Lily was thinking of easier times, she pulled out her diary and read the entry from the day after they had played truth or dare.

Dear Diary,

I can't like him can I? It was just a kiss; sparks don't really fly when you find true love. The whole firework thing was in my head. James is cute, sure, I wouldn't deny that if someone asked. I still don't think we can be in love, but if we were older I probably would be in love with him.

GOSH LILY ADMIT IT!

Okay I think I like James Potter. I still don't think I could ever date him, he's my best friend and I don't want to lose what I have with him. I wish I could just forget what had happened last night. I wish I had backed down. I wouldn't be sitting here in the empty dorm and remembering that stupid kiss.

He is supposed to be a Stag and I'm a Doe, so wouldn't that mean we are perfect for each other?

NO! I'm just being STUPID!

Catherine would know what to tell me but she'd also say, "I told you so!" And I don't think I can deal with that right now.

I can't believe I'm thinking about all this, it's wasting my time.

I wish I didn't have to go to class today, I sit next to him in potions, KILL ME! He'll be so insistent on if I liked his kissing, and I'll have to LIE!

Oh Crap Alice walked in!

Love Lily

Lily also remembered the conversation she had with Alice.

"Hey Lily," Alice said.

"Alice I think I liked kissing James," Lily said desperately.

"Well I think that was the point of the dare," Alice giggled.

"But," Lily began to protest.

"Don't say anything! You know James likes you," Alice smiled. "So give him a chance. Just date him for a while!"

"NO!"

"Come on! You can say yes when he asks you at his Christmas party," Alice smiled.

"I'm not going to his Christmas party," Lily sighed. "And what if I don't want to say yes!"

"But you DO want to say yes!"

"Ughh! I hate it when your right," Lily sighed

Lily reached her hand and her fingers gently traced the scar around her mouth, she wanted to say yes to him more than anything, but she was too worried. She loved him, as a friend, and didn't want to spoil anything. James was also going to be too scared to ask her now.

Being Twelve was Difficult.

James Potter was setting up his house for the Christmas ball. His parents threw it every year but he had cleverly avoided it until this year. He'd hid in his room every other year, and last year he had stayed at Hogwarts. This year however he was being forced to participate in it. At least he was allowed to invite friends.

A/N : Really short. Sorry! I promise the Potter Christmas Ball chapter will be really long. You'll like it I think!