wow! i cant believe im on my 10th chapter! yay! i hope you guys are really getting into the story. there are a few twists coming up so hopefully no one will see them coming lol

my sleeping habits have been screwed up greatly lately lol i went to a party and they said that the first one to fall asleep will get drawn on and hands and feet glued together with crazy glue. so i didnt want to be the first one lol so we ended up staying up til 8 in the morning. i broke my record tho so thats a plus! lol

but to top that off, i have a cold. and it sux!

back to the story!

Jasper POV

When Alice left the room to go with Bella, I felt a deep sense of loss without her in my arms. I slowly got up from the couch and walked over to the window. I looked at the setting sun that was starting to turn the skies a brilliant orange, red, and purple. Words couldn't describe the way I felt. I knew our love was strong, I just didn't know how strong. My dead heart flew with the knowledge that Alice still loves me and she can feel it, even if her memory betrays her.

Anger burned in my core under all the happiness I was feeling this moment. I hated Maria. Granted I hated her before, but, if possible, my hatred of her grew. I had to kill her for what she did to Alice. I will kill her! But another day. I ran my hand through my hair and groaned in frustration.

The anger didn't last long as the thought of Alice back in my arms diminished the flame inside me. It really hadn't been a few days since she lost her memory, but to me, it felt like years. It was torture not being able to hug and kiss her or comfort her and tell her everything is going to be all right. When she kissed me, it felt beyond amazing, like oxygen to a drowning person. Better even. I felt complete again.

I smiled and turned away from the window. I walked out the door, shutting it close behind me. My head turned to look up the stairs in the direction Alice went, wishing I was up there with her. But I wanted to give her space to think. I turned my head away and walked down another flight of stairs to the living room.

Everyone had separated from their groups. Emmett and Rosalie were sitting on the couch flipping through channels on the big screen. They didn't seem the slightest bit interested in what they were watching though. Carlisle was on the phone talking medical stuff with one of his patients and Esme was doodling on a sketch pad. Edward was in the corner playing a soft unknown melody on the piano.

I walked over to the couch and sat next to Rosalie who was on Emmett's lap. I looked at the TV but I could feel Rosalie staring at me. I could feel guilt coming off of her.

"Jasper?" she asked quietly.

I turned my head to look at her.

"Yes Rosalie?"

She hesitated, probably wording something.

"I wanted to say I'm sorry. It was wrong of me to accuse you of letting Maria do that to Alice. I feel terrible about it."

Shock ran through me. But in some way, I did feel that this is my fault. If I wouldn't have let her go down those stairs to see Caleb, she wouldn't have had a memory lapse. But she wanted to go down the stairs to see him. And I can't deny her anything.

"Don't worry about it Rosalie. It was my fault anyway. I shouldn't have been so stupid."

I clenched my fists in anger towards myself. Rosalie shook her head vigorously, never breaking eye contact. She reached out and grabbed one of my hands and gave a little squeeze.

"Jasper, this is not your fault. You couldn't have prevented this. Maria would've gotten to Alice one way or another so stop beating up yourself and concentrate on Alice. She's whats important right now."

Her eyes burned as they bore into mine. I looked down at the floor, grateful for her comfort.

"Thank you, Rosalie."

She smiled then let go of my hand and leaned back into Emmett's chest and focused her attention to the big screen. They stopped on a football game and Emmett was getting into it. He kept muttering about the players and how their catching sucks. Apparently one team keeps getting in-completes. I barely paid attention.

Suddenly, Edward abruptly stopped playing and snapped his head up to the direction of the stairs. My eyebrows pulled together in confusion.

"What's wrong, Edward?" asked Esme, who also noticed Edward's sudden movement. It was then that I realized that Carlisle was off the phone and was next to Esme, holding her hand.

Edward never took his eyes off the stairs. "It's Alice."

He immediately had my full attention. "What's wrong with Alice?" I asked, desperately.

He just smiled in triumph. "Nothing." He exclaimed.

I hate your riddles. I thought to him. He just chuckled.

Not even a moment later, two pairs of footsteps were heard running down the stairs. Bella reached the living room with Alice following close behind her. She released her hold on Alice's arm and ran straight to Edward. He embraced her.

"I can't believe it!" She exclaimed, excitedly.

I was bombarded with strong waves of confusion coming from Emmett, Rosalie, Carlisle, Esme, and myself. The impact of the emotions were so strong that I nearly toppled over from the force.

"You can't believe what?" asked Emmett.

Bella never answered. She just stood there in Edward's arms. Alice walked up to me and I wrapped my arms around her. She had a triumphant smile on her face.

"It worked!" she shrieked.

"What worked? Can somebody please fill us in?" asked Rosalie, obviously irritated and annoyed.

Alice turned to look at her. "I read one of the poems Bella wrote and I was overcome by memories! But it was just of my wedding day. Nothing else, but still, that's something!" She was bouncing in her arms.

Relief flooded through me. The journal worked! I don't know how, but it did! I tightened my hold on Alice and crushed her to my chest, unable to hide the growing happiness within me. She remembered one of the most happiest moments in my life and my heart soared at the thought.

"That's amazing! I'm so happy for you, dear!" said Esme as she ran over to Alice.

"But how did it work?" asked Carlisle, curiosity evident in his voice.

Alice just shrugged her shoulders. "One minute I was reading. The next minute I got flashes of my wedding day which was what the poem was about. I have no idea how it happened. But I'm beyond grateful that it did!"

Alice POV

I couldn't contain my excitement. I was bouncing in my Jasper's arms as I told them of my recent memory. I just hope Bella wrote a lot more about me so I could fill the holes in my life.

"So what do we do now?" asked Rosalie.

I wanted to go back upstairs to read more poems, but I knew Bella didn't want Jasper there because of the things she had in the poems. I couldn't help but be curious as to what she had hidden, but it's not my place to know or find out. I felt Jasper's gaze on me and I met his stare.

"I think we should go hunting. Your eyes are getting dark." He pointed out.

I nodded but became suddenly nervous. I don't remember what to do when hunting other than to suck the animal's blood. The thought of taking an animal's life was troubling to me but I guess it's better than an innocent human life.

"Anyone else need to go?" I asked.

Everyone shook their heads and Jasper released his hold on me. He grabbed my hand and we ran out of the house. We ran straight into the neighboring woods and we slowed to a little faster than a human pace.

"Jasper?" I asked.

He looked over at me. "Hmm?"

"What animal do I like hunting best?" I didn't want my first time hunting to be spent on disgusting tasting blood.

"You usually went for black bears. Just like Emmett, you liked wrestling with them." He smiled.

Wow. Wrestling bears? I liked to wrestle bears? Now that I think about it, it sounded kind of fun. As if fate was in my favor, I heard a loud growl west of us. And from the sound of it, it was a bear. I licked my lips in anticipation as I let my instincts take over.

I crawled around, searching for that unlucky bear. After emerging from the bushes, I found my prey. There was just one solitary black bear, but it towered above me. I smirked as the bear got agitated with my presence. It started charging for me, but I stood still where I was, teasing him. When he was about half a second away, I jumped in the air and landed on the bear's back. I giggled as the bear swatted his paws at me, his razor sharp claws skimmed my legs and arms. It didn't feel like anything but a tickle.

I jumped off his back and he pounced on me. He opened his mouth, baring his sharp teeth, and leaned in for my neck. I allowed him to bite down with all his strength. There was a small snap as one of his teeth broke off. My throat felt like it was on fire. I had my fun. Now, I'll end the bear's life. I flung the bear off me and it landed on its back on the ground. Before he could get up I pounced on his stomach and sunk my teeth in his neck. The bear roared in pain, but became a small gurgled sound as I drained the poor animal of its blood.

It was refreshing and the flames in my throat were diminished. I stood up from the carcass and inspected the damage on me. My blouse and pants were ripped in a few places and I had a few blood spots on my blouse.

"That was fun!" I exclaimed to no one in particular.

I heard laughing behind me. I spun around to see Jasper leaning against a tree. His eyes swam in amusement.

"What's so funny mister?" I asked, playfully glaring.

"Just seeing an innocent creature like you become menacing to a bear that's at least three times your size is funny to me." He continued laughing.

My eyes narrowed. "I'm glad I amuse you." But my face betrayed me and broke out into a smile.

My sight started to become fuzzy and blurring as I was pulled into the darkness of another vision.

I was surrounded my trees in the middle of some forest. Maria was in front of me, smirking.

"What do you want?" I asked. I looked around and nobody was here. If something happened, no one would be here to save me.

Maria laughed cruelly. "I want you to suffer. And since Caleb's gift didn't do the job I wanted it to do, I came up with something else. And if you suffer, Jasper suffers immensely."

"What did I ever do to you?"

"You took away my best soldier. After he left, the newborns became out of control and killed each other. I burned with rage at the thought that he abandoned me. So I began to plan my revenge. I kept a dozen newborns alive that were useful to me. Caleb was one of them.

"When I found out that Jasper was head-over-heels in love with some woman, I knew that was the way to get back at him for abandoning me when I was the only good thing in his life. I gave him a life. I could've easily killed him when he was human, but I didn't cause I saw something in him. I could've easily killed him when he worked for me, but I didn't. And I won't harm him." she continued.

"So what are you planning to do to me?" I asked, a little bit scared, but relieved that she wasn't going to hurt Jasper.

She sneered. "You'll just have to wait and see. I will see you very soon, Alice."

And with that she turned away and walked back into the trees. I turned around the moment she left and ran.

I gasped as I came back into reality and I realized I was in Jasper's arms. Fear enveloped me. What was Maria going to do to me? I had no idea, but whatever it was didn't sound pleasant. I only take comfort in the fact that she won't harm Jasper. My body started shaking from the realization that she was probably going to have me killed.

"Alice? What was your vision?" asked Jasper, desperately as he rocked me back and forth, trying to make my shaking stop.

"She's after me." I answered, monotone.

"Who?" By the sound of his voice, he knew but wished that I would say someone else.

"Maria."

dun dun dun! told you there were a few twists!

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