By the way I'm updating a little bit and some of my old chapters are rewritten, I just wanted everyone to know I'm not done with this story. More will be added soon. Also the next couple of chapters are taking place a few months after the last one.

Vivian

"Little Angel go away, come again some other day. The Devil has my ear today, I'll never hear a word you say. Promised I would find some solace and some peace of mind; whatever just as long as I don't feel so Desperate and Ravenous so Weak and Powerless, over you."

I woke up to Weak & Powerless playing softly out of my alarm clock/radio, I sighed deeply as I wiped the sleep from my eyes and realized I was waking up in my Uncle Rudy's home and that even though Gabriel and I had somewhat "made up" the situation was still unresolved.

I threw my pillow across the room in frustration, I reached for another one but stopped myself. If I was going to stay Queen Bitch, I couldn't let my emotions get to me so fast. Today is the day I turn nineteen, so much older then the girl I was at sixteen and first became Gabe's mate, time to start acting like it.

Beside me my phone buzzed it wasn't even eight o'clock but I was already getting bothered.

I smiled slightly when I saw it was that Alyssa had texted me, 'Rise and shine Bday girl, see you in Hell! Muah hahahahahaha!'

I tried to stay happy, but all I could do was think about last nights pack meeting.

I tried to sit as far away from Gabriel as I could, this was our first pack meeting without us being completely together. And I know everyone can sense it, you could cut the tension with a knife. All the bitches wanted to be Queen Bitch, and all the single males would love the chance to fuck me. Gabriel god bless him ignored all of the questions, when I was ready to rip throats out, like "So what is Vivian's standing in the pack now," and "Will you be looking for a new mate."

Gabe barely even met my eyes, he was still so confused on what to do. But nobody could make that decision but him, and oh it was killing me.

I couldn't even pay attention to what were all discussing, I don't even remember if it was important or not. I was in such a bad mood when Finn asked if we were inviting Alyssa to my party I turned to him and hissed "What does it matter you idiot, don't you know anything? She's just going to leave you once she realizes that she can't handle the monster you really are. Just let her go, she's jsut going to end up with Adam and break your heart."

I wish I could have taken back everything I said, especially when I saw his face go from heartbroken to rage demanding to know who Adam was. I tried to shrug it off, but the damage was already done. Alyssa hadn't done anything wrong and all I could do was hope they weren't fighting and that I could finally have a perfect birthday party.

School went by pretty slow since all I could do was think about the bullshit, at lunch Alyssa and I sat out in the courtyard behinde the wall so we could smoke a quick cigg and laugh at all the people who pissed us off. She had her long hair tied up in a quick bun, and looked like she was slumming it today. "I'm getting dressed up for your party," she said about her ripped jeans and old black converses. Even looking like that I could see Adam watching her from across the courtyard where they were tossing around a football. I could only laugh at the perdicament my friend and I had gotten her into. "What are you laughing at bitch?" she asked amused thinking it was about Adam. "Nothing slut, don't worry about it."

I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket, I quickly grabbed it out of my back pack. It was a text from Gabriel, 'Hey baby, I'm sorry I can't make it to your birthday party tonight. I'll make it up to you I promise.' Suddenly everything that our pack meeting was about came back to me. He was going out of town for the week to another pack out in Pennsylvania to talk to their leader about a truce, just in case either clan had to relocate. I wasn't able to go, only because he was claiming me as his mate in front of the pack anymore. "God Dammit!" I cried as I texted back 'Fine, whatever don't even come back for all I care!' "Whats wrong?" Alyssa asked visibly worried as the tears rolled down my cheeks.

"Nothing, I should have never gotten you involved with a man from my family, they're all assholes." I tossed my phone back into my bag. I meant what I texted him, no matter how much I love Gabriel I'd rather have him move on then make my life so happy one second and miserable the next.