A/N: So this time I'm a little bit sooner with my next chapter as I promised. I hope you like it. It's very surprising, even for me! hope you'll like it. And believe me, it will not work out with Mark. PLEASE CONTINUE REVIEWING! It makes my day XD love you guys. Happy holidays! Update soon
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(P.S. the only things I own here are the beta mistakes)
My jacket was not downstairs so I had my mother's coat, well I guess that it was my mother's coat. In one of the pockets there were some pills. I was very nervous and needed some distraction, so why didn't try one of them? But why one? Before I know it I took almost 6 pills, or more. I don't know. I forgot.
The house was dark. That was very logic because it was in the middle of the night. I felt almost sorry for ringing the doorbell so lately, but I didn't want to wait any longer. My heart wouldn't let me. There was nobody who opened the door, so I ring the doorbell twice. There it was. I heard somebody. The lights turned on. Mark opened the door. His eyes were red from crying and his hear was messy. "Hey" I said to break the silence. That wasn't a smart move. The whole night I was thinking about this moment, but now I didn't know what to say. "It's late, what are you doing here? I don't want to talk to you right now. It's clear to me that it is over." He said. I saw that he was tired. "But I want to talk and I'm not here to wait, aren't I?" He opened the door a little bit more as a sign for me to come in. we went to his room. He told me that there was nobody home, so that we were alone. That surprised me. He opened the door of his room. I stepped inside en goes sitting on his bed. It was very comfortably and soft. He closed the door and just stood there. Emotionless and tired. My thoughts were now very quiet. I guess the pills began to work.
"I'm so sorry for everything that I did to you. It's not that I was planning to do this, but it happened. I really wanted to tell you this a lot sooner and I'm sorry for that." I waited a little while, waiting for him to say something back. Ow God. These pills were like heaven.
"So you are a lesbian?" I was really surprised about that question. All the things I thought he was going to say and this was the first he thought about?
"I'm sorry, but why are you even asking this?"
"Just… because" He said very cool.
"No really, from all the things you could say to me or even jell at me, you say this? Why? Aren't you mad or something?" Still surprised.
"I'm not mad at you because you have someone else. I'm mad at you for not telling me that and smashing my heart into a million pieces, if you really wanted to know. And if you are lesbian, why did you even dated me?"
That was a really good question to think about and even I didn't know the answer. "I already told you that I'm sorry. But I don't know how to fix it. It's happened. And I don't know if I'm a lesbian. One thing that I do know is that I'm in love with Callie, and that's it."
He walked to me and goes sit next to me on the bed. "You know?" He waited a view seconds. "You never left my mind. And I want to prove that you're wrong." I think he mend the lesbian part, because after he saying that he moved very fast. He kissed me very hard. Without thinking I moved with him. After a while I could feel all his emotions in that one very very long kiss. It was a good kiss. He turned me on at one point. He pushed me in his bed gently and slowly removed my clothes. I didn't mind. I don't know why. I totally forgot Callie. I couldn't think. Maybe I took too many pills, or it was just the adrenaline flowing to my veins. The whole room started to move. After that, I was only in my bra and underwear and he removed his own clothes two. There we were. Almost naked and heavily kissing. He was on top of me. I stopped. Pushed him away from me. I want to stand up and walk away, but I couldn't. The ground was moving. I fell on the ground. Panic was my first reaction, than crying. With my head between my knees I want to make my head clear. I closed my eyes. Everything was still spinning. "Help me! Mark? Help me." Panic was not the good word. I couldn't think. Maybe chaos was close enough. Mark didn't know what was going on, so now he was the one panicking. "What's wrong? Did I do something? Omg I'm so sorry. It was me? I knew I didn't have to do this. I'm so sor…" I interrupt him. "Please shut op. I try to think. It wasn't you. It were the pills in my jacket. Please help!" He run to the coat and took the pills. "This are drugs, are you crazy? How many did you took?" he almost jelled. "More than 6 I guess. I don't know. Take it away! PLEASE TAKE IT AWAY!" Now I was jelling. I was still crying, almost hysterically. Still on the ground. "Why Arizona, why? Why so many? Do you want to kill yourself, or what?" he was furious, but I didn't answer that question. I was too busy reorganize my head. That was impossible. I felt his arms around me. Pulling me up, too his bed. I was lying on my back now. The room was still moving so I didn't want to open my eyes. He put his blanket over me and hold me tight against his warm body. Hours passed by. The feelings didn't change. How long does this takes? Seriously. I was wrong. THIS was hell!