Everyone had been in the office from a case two or three days ago. Cases hadn't been the same and everyone in the side of their brains worried about Reilly. No one had seen or heard from the redheaded agent since she disappeared nearly two months ago. JJ had just walked back out into the bullpen when she stopped at the person walking in.

The woman walking in had her color back to her skin and her eyes were bright and alert like they should have been. The hair was short, very short a pixie cut really. (A/N: look up a picture of Emma Watson with her pixie cut and that's Reilly's hair length.) She had a bag over her shoulder but was dressed for work.

"Hey." The woman smiled.

"Reilly." Garcia jumped up and attacked the woman in a hug. "Hey to you to Penny." Morgan got up and stood in front of the woman. Reilly extended her hand to him and the man smiled and shook it. Both Rossi and Hotch came forth and received hand shakes and hellos. Emily hugged the redhead and made a joke about her hair Reid however stood back and looked on at them.

"Hey Reid." Reilly gave him a nervous grin.

Reid didn't say anything but he waved. Reid didn't know what to think of the woman now. Reilly was taken into Hotch's office and Rossi went with them. She kept her distance from them.

"That was a stupid thing of you to do." Hotch said.

"Before you really start screaming at me let me tell you this much: I know it was wrong to up and leave the way I did. Just be happy I didn't pull a Reichenbach falls. But it was the only way I could sort it out in my head. I knew that if I stayed here and everyone kept asking me if I was alright I would lie to you and say I was fine. If you lie enough then you tart to believe it yourself. And I couldn't do that to myself a second time. So I did what I could and left to figure it out in my head." Reilly told him.

"What about Texas?" Hotch questioned.

"Minor set back. I was able to get away wasn't I?" Reilly smirked at the older man.

"What happened at the Starbucks?" Rossi asked.

"Crap that made News?" Reilly hung her head.

"Yeah it did. What happened?" Hotch asked.

"I was in the bathroom when the shots went off. I wanted so badly to forget what I was and what my occupation was but I couldn't I had to do something before someone got hurt so I handled it." Reilly said.

After a good half Hour Reilly stepped out of the office. "Welcome back kiddo." Rossi told her stepping back to his office. Reilly nodded at Hotch and went to her desk. It wasn't long before Garcia tried to kidnap her. Taking her into the lioness den she sat the woman down and turned to her.

"What happened?" Garcia glared. It was uncharacteristic for the woman to do so but she was both happy and angry to see her friend again.

"I had to leave Garcia. I had to think. I love you guys to death but I couldn't lie to you about how I was really feeling. If I started telling you that I was okay then I would believe it and I'd be hurting and telling myself that I was okay so I could get out of the bed in the morning. I did it once and nearly landed myself in the hospital not again." Reilly hung her head.

"This has happened before? You running away or you being kidnapped?"

"Running. When I was in high school I got this idea in my head that I was fat and ugly so I stopped eating food. I would skip meals and starve myself for days. I started to lose weight but I collapsed in school they called an ambulance and I went to the hospital. This was when my relationship with my sister started to go bad. We tried to get me back on track but my sister thought I was doing it to get attention. She left me collapsed in the hallway. I was to weak and they sent me to some rehab thing for people with eating disorders. I hated it there. Just like I hated in the hospital with everyone asking me if I was okay. So I grabbed my clothes and left. People helped. I met a few interesting folks on the road. Funny too. I knew what it felt like to be homeless. I knew what it was like to have hurting feet. But I got everything together and I started eating. I met this little old woman she was all alone in her house she helped me out a lot in exchange for me doing some cooking and cleaning around the house. She died and that was when I went home. But I'd never forget that woman." Reilly smiled at the memory.

Garcia looked at her friend. There was something different about her. Something was missing. A bit of the spark and fire she held in her eyes like a broken horse in the old west. Reilly was there but that full spark was n longer there.

"What about Jean-Claude?" Garcia asked.

"I'd rather not talk about him. Please. I better get to work." Reilly had a sad face as she left the woman's office and bumped into Reid.

"Sorry Reid." She told the genius.

"Don't talk to me." He said with a slight sneered look on his face.

"Reid what's wrong?" Reilly asked.

"Nothing." The man walked off out of sight.

.::*::.

Reilly had been back for a week and the tense behavior between the two agents continued. Everyone else had slowly gotten use to having the redhead around again. Like nothing ever happened. "Alright we got a case everyone get ready to leave for the jet in half an hour. It's a missing child we have 18 hours let's move." Hotch told them.

On the jet JJ briefed them and Hotch sent everyone in pairs to look and question people in the neighborhood. Reilly was paired up with Reid and the man refused to speak to her. Reilly finally got sick of it and grabbed the man's shoulder spinning him around to face her.

"What the hell is your damn problem with me?" Reilly nearly growled.

"Why'd you come back? If you were going to run away you should have stayed gone we were fine before you came and we were fine when you left." Reid told her.

"So what I'm a coward? Reid I had to go. Other wise I wouldn't be able to face myself in the morning. I'd turn into one of the people we are forced to find because they lost their grip on reality and going away to sort myself out was the only was I could do that." Reilly explained.

Reid thought of how Gideon left with nothing but a good-bye note. Not a call or letter after that. He was gone and never turned back around.

"Damn it Spencer what do you want from me?" she shouted at him. "I was raped." She told him. Reid looked at her with shock in his eyes. The Doctor had not told them the full extent of her injuries. They knew of the gun shot wounds and the lung and the ribs. Of course there was internal bleeding and bruising but that was left out.

"I wanted to go and run Reid. To go and stay gone. See the states maybe the world. But I didn't want to stay. But the thing about that is if you lie to other people you believe that lie yourself. I won't tell you the story of what happened but I came back. I have a job to do and I won't let people down or other people get hurt. Now get your skinny ass in the car we have a kid to find." Reilly told him

.::*::.

On the jet everything was silent and quiet. Reid had snuck on a cupcake from a local bakery and slipped over to Reilly.

"Sorry I was an ass." Reid said. "So you think a cupcake is going to fix everything?" she asked.

"It could be a start." Reid gave his usual smile. Reilly smiled back at the man and tried to evenly break the cupcake in half to share with the man.

.::*::.

Reilly would slowly find her place in the team again but it was not the same after a few weeks. Ladies nights' were no longer the quartet but the old trio. Reilly couldn't bring herself to go back to bars or clubs. She couldn't stand the sight of them. They always made her see flashbacks of that night.

Reilly did not shake the hands of men and stayed a distance away from them. No one said anything but it was obvious and it wasn't the same being in bar without your friend. It was like a sit-com where the funny character dies or moves far away and everyone is trying to come to terms with the lose.

.::*::.

The only ones who ever really saw Jean-Claude after the 'Disappearance' of Reilly were JJ and Will. She told Claude that Reilly was doing just fine back home. That she called when she had the chance. JJ knew both were miserable but she stayed silent about it.

She'd never seen two people so perfect for each other be so close together and not even really know it. They had come so close to meeting once. Will had asked Claude to drop something off to JJ since he worked in that direction. Reilly had just made it into the bathroom and when she stepped out Claude was on his way down to the lobby again.

.::*::.

"Come one just one night. It's a small bar a friend of mine works there." Emily begged.

"You know I don't like bars or clubs." Reilly protested. It had been six or seven months since her return. The girls begged her for two more hours before she finally gave in and said she would go.

Reilly stayed close to them and to the bar. She was not comfortable with it at all. True the bar was small but it seemed like Thursday nights were the nights to be out and about if you could spare it. Reilly tried to calm down and even had a few strong shots of alcohol but she could not stop the shaking in her hands.

"Hey sweet thing." A man came over to her. Reilly pulled away. "Get away from me." She headed to the other end of the bar and placed her head in her hands. The bar tender who, had been watching tapped her shoulder to get her attention but it only made Reilly jump up.

Reilly went out the back door with Emily, JJ and Garcia following after her. "Don't touch me just stay away from me and leave me alone." Reilly left them there that night for the safe comfort of her home. She didn't show up to work the next day but was present the following Monday.

Bars and clubs were definitely a no go.