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Disclaimer: I do not own Kingdom Hearts or Final Fantasy XIII. I just own the plot and the additional characters.
Warning: Lots of Yaoi (boy on boy love), language, attempted humor and some characters may be a bit OOC. Flames will be thrown out the window.
Summary: All those times I saw you, alone by yourself, I've wanted to show myself and give all of me to you. I was afraid of what would happen or afraid that I would be denied because I wasn't good enough for you. But just seeing you is like the star to my night, the sun to my darkness. I feel like you're the missing piece that I've been looking for all these years. So maybe, I can help finish the song that you've been dying to complete. Maybe, I will be your voice. -Sora
Voice
Thoughts
Chapter 8:
Kairi P.O.V.
"I can't believe we agreed to help Lucas."
"Tell me about it"
Namine and I got ourselves into...quite a predicament. Well, it's not even bad, it's just that Lucas asked the two of us to help him sing a song for Roxas. Normally, this would be pretty exciting considering that he's singing to Roxas and Roxas is so easy to embarrass that it makes no sense.
Then, after I agreed, I immediately thought about Axel.
Even if him and Roxas aren't talking anymore, just Axel knowing or hearing about Lucas singing to Roxas could cause some more unwanted attention.
So now, Namine and I are in the auditorium, on stage with some other students who were willing to help Lucas (all we're female); waiting for his arrival.
"I swear to God, if Lucas ditches us-"
"I'm sure he's on his way."
Suddenly, the sound of doors opened and we both looked up to see Lucas walking in. He consisted of dark blue jeans, a pair of red Vans shoes and a red long-sleeved plaid shirt. Jogging up the small stairs on the left side of the stage, Lucas walked over to me first with a charming smile.
"Sorry I'm late. I had to make sure Roxas was going to be here and he should be here soon." Lucas spoke in between small breaths; indicating that he must've ran down here from class.
"In that case, I hope you picked a good song."
"Of course. It seems we all have been breaking down into song recently, so I figured I'd play a part." He replied with a smile and wink before turning on the microphone.
Namine and I stood a few feet away from him in front of our own microphones; watching him quietly. I let out a sigh before crossing my arms.
"Are you sure you're all right with doing this, Namine?" I ask my blond companion, who turned her head to look at me with a mix of confusion and curiosity.
"Yes. Why wouldn't I?"
"It's just...I don't want to get you into more trouble with Axel."
Namine waved it off with a thin smile, "Its okay. I mean, yes I am concerned about how Axel will react when he hears about this, but I do want Roxas to be happy. No matter who he's with. Him and Roxas deserve happiness."
"What about you? Do you too, want happiness?"
"Who wouldn't?" Namine said as her smile widened and then turned to look out at the auditorium. "I am happy right where I am. I'm happy being with you and everyone that I've grown up with. I'm happy with being in school, learning art and able to more confident in myself."
I stared at her for a moment before crossing my arms and smirked, "What I mean is. Don't you want a special someone to love you?"
This caught Namine off guard, for her blue eyes widened in surprise by the sudden realization of the question and moved her gaze to me. Before she could utter a reply, doors opened and some students started filling the middle section of the auditorium. There was no teacher, for it must have been a study hall group.
Then I spotted Roxas.
Sitting near the back of the middle section, I could see from my spot that he wore light pair of jeans and a black, short-sleeved top that was V-neck. Looking over at Lucas, I saw him motioning to the instrument players to get ready, and then met our gazes with a slight nod before facing forward.
"So encase some teacher comes in and finds out what's going in, we're doing a chorus project. However, this is for a special someone who is currently in the room so to speak." Lucas spoke softly in the microphone as some girls in the audience "aww'ed".
Namine nudged me in the side and motioned her head for me to look at Roxas. When I did, I saw Roxas looking at Lucas in a mix of shock and confusion.
Then, the music started to play. The tune starting to sound familiar and I automatically knew what song this was. Namine and I were quietly moving from side to side to the rhythm.
[ A/N: Bold is Lucas singing, Bold Italics is Kairi and Namine together, and Bold Italic Underlined are all three of them singing in unison.]
Jet setter
Go getter
Nothing better
Call me Mr. been there done that,
Top model chick, to your every day hood rat
Less than all but more than a few,
But I've never met one like you.
Been all over the world,
Done a little bit of everything
Little bit of everywhere,
With a little bit of everyone.
All the girls I've been with,
Things I've seen, it takes much to impress
But sure enough you go it makes your soul stand up from all the rest
The whole time, I was watching Roxas's expression. And dare I say I almost wanted to bust out laughing because his face was literally red like a tomato. I'm starting to really like Lucas now if it's to embarrass Roxas like this.
I can be in love,
But I just don't know, don't know girl.
Baby one thing is for certain
Whatever you do it's working
All the girls don't matter
In your presence can't do what you do
There's a million girls around but I don't see no one but you.
Girl you're so one in a million!
You are!
Baby you're the best I ever had!
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that!
There ain't nothing better,
No there ain't nothing better than this!
Unknown to us, another group of people walked inside the auditorium. But what we didn't know, was that in the group was Sora, Riku, and Axel.
You're not a regular girl
You don't give a damn about your look
Talking about I can't do it for you
But you can do it for yourself
Even though that ain't so
Baby cause my dough don't know how to end
But that independent thing I'm with it,
All we do is win baby.
I could be in love
But I just don't know, don't know girl.
Baby one thing is for certain,
Whatever you do it's working.
All the girls don't matter,
In your presence can't do what you do.
There's a million girls around but I don't see no one but you.
Baby you're so one in a million
You are!
Baby you're the best I ever had!
Best I ever had,
And I'm certain that!
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this!
Girl you're so one in a million
You are!
Baby you're the best I ever had!
Best I ever had,
And I'm certain that,
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't better, no nothing better than this
Timing girl,
Only one in the world.
Just one of a kind.
She mine.
Ooh all that I can think about is what this thing could be
A future baby
Baby you're one of a kind
That means that you're the only one for me
Only one for me
Baby (girl) you're so one in a million
You are!
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had!
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better,
No there ain't nothing better than this!
Girl you're so one in a million (One in a million!)
You are!
Baby you're the best I ever had (the best I've ever had)
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better,
No there ain't nothing better than this
["One In A Million" by Ne-Yo]
The stadium echoed with claps of applause and cheers while Lucas smiled at Roxas from stage and winked at him with a charming smile. I saw Roxas blush and sink down into his seat slowly.
Lucas walked over to the instrument players and thanked them before walking over to Namine and I.
"Thank you both. I would've asked some other girls in my class, but since you both are so connected with Roxas and all-"
"Oh don't mention it. We're happy to be of use. Right Namine?" I say assuringly and Namine nodded in agreement with a kind smile.
All three of us walked off stage and went over to Roxas, who looked up at us with a slight glare. "I cannot believe that you helped him sing to me."
"Oh lighten up Roxas! Lucas just wants to show his appreciation to you. Live a little!" I tease him with a laugh when Roxas tried to grab me but I stepped back a step.
Lucas sat next to Roxas, placing an arm around the blonds' shoulders before kissing his temple tenderly. "I'm sorry if I embarrassed you greatly love. But I thought it'd be a nice surprise and would cheer you up a bit." He explained to Roxas, who looked over at Lucas with widened eyes before giving him a peck on the lips.
"I will admit, you did embarrass me but in a good way." Roxas replied with a shy smile; a blush settling his cheeks.
"Glad to hear it." Lucas said, his eyes filled with relief before pulling Roxas closer against him affectionately.
I wonder what it would look like to have Axel hold Roxas instead of Lucas? I pondered on the thought when Namine grabbed a hold of my arm and said a few quicks words to our two friends before pulling me away with her.
Walking towards the back of the auditorium, I spotted Riku, Sora, and Axel sitting on the upper seats. I couldn't help but cringe slightly at seeing Axel. I pray that he hasn't been in here for too long. Otherwise...
"Lucas sung so well! I didn't know he could sing!" Sora spoke first with a fascinating smile as I nodded.
"Good thing too. Otherwise, I'd think he would have embarrassed himself."
Axel snorted softly, "That would've been funny as shit." He remarked before unwrapping a glazed honey bun and took a bite of it.
Sora frowned slightly and looked over at our red-head, "Axel..." He warned quietly.
"What? I'm just saying that it would be extremely hilarious to see him embarrass himself."
"Like you could do any better?"
"I don't have too." Axel snapped back with an angry glare towards me before standing up; dusting his shirt off.
I growled softly before standing up myself; ready to tell him off. "You're such a fucking-"
"Axel!"
We all turned to see a boy around our age with short, silver blond hair. He had a cute baby face, pale skin that seemed to fit him, and green eyes. Axels' eyes softened before walking past me and went over to meet the newcomer.
"Hope! I didn't think you'd have study hall."
"I don't, but I finished my test early and was able to come down." the boy said shyly, looking at each one of us before looking away.
"Good thing too," Axel said with a huge grin, wrapping an arm around Hopes' shoulders affectionately; pulling him closer, "Otherwise I'd have to sweet talk the teacher into letting you out."
Hope blushed shyly with a small smile but it quickly fell when he turned around to see Roxas and Lucas coming towards us.
Turning to Sora, I gave him a look: "please, please don't let them start a fight here."
Sora gave me an apologetic look before looking at the two couples in front of us. Lucas stood at Roxas' left side; glaring at Axel lightly.
"Hello Axel."
"What's up." Axel answered blankly and glaring back at Lucas.
Roxas glanced between the two males before looking at Hope and then towards Sora. "Whose this?" He asked, pointing to Hope.
"This is Hope," Sora introduced, smiling at Hope, "Hope, this is Roxas, my twin brother. And I'm Sora," He motioned to Riku, "this is Riku." Riku nodded Hope in acknowledgement.
"I'm Kairi by the way," I greeted with a cheesy smile, "And this is Namine." I pointed to Namine who waved at Hope kindly.
"Nice to meet you all."
"I'd advise you not to get to comfortable about this hot-head." Roxas stated, directing his gaze to Axel, who locked gazes with him.
"Like you would know."
Roxas frowned, "Actually, I do."
"Wait," Hope butted in; standing in between Axel and Roxas. "I didn't mean to bring so much tension here. I just wanted to say to Axel is all." He explained softly, his eyes showing slight guilt.
Of course, Roxas only smirked. "Really? So how much did he pay you? Two-hundred dollars or something? Or maybe he decided to make nice jokes about you and try to make you laugh-"
"Roxas."
I startled when I heard Lucas speak up; his tone of voice more of a warning then support. Roxas' eyes widened slightly at this and looked over at his boyfriend.
"What is it?"
"That's enough. You've said too much. Let's just leave." Lucas advised calmly, sending Hope a guilt look before he started walking away from the group.
"Lucas!"
"I'm not waiting for you." Lucas said back loud and clear; continuing to walk towards the exit.
My mouth was in awe at just the fact that Roxas just got ordered! And not just by Axel or Sora, but by Lucas of all people! Roxas seemed as shocked as everyone else before his expression calmed and glanced over at me and then at Axel and Hope. He then started heading in the direction Lucas had gone.
"I cannot believe Lucas did that."
"Maybe he's tired of all this drama. I sure as hell am." I spoke loudly; falling back into one of the cushion chairs next to Riku.
I looked over at Riku, who met my gaze and I broke into a huge grin.
"How's it going?"
Axel let out a sigh before walking over towards the seats and picked up his black back-pack; slinging it over his right shoulder. "I'm heading out."
"Will you be coming to our spot tonight?" Sora asked worriedly with a pout; making Axel smirk.
"Of course!" Axel replied before waving us goodbye, grabbing a hold of Hopes' hand gently and leading him out of the auditorium.
"I think they make a cute couple." Namine said out of nowhere, a calm smile gracing her lips.
Riku, Sora and I leaned forward slowly and turned our heads to stare at her in slight shock. Namine turned towards us and blinked in confusion.
"What? You don't agree with me?"
"Hmm," I leaned back against my seat, "It's not that their cute together. I mean, Hope seems like a nice guy. Shy, but you can tell he has some sense."
Sora nodded in agreement and crossed his arms. "I'm just afraid that Axels' just dating someone to get over Roxas; not because he actually cares for Hope. Then again, I could be wrong. Axels' full of heart and I'd highly doubt he'd do something like that." He commented and I saw Riku nod in agreement.
Namine sank this all in and nodded. "I guess you're right. Even though Roxas isn't speaking to me anymore, I just wish that him and Axel could be friends again. Tell each other how they truly feel." She tells us and I saw her eyes sadden; making me pat her back comfortably.
Riku grabbed a small memo pad and a pen; writing down something before showing it to me. I looked from the pad to Riku before taking it from his hand and looking at it.
I think Lucas is starting to realize that Roxas has feelings for Axel, no matter how much he dislikes him. It's kind of silly for them to argue every time, but it makes sense.
"Oh, I gotcha!" I say with a grin, handing Riku back his memo pad. "Which means that we have to work even harder to get Axel and Roxas back on good terms! Then maybe, hopefully, we get can them to hook up! Cause I know they want to screw each other."
"KAIRI!"
"What? Don't tell me you haven't seen it. I bet you, if you tell them to have sex, it'll be angry sex."
"I have no comment on this."
"Oh come on! Be a man and talk about it. I bet if I told you to have sex with Riku here, you'd do it!" I teased evilly; grinning like an idiot when I saw Sora blush beet red and Rikus' shocked expression.
"Kairi! Don't say stuff like that! There's no way I'd have sex with Riku! He's my friend!"
"LIES!" I shout at my spiky-haired friend, pointing accusingly at him.
"Oh my God, I need a drink." Sora mumbled while standing up, grabbing his messenger bag and started going down the row,down the small steps and started heading for the exit.
"I was kidding Sora!" I shouted towards him with a huge smile, but all I got was the middle finger.
"Help him, will ya?" I encouraged Riku with a nudge of my elbow.
Riku nodded once before getting up, grabbing his stuff and jogged towards the exit to catch up with Sora. I chuckled darkly at this and I didn't see Namine giving me a confused yet scared look.
"Kairi, are you okay?"
I nodded once and turned to face Namine. "You didn't think that just because I was going to try and hook Axel and Roxas up, doesn't mean I was going to leave Riku and Sora out? Oh come on. I know Sora's thanking me on the inside!" I tell her with a light giggle and Namine soon joined me.
"Indeed!"
V O I C E
Sora P.O.V.
I can't believe Kairi said that! Why would she mention sex in front of him of all people? I really wish I was twenty-one right now. I could leave, go to a near by bar, and drink some beer. Drown myself into loneliness.
Reaching the music room, I let out a sigh of contentment and placed my bad in the corner of the room. I walked over towards the piano, seated myself on the seat, and ran my fingers across the white keys.
It's not like Riku would want to have sex with me anyway...I'm tainted...Once he finds out, he'll think I'm worthless. That I'm not worth having a relationship with. I'd rather have his friendship then nothing at all.
A knock on the door met my ears, but I didn't bother looking up to see who it was.
"You can come on in. Not like you need my permission or anything."
"Well, when it comes to you Sora, I always ask for permission." A deep, soft voice answered me.
Turning towards the door, I literally jumped out of my skin by getting up and taking a few steps back. I saw the one person I thought I'd forget. Someone I never would've thought to see again.
Cid Raines.
"W-what are you doing here? Why are you here?" I asked the tall man in the doorway, who watched me with icy blue eyes and that charming smile.
Cid leaned off the doorway and started walking towards me in slow, long strides. His straight black hair was let out from what use to be a short ponytail and his wardrobe was a white suit with a light blue shirt underneath, a white tie and white business shoes.
"I came to see you Sora. Can't I see my love here while he's not preoccupied with teachers and friends? Luckily I found you alone, so maybe we could talk." Cid said calmly, the smile never leaving his handsome face and was now standing directly in front of me.
"You need to leave. Now Raines."
"Last name basis, huh? I thought we'd gotten past that." He spoke, his eyes staring into mine as he reached up to stroke my cheek.
I flinched at his touch and went to step back, away from him, but Cid quickly wrapped his other arm around my waist and pulled me flush against him. My eyes widened in shock and fear as I struggled to get myself out of his hold, but he was too strong.
"Hmm...I wonder." Cid whispered huskily as he moved his hand to my back; sliding his hand under my shirt.
"Ahh!" I hissed in renewed pain as Cid touched the one place that had yet to heal.
"Glad to know it's still there." Cid whispered in my ear and I could feel his smirk before he leaned down to nibble my neck.
"Let go." I demanded, trying to push him off by the shoulders.
"I know you want this as much as I do." He replied as he pulled me closer against him; gripping my hips tightly.
"I said let go!" I yelled before punching him in the side of the face; hard.
Once Cid let go and gave out a short, pained scream, I quickly moved away to snatch my bag and literally sprinted out of the room. I ran down the hallway and headed back towards the auditorium.
However, when I was just about to reach the restroom, someone stepped out.
Causing me to collide into them from behind and causing us to fall to the ground. I managed to roll off of whoever I collided with and lay on my back but I groaned in pain from the fall. My eyes closed because everything was happening too fast until I felt someone kicked my foot lightly and I reopened my eyes to see no other than Riku standing over me.
Riku offered his hand out towards me, making me blush lightly and accepting his offer. He pulled me up and grabbed my bag before handing it over to me.
"T-Thanks." I whispered, not daring to look Riku in the eye as I turned to walk ahead of him.
But I was stopped by hand on my shoulder, making me stop walking but I didn't turn around. My head bowed low and eyes on the ground.
When I saw a shadow in front of me, I shakily looked up at Riku who was giving me a concerned look.
"Riku," I said with a shaky voice and my emotions we're starting to loose control as tears formed in my eyes.
Before I knew it, I was pulled into a warm body and a pair of strong arms wrapped themselves around me. Gripping Rikus' back, I closed my heads and buried my face in his shoulder to cry; letting all the emotions I held in go.
V O I C E
Riku P.O.V.
U better not do anything stupid Riku. I'm serious.
Will do Axe.
After sending the text to Axel, I let out a sigh and looked over towards the sleeping form resting on my bed.
I bet you're wondering how I managed to get cute, innocent Sora into my bed right?
Actually it's quite simple.
I simply asked him to play the truth or dare game with me and well...let's just say I asked him "play" with me. And we played.
Sike, I'm just messing. You really think I'd do that? All of you are in the gutter!
In all seriousness and truth though, after I saw how terrified and frightened Sora was, I persuaded him to skip school with me. Yes, that's extremely bad considering that we're about to miss half of school but who cares? Right now, Sora needs attention and I'm willing to help him in any way I can.
Still, he hasn't told me what happened though. I mean, why was in such a hurry? What made him break down and cry? His eyes held so much fear...
"Mm...Riku."
Hearing my name, I walked from the window towards my bed to see Sora curled up with a dreamy smile on his face. I smirked widely at this. So he's dreaming about me huh?
Moving closer to the bed, I sat down beside the beautiful brunette as I watched him sleep. I studied him intently; from those brown spikes that makes me wanna ruffle them whenever Sora's sad, those closed lids that concealed such perfect blue that even the sea would be jealous. Then there's those parted, full lips...
I blinked in shock when I realized that I was leaning all too close to him. Quickly leaning back, I growled to myself. God-damn it! I can't just kiss him! What if he wakes up?
I let out a sigh before touching my lower back absentmindedly; frowning to myself. That's right. I remember.
Standing up slowly as to not wake the angel sleeping, I stood in front of my body length mirror that was attached the my bedroom door. I stared at myself for a moment and glanced over at Sora once more to make sure he was awake before I turned back to the mirror and took my shirt off.
At least I'm in shape. These muscles we're hard to come by. But that's not it. Turning around, I faced my back towards the mirror to look at my backside; I flinched slightly just by the memory.
A huge, disturbing scar covered majority of my middle back. It was large heart with an X shaped inside of it. (A/N: It's the Heartless symbol, except it's not a tattoo or colored. I'm sorry but I'm too lazy to describe it.) If anyone were to see it from a glance, they'd thought it was still fresh.
Then again, it happened not too long ago.
"Riku?"
Whipping around, I saw Sora shifting a little before letting out a soft yawn. Keeping my gaze on him, I snatched my shirt up and put it on me quickly; straightening the shirt. Sora soon sat up from the bed and his tired, yet live blue eyes rested on me.
Grabbing my note book and a pen, I sat on the bed by Sora's feet and wrote some words down before handing it o him.
Sora blushed lightly at what he read and I couldn't help but grin. He shyly looked up at me with a shy smile before handing my note book back to me.
"You don't have to call me beautiful. Besides, we're you watching me sleep? Sounds totally friend-like." Sora said teasingly as I smirked and flicked his forehead.
"Hey! That hurt!" He pouted cutely, rubbing his forehead gently.
Maybe one action wouldn't hurt. Pulling the angel closer by his legs, making him squeal in surprise as I pulled him closer to me. Sora blinked in confusion as to why I did this but I answered his question by grabbing the back of head gently and pulling his head forward so I could kiss his forehead.
What am I doing? I pulled away a little but only to rest my forehead against Soras'. I shouldn't be doing this. No matter how much I want him, no matter how tempting it is to claim him, I can't risk it.
"Riku?" Sora whispered quietly to me as I looked into his eyes.
If not but one time.
I kissed him.
I kissed him with so much fiber in my being that I couldn't control myself. What seemed even more shocking, was that Sora was kissing me back. As we kissed, I pushed him backwards gently so he was laying on his back and I hovered over him; not once breaking the kiss.
Just for a moment, maybe I can forget the past.
Hands gripped my shoulders shyly and yet desperately as I forced my tongue into Soras' mouth. Our tongues danced as we fought for dominance but in the end, I won. My hands trailed down his chest to his hips and I gripped them tightly.
I don't want to let go of him. I want to tell him how I feel. I want Sora to hear my feelings with my words through my mouth.
Ending our kiss, I only took a couple of seconds of breath before biting and nibbling the brunette's neck tenderly.
Soras' moans and mewls of pleasure were music to my ears. There were other males, yes, who have been either selfish, greedy or just snobby. All of them wanted nothing more than the sex itself. But then there's Sora.
So pure, innocent and smart. Someone who never questions my voice of silence even though he never asks why. Someone who may like me more than I like him. And now, I'm ravishing him and I can't stop.
I have to stop.
You must stop, Riku.
Like a bullet shooting across the room, I pulled away from Sora and scrambled off the bed. I turned to the window as I panted heavily. That voice...
"R-Riku?"
Taking a breath, I looked over at Sora. Blue eyes that were glazed with lust was now replaced with concern, cheeks flustered red, lips moist by the kiss and his shirt slightly messed up by our movement.
When I didn't answer, Sora moved from the bed and walked over towards me. I watched his movements as he reached out touch my hand but I pulled it away. Instantly, I regretted doing so when I saw hurt mask his face. Curling my hands into fists, I went to my notebook and scrambled some words down before placing it at the end of the bed. Once I did so, I stared at Sora for a moment, who looked at the notebook for a minute before meeting my gaze.
Without a second thought, I walked out of the room; closing the door behind me. Descending downstairs and into the living room, I leaned back against the wall and slide down to the floor. Burring my head in the folds of my elbows that rested on my knees. I thought of the words that I wrote on that paper...making me feel even more guilty.
What we did, shouldn't have happened.
TBC!
Author Note: I do hope you enjoyed this chapter! Of course, I had to put some Riku and Sora. I didn't want to be completely off Roxas and Axel (not that anything is wrong with that, I just dno). Please review! I want to know your thoughts!