You guys probably hate me! I am soo sooo soooooooooooo sorry for not updating. I've been busy with school and have had horrible writes block.

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Me, You and My Mind

Blair stayed silent as she heard her door open and slam. She heard footsteps coming towards her and stopping a few feet away.

What the hell was wrong with her? Why was she yelling at the people she loved the most? Why couldn't she believe that they actually love her? Why was she so fucking sad?

"Blair? I'm Dr. Shelly, a psychiatrist. Would you like to talk?"

Nothing.

"You've been through some hard times and it's understandable if you don't feel like speaking, but you shouldn't keep things bottled up, it's not good for the baby."

Dr. Shelly thought she saw Blair twitch.

"Blair…"

"There's nothing to talk about." Blair was still looking out the window.

"Are you sure about that?"

"Positive."

"Nothing about the baby?"

"Nope."

"Not even about the suicide attempt?"

"I have nothing to talk about." Blair's words came out slowly, enunciating every word.

"Blair…being a teenager is hard, and it's probably harder with your situation, but…"

"Like you know."

Dr. Shelly was startled; Blair's words came out as a whip.

"Being a teenager is not hard. Not at all. It's KILLING ME! I hate it! I'm pregnant, suicidal, pissed off and alone, and pathetic and useless and no one gives a shit about me!"

Tears were streaming down her cheeks; she didn't even bother wiping them away. Blair looked down and realized she had finally moved from her spot. She slowly sat back down and brought her knees to her chest and wrapped her arms around them.

"Are you happy now? You cracked me in a record time! That took what…ten seconds? You know nothing about me, about what I'm feeling, you don't know me! No one does…"

"Blair, I want to help you, let me know you."

"Why? So you can evaluate my insanity level and let my mom ship me away?"

"No, because I want to help you, just you. Your mom wants to ship you away?"

"Any chance she can get."

"Why do you think that is?"

"Because I'm a disgrace to her, because I' not good enough. Because she doesn't care about me, she never did. She cared more for Serena than me."

"Who Is Serena?"

Blair paused before speaking, "My best friend, or was at least."

"Why would you say that?"

"All she does is lie to me and steal Nate away from me and she has to be better. She has to make me feel like crap."

"How does she do that?"

"I don't know, she just does, but maybe she can't help it."

"Nate is your boyfriend, am I right?"

Blair slowly nodded.

"How do you feel about him?"

"I'm in love with him, but it's a one way thing, he doesn't feel the same. He may love me, but not like I love him."

"Why do you think that?"

"He pushes me away, he can tell everyone else his life story, but he can't tell me the simplest thing. Then again, that's what I'm doing to him right now."

"Blair, why do you feel that no one loves you or cares for you?"

She flinched, "Because they don't."

"How are you so sure?"

"BECAUSE! I'M EVERYONE'S LAST PRIORITY! YOU KNOW WHY THEY ALL CARE NOW? BECAUSE THEY'RE AFRAID I'LL HURT THE BABY AND THEY'RE FINALLY REALZING HOW FUCKED UP I AM!" She began to take deep breathes and squeezed her eyes shut. "Before this, no one cared. Nate never cared this much and same with my mom. Serena was off in her own world. No one cared, no one cares. I'm nothing to them, the only reason they care now is because of the baby." She said while touching her stomach.

Dr. Shelly took a seat beside Blair and put a hand on her back.

"What if my baby feels the same? What if no one loves it?"

"You'll be there to love it."

Sobs began erupting from Blair as she leaned towards Dr. Shelly.

A few minutes later, Blair sat up and looked at Dr. Shelly.

"I've opened up to you more than anyone and I don't even know you're name."

"Dr. Shelly, but call me Morgan."

"Thank you, Morgan."

The two spent another half hour talking, until their time was up.

Morgan stood up, "I'll see you in a week?"

Blair nodded.

Morgan left the room to meet the expecting faces of Nate, Eleanor, Serena, Dan and Chuck.

Eleanor stepped foreword, "Is everything okay? We heard screaming."

Morgan took a breath before answering, "I can't be sure, but I believe Blair is dealing with depression. I can't be sure, I'll have to talk to her more and take some tests, but that seems to be the problem."

Eleanor stood there, in shock. Blair can't be depressed,

Serena clutched onto Dan, refusing to believe Blair was depressed. A part of her felt at fault.

Nate had a thousand thoughts running through his mind. Blair was depressed. She was unhappy, and it was his fault. He treated her like crap and he did that to her. he felt anger rising towards himself, but pushed it away, he had to think about Blair. And the baby. How was this going to affect the baby?

"I've talked to her about meeting once a week and she has agreed. Now if you'll excuse me I have some papers to finish."

They watched as she began to walk away, but came to a halt. She spun around to face them, "She'll be okay, she just needs to know you care." She gave one last smile and continued down the hall.

Eleanor turned to the kids, "I'm going to find out when she can some home."

Everyone but Nate sat down. Nate continued to pace in front of Blair's room, debating whether or not to go in. He wanted to see her and tell her it was okay and that he loved them. He wanted to take away all her insecurities and fears, but he knew that right she wouldn't let him. He was pissed off, at himself, that stupid kid, Jenny, everyone who had hurt Blair and Blair herself. How could she think that? She should know that he loves her, they all do. A voice in his mind interrupted him. You're the one that pushed her away and made her think that. Nate cringed as the voice ran through his mind over and over again. What had he done to her? What had they all done to Blair? Because as of right now she was depressed. As of right now Blair Waldorf is gone.

It's short I know and very sucky. I don't really know how it is to talk to a psychiatrist. Again I'm sorry for the lack of updating and the suckiness that is this chapter. Finally, the new kid is here and stars in the next chapter. It's Blair's first day back to school, again.

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