Chapter X

The morning shift went without any incidents. Even though I had been working at Merlottes for years now, I kept thinking my time here was coming to an end. I couldn't keep working there for the rest of my life and I knew once I started having more contact with the supernatural world, especially vampires, I would also start having problems with Sam. I didn't want to even give him the possibility to think he had the right to tell me what to do with my life the way he tried in my timeline. I guess I just was so incredibly naive that Sam and my friends thought they needed to protect me and by doing that they tried to dictate what I should and shouldn't do. I didn't want that to put a strain on my friendships in this timeline too.

Besides with the inheritance from Fintan I could go back to school and get a college degree. My shields were certainly much better than in Highschool. So that was something to think about.

Gran was in the kitchen when I got home talking on the phone listening to the latest gossip.

„Hey sweetheart. There was a delivery for you this morning." She whispered with her hand on the phone nodding at the table.

„Thanks, Gran." I smiled and took the big envelope from the table.

I went to my room where I proceeded to take my shoes off while I opened the envelope. It contained the papers and credit cards Mr Cataliades had send. I had to sit down when I saw the balance. It was an obscene amount of money. There was no way I could be able to spend it during my lifetime or probably ten more. Tears spilled from my eyes. I thanked Fintan silently. He had taken all my financial worries with him to the grave.

I was so used to work so hard for everything. It was unimaginable for me to think about a life where I could do whatever I wanted. I was overwhelmed by this development. Between tears and laughter I kept thinking about everything I could do to make Grans last years as good as possible. Without Rene killing her she could become a hundred years old for all I knew and I wanted her to know how much I appreciate her and how much she means to me.

I would give some money to Jason. I hoped he wouldn't spend it all at once. Since Gran wasn't murdered in this timeline I hoped he wouldn't go down the path of drugs.

There was just one thing. I had to explain where the money came from. I could probably tell them I'm doing mind reading jobs. That would probably work with Jason but I didn't want to lie to Gran. I guessed it was time to talk to her about Fintan. She should know about Fintans death anyway.

„Hey Gran, can we talk?" I asked when I got into the kitchen. She was cooking something on the stove but it looked like it would take sometime to cook. „Sure honey. Come sit with me here so I can keep an eye on supper."

We sat at the kitchen table.

„Gran, this delivery I got… It was about an inheritance from Fintan Brigant." I started. „Oh," was all she could say. „Look, a lawyer approached me and told me my grandfather had died four months ago and had left everything to me. You don't have to tell me anything if you don't want to. I just thought you should know that he died. Don't get me wrong. It was a shock to me to hear that you loved someone other than Grandpa Earl but it's really none of my business."

Gran took a deep breath. „It is your business. I should have told you a long time ago. I guess I was ashamed. Ashamed to tell you that I had cheated on my husband. And afraid to tell you that I knew where your gift came from. I was putting it off and that was selfish of me. You have the right to know this."

I waited. I didn't know what I should say to that.

„I married Earl Stackhouse at very young age. We were so in love. We had been married for four years and we hadn't been blessed with a baby so we went to see specialist. We wanted to know why I hadn't been with child yet. The doctors said. I was healthy as a horse. But as it turned out Earl had been very sick as a child and as a consequence wasn't able to have children.

„The day we found out that we were never going to be parents we drove home in silence. It had always been my dream to take care of a big family. Earl felt like he had let me down. Even though I assured him that everything was going to be alright and that I still loved him, something in our relationship shifted. I still loved him don't take me wrong but there was a tiny part in me that resented him for not being able to gift me with children. I knew Earl felt guilty but there really wasn't anything he could do about it. We started to drift apart.

„Then one afternoon I was hanging up linens in the garden and a man approached me. He was incredibly handsome. And there was a glow about him. He looked like an angel. That was Fintan.

„He came by every day after that. We talked a lot. And I fell in love with him. I never thought it was possible to love two men at the same time. But it was a different kind of love. While Earl and I had grown up together and our love was innocent and deeply rooted. The love between Fintan and I was passionate. It hurt to be apart. But Fintan was a fairy. He lived in another realm. There was a time I actually thought about leaving Earl and go away with Fintan. But Fintan explained to me that it wasn't save with him. There was war brewing in his realm, you see. And besides, he knew I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I left Earl.

„Still, I longed for children and Earl and Fintan weren't able to make me forget what I missed. So Fintan made a proposition. He wanted to gift me with children. At first I declined his offer. I couldn't do that to Earl. But then he talked about a spell that would make Earl forget about his diagnosis and he would think that my children were his children.

„I was desperate. By that time Earl and I barely talked to one another. I couldn't imagine spending the rest of my life like that. So I accepted Fintans offer. I had Linda and then your father. Fintan spend a lot of time in his realm. Time runs differently there. I missed him but he had left me with two children who I loved unconditionally. Earl love my children like they were his own and we were happy. As time went by Fintan came less and less to visit claiming it was too dangerous. And I believed him but I also think it was to painful for him to see his children and the woman he loved living with another man.

„I still loved him. But I knew there was no future between us. He lived in an entirely different realm where I couldn't go.

„My children hadn't had the essential spark. That is the magic fairies have. And then, you were born. You had the same glow as Fintan when you were born. I knew you would be like him.

„I'm sorry I never told you any of this. I didn't want you to think different of me. I want you to know that I wouldn't change any of it. I love you so much sweetie. You are not a freak you are special. This gift you have it is no disability and I want you to embrace it. It is a part of you. It makes you who you are. You are part fairy. I don't want you to forget your humanity but the rules of us humans don't apply to you. You need to figure out what your rules are. What can you live with? How can you be happy?"

I hadn't noticed the tears streaming down my cheeks until Gran wiped them away.

„Thank you. Thank you for telling me this. I love you Gran and I would never judge you. I'm sorry you thought you had to keep this to yourself all these years. And I'm sorry you lost the opportunity to reunite with Fintan." I said.

„It's alright sweetheart don't fret." She said holding my hand tightly. „I knew Fintan was dead. I felt it in my heart when it happened. But I know I will be reunited with him in afterlife." She smiled.

In that moment she looked so peaceful. As if an entire world of pain had been lifted from her shoulders.

„Now go clean up. Supper is going to be ready in a little bit." She said and went to the stove.

I went upstairs thinking about what she had told me. She was right. I was not human. I was part fairy and it was time to accept that. I was part of the supernatural world.

For the first time in years I let go. My shields crumbled and I didn't care. Something just... clicked. There was no effort in putting up shields. The noise simply went to the background. I would need to see how it worked when I was at a crowded place. As it was I could hear the passersby on the main road but it didn't bother me.

There was a spring in my steps as I went back downstairs to eat with Gran. We kept talking about a lot of things. I felt as if our relationship had been reenforced.

I know I haven't updated in ages. And I'm sooo sorry. I don't have an excuse. I guess life just gets in the way. I can't promise I'll update more frequently my life is too chaotic but I'm writing on the next chapter…