We all watched as Aline ran out the Cafeteria. I didn't feel any guilt for what we had all said, because it was true. Jace turned around, not knowing I was there and stared into my eyes. I looked back, and in his eyes, there were so many different shades of gold.
Knowing this wasn't going to help, I looked away and pushed the thought out of my head. I heard Jace say "Goddamn it Clary," under his breath. I spun back round and grabbed his arm, catching him by surprise, and dragged him to the corner.
"That's it. You want to talk to me? Talk to me." I demanded. "Right now." I was sick and tired of this. Jace looked shocked at my sudden out burst and was speechless for a moment before he found the words to say.
"Clary, I can understand that you hate me. And thats fair, but what bothers me is Sebastian. How could you go out with him? He's a knob and he will hurt you." Jace said. I gave Jace a confused look. Sebastian didn't seem like the type of person to hurt somebody... But there was this little voice in the back of my head telling me that people change over time... And maybe Sebastian had.
"What are you talking about? Sebastian hasn't changed. He's the same guy as he was when he left." I said uncertainly. I tried to sound strong but it obviously didn't fool him. Jace just looked at me with doubtful eyes.
"I actually think your living inside a bubble, Clary. If you haven't noticed he's changed, your crazy. But remember Clary. He doesn't love you. He just wants you." said Jace. Shocked, my hand instinctively slapped him round the face, and I heard the resounding slap as it contacted with his cheek. Jace didn't react at all. He just took it like a man, which was something I didn't expect at all.
"Whatever you think Clary, but deep down you know I'm right." Jace said quietly, gave me one last long look and walked out of the Cafeteria. I watched him leave and continued at the door that he left through for a few moments. I shook my head and sighed as I turned and walked up to Sebastian, thinking through what happened. What have I done now? I thought. I was so confused. Jace was clearly trying to warn me of Sebastian, But why? Did Jace care? Ha. Unlikely. I was in denial and I knew it. Sebastian had changed, I just didn't want to believe it. The only thing I could do was ignore my natural instinct and go with my thoughts. Even though I knew they were wrong.
"Sebastian, ready to home for lunch? And look, about the fight... What happened?" I asked and finally looked at Sebastian. He wasn't looking at me, he was looking at the floor as we walked home. He was hiding the fact he was annoyed at me asking that question. He wasn't very good at hiding it though, I could see straight though it.
"I told you." He said bluntly. I glared at him slightly.
"Yes, but surely Jace wouldn't just punch you back because of it. I know Jace. You must have done something to annoy him... So what did you do?" I asked, digging myself a deeper hole.
"He did just punch me okay? End of." Sebastian said and walked faster so he was slightly in front of me.
I jogged a little to catch up. Thanks to my short legs. "I'm sorry. I didnt mean to make you annoyed or upset." I said to him. His face relaxed. He put his hand in mine and looked at me.
"Dont worry Clary. I was just over-reacting. I'm the one who should saying sorry." He said. I smiled and he returned it. We walked home in silence. Neither one of us wanting to say anything in case we said anything wrong.
When we got home, I walked into the kitchen and grabbed the bread and things from the fridge to make a sandwich.
"Hey Sebastian! Is cheese okay?" I shouted to him as he was in the living room. "Yeah!" He shouted back. I could hear the Tv on in the living room. I grinned, walked into the living room and grabbed his sleeve pulling him into the kitchen.
"I may be a woman, but I'm not making you a sandwich. Go make your own, you lazy-." He clamped his hand over my mouth before I said. I laughed into his hand. I wasn't one for sexism, but I was trying to mood upbeat and it seemed to working as Sebastian laughed to and kissed me gently on lips before walking over the bread to get 4 slices out.
We made our sandwiches happily. We grabbed a drink and headed into the living room.
After eating our food, I turned on the TV and flicked through channels to find something I liked. When I settled on a decent channel, I looked at Sebastian and smiled. He smiled back and then suddenly kissed me.
I kissed him back, but Sebastian made the kiss feel like he wanted more. Alot more.
After a few minutes I was now laying on top of Sebastian and his hands were travelling up my shirt. It wasn't bothering me till he started to take my top off. I broke away from his kiss and looked at him.
"Sebastian... No. I'm not... I don't want to do THAT." I said starting to get off Sebastian, but he just pulled me back in top of him and kissed me again. Harder than before. I tried to pull away, but Sebastian was having none of it. He wanted this and he was going to get it. Even if it meant hurting me.
I didn't understand why he was doing it. This wasn't like him at all. As I tried my hardest to pull away, his grip got tighter and tighter until the point that it hurt. I really didn't want to do this. Why was he forcing me into this?
Sebastian broke away for a breath suddenly. His mouth starting travelling down my neck, leaving small kisses here and there.
"Sebastian, stop!" I tried to shout. He didn't seem to notice me. He was now focusing my top off, his nails scratching slightly my skin. I tried to scramble away, but he rolled so he was on top. My breathing spiked. I didn't know what to do. I couldn't get away from him no matter what I done.
He managed to get my top off, hurting my shoulder in the process and was now trying to undo my bra. I was panicking and shaking slightly. What was I meant to do? Have sex with him? No. I was NOT going to do that. The only thing I could do is hurt him, enough to let me go...
So, I done just that. I lifted my my knee and kneed him in his crotch. Sebastian let go of me, with a cry of pain and put his hands on his crotch. I took this chance to get up and move far away from him, staring wide-eyed at him whilst also trying to stay strong.
"That's what you get, you dick, for trying to force me into sex." I said, harshly, and grabbed my top, shoving it quickly back on. I didnt look back as I ran out the house in a escape to get back to school. A place where all my friends were.
My mind couldn't get a grip with what had happened. Sebastian had just almost raped me... It just didn't seem like something like that would happen. It seemed like it was meant for a TV show. But it wasn't. It was happening now. Nor in the near future.
The other thing that kept going through my mind is that Jace was right. Sebastian had changed. Now I had to go up to Jace and go "Im sorry Jace, you were right.", throwing away my pride. That will just make his ego even bigger, if possible.
It wasnt a long walk from school to my house, so it took me about 10 minutes though it seemed longer than before but still not long enough to think about what just happened. But I needed to get back to school. Fast.
I kept looking around to see if Sebastian was following me. I was beginning to become paranoid over some stupid boy. I sighed and continued jogging to school.
I arrived there in no time. When I was in the building I went straight to the toilets to sort myself out. Of course, my make-up was a mess and my clothes were creased. I tried to sort it out the best I could but it was not a lot of use.
After getting myself under control, I walked out the toilets to bang straight into someone. Not knowing who it was, I started to apologise till I looked up and found it was Jace. I expected Jace to be cold and ignore me, but instead he looked at me and frowned.
"Have you been crying?" He asked me. I nodded quickly and looked around for Sebastian.
"Did Sebastian do this to you?" Jace asked me. This time his voice sounded more angry. I didn't know what to do so I just looked into Jace's eyes. From the way he was looked at me, he knew it was Sebastian.
"What did he do?" He said. His voice was full of angry venom. I couldn't help but start to cry again at the thought of it. Jace just grabbed my hand and took me to a bench nearby. I sat down and lifted my knees to my chest. Jace sat down next to me and hugged me. I didnt expect it at all.
"Clary, what did he do?" He asked me in a softer tone of voice. "H-he..." I breathed and tried again. "He tried t-to force me into..." But I couldn't finish my sentence. I was shaking so badly, I had to hug my legs harder to stop.
"Breathe. What did he try to force you into?" Jace said calmly. He was now had his arm around my shoulders and was rubbing my arm softly.
"Sex..." I whispered, so quietly i thought he wouldn't hear me. It took a lot out of me just saying that one word. I could feel Jace tense next to me. I looked at him from the corner of my eye to see his facial expression. Jace looked like he wanted to punch something. Hard and most probably Sebastian's face.
After everything, I knew now Jace cared about me. I was still trying to get my head around it though.
"Jace... Please dont do anything." I pleaded through my tears. Jace said nothing. So I moved round so I was facing him.
"Jace. Promise me you wont do anything to him. Not. A. Thing." I sniffled , trying to sound firm. Jace just looked away. I put my hand on his cheek and pulled his face back to me. I could feel a little bit of stubble under my hand.
"Clary, you want me to leave that bastard after he tried to force you into sex!" He yelled. I put my hand over his mouth to shut him up.
"Shhh Jace! I dont want the whole school to know." I sighed and tried to take my thoughts away from everything. Not that it was working. "Jace... You were right. Sebastian is a knob and he did hurt me." I too a deep breath trying not to cry. It didn't work. "Why did this happen to me?" I sobbed. I felt as if I was under a heavy cloud. Jace gave me the tiniest smile ever, and it gave me the smallest amount of hope.
"Whether you like it or not Clary... Im going to make Sebastian pay for what he's done." And before I could answer him, he got up from the bench and walked away.