A/N: I wasn't planning on voicing myself but I couldn't help it after reading your reviews. I agree when Madosie said the story was rather bizarre; I actually was going to put as a oneshot, but I couldn't...something about it was fun to keep going. I didn't know if people would read it and think me crazy or...say the best things as you all have. I appreciate it deeply how all you think it's a good story, you've been a insperation for me to keep going and thank you for your reviews. I adore them and I like feedback on how I'm doing, I am glad you like it because I enjoy writing stories for your enjoymet. Thank you all so much and darkhanyou27, Psychoticmonkey, I cried writing chapter seven...but I loved every minute of it.

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The Doll

By Final Serenity

Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha.

Chapter Nine

I'm Going To Fight Back

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They had been driving for twelve hours through several different country sides and still had around thirteen more hours before they get to the destination where they would be living from now on. Sighing Mrs. Higurashi pushed the stick into park and slumped in her seat; she needed a break and her back, oh she didn't even want to start on that.

"Look, there's a river!" Kagome pointed as she leapt from the car. "Don't you just love water?" she asked him while pulling him up close to her face.

No, I don't. He smiled to himself; she was always so enthusiastic, so he'd like it just for today.

Kikyo scoffed to herself; her sister was such a child had no sense of priority and was just plain annoying. That stuffed thing was such a nuisance! How could her sister believe so fully that thing was an alive, the way she constantly talks to it is just embarrassing. Kikyo remembered the time she and Kagome had been taking presents to school to show to friends; Kagome not having friends…she brought that creature to the classroom. Kids wouldn't stop talking behind her back and in front of Kikyo; they were so sure that she would join in and mock her twin. She neither said anything nor denied, the wrath of children could be harsh and cruel but Kikyo knew it was for Kagome's best.

However her twin seemed to be rather resilient to the whole thing.

She could ignore a hurricane and at some points in life that would be a perfect trait to have; but she couldn't help think that her sister was…cheating the rules. Kagome was simply defying what was the natural course of her life; it was a ridiculous thing to say really, but Kikyo couldn't help feel bitter. For some reason that same feeling was bubbling beneath her surface and all the while she knew it was there.

It burned her to know that Kagome could get beneath her skin so easily; she hated the fact that no matter how much power she exceeded in physical body…Kagome outmatched with inner complexity. Her twin sister unknowingly can turn around the simple things that are meant to be seen as presented; and develop them into her own ways, it is not wrong but it is very different and Kikyo disliked it with a passion. Why did Kagome get these talents unseen, why did they proclaim her, the special one?

Just a week after their father's passing the night before the funeral Kagome had been speaking to that abomination; and though she ignored her almost the entire time, when she started telling it what her father had said. She couldn't help but listen. Special he called her, fight back he said; don't let anyone push her around or something like that. What was he thinking? What made Kagome special the fact that she talked to a stuffed object that was disgusting? Was it because she was always smiling? Kikyo didn't know, but it chided her just to think about it.

How do these feelings suddenly arise?

Why is it that she cared so much when Kagome laughed with that doll?

Because it could have been you laughing…

Was it because of that smile that Kagome always had?

It's because of the smile you always wanted…

What was it about Kagome that made her special?

Because she believes and you don't…

Kikyo's eyes widened. She was jealous because Kagome through it all was happy. Even with no friends, and she struggled with school work and yet she still got through it with a smile. Their father's death was a test of all them and still is; but to smile as she does with the pain as though it didn't exist. Kagome optimistic about the simplest things; could see the good in everything…

Kikyo hated that.

She hated the fact that Kagome, while childish, was getting everything that she wanted…whether she voiced those wants or not. Kikyo worked hard, she planned and organized carried out things that would secure her future. Studied hard, worked constantly on bettering herself and Kagome lazily sat about doing crafts and speaking to a stuffed mongrel. Yet she's going to get the better life. She would be the one that gets everything her heart desires. Isn't that what her father said, she wasn't going to amount to something she was going to be everything.

Kikyo bit her lip, while watching her younger sister from the back as she spoke in whispers to her small white shaggy dog thing. I despise that thing…that's when it hit her; Kagome's only happy because of that thing…what would happen if he disappeared? Or to put it simply…took a swim? Stuffed creatures couldn't swim, and that would solve a lot of her problems and even help Kagome realize life wasn't all smiles and laughs.

You're just jealous.

Her mind mocked her, which she clearly thought a betrayal, how dare she think that she was jealous of that half-wit for a sister. Jealous that's a laugh Kagome was a silly little girl always and forever; she wasn't a force to be afraid of and the thing that keeps her going is that stupid dog. Well, if she's as special and strong as her father thinks so and as her traitorous mind put; she wanted to see how well her little twin sister would hold up without her support line.

That dog…wouldn't be here for much longer.

"Kikyo?" called her mother's voice.

The older twin turned on heel and saw her mother pulling from the trunk of their small silver vehicle her black suitcase. "Coming," she responded and took the bag. "Kagome stop standing there and come get your bag."

Kagome paused in her giggling and twisted around; with a nod she headed towards the car and pulled a light blue case. "What time are we leaving in the morning?"

Her mother smiled softly before shrugging. "I'm not sure darling the clouds are coming in and it looks like rain for a while."

"Rain?" the blue-eyed twin let out a happy squeal. "Oh I love rain it's so lively!"

Kikyo had to bite her tongue till it bled; it rained the night their father died, had Kagome no respect? She was incompetent to the point it made her gag. "Stop it Kagome." She bit out angrily.

The happy girl stopped her smiles and laughing for a moment to look at Kikyo. "No." she said defiantly. "I can do whatever I want, even dance for rain!" and with that she started up again humming a tune and looking loving at her companion.

Their mother looked wearily at the girls. They fought sure, but usually Kagome never insinuated or kept the fight going and it would simmer down, this time however it didn't look likely. Call it the look in Kikyo's eyes, or mother's intuition but she couldn't help feel that something was going to happen…and it wasn't going to be good.

No? She said no. Kagome her sweet innocent little sister was really listening to what her father said, fight back he told her, fight back. Fine, if she wants to find out what happens when you fight back then so be it, there was no way she was going to back down because her sister suddenly felt confident. Kikyo smirked, that thing's day was coming as she stated before who would have guessed it would be…

"Today…" Kikyo mumbled before dropping the case, something snapped inside and opened the floodgate…

In blur of a moment the oldest of the Higurashi twins leaped from her spot and crashed into her younger sister; ripping from her arms the white shaggy dog that she loved so much. Kagome not realizing what happened for a second was speechless literally; the wind was knocked clean from her. Kikyo jerked away and jumped up from her spot, her mother's calls falling away as she dashed across the road and headed towards the perfect place to get rid of this thing.

"Stop!" Kagome cried as she stumbled her way on her sister's path; Kikyo was a good fifteen feet in front of her.

She didn't want to think about what her sister was doing. She didn't want to know why she had snapped and taken from her, the most precious gift she'd ever been given. All she wanted was him back in her arms…but down in the pits of her stomach she had a feeling, a sickening feeling that was ripping her apart from the inside. Her eyes widened as she looked past her still running sister and further beyond to what she now knew was her destination; a bridge overlooking the river…it was large, that's why she had loved it so much…

Her heart stopped in the moment that Kikyo slowed down and stepped up onto the railing of the bridge.

She wouldn't…

"Kikyo!" Kagome called out again, this time getting a reaction.

The older twin turned slightly before holding the shaggy dog over the railing; halting Kagome's step. "Don't come closer."

"Kikyo please, I'm sorry!" tears welled in her eyes, whatever made her happy she'd do it…even though the warning she slid a little closer.

"Kagome…you're my sister and as such you are expected to be a human being. You're acting like a freak!" she barked out. "You're a disgrace to this family, you bring shame to our father and if anything you're an embarrassment of mankind."

What was talking about? Fine, she was all those things, just giver her back her friend… "Alright…I'll change, just don't hurt him!"

She scoffed before letting out a low chuckle. "Change? No Kagome, you can't change not as long as you have this thing hanging around."

Have you ever watched a car crash, people mangled and bruised, bodies scattered…but you couldn't look away? It was something like that except Kikyo was the one watching as her young twin burst with speed across the way to her; by that time she already let go of the creature that was her bane, which stained her plans. It was like slow motion watching Kagome's hair flail behind her, her big blue eyes opened so wide all the pain and sadness in them could echo on walls.

She stepped back as her sister fiercely jumped onto the railing and reaching out like she could save him; the cries coming from her were muffled. They were loud and vibrant and full of agony, but Kikyo could only focus on her sisters eyes…they were same as her father's when they had spoken before he…

What had she done…

"Kagome!" her mother did a last ditch catch as she lunged forward to grab her daughter that was attempting to jump into the river below.

Kikyo watched as Kagome fought against her mother's arms; struggled to break free and save the only thing she'd ever loved so dearly that she wished she'd been thrown from the edge as well. Her heart stopped beating; her sobs stopped coming and all motion ceased from her body. At that moment…Kagome looked like she had died…

"Kagome…" Kikyo choked…what have I done?

Suddenly the younger sister's eyes snapped towards her; with strength that should not have been possible with such a young girl, but it happened and she pushed her mother away. Standing up she walked over to her twin sister, whom shared the same blood, whom she loved with all her heart. Not once had Kagome ever been violent with her sister; not once had she been cruel in return of her sister's hateful actions.

Not anymore.

Kagome shoved her, hard.

"…I never did anything to you. I never treated you badly all I ever did was love you. We're not sisters, we're not friends," her voice was harsh and full of indescribable feeling, she started walking back to the hotel when she stopped and twisted slightly. "I can't hate you, we are family nothing I can do about that…but that doesn't mean I'll forgive you so easily. I'm not going to let you push me around anymore…I'm going to fight back."