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CHAPTER 10

Looking Up

"Am I interrupting something ?" Damon asked behind the couch. We both jumped at the sound of his voice. It was late and we were so into our blast from the past that we didn't hear anyone come in. Damon's pretty stealthy so that didn't help either.

"No. We were just talking about things that needed to be discussed." Stefan answered standing up. Damon wasn't mad and we both knew and saw that but it was still awkward, him finding his true love and his brother hugging. I knew he didn't think anything of it though by the look on his face.

"I'm going to go to sleep. You guys should talk." Stefan said before walking past his brother. Damon's ice blue eyes watched Stefan until he was out of sight and then joined me on the couch. We sat there waiting for the other one to say something first.

"I didn't mean to storm off like that. It was childish." Damon finally spoke.

"It's okay, Damon, but we need to talk about things that bother us, not ignore them." I said taking his hand in mine. He was tanner than I was and his hands were much larger than mine but yet they fit perfectly together.

"I know. I guess I was just scared, well AM scared, that maybe you won't understand. That maybe you won't like this Damon." He explained.

"I'll always love you. We've all changed. It's kind off hard not to when you've been through and seen as much as we have." I reassured him.

Damon stood up and pulled his hand away from mine.

"I don't care about things like I used to, except you. It's like my humanity is gone and I'm what I truly am which is a monster from a kids storybook." He said, pacing slowly in front of me. "I miss being human. I miss feeling and having no choice but to feel it. I can turn all of that off now and it's an addiction. You and Elena and Stefan and everyone else wants me to feel but I can't Bella, I just can't. I can only feel when I'm around you because you never cause me any pain." He stopped pacing now and turned to look me in the eye. "I trust you with my feelings. You're the only one that hasn't hurt me which is what hurts me because I hurt you. I ruined your life and you were so good to me; you were always good to me and Stefan and what we did to you was wrong." He breathed, finally finished and waiting for me to respond.

"You or Stefan couldn't help what you did. If I hadn't of been turned myself I wouldn't have forgiven you two. Nobody understands what its like when you're first turned until you experience it. It's like you wake up and your humanity is gone and it's up to you to get it back. Like if a human gets cancer, they have to fight to live. You can't help that part Damon." I assured him, standing up to his level. "It was the virus, not the real Damon that did what he did that night just like it wasn't the real Stefan that did what he did."

"You mean you were like that too in the beginning ?" He asked surprised.

"Yes, I was terrible, Damon. I killed children without even thinking. It was like I was possessed." I explained.

"What made you feel again ?" He asked, curiously.

I grabbed both of his hands and intertwined them with mine.

"You did." I smiled.

"But how ?" He asked.

"Damon, you might have turned me but you also saved me. I was about to kill a man whose name was also Damon. His pregnant wife walked in on us and she started screaming his name. It took me back to when St-"

"-Stefan turned me in front of you." He interrupted and finished the sentence.

"Yes." I smiled. " And just like that, I was human again. I had my soul back because of you and whenever I wanted to turn the feelings off I thought of you. I had a goal and that goal was to find you and when I found you I wanted to be the person that you turned, not the person that you turned me into."

A silent tear slipped down his cheek as he leaned in and kissed my forehead.

"I love you so much, Bella." He whispered.

"I love you too, Damon. I'm going to help you find yourself again." I promised as he pulled me into a hug.

The next week had been amazing. Damon and I would hang out with Elena and Stefan and all of her friends which were now mine as well. We even had a sleepover, Caroline, Bonnie, Elena and I. I had never had a sleepover before and I had a blast. Bonnie and I still weren't as close and she still wouldn't let me into her house but I understood. I didn't blame her, they had been deceived a lot in the past year. But all in all, everything was how it used to be when I was human.

"I didn't know you could cook too. No wonder Damon likes you." Elena smirked as she scooted around me to get to the silverware.

"Well, when you've been around as long as I have, you tend to learn a few things." I laughed as I stirred the lemon garlic sauce. "Is Bonnie coming ?" I asked, wanting to get to know her better.

"I don't know. Last time I checked she said she was." Elena said before turning to face me and leaning against the counter. "Just give her time. It took her a long time to even except Caroline and they had known each other their whole lives." She smiled before heading to the table to set down the silverware.

Turns out Bonnie and Jeremy had plans to hang out which Bonnie had forgotten about. Jenna had gone to Alaric's house since it was Friday so the night ended up being a double date.

"This is really good." Elena commented with a mouth full of salmon. Stefan and Damon agreed.

"Thank you." I smiled. "So things have actually been pretty good lately huh ?" I asked.

"I know, it's the first time since I started dating Stefan." Elena laughed.

"Heyyy." Stefan whined jokingly.

Just then the doorbell rang.

"Oh, I'll be right back." Elena said getting up from the table, quickly wiping her mouth with her napkin.

"So I was thinking I could join the town council like you." I told Damon.

"That's a good idea, I think It'll give you something to do and it'll give us more time to spend together." He smirked before shoving a fork full of green beans into his mouth.

"Awesom-"

"Bella, it's for you." Elena interrupted with a curious look on her face.

"Did they say who it was ?" I asked as I got up from my seat.

"Oh sorry, I forgot to ask." She said apologetically.

"It's fine." I smiled lightly.

"I'm coming with you." Damon said getting up.

"You don't have to, I can take care of myself." I reassured him nicely but he still followed.

I was curious to see who it could possibly be so I was hesitant to open the door. I took a deep breath silently before gently swinging the door open and who I saw standing before me shocked me.

"Bella." An all too familiar face said.

"Edward." I said, not knowing what else to say.

"Edward ?" Damon asked shocked and confused and worried and jealous all at one time.

So what do you think of Edward getting into the mix ? Why do you think hes there ?

I hope I explained better why Edward did what he did int he last chapter. I hope you guys don't hate him or anything and realize he couldn't help what he did.

Anywho, I hope you guys enjoyed it and tell me what you think !

-Jacki