Chapter Nine: Frozen Fear
Beep…beep…beep…beep…
What happened?
Beep…beep…beep…beep…
Were those my memories?
Beep…beep…beep…beep…
Fire…blood…there was so much blood!
Beep.beep.beep.beep…
She was there! Ashley…
She was crouched over them.
So much blood…
Beepbeepbeepbeep…
"She's trying to wake up!"
"Doctor!"
"Spencer?"
"Her eyes are flitting…give her a moment…"
What? Who is that? Where am I?
"Spencer!"
Ashley?
"Oh, thank god! Spencer, It's me, Ashley!"
I felt a hand, hers I guess, tangle with mine, but it felt weird. I couldn't seem to feel much more than the heat that radiated from her hand. I couldn't feel the contours of her fingers or the ridges on her knuckles.
I couldn't move my hand.
I was trying so hard, but I couldn't move it.
"What's going on?"
I tried to turn my head to look at the doctor, but I found that my muscles weren't listening to my commands.
Why wasn't anyone answering me? What the hell was going on?!
"Her vocal chords are working, but her lips won't move," he wasn't talking to me. Who was he talking to? "during her last episode, when she slammed her head against your nightstand, she damaged the nerves that control her movement."
WHAT?!
"I suggest, Ms. Margot, you get comfortable, because I will not discharge her until she gains control of her body once again."
Ms. Margot? Who is Ms. Margot?
"I will, sir. Thank you very much."
Ashley? Ms. Margot? Oh, I remember now. She can't use her real name.
I heard the door shut, and it became quiet. I didn't like the silence, but I couldn't request anything to relieve it. Ashley must have been thinking the same thoughts, because a moment later, she began to sing lightly.
"I've gone for too long,
Living like I'm not alive.
So I'm gonna start over tonight,
Beginning with you and I.
When this memory fades,
I'm gonna make sure it's replaced,
With chances taken,
Hope embraced,
And have I told you?
I'm not going,
Cause I've been waiting for a miracle,
And I'm not leaving.
I won't let you,
Let you give up on a miracle,
When it might save you…"
My mind began to drift as I slowly fell asleep to her song. I tried not to sleep, but there was no way I could stop myself, being able to only control my mind.
And then they resurfaced, painful, forcing me to watch all over again…
"Spence!"
"What do you want?!"
"Just hear me out!"
"No! You didn't see you in there! You didn't see what I just saw!"
"It's not what you think it looked like!"
"There was so much blood! How could that happen? And you were just sitting there, right in the middle!"
"I was trying to save them!"
"You killed them! YOU KILLED THEM!"
"No! How could you think that?"
"You were on the floor…"
"I tried so hard, Spencer!"
"You're covered in their blood, right now!"
"I was trying to save them! Please, please believe me!"
"What was he doing there?"
"He? Who are you talking about, Spencer?"
"Branden! What the hell was Branden doing there?"
"Oh, my God…"
"What?!"
"It was him…"
"Are you talking about Branden? What is going on here, Ashley?!"
"No! Don't you get it Spence? It was Branden!"
"Branden?"
"Yes! He was there before I was even in the house! He…he was covered in their blood, Spencer…he just let me go past him!"
"Oh my god…"
"It was him, Spencer! Branden killed your family!"
"NO!"
"Yeah, It might save you.
Oh, It might save you.
It's not faith if,
If you use your eyes,
If you use your eyes.
If you use your eyes…"
Ashley finished her song just as I swam back into the conscious world.
Oh, my god. I've been here thinking that it was her. I've been blaming her for whatever happened.
I felt something cold hit my hand, and trail down into my palm. Than a sniffle.
She was crying…
Why?
"I know you're probably asleep right now, but I need to talk to you," I pushed everything else out of my head as I strained to listen to her speak. "it's easier this way, for me at least, to tell you while you're asleep."
Her grip on my hand tightened as she continued.
"I can't let you stay here. I'm taking you tonight after the doctors do their nightly rounds. I can't let you lay here while he's still out there. You're not safe here, because Branden will do anything to get to you now."
If I could move, my eyes would've widened to the size of a dinner plate. Without any urging, she continued, still believing that I was asleep.
"I know, right now, that I haven't explained everything to you. Well, we have a few hours until the doctor comes and I can take you. I suppose now would be a good time to tell you.
"The reason I can't use my real name, and the reason why I've been borrowing your cousin's, is because there is a man named Branden Grayvler…and he wants to kill us…"
Oh, my god…
CREDITS:
Song: "Miracle" by Paramore
Disclaimer: See the first chapter!
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