There were three options. One. He was not able to cope with his anger and this shock that he would leave as quick as he walked in. He would storm out and leave me alone. And who would blame him? Two he could stay and help me pick out a shirt and comfort me the best he could. Three. He could apologize for this situation and quietly back out.

"I can't see anymore" I mumbled again. I couldn't' see his face or his reaction at all. The only thing I could do was guess. I just stood there surrounded by darkness, hearing his footsteps as he stormed out of the room. I heard him walk down the stairs. I closed my eyes and sighed deep. He left. It had been option one. I wiped the tears from my eyes and sat down on the ground still in my bra. I didn't care anymore to be honest. I found it hard to find something to live for at the moment. This was the worst thing that happened to me. I sniffed and hugged my knees. Worst. Day. Ever. I was seriously considering jumping out of the window when I heard footsteps coming up the stairs. It would probably be one of the Cullens, checking up on me like always. I couldn't blame them at all, because I was hopeless, helpless whatever.

Someone walked into the room quietly, but I couldn't find the energy to look up. It didn't matter anyway because I couldn't see. With my eyesight gone I needed to rely on my other senses, somehow my body was automatically adjusting. I smelled motoroil and wood.

"I wanted to wait with giving it, but I'm guessing you need it now.." He said

"Jake" I cheered in disbelief, my eyes tearing up.

He sat down next to me, I felt the heat radiating from his skin. His big warm hand pried open mine and softly placed something in them. It was bigger than my hand, the surface smooth and a little cold.

"What is it" I asked letting my hand ran over it.

"It's chocolate, with hazelnuts. Your favorite" he whispered.

I tried to smile. But tears welled up and instead I started crying. He wrapped his arm around me and I forced myself on his lap. I laid my head on his shoulder and wept.

"I'm blind Jake" I stuttered.

"I know Sweety" He whispered in my hairs. "But you're going to be alright"

"No that's it. I'm not going to be alright. I don't know how to do this" I exclaimed.

"Well we just have to figure this out then" he said while he wiped away my tears.

"But.."

"We'll do it together" he whispered while he wrapped me up in his big strong arms. I inhaled his scent and enjoyed the heat he was radiating. Actually he was radiating too much heat.

"Jake you are so hot" I said. How selfish of me that I only thought about me. I never even asked him how he was doing.

"Are you okay?" I asked worried.

"Yeah I'll be fine. I'm just a little feverish that's all" he said and I heard him grin. Treating it like it was nothing important. S

We sat there in silence for a while. I didn't know what I was supposed to say.

"Hey Ren" he said while he softly rubbed my arm "You need to eat and drink something, The doc said you haven't since you woke up"

I shrugged my shoulders "I'm not really hungry" I said nonchalant. I lied, I could feel my body getting weaker by the hour. But there was such a big lump in my throat that I couldn't swallow a single bite.

"Ren…" He said. Without warning me he stood up, lifting me up when he did so. I slightly panicked and wrapped my arms around his neck so tight he almost suffocated.

"You can let go now" He said when he laid me down. He cleared his throat a few times when I let him go. I felt that it was my bed and I crawled under the blankets. My body was already tired and my throat was aching. I wasn't healing as quick as last time and that troubled me. I yawned and rubbed my eyes.

"I will let you sleep when you eat something" Jacob said. He was somewhere beside me, but I didn't knew he was sitting or standing. This being blind was really mindfucking me.

"Why would I?" I grunted "it's not like it will make me better. Why not let me rot in peace"

"Ren. Please. Do it for me" he begged. I shrugged my shoulders again. I didn't really feel like it.

"We can do this the easy way or the hard way" He stated with some played irritation.

A little smile played my face. "Fine. What's in it for me?" I asked waiting in the darkness.

There was a short silence. "What do you want?"

"Stay. The silence is killing me here, there is not a single sound" I explained. These vampires were so silent I never heard them until they spoke. I felt like a was all alone at this darn house, which still felt so unfamiliar.

"And.. I'm so scared" I whispered in a tiny voice "I'm so afraid of the dark".

He slipped under the blankets. I could feel his warm skin press against mine and when I focused I could hear the sound of his heartbeat. I sighted of relief, for the first time I didn't feel alone in this darkness. His warmth, steady heartbeat and smell caused me to fall asleep quickly.

I woke up from his snoring. But it woke me up with a smile and I really enjoyed listening to it until it I fell asleep again. I felt safe and embraced.

When I woke up again I was laying on his arms. He wasn't snoring so I assumed he was awake. I could feel how he carefully played with my hair.

"Goodmorning sleeping beauty" he grinned. I stretched and snuggled up to him.

"That's not fair, I can't even look at myself. Do I have out of bed hair?" I mumbled while enjoying this moment to the maximum. If I didn't open my eyes it seemed just like old times.

"Well you look gorgeous" he stated. I softly 'Mmmhed'

"I wish I could say the same. But I can't see…" I replied.

He tickled me "But Ness, you know I always look handsome"

I giggled and he laughed. It felt so safe, it felt like home. After a few minutes Jacob stood up and grabbed me. He threw me over his shoulder and put me down. He pushed something in my hands.
It was small and thin, and my puzzled mind told me it was my toothbrush. I brushed my teeth, glad there was still something I could do to myself. When we were done Jacob grabbed my hand and guided me back to the bed.

"So what do you want?" he asked. I raised my eyebrows and gestured I didn't know what he wanted from me.

"Bacon and eggs, pancakes, cornflakes, bread, A positive, B negative"

As he summarized which choices there were for breakfast I felt nausea.

"Jake please stop" I begged trying to suppress the need to vomit at the spot.

"No Ness you promised me you would eat something" He replied irritated "And if you won't I feel feed you as much bacon and eggs as you can eat"

That did it, the thought about eggs sliding through my throat made my stomach too upset. I tried to hold it back, pressed my hand in front of my mouth but I couldn't help it. I vomited on the floor.

Within seconds he moved me from my room to downstairs, probably Carlisle's office. I felt cool hands checking up on me and I tried to best to stay conscience.

"Renesmee, can you hear me" Carlisle asked me. I slowly nodded. After a while I heard him tell the others that this was still the werewolf blood in my system.

"But she threw up blood" Jacob said "And yesterday she cried blood" Alice said.

I did? Whoa I was even more fucked up than I realized. I heard them talk, just as they forget I could still hear everything. Or maybe ever hear better. They were discussing my healing process and that if I didn't eat something I wouldn't make it. But maybe I didn't want to make it.. maybe I just wanted to be swallowed by the darkness and rest in peace.

What will happen with Rensmee? Will Jake convince her that he is worth living for? Or will he continue with the friendzone? Will she ever see again? Review to let me know what you think.