I couldn't eat the sandwich, dark brown and red colors are hating on me and my stomach today, and I felt terrible that I rejected it, but I felt sick when I saw the sandwich. Maybe I'm loosing my touch? But I can't because… I don't know I just wouldn't be me anymore. I'm just really fucked right now. Last night we the first time that I had ever cut up a body, it was tiresome, bloody and now my body is sore all over.
Today I don't have class with Skylar until after lunch. I think she's smarter than me, which is a good thing because most of my friends are loveable idiots (Well, except for Robert, who's been my best friend since we were infants.)
"Hey buddy," Says Rob as he sits down next to me.
"Hey Rob." I reply.
"You look like shit." He whispers, he's not afraid to be honest, "Everything okay?" He asks me.
"Just got in a little later than usual," I reply, "it's no big deal." I add, cracking a smile. Rob doesn't know about my other self, he caught of glimpse of it once when we were six. We found a squirrel that was supposedly dead from being hit by a car or something, but when its tail twitched, Rob started crying and I picked up the biggest rock I could find and smashed it against the squirrels head. Rob thought I was putting the squirrel out of its misery, but I just wanted to see the little blood trickle from his head onto the pavement. Since then, Rob hasn't seen me even hurt a fly.
"Got in late and what exactly were you doing?" He asks, raising his eyebrows, while nudging me, "You hang out with Skylar last night?"
I shake my head, "C'mon man, you know I don't kiss and tell." I say.
"Damn." Rob says, slapping his knee, "My man, you are a God." He says slapping my back.
"No, it's not even like that," I reply, "we got something real, unlike Sarah, who's just crazy." I add.
"Yeah, She-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named," Rob says, "I can't believe what a ticking time bomb she is."
True, Sarah is crazy, but I think I just helped with the craziness. Sarah would call and call and call all night, she'd wait outside my window too. Yeah she was going through some stuff but so is Skylar, who unlike Sarah, keeps her emotions in cheek, I know I was never there for her and stuff, but I had other things that were and still very much are important to me too. I'm just glad I've finally found someone who understands me. I notice Sarah staring at us in the library, I turn back to Rob, "Yeah, glad I missed that Fatal Attraction." I whisper to him.
Rob smiles, "Yeah, now you've got Skylar." He says, patting my shoulder.
I can feel my cheeks getting warmer by the second.
"Damn, she's got you whipped!" He says, joking around.
"Hell, I can't be tamed," I reply, "but I wouldn't mind Skylar taming me." I add, which makes Rob chuckle, but the truth is, I'm a hundred-percent whipped.