AN: Thank you for the reviews! you keep me writing. This one is kind of long. soo enjoy.

Jax's P.O.V

It was a little after 10 pm when Jax finally pulled up in to the driveway of his house, He saw his mother's caddy and the lights in the house were on. He figured she was cleaning and all he wanted to do was shower and sleep. The meet with Leroy went really smooth and that bothered him, the Mayans had attacked one of their safe houses and stole their guns and they needed some Ak's and Clay told him he would make it happen.

Unlocking the door he walked in to his house and they smell of cleaning products and cigarettes filled his nostrils. At least he was right about his mother cleaning, the house looked pretty fucking nice. He chuckled a little to himself and looked in the kitchen but didn't see gemma.

"Mom?" He said out loud.

"Back here Jackson." He turned his head down the hall and saw the light on in his room, he walked backed, and pushing the door to his room open and saw his mother picking up his dirty clothes from the floor. He watched her for a minute and as she put the last of the clothes in the hamper she looked up at him and he could see the exhaustion on her face.

"You should go home."

"This house would be a mess if it wasn't for me and you know it." She said with a smile and walked over to the dresser and pulled out a smoke from her back and put it to her lips and lit it.

"Yeah your probably right." He walked in to the room and took off his kutte and laid in on the chair that was in there and kicked off his shoes.

"So what's going on with you and the good doctor?" She said a bit sarcastically.

"Nothing." He sighed and walked over and sat on the bed across from her.

"It didn't sound like nothing today."

He ran his hands over his face. "I really don't want to talk about this now."

"She's engaged Jackson."

That was something he really didn't want to hear.

"I know mom, there is nothing going on."

Gemma turned slightly and put her cigarette out in the ashtray and then turned back to him. She knew he was lying and she wasn't going to let Tara get in to his head again and start twistin shit up.

"I see the way you two look at each other, like you're fuckin sixteen again."

Jax laughed. "Mom that was first love bullshit. I got over it, you should too."

"She tried to take you away, make you leave all this."

"I didn't go, did I?" He raised his voice a little.

"But she did and it broke your heart." Jax looked up at her and nodded. She walked up to him and placed her hands on his arms. "When somebody hurts you baby, you never get over it." She leaned forward and kissed his cheek and then walked out of the room. Hearing his mom walk out of the house, he stood from the bed and walked in to the bathroom and turned on the shower and then started to undress.

After his shower, he dried himself and threw on a pair of boxers and ran a comb through his hair. He grabbed his phone and then sat on the edge of his bed. He didn't even know her number, he wanted to call her and hear her voice. So much shit was running through his mind and he needed to ask her what today meant. Did she still have feelings for him? He sighed and threw his phone back on the dresser and laid down in bed, turning the lamp next to him off and the room filled with darkness. He closed his eyes and slowly drifted off to sleep. His only escape from his thoughts.

Tara's P.O.V

3:30am

Tara had tried everything to get to sleep and she had no luck, she kept thinking about what happened with Jax today and what it meant and what could have happened if David hadn't of shown up. She looked over at David and watched him sleep, she brought her hand up to his cheek and he stirred a little but didn't wake up. I love this man, but maybe I'm not in love with him. Maybe I never was. She thought to herself.

He loves her and she could feel it in the way he kisses her and the way he makes love and she used to feel the same way or at least she thought she did.

Tara thought coming back to charming would be easy, she convinced herself that she didn't feel that way about Jax anymore and she would be able to see him and be around him and the temptation wouldn't be there, but she was wrong. So wrong. She almost cheated on David and it broke her heart a little to think that she was that person. He didn't deserve that, she didn't deserve him. There was always a part of her that was back in charming with Jax and she knew David knew that but he never said anything all he did was love her.

They were happy in Chicago and she knew coming back here would be a mistake, she understands why David wanted to come back and have the wedding here and she was okay with that. But she couldn't live here and have a family with him here, not with Jax around because the temptation is always going to be there and she wouldn't be able to live with herself hurting David like that and she couldn't leave him to be with Jax because she doesn't think she could handle the life he was leading.

Sighing to herself she turns away from David and gets up from there bed. She knew she wasn't getting to sleep and she needed to do something to get her mind off of all the second guessing. She was usually so confident in her decisions and now she wasn't sure about anything. She walks in to the bathroom and turns on the shower, looking at herself in the mirror she looks paler than usual. She pulls her hair back and looks at the mark that Jax had left on her neck. He was always one to mark his territory she thought to herself and then began to strip out of her pajamas and got in the shower.

As she got out of the shower, she grabbed the towel from the rack and dried her hair a little before wrapping the towel around her body. She walked in to the bedroom and noticed the light was on, she looked over and saw David sitting on the edge of the bed, noticing he had just got up.

"Good morning." She said and walked over to the dresser pulling out matching black bra and underwear, taking the towel and wrapping it in her hair she pulled on the bra and underwear

"Morning babe. You're up early. Aren't you off today?" He said standing up and stretching a bit before walking over to her and kissing her lips.

She smiled, grabbing the lotion off the dresser and applying it to her body. "Yeah I guess I was getting used to my schedule. Figured I can get an early start on some of the things around here." As she was done she walked over to the closet and pulled a pair of jeans that complimented her hips very well, a white tank top and a blue and white plaid button up and got dressed.

"Yeah okay." He said still not fully awake. "I'm gonna shower, Unser wants me in early today." He turned from her and headed in to the bathroom.

Tara pulled on some socks and watched him walk in to the bathroom, she walked over to the vanity that used to be her mothers and took the towel off her head, she had forgotten about the mark on her neck. Luckily David wasn't awake enough to notice. She grabbed her brush and began to brush her hair, pulling it half way up in to a clip. She applied very little foundation and stared at herself in the mirror for a few seconds before David appeared behind her.

"You look hot." He grinned and leaned down and kissed her cheek and then turned and headed over to the dresser. She smiled and turned and looked at him.

"I could say the same about you." She looked him up and down, as he had nothing but a towel wrapped around his face. Just like Jax was the day before. David was handsome but he was nothing like Jax and she couldn't help but in that moment think of him

We could both be naked was all she heard from and it brought her out of her thoughts. She laughed "It's a little early." David nodded. "I wouldn't at the top of my game either." He said with a chuckle, he looked over at the clock. "I gotta go soon."

"I'll go make some coffee before you go."

"Okay babe." He smiled and she walked out of the room.

By the time David left it was almost 6 she finished her second cup of coffee and looked around the house trying to figure out what to do first. There were boxes in the living room, most were filled with her dad's things and some were filled with her mom's stuff that her dad couldn't figure out what to do with. She decided that for now she would have to put this stuff in the garage since she hasn't gotten a storage unit to put everything in.

It took her about three hours to get all the boxes out of the living room and the guest bedroom and clean up a bit. It had been a really long time since she had seen the house that clean and she liked that she was keeping herself busy. She decided to take a break and go visit David at work, grabbing her keys she walked out of the house closing and locking the door behind her and walking over to the cutlass.

When she pulled up to the police station she saw a van with ATF on the side of it and a few ATF officers standing outside the building, like they were waiting for something. Getting out of the car she saw David walking out of the station with a blonde woman in a pant suit, probably a fed.

As she walked up to him she saw him look at the woman and say something and all she heard was we leave in five before the woman walked off towards one of the black sedans.

"Hey." She said and kissed him on the lips.

"What are you doing here?"

"I decided to take a break from cleaning. Had to get out of that house." She looked at the other officers that came out behind him and headed towards there squad cars. "Is everything okay? Why are the feds here?" She asked even though she knew the answer.

"They think Samcro is connected to the IRA somehow." He took her hand in his. "Nothing for you to worry about." He kissed her hand. "I have to go but I'll see you later. I love you." He leaned in and kissed her cheek and then walked off towards his jeep.

"Love you to." She said and watched him walk off. Turning around she headed back towards the car, she watched as the van pulled out of the lot followed by three sedans and David's jeep. She walked around to the drivers side and opened the door, she saw Unser walk out of the station before she got in.

"How you doing?" He said as he realized who she was.

"I'm good. Is that anything we should worry about?" She said gesturing towards the cars that left.

He shrugged. "I don't think so. He can take care of himself sweetheart." He smiled and then turned and headed back in to the station. Tara got in to the car and started it, she knew she should just head home but needed to make sure Jax's was alright. Turning the car around she headed towards the clubhouse.

As she came up along the side of the building she slowed down and came to a stop outside the entrance. She saw the members of the club on the ground with handcuffs behind their backs, including Jax. He wore a big grin on his face. Hers then met David's and he had an angry look on his face.

"Fuck." She muttered under her breath and drove off.