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This chapter will be in Edward's POV

Chapter 10

"It's no use, Edward. You must change her now."

Carlisle was shaking his head and sliding in the medications inside a black bag. His voice was flat and sounded hard to me, even cruel. My eyes flickered toward Bella's red and pained figure. She was scarlet and burning up. Her whimpers caused me great agony, shredding my insides mercilessly. My head repeated calmly, she will recover. You know she will. Bella will recover. I shook my head and said to Carlisle, trying to sound clear and precise,

"I can't, Carlisle. I won't. To take away her life now… she needs to get done with high school. She didn't even say goodbye to anyone she knows. She'll have to isolate herself in order to control her bloodlust. I can't do this to her!"

The last sentence trembled, much to my dislike. A sigh escaped from Alice's small lips. She frowned and grabbed my wrist, with much force.

"Edward, please listen. She's dying."

I shook my head in disbelief. My beautiful, lovely Bella with her flushing cheeks and musical voice was so full of life that she couldn't die. Angels can't die; it's impossible. My shy, selfless Bella. No, no, impossible. Carlisle rested his cool, compassionate hand on my shoulder.

"Even if she does recover, she'll most likely be blind or deaf, even both, by the results of the high and abnormal bodily heat."

Carlisle withdrew his hand from my shoulder and went back to zip up his black bag. His back was to me as he murmured,

"It's either Bella dies, becomes deaf and blind, or that you change her. Everything is in your hands."

The last statement came crashing down upon my head like falling bricks. Everything. Bella, her happiness, her life. Everything was in my unworthy, filthy hands.

"Carlisle, I… can we wait?"

He shook his head sadly.

"No. It must be done now. I can hear her heart slowing drastically."

Esme's calm, loving voice was pleading as she whispered,

"Please, Edward. Allow this to happen."

Alice's voice was panicked as she screamed,

"Edward! Do it now!"

Even I could hear it. I didn't need to recall the years of medical school to know that Bella was slowly fading away from me. Her body was starting to slow after the fast and frantic movements to keep alive. Now she was tired. She had given up; she was dying.

My hands trembled as I stared into the beautiful, human face of my Bella. There would be no more blushing, no more warmth. But remember, Edward. You decided to change Bella months ago. Why do you take back your word now, when she needs you? Alice's voice was ringing in my head. She was right. Why should I abandon Bella now? I was going to do this… But not like this. No, I didn't want to tear her away so abruptly from the world, to change her without her knowing. What if she didn't love me after what I have done to her? What if she would've said 'no' at the last minute? I was taking away all these chances, to lure her into an evil life without her last, sure consent.

"Edward, please hurry."

Carlisle's voice was colored with worry as he thought about Bella's slowing heartbeat. Please say that he's going to change her. Carlisle turned around from his stare of the medical bag and looked at me. His eyebrows were knitted together as he thought, Edward. It's now or never. Please. I stared into Carlisle's fatherly, gentle face. Slowly, I turned around and looked at each member of my family, their thoughts either expressing concern for Bella or me. Their faces were worried and distressed, peering into my eyes gravely, their thoughts in unison, Change her Edward. I could not delay any longer. This was my life. This was her destiny.

"I'll change her."

There were sighs of relief and happy yet serious thoughts. Carlisle strode beside Bella and stared into my face.

"Shall I…?"

"No."

My voice was adamant and grave. This was my choice, and I would do it. Rosalie's voice was barely a whisper,

"Let Carlisle do it. We don't know if you can stop."

The words stung my dead heart as they escaped from Rosalie's lips. I tried not to tremble as I neared Bella's bedside.

"I can do this."

Could I? My brain screamed insults at me, spitting with fury and nervousness. My flesh tingled with fear, somehow saying that I could not do this. But I had done it before. With James's venom mixed inside. This time, I would lower my teeth to her pain pulse, fresh and young. I gently held Bella's burning flesh in my hands, trembling. Yet, deep inside, I felt the passion burn inside me. I could overcome this monster inside me, stomp the blood thirsty beast dwelling in my heart. I had to. For Bella.

I know, short chapter… but it was a transition so... yeah. Anyways, review please!