Tris' POV
I look Tobias in the eyes. I don't know what to say. I begin with something simple.
"I...I" I try to think of the words I can use to explain even the simple things.
"Tris," he sighs "you can tell me anything and please don't hide it."
"I'm trying to find a way to explain it, please give me a minute." I run it over in my head. "I have been in pain." I say trying to think of what to say next.
"I know, but this has happened before." he says blushing slightly and not quite under standing me. "That's not unusual. I know whats going on."
I look at him, right in the eye. "I don't mean that, well I do. The pain has been 100 times worse and I don't know why. It has never ever been close to the pain I have been in the past day." I look at him trying to decide whether telling him more would be too much information. "There is more, but I-I-I don't know if its too much information for you."
"Tris, I've told you before and I shall tell you again. I care about you and I don't care about what you say to me, as long as I can be there for you I shall be fine." He says looking kind of annoyed again.
"Well, okay. If you're sure." I don't wait for an answer and I just start. "It's not just been the pain." He looks like he doesn't know what I mean. I suck in as much air as I can and blush slightly. "It's not been anywhere near as heavy as it normally is. Apart from last night." He looks a bit taken but for a second. Then he sits down and beckons for me to sit next to him, cuddled in his arms.
"Tris, are you sure there is something wrong? It's not just a one off or maybe things are changing?" He says.
"I don't know" I say with tears brimming in my eye. "And then there has been these outbursts of crying, I never cry this much." He looks at me with a wide range of emotion on his face. "And the anger outburst."
"You don't think you could be.." his voice trails off "..could you?" he finally says.
"Would you hate me if I was?" he pushes me away slightly and he stands up.
"Have you spoke to anyone about it? Christina? She works in the infirmary doesn't she?" He says quickly.
"Tobias, calm down." I say getting anxious. "No, I haven't spoken to anyone and I don't intend to. Not at the moment anyway. I'll take a test and then I shall see someone about it either way. Pregnant or not." Tobias sits down next to me and kisses my forehead after a while.
"I would never leave you, do you want a child?" He winces "I would hate it if you didn't, it would be my fault."
"I would love a child, although if I'm not pregnant I wont be too disappointed as I think I am too young at the moment. Plus I enjoy my job." I say with a smile. If I am pregnant I will have to question the kind of contraception we are using. Tobias takes care of himself with one thing and I take the pill. Maybe we both forgot? Or maybe I did and Tobias' had a malfunction?