Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto

Pairings: Sasuke/Naruto, Iruka/Kakashi, Deidra/Itachi, and probably more

Warning: Language, sexual activities, rape, abuse, slash, and blood

Hi readers! I have a new update, this WILL be a sai/naru fic, just because i've been thinking about it for so long I can't help myself now and after watching those naruto shipudden episodes were sai shows how much he really cares about what naruto wants, i couldn't help it! IT MUST BE DONE! so here it is, the new chapter, it's going to be a good one trust me.

REVISED!

After spending a little more time with Deidara after cleaning up, he went out to go get some new supplies for his art room. Luckily for us we convinced him that if he still wanted to explode his art for fun he'd have to do it elsewhere. Needless to say nothings has been burned down yet so we're all more or less ok with his odd habit. Not much later than Deidara left, I went to the bathroom to check on all the wounds. My limp was gone now, and I only winced when say I overstretched or something of that nature. My face bruises were long gone and the biggest bruises, which were on my back was completely gone, though still just a little tender in the very center. The hand mark were pretty much gone and covered by my skinny jeans. They were only noticeable if you looked really close, and of course no one was going to be seeing that area of me for a long time.

I began to grip the sides of the sink and leaned in close to my reflection. My mind was so muddled I couldn't even process a question at the moment. All knew was that, I went from loud, fun-loving, and energetic to drained, depressed, and bruised in only a month or so, yet there was nothing i could do about it. The longer I stared the more memories of four nights ago flooded my brain. God was it only four nights ago? I asked myself as tears fell down my face. I only let myself cry for a minute or so, before I sucked it back up and continued on with what I had planned to do before my mini break down.I applied some soothing cream to the bruises on my back, didn't bother with wrapping it up, and just put a shirt over it, then put my hoodie back on top of it.

As I was leaving the house A gust of wind came by, knocking my hood of my head and ruffling my hair soothingly. I closed my eyes and took a deep-breath. I finally had a whole day to spend with my dad, and I was going to have a good time too. As I bounced down the street towards my dad, I let the memories of that night be swept away with the breeze, and be replaced with ones of how great today was going to be.

As I approached his front door I noticed he already had the door open, smiling at me as I quickened my pace to greet him in a hug.

"Dad!"

"Naruto!" He said, pulling away to ruffle my hair. "I'll never get tired of seeing my handsome boy I know that!" Then he began to guide me inside, telling me all about how excited he was to be able to hang out with me without there being no work involved.

"Now just so you know, after your vacation is over, I'll be gone for the week after that. So you'll being working with just Shikimaru, it's the perfect time for you learn how to be firm with people, despite whatever condition they're in, because you know you have troubles with that Naruto." He said looking with me with imploring eyes as I scratched the back of my head and smiled cheekily. "You know you have a weakness, so I'm going to have you work independently fro Shikamaru on this. While he is definitely valuable, he will not be the hokage, you will. So you need to learn to be firm and Shikamaru will be there for clean up basically. Remember, the better you do, the faster you find yourself going through the process of becoming hokage." He said, dangling my dream right in front of my face, like a toy for a child.

"Don't worry dad, it's in the bag, it'll make you proud I promise." I said pounding my chest as he laughed, leading me over to the couch, were we spent the rest of the day until I decided it was time I get home, so I could prepare things for dinner tonight.

I kicked the front door closed and turned the lock , before proceeding into the kitchen. I opened up the cupboards and began my search for food to cook. I wanted to cook something a little simple, like a really good old fashion meal from the old days. I decided on rice, miso soup, and fish.

After I finished preparing the fish, and put the miso on the stove, I began to put the rice in the rice cooker, I heard the front door open, immediately knowing that it was Deidara, he always got home in time to help me in the kitchen. I heard footsteps in my direction, until the door swung open and Deidara was standing right next to me with a huge smile plastered all over his face.

"Hey there Naru! Anything I can do to help yea?"

"Yea, just check on the miso for me, that's all" I said, looking over at him, smiling as he put his thumb up.

"Anything for you my adorable little sunshine yea!" He said, ruffling my hair before going over to check.

"looks good! it'll be done just in time for dinner by the looks of it." He said.

"That's good; I'd thought I hadn't started it early enough." I said.

"Nope you're good, are you sure i can't do anything else to help yea?" He asked.

"I promise, I'm good don't worry the food will be great."

"Well ok then I'll talk you later." He said leaving the kitchen and probably heading to his room. I sighed in relief. Deidara was one of my favorite people, don't get me wrong, but I wanted a little more alone time before I had to put on another act for everyone. Then I heard the front door open and Deidara squeal in delight.

"Itachi you're back!"

"Yep!"

"How was training today?"

"The training with my subordinates went great today!"

"That's awesome!"

"Yea and it's all thank to Kakashi, he helped me out a lot...which brings me to another subject...have you noticed anything up with Naruto lately?"

'What? Oh Nooo...'

"No why?"

"Well like I said I went to go see Kakashi yesterday, and he asked me if I'd seen anything was wrong with Naurto lately"

Suddenly I began to feel queasy; I stopped moving about the kitchen and leaned forward on the counter, listening intently.

"I told him I haven't noticed anything, but since you two are much closer, I thought maybe you noticed something?"

Silence... My heart was beating so hard I couldn't even move and the edges of my vision began to blur into darkness.

"...mmmnnn No...I haven't noticed a thing, he seems fine to me."

My heart slowed down and finally I was able to move again. I nearly collapsed in relief.

'No one knows thank god!' I said smiling to myself. 'But i will have to talk to Kakashi and Iruka soon...'

"Well that's good to hear...Now let's go make good use of our time alone."

From then on I heard giggling and the sound of feet running across the floor and fading in the distance. I just chuckled, happy to know my secret was still safe and all, things would heal over better that way. Later that night dinner went great. No one said a word the whole way through, but after it was over deidara and Itachi thanked me for the meal, even sasuke said it was great, which brought a nervous joy to my heart. From then on I cleaned the dishes and took a shower as my alone time. From there I went to bed, curled up into myself facing the wall.

(Monday)

The next morning I woke up to a light touch on my hair. At first I sunk into the warmth, but froze in confusion as to why he was being so touchy all of a sudden. Without even really realizing it, I was praying I hadn't done anything to upset him, even though I knew i haven't done a thing.

"Sorry did I startle you Naruto?" He asked, his head coming down close to my ear. At first I just lied there until I remembered I needed to respond, so I nodded my head.

"Oh I'm sorry, you just look so beautiful, I couldn't help myself." He said, pushing the hair away from my cheek as he came down to kiss it. I leaned into it mechanically, while inside i wondered what was really going on. Then he kissed my cheek again, before he started to litter the whole exposed side of my face with kisses. Then he descended onto my lips and I almost lost it. But with steely determination I managed to reel it in and even kiss back.

'c'mon Naruto it's just a kiss! Don't fear him, this is the man you love. Just think of how good it feels!' As I continued to think the mantra over and over again, I almost failed to notice how he was realizing this make out session wasn't my main focus.

"Is everything ok Naruto? You seem a little off." He said, drawing his eyebrows together and looking deep into my eyes.

"Oh yea, I'm just worried about being late to work is all." A lame lie even to my ears. In any case, Sasuke's face relaxed.

"Oh ok I see, well I don't want to distract you so go ahead and get ready." He said rising up from the bed, and to the kitchen presumably for morning coffee.

Slowly, I walked around, trying to figure out what I was going to do about leaving the house after my lie, and decided that I'd go to visit Iruka today. It would definitely be easier to talk to him than Kakashi. As I finally finished dressing, I found myself in an empty kitchen making coffee and preparing myself what I could say to Iruka, once we got time alone since I knew that now he'd bee teaching his class. I left not much later, then began my walk to the academy where schooled seemed to just be getting in session.

I walked through the halls of the old Academy, the hallways empty because the bell rang only minutes ago. By memory I walked into the front office, the place I spent much of my time in my youth. As I walked in, the young receptionist looked up at me and smiled.

"Aah Naruto how are you?'

"I'm fine Hinata and how are you?" I asked smiling at her as she looked at me confidently. Her dating Rock lee was doing wonders for her confidence. His loud nature and confidence, instantly boosting her own from their first date together.

"I'm doing great, is there anything you wanted?" she asked.

"Well I kinda wanted to sit in on Iruka's class today? Just this once." I said, trying my best to look charming. Hinata just giggled at me and let me right in. sending me straight to Iruka's class were I stood outside for a minute, just listening to him teach lessons to this new generations the way he taught us. Once the classroom went silence, I suppose because he had them working on a work sheet or perhaps reading silently, I knocked on the door. The moment he saw me his whole face lit up.

"Naruto! How good to see you again!" He said, as the children looked up from the books they were reading, a murmur rippling through the class and Iruka Invited me in.

"Alright calm down class and get back to reading." The class groaned in disappointment before going back to reading as Iruka invited me to sit beside him in a chair beside his desk.

"So what brings you here Naruto?" He asked, clearly surprised and delighted by my unexpected visit.

"Well it's been awhile since I've seen you, I miss my old teacher, no time like the present in my mind you know that." I said, beaming up at him from my seat. In his usual good nature, he just laughed and shook his head, taking a seat behind his desk and straightened up some papers in a sort of distracted matter.

"Well then you stay as long as you like naruto, then later we can go out to eat or just stay and talk here, whatever you like ok?" He asked smiling at me.

"Alright, sounds good to me." I said smiling back, hoping class would be over sooner than later.

After a while all the students looked up from doing there work sheets and began to talk amongst themselves quietly while Iruka began to explain the new lesson. One boy, after a couple of mintes of staring at naruto, raised his hand.

"Yes Naichi?"(1) The shaggy brown haired boy looked over to me again then back at Iruka.

"Actually...if it's ok...i-i wanted to ask naruto a question."

"Well if Naruto wants to answer no problem." I just shrugged my shoulders as they both looked at me.

"Ok...um...why do you want to be Hokage so bad? I mean, for so long everyone hated you and...you still wanted to protect them. What makes you want to protect them so bad? How can you forgive them?" They boy ended in a frustrated huff. Just listening to his tone of voice and looking at the look in his eyes, I knew he was the outcast just like me, only hurt burned behind his eyes from the spurn he got from classmates. Other than that, the other kids around him stared at him with disdain, some, but few, with pity at how he was treated. I smiled sadly at the kid who only looked at me with confusion and hope. Hope that I could explain how i got over the same pain he's going through now. I started off slowly.

"To start I know exactly how you feel. It's hard to be...different and sometimes people don't treat you nicely for it." A few of the students had enough empathy to at least look ashamed.

"Either way I never let hate get to me. I always loved and loved hard, so hard I found a whole group of friends who were willing to help me and protect me from the people who despised me, but until that day came, I just kept strong and kept moving forward. How do I protect people who used to hate me? I forgave them. I was a hasty one and knew the consequences of being that way. I would prejudge at times and realize too late that I may have thought the wrong thing about people and as time passed I grew out of it, and the day the village finally accepted me, I managed to open my heart to their apology and accepted it all. How you deal with the hate will determine your own happiness though. Resent them forever, your life will be lonely and cold. Learn to work against it in a positive way, surely you will be as loved as I am now, and by my standards that's a whole lot." I said, ending my speech with a smile. A voice in my head that sounded oddly like Rock Lee said how mature and youthful I managed to sound. It didn't take me long to realize that it was still quiet in the class room, and the boy I was talking to was no longer in his seat. As I looked down, I realized he was standing right in front of me, his eyes glassy with unshed tears and a small smile on his face. Then he rushed forward to hug me, burying his face in my stomach while I wrapped my arms around him.

"T-thank you N-n-naruto! I-i'll stay strong...and forgiving! ju-just for y-y-you!" He said, while I smiled down at him and patted the top of his head. Then I leaned in closer to him so no one else could hear.

"Then already I don't have to worry about you." I said as his head shot up, A big smile on his face as he wiped away the tears, stepped back and bowed to me respectfully before running to return to his seat. After the display Iruka came to stand next to me.

"Well I'm glad this little discussion happened now, I can only hope my class will be more respectful towards each other now that this has happened, on that note though, Naruto did manage to eat away some time for you guys, so it's time for lunch!" He exclaimed as all the student ran out yelling and talking loud, getting into groups and going of together. I looked to the little boy, still worried about him and saw that another young boy with black spikey hair and big blue eyes, one of the ones who had sneered earlier go up to him in a shy manner. Judging by the way he was standing, he wanted to apologize and make friends with Naichi. Judging by the face splitting smile and how they ran of together my suspicions were confirmed, and he indeed did manage to make a friend that day. I smiled fondly at them, they nearly reminded me of Sasuke and me back in the academy days. I frowned a little, wishing so much I could go back to that similar time, were matters of the heart weren't as complicated. Once all the kids had gone, Iruka walked back to his desk and I followed him there, taking a seat beside his desk once again as he clasped his hands together and looked at me.

"So what is it you want to talk me about Naruto?" He asked, seeing right through me and just getting to the point.

1: sorry about the name, i couldn't think of anything else at the moment!

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