a month passed with no word from L or Watari. Each day Light thought about him, he wondered if L was alright, the odd switching back and forth worried him terribly, L had never been like that, at least as long as Light knew him.

Light entered the taskforce building with a heavy heart. Once inside, he took the elevator and soon found himself outside of his Father's office.

He stood still, he couldn't believe his eyes. Watari was speaking to the chief ,Light looked around hopefully.

"He's not here." Matsuda informed him.

"Who?" Light asked.

"Ryuzaki, that's who you're looking for isn't it?" Light didn't respond.

"I heard Watari say that Ryuzaki had it figured out, he's here to give the chief the results of their investigation. I asked about the baby but Watari just said she's safe and taken care of. "

"Ryuzaki wouldn't have just dropped her somewhere. He's not that cold."

"You really believe that Light, after what he did to -"

"He had his reasons."

"You really must have loved him to defend him like that." Light sighed and walked away without responding. His gaze locked on the door, he had made up his mind to ask.

half an hour went by before Watari emerged from the room, Light couldn't help but wonder why it had taken so long. He stood up quickly and called out to the man.

Watari stopped and turned to him.

"Light" he bowed respectfully, Light did the same.

Watari, how's Ryuzaki?"

"He's fine,he's been busy."

"I'm sure he has. But I'm not sure he's alright. Why would he do something like that, after everything?"

"You have to learn to let it go Light. He doesn't even mention you to me. It's best to stop hurting yourself this way." Watari turn to leave.

"But he's a liar,he told me that, I just have to sort out the lies from whatever he's hiding from me. He's said two different things, one of them has to be the truth." Light pressed.

"Leave it alone Light." Watari said before disappearing from view.

L sat in the car waiting for his handler to return. His eyes were fixed on a screen. Light stood in the center of the room and L could feel hiss heart breaking.

"You know the truth Light, one day you'll understand why." He reached out and placed a hand on the screen.

"It's better for you. I am no good for you and can only put you and your family in great danger. I broke your heart and still you defend me, I don't deserve it. Please have a good life and stay out of trouble." He heard the car door open and close as Watari entered.

"I told you that you shouldn't watch that." Watari said gently.

"You did. Unfortunately I was unable to take that advice. I miss him Watari."

"I know you do, when we get back, I'll get you something to eat."

"Later, i do not feel like eating."

"It's been around a week L, you have to -"

"Later." L repeated though both he and Watari knew 'later' wouldn't come that day.