A/N: I own nothing related to Sons of Anarchy that belongs to the genius and his name is Kurt Sutter. I do however own the OC's Izzy Morrow, Jillian, and Rayne and other OC's to follow as the story moves along. Please comment and review as this is my first fan fiction. This is chapter 10 and it's called: Family Time
I woke up alone on the couch and to the smell of bacon and coffee coming from the kitchen. I looked around and noticed that everybody was gone. I got up from the couch and walked to the kitchen to see everyone sitting down at the dining room table enjoying breakfast.
"Good morning", as I rubbed my eyes and stretched, what's everyone doing up so early?
"Good morning sunshine", Jillian said as she grabbed toast off the plate, "Well it's Saturday, and fun town is here.
Oh yeah, I almost forgot.
"Good morning baby", as dad walked into the kitchen with the morning paper.
"Good morning", as I poured myself a cup of joe and sat down at the table getting ready to fix my plate.
"Mmmm, smells good in here Gemma", as Kozik and Happy came in from the backyard obviously from smoking.
"Boys sit down and eat before you have to leave for the garage".
"You guys aren't coming to fun town with us".
"No, we have some stuff to do at the garage and some club shit, so we will see what happens if we can make it".
Dad stood up from the table and grabbed his cut, "church in an hour; I'll meet you guys at the garage".
"Ok Clay", the guys answered him in unison.
"Bye, dad I will see you later".
"Bye", as he kissed my head and made his way over to my mom, "Bye baby".
As I got up from the table to get the sugar out of the cabinet, I grabbed a piece of bacon when Hap grabbed my wrist.
"Yes, can I help you", I said with a smile?
"Yeah", as he stood slowly still holding onto my wrist, he leaned up and kissed me in front of everyone "good morning", as he took the bacon from my finger tips.
"Good morning", grabbing a slice off of his plate; pushing it into my mouth.
We sat down and ate, while joking and having one of moms traditional morning breakfasts.
"Iz, you got dishes so you better get started".
I grabbed the dishes off of the table and proceeded to get started to do the dishes when my mom came up to me, "so you and Hap how's that going".
"It's going ok".
"Seemed intense last night with you, too"
"It was you know in the moment, it won't happen again I swear".
"That's not the problem, once you start with a guy like that; it's not too easy to quit him".
"So are you telling me to quit with Happy or are you encouraging me to continue, I'm kind of confused about all of this".
"Set rules that's how it's going to work. It won't work any other way around it. Try to trust him; he's a good guy, trustworthy to his brothers and loyal to the club, he would protect you with his life".
"I know. I need to talk to you about something".
"What's up, baby".
"The marks and bruises well I got them from Scott. He found out that Whistler is dead and thought it was retaliation from SAMCRO for blowing up bluebird".
"Happy knows he was mad when I lied to him about it. I know I shouldn't have lied to the club; but I was worried with everything that's going on".
"Baby, it will sort itself out. We go through periods of calm and chaos. It just happens to be a little bit of chaos right now".
"I'm sure it's going to get mentioned in church today, so be prepared for your father and brother to yell".
"I know. I'm ready for that to happen".
"Well, finish up the dishes and run upstairs and get ready for the carnival. Bring a sweater or a jacket it's windy outside".
I finished up the dishes and ran upstairs to find Jillian and Sara upstairs rooting through my closet to find something cute to wear. I walked to the bathroom and hopped in for a quick shower. I hopped out and dried off and started blow dying my hair. I applied make up on and walked out of the bathroom still looking at them looking for something to wear.
"You guys haven't found anything to wear yet".
"No, I'm looking for some more options".
"Why what are you wearing today", asked Sara?
""This", as I pulled out my super tight skinny jeans, a plum colored halter top that was made of satin and my dark, brown heeled suede boots that came up to my knee".
"Wow that is hot even for a carnival. Are you sure you aren't wearing that for a special kind of emotion that you were making out with in the kitchen last night"?
"I really wasn't making out in the kitchen".
"No, you were getting ready to have sex on the countertop is what you were doing", as she sent Sara a shocked look.
"O.k., I was so making out with him in the kitchen. You know what for some reason he makes me lose my damn mind. Maybe it's time you act on that and give it up. He seems like he would be hell of a good time".
"Jill, how would you know that he is a hell of a good time"?
"It's what I heard from some of the crow eaters. That he is really good in the sack".
"Oh, that's what you heard, huh", as I slide on my jeans and top. I had put on my boots and was getting ready to head downstairs when there was a knock on my bedroom door.
"Hey, were getting ready to head out, you guys ready yet", as Kozik had a sly smirk on his face turning around and walking back downstairs.
"Oh, shit do you think he heard us", Sara said as Jillian and I both laughed.
"Yeah, I think he did. Did you see his smile? We better get down stairs quick".
We grabbed our jackets and headed downstairs to find the guys sitting at the table laughing as we entered the room, "What are guys laughing at"?
"Well, we were just saying how Happy is good at everything he does"?
My face had turned several shades red and I had blotches going down my neck and chest. Which of course were noticed by my mom and Happy, which caused them both to smile? With everyone already outside, Happy pulled me to him and opened my sweater and looked at my top," nice", as he ran his fingers over the delicate fabric that covered my skin causing me to get goose bumps.
The guys headed over to the garage and we ladies headed over to Fun Town. I had driven my own truck and my mom had driven her car to the carnival. We got there and the carnival was in full swing. Jillian, Sara, and I split from my mom when she found Luanne and they went their own way. We had ridden on the several of the rides and had taken pictures in the both. After about a couple of hours later my dad, Jax, Bobby, and Tig had joined us.
"Iz, I need to talk to you for a minute. Girls give us a second to talk".
"O.k. Mr. Morrow", as they ran off to go get drinks.
"What were you thinking about not telling us about what happened with Scott"?
"I know, but with everything that was going on I just thought I could handle it. So what's going to happen now"?
"Well since it happened on school grounds, I'm going to have a sit down with Darby and work it out".
"Sorry, I shouldn't have lied and told you the truth. I won't let it happen for a reason".
"I believe you, next time tell me the truth. It won't hurt and makes everything better for everyone if I know what goes on in this town".
"I know and I'm sorry", as I put my arms around my dad and he gave me a kiss on the head," Is Jax pissed"?
"Not as much as Happy is".
"I want to make things absolutely clear that Happy came to me and asked if he could start up with you".
"Start up with me, what does that mean exactly"?
"He likes you and I haven't seen him like this with anyone in all the years that I've known him. If you want to make a go of it, try it. Would it be so bad to end up with a son? Especially one that is well respected and loved in the club".
After our little talk we returned to the rest of the group as Jax, Tig, and Bobby were getting off of one of the child size rollercoaster ride.
"Have fun boys".
"You know it darling", as he put his arm around me and messed up my hair.
"Hey, damn it, it takes a long time to look this good".
"What are you saying I don't look good"?
"Nothing a bar of soap and comb couldn't cure", as I looked up at his head.
Dad picked mom up and gave her a playful slap on the ass as we were approached by Elliot, Karen, and their 13 year old daughter Tristan.
"Hey, Elliot, Karen",
"Clay, Gemma, how are you doing"?
"Good and yourself".
"Mom, I'm going to go on the spin out again", Tristan said.
"You've been on it four times already".
"I know".
"Here you go, they kicked me off for screaming to loud anyways", as Jax handed Tristan the rest of his tickets.
"What do you say", as Elliot looked at his daughter.
"Thank you", as she took the tickets and ran off toward the rides.
"Well we got to go", as Karen Oswald grabbed her husband, "bye bye".
Jax and I walked off with everyone else as mom and dad said their goodbyes to the Oswald's.
"I'll see you later", as I made my way from Jax to Jillian.
As the hours had passed by quickly, the guys still hadn't shown up so we were looking for mom. It had turned windy and we were getting cold and hungry. Greasy carnival food is fine but we needed something with sustenance. So we decided to head to the diner when we were approached by Karen Oswald and carnival security.
"What's wrong"?
"We can't find Tristan"!
"Oh, hell she has to be here somewhere. Girls stay together and start looking for her".
"O.k., ma", as we searched the carnival for, she was nowhere to be found.
Once Hale and Charming Police Department showed they had interviewed us and took statements; as to when we last Tristan Oswald. The man hunt was on as people we looking, after two hours of searching she was found 2 miles inside of Macon woods beaten and raped. Once we were free to go we went to the diner for food, we sat and talked briefly about the night and then I took Jillian and Sara home. Mom and Luanne took their own cars and we went home as well, there is always something happening in Charming this time it rained down to a 13 year old get attacked. Oswald and his wife were in bad shape and to think that Tristan was even worse.
After dropping off the girls, I pulled into my driveway to find Happy parked behind my mom's car. I got out with a slight smile on my face," What are you doing here so late".
"Wanted to know if you wanted to go for a ride; I already asked Gemma and she said that it was fine for you to go".
"Well if mother approves I should be able to get away", as he handed me his extra helmet and I climbed onto the back of his bike.
Happy throw his leg over and put on his helmet. He reached for my hands to get on; I took his hand and found my footing on the pegs and wrapped my arm snuggly around his waist. He lifted his kickstand and started down my street. We found ourselves going down the highway leading out of town toward Breakman's field. After about a 45 minute ride, we stopped and parked. O took off my helmet and rested it on his handle bars and shook out my hair as I looked around, "Ah, memories".
"So I take it you have been here before".
"Yeah", as I walked to a picnic table a couple of feet away," not a lot of places to go in such a small town".
"Want to tell me about it".
"It was a long time ago; Jax and Tara brought me here when I was about 7. They had wanted to tell me that Tara was leaving for college and that they had broken up. I was sad then; I was going to miss her but knowing what I know now she hated this town or her in it. Whichever once came first I'm not really sure"?
Happy took the pack of smokes from his pocket and lit one up," we need to talk; the rules talk".
"O.k., so what are the rules"?
"Don't lie to me ever".
"Well I guess I already broke that rule, which I am sorry for."
"Don't walk away from me even if you're pissed off, let's have it out then and there".
"I can try that one", as I looked at Happy, "but I cannot guarantee that".
"Why can't you guarantee that"?
"I just can't", as I turned toward him," it's like you saying that you won't cheat. I know what happens on a run stays on a run, you won't like it just like I won't like you being with other women".
"I want you to try".
"I want you to try, too".
He brushed the hair from my face and grazed his thumb over my cheek," I can try", as he leaned in closer and captured my mouth with his. I ran my thumb across his jaw line and down his chest inside his cut resting on his thigh. The kiss was soft and gently not like before, his hand trailed down my arm and found my waist pulling me in between his legs; his hands running up and down my back; as he turned and backed me up against the table. Lifting me up and resting between my legs. I wrapped my legs around his waist as he began to peel my sweater from my arms. The cool California air blowing gently around us, never breaking apart for air; finally breaking apart for air," I thought we were talking the rules". My hands finding the hem of his shirt; and running my hands up his muscled back feeling his rock solid form.
I was getting dizzy and lightheaded and wanted more of just him; more of what he was giving me. His hand found the clasp of my halter and unsnapped it freeing me from my satin top; causing me to shiver at the cold air blowing across my chest. He kissed down my neck and onto my chest; cupping my breast and using his tongue to lick down to my nipple. He alternated between licking and sucking causing me to moan out from between my lips, "Oh god that feels good". I arched toward his touch and placed my hands on his head wanting more of exactly that. He released his mouth from me and looked me in the eyes," you like that".
"Yeah, I do", breathless as I found my way underneath his shirt; pulling his shirt up and kissing his chest. As I was placing soft, wet kisses down his chest his phone rang.
"Damn it", he growled.
He pulled his cell from his pocket and answered,"What", he barked.
As he was talking on the phone, I continued what I was doing my tracing circles with my tongue over his chest and lightly traipsing my fingertips over his stomach causing him to growl.
"Be right there; give me an hour".
I stopped what I was doing and clasped my top before falling back on the picnic table. He leaned over me and wrapped a hand around my waist and one around my neck; helping me to sit up," I guess this conversation is over".
"Yeah, it is but it will definitely continue with what you were you doing with your tongue".
"Did you like that", as I wrapped my arms around his waist?
"Bet your sweet ass I do, you have no idea what you're doing to me girl", as he kissed my head and helped me down from the table.
"I'm pretty sure I do", as I walked back to his bike and put my helmet on.
We made the trip back to Charming fairly quickly. We approached my house; he helped me off and told me to keep the helmet. Before I walked to the door I placed a kiss on his lips and biting his lip, "See you later".
"See you later", as he gave me a light tap on the ass.
I walked into the house and he stayed till I close the door. Boy did I need a shower that man was going to drive me crazy. I went into the bathroom and hopped in the shower. I came out and got dressed when I got a text message from an unknown number.
I see you ;) 3
It wasn't Happy's number because he just left. I looked out my bedroom window and saw nothing on the street. I closed the shades and hopped into bed. I'll worry about this tomorrow.
I woke early to the smell of coffee flowing through the house. My alarm hadn't quiet gone off yet, but I got up and pulled out my skin tight black skinny jeans, black tank top, and black leather booties from my closet. I had dressed quickly and braided my hair into a messy fishtail. I went to the bathroom and brush my teeth and put on some barely there make up; before grabbing my cell, TM work shirt, and my purse before running downstairs. I meet my mom in the kitchen and poured myself coffee in my travel mug, "Good morning".
"Good morning, baby; how was your ride with Hap last night".
"It was a good ride. Well we laid down some rules last night. Well he did anyways; I didn't get a change to get mine in before he was called away on club business".
"Well you'll sort it out eventually", she said as she passed me the sugar.
"Yeah, I guess. So what time did dad say we were closing today"?
"He said around 5:30 since we were closed yesterday we needed to be open today to make up for the lost hours so the guys aren't behind".
"Sounds good to me and dinner is still at 8".
"Yeah it should give you time to get here and dressed and help out. Are you sure that you don't mind doing the office today"?
"Yeah, I don't mind working the office today. It gives you time to go to the hospital and see Abel and finish cleaning at Jax's".
"Bye ma", as I walked toward the door grabbing my keys from the dish by the door.
"Bye baby, see you at dinner tonight".
I hopped into my truck and proceeded to TM. Once I got there I parked and walked into the office to open up the garage. I opened the office door and it was an utter mess in there; for them being motorcycle enthusiast they had no idea what it meant to be organized.
I had started on filing the week's paperwork and getting ready for the day's work orders. The guys would be filing in; in shifts working between club business and actually business. They all had started to file in to clock in and I sent them on their way with work orders. The day had progressed nicely and things were working smoothly. Several hours later, and the day's work was down and filed away I locked up. I handed the day's receipts to Bobby; I bumped in Happy.
"Hey, what's up hadn't seen you at all today"?
"Can I talk to you for a minute alone"?
"Yeah", as I followed behind him.
I walked into his dorm room; he closed the door and in an instant he was kissing me; his hands fisting my hair getting deeper and deeper into the kiss.
"Whoa, what's the fire"?
"I'm missed you today", as he kissed me again," Did you miss me"?
"I did", as I wrapped my arms around his waist as he pecked me softly on my lips.
I leaned up to him and stood on my tiptoes just a little bit kissing him and biting his lip.
"Oh, you're starting that again little girl", as he took off his cut.
"Maybe, what's it to you if I am".
"Oh, you want to play", as he pulled open the snaps to my TM shirt letting it fall away from me. He throw it aside and tub his hands down my sides; grabbing my ass lifting me up.
I kissed him back and laughed in his mouth. He walked to the bed a placed me on it; and before I knew it he had his hands up my shirt pulling it over my head revealing my black lace bra. He tossed my shirt to the floor and traced his hands over the delicate lace; kissed down the middle of my chest stopping above my breasts. He looked up," I like the black lace", going back over and taking my left nipple in his mouth, "It's hot". His hot breath sending shivers up my spine.
"I thought you wanted to talk", as I sent him a smirk.
"I am talking, don't you like the words that are coming out of my mouth".
He cradled between my legs and started to unbutton my pants. I reached for him and pulled off his shirt looking at his ripped body before me. I looked down at his hands as he started to unbuckle his belt. My head was swirling around; this is something that I wanted. I wanted to feel him on my body, but for the life of me I just couldn't wrap my mind around it and the words kind of screamed from my lips," I'm a virgin"! He stopped kissing my stomach and put his head down. He sat up and had an unreadable look on his face. He got off of his bed and started to fasten his belt.
"Sorry, I should have told you before we started all of this", as I sat up on the edge of the bed," Are you mad"?
"Get dressed and go home".
"What, that's all you can say is get dressed and go home", as I stood up.
He was looking around for his shirt while he finished buckling up his pants.
"What's wrong, Hap"?
As he stalks over to me, "Get dressed and go home I said. Now"!
By this time, I'm looking for my shirt as he is leaning up against the dresser. I was pissed,"Is it because; I'm a virgin that you acting like an ass right now".
"No", as he crossed his arms still not saying a word.
"Then what is it", as I started to zip up my pants," Oh, is it because I'm not a whore and you lost your little jollies".
He uncrossed his arms and walked over to me, "Enough, get dressed"!
"Well then; what is it? Do you like your women to give it up to you easy? Oh do you like it when they put a fight", I knew as soon as the words had left my mouth that I shouldn't have said that?
He looked at me his eyes were blacker that black and I was getting nervous. He stepped to me, "is that what you want? You want to put a fight", as he grabbed the back of my head and kissed me hard taking my breath away.
"That's not what I meant", as I broke away and tried to move away from him.
"That's what you said", as he lifted me up and dropping me down on the bed.
"Hap, please, that's not what I meant when I said that".
He wasn't listening he had my hands above my head in an instant and was between my legs. I was uncertain of what he was going to do. Maybe he was just scaring me or maybe it was something else. With all the pressure he was putting on my wrists, it had began to hurt.
"You're hurting me"!
He bent down and kissed my neck and started to my down my chest; not in a way that was gentle but rough. He started to bite my through my bra and at the same time unzipping my pants.
"Happy, what are you doing"?
"What you think I'm doing"?
"I don't know", as he released my hands and sat back on his heels. He started to tug at my jeans pulling my jeans off of my body in a flash; causing me to send out a little gasp. He flung my jeans to the floor and traced his hands over the matching black lace boy shorts. Stunned and unable to move I called out his name again, "Happy", and still no answer from him. He traced his hands over me and started to unbuckle his belt and unbutton his jeans. He looked up at me and leaned over my body. I could feel him pressed against my body and it was making my heartbeat with uncertainty. He laid on me and went back to up to my ear, "I could have any women I want", as he rocked his hips, "She would give herself to me freely. If you want to question me like a sweet butt I will treat you like one. Now get your shit, get dressed, and go home", as he climb off of me and the bed buckling his belt and grabbing his t-shirt and cut before slamming the dorm room door.
I sat up in bed shocked and almost sick to my stomach before I knew it I felt ill. I got up and ran to the bathroom releasing the contents from my stomach. I stood up from the toilet holding onto the sink. I turned on the faucet and splashed cold water on my face and rinsed my mouth. I waited a couple of minutes and slowly peeked open the door before hurrying into the room and grabbing my clothes. I dressed quickly and grab my purse before making a bee line start to my truck. Not really paying attention, I was stopped by Chibs,"Hey, lass dinner at 8".
Shakily I said, "Yes".
"Are you alright"?
"Fine, just tired; haven't been sleeping well is all".
"O.k., I will see you at dinner".
"See you at dinner", as I started to make my way out of the clubhouse. I stopped short when I saw Happy perched on his bike talking to Kozik. He looked up and took a long drag from his cigarette. I hopped in my truck not looking back and started toward my house. I was 10 minutes from my house when I had to pull over and take a minute to regroup. I took several deep breathes and began to drive again.
I arrived home and in the driveway I could tell that Luanne was there already. I grab my stuff and preceded to the side door,"Hey mom, Luanne", as I walked into the kitchen.
"Hey baby girl", as my mom was rinsing off the potatoes in the sink.
"Hey doll face", as Luanne was pulling out spice from the spice rack.
I dropped my keys in the dish by the back door," I'm going to go take a shower and get dressed. I will down in a little bit to help out".
"O.k.", as she filled a pot with water.
I ran upstairs and stripped out of my clothes and hopped into the shower. I stood there for a minute and began to cry. I crouched down in the shower, letting the hot water hit my skin. I rubbed the slight bruise that began to form on my wrists; great just one more thing that I would have to cover up. What was I doing? Why had I said those things to him? I stood up as I regained my composure and let the water run over me. I washed and conditioned my hair, before turning off the shower and stepping out.
I blow-dried my hair and applied some make up before exiting the bathroom. I routed around my drawers and found a basic set of underwear. I put those on and my dark blue skinny jean, white socks and a pair of white Nike's. I looked around and found my white tank top and dark blue with white graffiti racer back t-shirt. I dressed quickly and headed downstairs where I asked, "Luanne can you braid my hair".
"How do you want it, baby"?
"French braid, please".
I sat down in a chair and she began to braid my hair, "I remember doing this when you were little; usually it's when something is wrong. You always said I had soothing hand that made you feel calm. Is there something wrong"?
"No, nothing's wrong. I just missed it is all".
As she cupped my shoulder," all done", as she kissed my head.
"Thanks, Luanne", as I patted her hands on my shoulders.
I moved over to the sink and started to wash my hands, "What do you need me to do, ma"?
"Put some more beer in the fridge and then get started on the salad".
After about 45 minutes of prep and moving things around; I had stocked the fridge and was pulling tomatoes and lettuce out when the door opened and in walked Juice, Kozik, and Happy.
"Hey ladies, smell good in here".
"Thanks", Luanne and mom said.
"Iz, Isabel", as she tapped to knife handle on the cutting board get them some beers. "Yeah", I said turning to look away from them as they walked to the backyard. I grabbed three beers from the fridge and popped them open and headed out toward the pool.
"Here guys"; as I handed each one a beer,"There ice cold".
Kozik and Juice had taken a seat at the picnic table; I was begun to walk away when Happy grabbed my wrist rubbing his thumb over the slight red mark.
"I got to get back in there".
"Wait, can we talk", as his eyes were no longer that black but back to his actual deep brown which I recognized. He was calmed down now and easier to talk to but I didn't want to talk right now.
"Not right now, my mom needs my help to finish dinner if we want to eat on by 8'oclock", as I walked back in the house.
20 minutes later, the rest of the guys had walked into the house and mom said it was time to eat. We took our place at the table and seat just happens to be right next to Happy. We sat in damn near silence, just enough conversation to ring any alarm bells with anyone else at the table.
I helped my mom and Luanne clears the table before I said that, "I'm going upstairs to lie down, I will be back for dessert".
I rushed upstairs not wanting to talk to Happy, knowing that he wouldn't follow me there. I was lying down for 20 minutes when Luanne knocked on my door," I brought you dessert, its chocolate cake; your favorite". I opened the door and she walked in holding a very large slice of cake.
"Here you go", as she put it down on my nightstand.
"Thanks, Luanne".
"Baby, you wanna tell me what's wrong"?
"Nothing", as I took a bite of the cake.
"It's Happy right, you guys barely even looked at each other during dinner. So what's up"?
"We had a little fight", as she looked at with a confused look on her face, O.k., it wasn't a little fight. I said something's to him and he got really pissed".
"Like what"?
"We were making out and it was going a little further than I expected. I told him that I was a virgin and he got weird. He backed off from me and told me to get my stuff and get dressed".
"Then what happened".
I said, "Is it because; I'm a virgin that you acting like an ass right now". Oh, is it because I'm not a whore and you lost your little jollies and Do you like your women to give it up to you easy? Oh do you like it when they put a fight".
"Oh, baby men are weird like that. I bet he's never had a virgin because of all the pussy that flies around the club. He probably got scared that he was going to hurt you. What you said was cruel. He would not even hurt a single hair on your head".
"I know but his eyes turned black like I've never seen before. He held me down and started to take off my clothes and pressing himself into me".
"He didn't do anything, right".
"No, other than scare the holy shit out of me. I threw up when he left I was so scared cause he said something's to me and was really shocked".
"What did he say, baby".
"That he could have any women he wants; and that she would give herself to me freely. If you want to question me like a sweet butt I will treat you like one".
"Wow, he was really pissed then if he wanted to scare the hell out of you".
"When he came in he wanted to talk but I told him I was busy".
"Go downstairs and talk to him, find out what he wants to say"?
"O.k., thanks Luanne that helped a lot to talk it out with someone".
"Anytime baby, especially when it comes to sex I'm the one to talk to".
"Of course you are since you're the porn queen and all".
"Remember, men especially anyone of the Sons what's to own their pussy. So if you're gonna give it up to him trust me he will be good to you".
"Thanks, I think".
Luanne left me to pondering our little talk. I had finished up my cake and headed downstairs. I had placed my plate in the kitchen sink; I grabbed a bottle of water and went outside. I heard the sliding down open and out walked Happy. He sat down on the lounge chair, "How's your wrist", as he took my left wrist in his hands?
"Fine, just a little red is all", as I took my wrist back from his hands.
"I'm sorry; I didn't mean to hurt you", as he took out his pack and brought a cigarette to his lips.
"Neither did I; it was cruel what I said to you"?
"Yeah, I said some pretty shitty things to you; too", as he lit his smoke taking a long drag from it.
I pulled my legs to sit Indian style," I keep apologizing to you, huh".
"Yeah, a little bit. I took things to far tonight. I didn't mean to scare you. I really didn't mean it".
"I haven't seen you look like that before, and I provoked you".
"I know you could have any woman you want and they fall over you all the time. I have seen them do it at the clubhouse. Why me? What makes you wanna spend time with me when you can have them", as I put my head down?
"You're special and you make me think. I haven't had that in a long time. Plus when I kiss you, you kind of make my heart skip a little. I know you have some trust issues".
"Why am I that transparent"?
"No, but I want you to trust me. I will wait; till you are ready with anything that you want to do".
"You didn't have to say that you know", as I rubbed my hand up and down his arm.
"Are we o.k. then", as he touched my thigh.
"Yeah, we're good", as I braced myself with both my hands as I leaned up and kissed him.
He turned toward me a little and kissed me back; a soft and gentle kiss.
"If you're good, I'm good".