exams are next week. She needs to be prepared.
"Do you want to fuck up your A-levels?" I asked.
She smiled. Then she pinned me down on the bed.
"Hmm." She said.
She started to kiss me all over. I was totally confused. I slowly got up from under her.
"Come on please just drop the dark shit. Yeah?" I said.
She tried to get on top of me again.
"Hmm." She said.
"Bianca. Bianca. Bi." I said.
I got up from under her.
"Listen. It's me. Okay? Me." I said.
"And this is me." She said.
"Jesus, I thought we were happy." I said.
"Too fucking happy." She said.
"So do you want to end it now? Is that what are you trying to say?" I asked.
"No." She said.
"It's gonna happen." She said.E
"Why are you head fucking me, Bi? Cos I can't handle it. " I asked.
"Then fuck off then." She said.
Is she being serious? I give her exactly what she wants. I walked off. I gave her some time to cool off a bit. I drove to her flat. I ringed Bianca. The answering machine picked up.
"Hey it's me whoever it is. So leave or whatever and leave a message." She said.
"Oh come on, Bianca. Pick up." I said whilst I was driving.
I knocked on the door. No one answered.
"Come on, Bi. Let me in. I have to talk to you." I said whilst I knocked on the door.
The door was unlocked. There was banner on the walls that read good bye. I made my way towards her door.
"Bianca let me in please." I said as I knocked again.
"Bianca can you open this fucking door?" I asked.
I tried to wiggle the door knob. I entered the room. The room was the same
"Bianca?" I asked.
I paced the room a bit. No one was I there.
"It didn't work out." She said.
I knew that voice. It was her voice. I couldn't see her. Then I looked under the bed. She was lying on the floor under the bed.
"I didn't want to be on my own." She said.
"Bianca what the fuck is going on?" I asked.
I lied down next to her.
"I'm sorry." I said.
"I'm sorry I shouted at you as well." I said.
She reached for my hand. I held her hand.
"I'm really taking a piss this time." I said.
"Yeah." She said.
"I thought that was me. I don't know what is anymore. I know you're the only person I can trust." She said.
"Bianca, nothing bad is gonna happen. I'm going to take care of you now. I promise." I said.
The next day came along. I went to her flat. Then I went to her room. She was asleep on her stomach. I knelt down on my knees. I moved her vodka out of the away to the bedside table.
"Rise and shine." I said.
She was being stubborn. She was trying to stay asleep. I got off my knees
"Okay we're gonna stop this. This has to stop now." I said.
I turned her over so she was lying on her back. She slowly awoke from slumber. I sat down on the bed. She put her head on my shoulder.
"Come on." I said as I led her out of the room.
I led her to the loo. She sat on the toilet. I undressed her out of her clothes. I helped her get in the bathtub. I washed her. She put her hands through her hair. After we were finished, I put a towel around her. She took a seat on the edge of the bathtub. I got another towel to dry her hair. I helped her dress. I knelt down in front of her to put on her shoes. I looked up at her.
"All done." I said.
Then I led her back to her room.
"How do you feel?" I asked.
"Much better. Thank you." She said.
"No problem." I said.
"Not just for this. For everything. I don't know what I would do if you weren't here." She said.
I kissed her. She kissed back. We started to snog passionately. I went back to my house. I took out my laptop to do some research. I researched all types of depression. There were all kinds like manic depression. My brother Stefan has depression. I went to her flat.
"Hi." She said as she wrapped her arms around me.
"We have to talk. Yeah?" I said.
"What about?" She said.
Then I gestured to for her to sit with me.
"Sit with me." I said.
"Alright." She said as she sat down beside me.
"Is something wrong?" She asked.
"Tell me or I'll go mad." She said.
"Bianca you're going to go away on away for a little a while. You're going somewhere they can help you. I can't handle it. I can't this on my own." I said.
She looked discouraged.
"You don't want me around anymore. That's it. You want me to go away." She said.
"It's not forever. It will be like a holiday. I'll come visit you every day. It will be better. This is going to be a good thing. You'll see. You can count on me. I promise."
"You're trying to get rid of me. I know it. Just like parents. People think I have it all together. But I'm not. People don't what goes in my head. You're sending me to the looney bin aren't you? " She said.
"I know that. Everything's going to be alright." I said.
"I can't go back there again. You can't make me." She said.
"What happened last time you went to the looney bin?" I asked.
"I don't want to talk about it." She said.
"That's fine." I said.
"You promised me. Did you forget that promise?'" She asked.
"I did. I promised I'll take care of you and this is me keeping that promise." I said.
Then I took her to the mental hospital. I went to the receptionist.
"This is Bianca Stratford. She needs your help." I said.
"Alright wait one moment." The receptionist said.
I looked away for one second. Bianca was nowhere to be found. She just disappeared. I looked everywhere. She could do something to herself. I don't know. I put my hands on both sides of my face in frustration. Then I checked the toilets. The doors were locked. I pushed the door with all my strength. It opened. She was sitting on the floor with her wrists slit. She tried to kill herself.
"Fuck, what did you do?" I asked.
"Somebody! Somebody help!" I shouted.
I don't know what I would do if she didn't exist. I can't manage without her. I took her to the hospital. I waited in the waiting room. I sat near her. She noticed I was there.
"Go away." She said as she moved to the other side of the bed.
Then one of the nurses escorted me out of the room. A few days went by without word. Then the nurses told me she wanted to see me.
"Bianca wants to see you." She said.
Then I went to her room.
"Hi." I said.
"Hi." She said.
"Are you alright?" I asked as I sat down on the chair.
"Never better." She said.
"That's great." I said.
"This is me happy." She said.
She smiled. I haven't seen that smile in a while.
"Why would you do something like that?" I asked.
She didn't say anything.
"I can't manage without you." I said.
"I know." She said.
"I didn't mean what I said to you. I'm so stupid." She said.
"Shhh. It's alright. I'm here." I said.
I kissed her forehead. Then I left the hospital. I didn't want her to her go but it was the best thing to help her get better. I will miss her everyday though. She's my whole world.
Paige's POV Present
I woke up in the morning with the urge to start the day. I missed the mates I've made. I got ready for school. Then I went to school. I saw Aria by her locker.
"Oi, what are you doing?" I asked.
"I'm doing well." She said.
"I figured." I said.
Then I saw the student body putting up "Homecoming Princess Voting" posters and "Class President" posters.
"You should run for Year 3 President." She said.
I haven't given much thought. I don't know if I would make a good candidate. I'm sure someone else will.
"Oh I don't know. That's not really my thing. I'm sure someone else will." I said.
"You're not sure until you find out." She said.
"I'm sure I'll loose." I said.
"Oh come on you'd win. You're totally cool and fit. Blokes go yampy for that." She said.
"I guess I could give it a go." I said.
"That's going to be fucking exciting. Are you excited?" She said.
"Yeah totally." I said.
I don't think I would make a good president. I'll probably be a laughing stock. I just transferred to this high school. This high school isn't going to know me. There's someone better for job.
"I could be a campaign manager." She said.
I don't know what to say. I don't know anyone that would be good for the job.
"Yeah sure." I said.
"We'll make posters after school. You're going to win for sure." She said.
"Why do you run for president? You seem interested in it." I asked.
"I'm not the student government type. You have enough sass to win. Everybody loves me." She said.
"No they don't." I said.
"Now you're just being modest. I think Nathan fancies you." She said.
"No he doesn't." I said.
"Do you want to try that again?" She asked.
"It doesn't matter. He has a girlfriend." I said.
"I still think he fancies you." She said.
"It was just a crush, you twat." I said.
"You had a crush on him. I don't blame you. He's fit." She said.
"I was thirteen alright." I said.
"Alright suit yourself." She said.
"Oh come on. Don't be like that." I said.
"Alright see you later yeah." She said.
After school
Then left school. My dad was in the garden gardening. My mum used to do. Now my dad does it. I went beside him.
"I remember mum used to love gardening." I said.
My dad was beside her every moment she was ill. He loved her that much. I wish I could've been there as well. I don't know why I didn't. I would go back if Ihad a chance to be by her side.
"Yeah she did. What's wrong?" He said.
He doesn't like talk about her. I always dismisses it or changes the subject.
"One of my mates, Aria is coming over." I said.
"Alright." He said.
'Sure she can come over." He said.
Then Aria went to Aria came over.
"Hi." I said.
"Oi." She said.
"Come on in." I said.
"You have a lovely home. " She said.
"How are you doing?" I asked.
"I'm well." I said.
Montage of Decorating posters
Damon's POV
I'm going to the hospital to visit Bianca. I went receptionist to tell her I was here. I went inside her room. She was awake.
"I knew you'd come." She said.
I kissed her on the lips. She kissed me back. We laid down next to each other.
"I missed you." I said.
"I missed you as well." She said.
"How are you?" I asked.
"Everything's great." She said.
I knew she was lying. She was having a hard time.
"Really?" I asked.
"No not really. I'm miserable here. It would be better if you were here. I wish you didn't have to go." She said.
"Have you made any friends?" I asked.
"I don't have any friends. But I think I might." She said.
"What's her name?" I asked.
"Her name's Evelyn." She said.
"That's interesting. I'd like to meet her." I said.
"You will eventually." She said.
Then the nurse came by tell me that visiting hours are over.
"I have to go. I'll come by tomorrow." He said.
Then I went feeding in the alley. I'm usually careful about these kind of things. I saw someone walk by the alley. I recognised the voice right away. It was Bianca and some voice I didn't recognise. I tried to think quickly and dispose of the body.
"Damon what are you doing here?" She asked.
"Nothing I was just..." I said.
She told her mates to leave.
"Don't you dare lie to me." She said.
"Damon, we're close enough now. I deserve to know what's going on." She said.
"Don't panic. I need to tell something." I said.
"You can tell me anything. I trust you." She said.
I don't like that she trusts me. I've broken hearts before. If I tell her what I am, she may never want to me again. I don't want to lose her. I totally fucking love her. I took a deep breath.
"You're not gay. Are you?" She said.
"No of course not." I said.
"What are you really?" She asked.
I didn't answer.
'"What are you?!" She asked.
"I'm a vampire." I said.
"Are you taking a piss? There's no such thing as vampires." She said.
"Yes they are. They are real. I'm one of them." I said.
"I don't believe you. Is this some kind of mind fuck?" She said.
"Yes I am and I can prove it to you." I said.
Then I ran as fast as I could.
"Now you do believe me." I said
"I could break your body in half so fast you wouldn't even blink." I said as I went came closer to him.
"Alright stop before you start scaring me." She said.
She looked scared. That's the look I have never seen before.
"From now on stay the fuck away from me. I won't tell anyone your secret. I can't be apart of any this." She said.
Then she walked away.
Bianca's POV
I can't believe I let this go on for so long. I felt scared. I want to not to be scared. I hate that feeling. I want to feel powerful. I felt utterly weak. I went back to the mental hospital. I came to see Damon on film day. I went back on the bus. My friend Evelyn was sitting next to me.
"What happened back there?" She asked.
"Oh nothing. I think we just broke up." I said.
"Really? Why?" She asked.
"'I'm not talking about it." I said.
"Alright. Suit yourself." She said.
Then we made it back to the mental hospital. I went to my room. I locked the door behind me. I put my hands on both sided of my face in frustration. I grabbed the vodka out of my hiding place. I took a swig of vodka. I went to lye down. I fell asleep. I woke up to know that I had a next therapy session tomorrow with John Foster. I got dressed. I went to his room. I knocked on the door. He answered. He was middle aged with greying hair.
"Bianca. It's good to see you." He said.
"Take a seat." He said.
He opened his file that had my name on it.
"Where did we leave off?" He asked.
"I don't remember." I said.
"That's right. Your brother Sean." He said.
I was thinking about Sean.
"What are you thinking about?" He asked.
"My brother." I said.
"Something happened to him. Didn't it?" He said.
"Lots of things happened to him. He was born almost a month late. He won a poetry competition when he was eight. He got the highest mark on the first year essay." I said.
I wanted to talk about the good stuff that happened to him. I knew it was inevitable though.
"And somewhere in there he was hit by a bus. Nearly killed. Right?" He said.
"Why don't you tell me about that?" He asked.
"Why that? Why not the good stuff?" I asked.
"Because I'm not interested in it." He said.
He leaned in closer to me.
"Tell me what happened to your brother, Bianca." He said.
"From the start." He said.
After the therapy session I thought about what happened with Damon. I want to like him so all the bad stuff will go away. There were paintings on the walls to make you feel calm. I knew for one thing It wasn't working. I was still upset. I walked through the garden to clear my head. I looked out the window. I read a book. My mum is visiting me. She found a jumper on the table. I knew it was Damon's right away
"Who does this belong to?" She asked.
"It's Damon's." I said.
"What do you want me to do with it?" She asked.
"I'll keep it." I said.
Then she handed it me. I smelt the material. It smelt just like him. I missed him. She helped me put it on. Then the therapy session continued. I finally got the courage to talk about the car crash. My eyes were closed for the exercize
"There's a bus coming. Sean doesn't see it. He's distracted. It hits him. It runs him over. He's in the gutter and he's bleeding. He looks dead..." I said.
"Open your eyes." He said.
"Well done, Bianca." He said.
"It's taken you three weeks to tell me that story." He said.
I felt sick to my stomach like I wanted to vomit.
"How do you feel?" He asked.
"I feel awful." I said.
"I'd like us to try something new. I want you to close your eyes again." He said.
"Now imagine that bus never hit Sean." He said.
I was confused.
"But it did hit him." I said.
"It's just an exercise." He said.
"Try to imagine it never happened." He said.
I closed my eyes.
"What do you see?" He asked.
"Sean standing in the road. He's laughing." I said.
"Good." He said.
Then I left the room. I kept thinking about Damon and what he is. I have to make the bad things go away. I have to be turned or I'll go mad.
Music:
Artic Monkeys-Fluorescent adlo
Stina nordenstam- fireworks
Hey, Joe-Sparklehorse
Sia-You've changed
Ebb Tide-Bonnie "Prince" Billy
Charlotte-Hope Sandoval and the warm inventions
Who are you really?-Mikky ekko