As of Yet

I'm going to try and make this chapter very long.

Clare P.O.V

I opened my eyes but it hurt to move, at first everything was all blurry I could sort of see three dark blobs, I closed my eyes for a few seconds and then opened them again and everything was clear except I could see Bianca, Owen and Fitz looking at me, what are they doing here? Where am I?

"Where am I?" I asked,

"You don't know where you are?" Asked Owen,

"Owen." I said,

"You're at the hospital." Fitz said from somewhere in the room. Then I remembered what happened, what I did, about my mum. I shook my head, damn it! What a failure I am! I can't do anything right, I can't even kill myself without messing up. I should have just got a gun and shot myself in the head. I looked around the room, I hated that everyone was staring at me and I really didn't feel like dealing with people at the moment

"Get out." I said, I could see all their expressions change.

"What?" Asked Owen I rolled my eyes

"Are you people deaf I said get out!" I yelled, Bianca gasped and stood up, Owen and Bianca left while Fitz just stood there looking pissed off at me I glared at him

"I said get out." I said, he walked over to me and sat down where Bianca had been sitting before.

"What's wrong with you, first of all you try to kill yourself, Bianca and me saved your life we've been waiting here for ages to see if you were going to be ok, you could at least be a little grateful." He said glaring right back at me. I just glared back

"What makes you think I wanted to be saved?" I asked, he looked at me like he didn't know you

"You're not thinking straight." He said, I rolled my eyes

"Please just leave me alone." I said pulling the covers over my head and burrowing my head against the pillow. I heard him stand up and leave the room; I shut my eyes and fell asleep.

Bianca P.O.V

I can't believe Clare said that to us after I saved her life she just told us to get out. We were outside, Owen leaned against the wall, I realised Fitz wasn't here.

"Where's Fitz?" I asked Owen, he just shrugged and lit a cigarette I looked behind me and saw him walking out the front door and came over to us

"I think the lack of oxygen to her brain screwed her up." Owen commented,

"Shut up Owen, Clare's just messed up about her mum dying." Fitz said,

"So, I lost my aunt last year and I didn't go off the deep end." Owen said,

"You didn't see her at the funeral and the fact that her dad isn't around, practically no one is around is what is making Clare act this way." Fitz said,

"What about her little friends from school?" I asked Fitz,

"Who cares, they obviously don't and anyway it doesn't matter what Clare says to us we're not going to give up on her." Fitz replied, I know he's right about that, Clare's not really mentally stable at the moment and we need to help her through all of this.

"Ok." I said, I looked at Owen who was stepping on his cigarette

"Fine." He said after a few minutes.

Fitz P.O.V

The next day after school I went to visit her and see if she was in a better mood. I walked into her room and walked over to her, she was asleep, she looked peaceful, I shut the door and sat down and watched her, about 20 minutes later she woke up and looked at me and sighed

"What do you want?" She asked, I looked at her

"How are you?" I asked her, she shrugged

"What's your dad's number?" I asked her,

"Why do you need it?" She asked,

"To tell him what's been happening with you." I said, Clare shook her head

"No that is not going to happen." She said I rolled my eyes

"Yes it is going to happen." I said staring her down, she rolled her eyes

"Fine whatever, it's 55567892." She said finally giving in. I got out my phone and punched in the numbers I waited for her dad to pick up, he finally did

"Hello Charles Daniels speaking." I heard him say,

"Hi this is Fitz speaking, Clare's friend." I said, I heard him wait for a second trying to remember who he is

"Oh right, Mark how could I forget the boy who influenced my daughter to smoke." He said

"Yeah." I said

"What do you want?" He asked, it reminded me of what Clare had asked me just as she had seen me when she woke up.

"Clare needs you; she's in the hospital she tried to kill herself." I said,

"Sorry, but I'm busy with meetings and it's probably Clare just trying to get attention." He said. Fitz was dumbfounded how someone could say something like that after finding out they tried to kill themself. I hung up and looked at Clare who was smirking

"What did he say?" She asked, I knew she knew what he had said, she knew when her parents were in a good mood or not. I looked at her and then looked at the time, I leaned forward and kissed her on her forehead

"I got to go, see you tomorrow." I said before leaving her room. As I walked home I couldn't believe her dad, Clare is his only daughter and he just doesn't care. I wanted to punch a wall or Charles' face. I arrived home and saw my mum cooking dinner in the kitchen

"Hello Mark, how was your day?" She asked him, Fitz shrugged

"I went and saw Clare today." I said beginning to walk up the staircase.

"How is she?" She asked, I shrugged, and my mum just shook her head and went back to cooking dinner, maybe when Clare get's out of the hospital he'll invite her over here for dinner. Having a sane family around her would probably make her feel better.

Review please, I hope you all liked this chapter; I tried to make it long without making it boring.