AN: okay you guys, so I wanted to get this chapter out earlier, but things kept coming up, and they would not stop!

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JasmineMarie84: Thanks, that was my favorite line by far that I have written, but of course I got the inspiration from that whole story about rob and the umbrella chick. Hehe

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Oh, and you guys, the embarrassing story that is in here, it's not mine, I actually found it on this site that is full of embarrassing stories that me and my friend were reading through on night when we were bored, and I thought that this story was pretty embarrassing.

Another quick note, the guy that I picture for Felix, is the one and only Jensen Ackles.

Okay read on if you dare

AN 2: Chapter has now been re-edited thanks to dihenydd.


Chapter 10: Your petty little bombs

How can you ask for forgiveness,
How can you think that your crimes are victim less,
I know you and your sins,
Your retributions,
So how will you lay your penance down?
We're all judged in time,
So how will you clear your conscience when your lies unwind?

- Little Bombs by Dashboard Confessionals


Flashback

I should just give up and leave. Why the hell am I still even going to this fucking school? Do I take some sick pleasure in being treated like a total piece of shit? Seriously, today I have already had my school bag stolen, my clothes shoved into the toilet during gym, and ended up face down in the dirt because someone "accidentally" tripped me. What could they possibly do next?

Just one more period then I'm done for the day. The sad thing though is having to get up tomorrow and do it all again.

I enter my last period class and sit in my usual spot in the corner away from everyone and their stares. I go through the class without anyone picking on me or even looking back at me, which made it easier for me to get through the class, and as soon as the bell rings, I run towards my truck before anyone can stop me. Usually Emmett, Alice, Jasper, or Rose would meet me after every class and walk me to my next, to my truck, or towards one of their cars. I hate that I need a body guard to help me around, it makes me feel useless and helpless, and I really hate that feeling. Who would want to feel that way?

Luckily for me, I don't have anyone with me today, (note the sarcasm), except Kate and Garrett that is. It really sucks when they're all here surrounding me, but it's even worse when none of them are here. Emmett was with Charlie at an officer's convention, Rose was out of town visiting her sick grandmother, and Alice and Jasper were on a class field trip to some greenhouse thing for their Bio class. So, yeah, I'm alone right now.

I'm running towards my truck and turn a corner, and wish that I hadn't. Edward and James are in the middle of the hallway talking and when they see me, a sadistic grin spreads across James' face, while as usual Edward'sshows nothing. I turn around but run into Demetri, Alec, and Laurent.

I try to push my way past them, but it doesn't work out too well.

"Now, now, where do you think you're going? Everyone else has had their fun with you today, but I haven't yet. And Edward hasn't either." James motions towards Edward.

"So what should it be today, Edward?" Edward hands him a bookwhich I immediately recognize as my diary. How did he get that?

Thankfully it's one of my older diaries, the one before I started to realize my feelings for Edward, but it still holds some of the most embarrassing stories of my life.

"Dear Diary," James reads from it and I feel my face going red and I start to spin around looking for somewhere to run.

"Oh, this is actually a good one, ha ha ha… 'I was over at Alice's for her 12th birthday party. We had so much fun. We stayed up late and ate loads, upon loads of candy, and junk" He stops for a minute and I stand there, I don't know what to do. "oooooo…..Big surprise there, the big girl likes her candy." He looks at me and I look over at Edward pleading with my eyes for him to take the god damn thing out of James' hand, but he stands there with a smile on his face, while everyone else giggles like a bunch of school girls.

James continues, "'While we were sitting watching Chocolat, because Alice loves her some Johnny Depp, I started feeling a little sick. I had a really bad stomach, so I thought that I needed to go to the bathroom, after I went, I still felt like crap, so I thought that I should sleep it off, but when I woke up the next morning, I felt a little sweaty, and then I rolled over to my stomach and felt my underwear all wet. I decided to get up to go to the bathroom and once I got into the bathroom I noticed that I had started my period!'" Everyone burst out laughing, and now we were attracting a crowd of people who are all laughing. I look around the crowd to see if anyonewill come and save me, but no one is willing too.

"'It had gotten all over my PJ bottoms, I didn't know what to do, I started to freak out! I couldn't call my mom because she lives clear across the country, and calling Charlie about this, would make this more embarrassing, him having to come save his daughter because she started her period for the first time. I don't even think he would know what to do, hell I wasn't even sure! So I had to do the next best thing. I went over and woke up Alice, who took me upstairs to her mom. The worst part was that after her mom and gotten me a change of clothes, she couldn't find a pad, so she had to show me how to use a TAMPON!!!!'"

I almost hurl right there without even needing my finger. I start to hyperventilate, and can't control myself.

"Oh, here is an even better one!" James shouts.

Oh god, please help me, please!!! I beg as I fall to the floor and cover my face in my hands while everyone laughs at my expense. I look up to see Edward is looking down at his feet. He isn't even brave enough to look me in the face now. How could he do this? How could he give my Diary to someone like James!

"JAMES STOP NOW!!!" I look up to see Felix standing between me and James.

"Ha ha ha, why would I do that? We're all just having a little fun."

"You've had enough fun." Felix tells him.

"Ah, I see what you're doing. I didn't know you liked them round, but hell, whatever pleases you." James winks at me. What the hell is that supposed to mean?

"What the Fuck James?" Edward's now facing James with a disgruntled look, "That's it! You're going to let Felix have his way with her now!" he's looking at me with a sort of worried look on his face. Why does he care about what Felix does to me? Is he pissed because he can't cause me anymore pain for the day?

"That's not what I'm trying to do you fuck face. I want you guys to fucking stop and leave her alone. You guys have done enough to her today." Felix states.

"He's right Edward. There's always tomorrow." James replies simply.

"Yes there is, but I'd rather give him another broken nose now." I guess that explains why Felix came to school with a giant bandaged nose after Edward and I had that fight, but why would Edward get into a fight with Felix anyway? And why did it happen around the time of our fight? What the hell is going on?

"Relax man, let's go." James pulls Edward in the opposite direction to us, and Edward glances between Felix and I, but once he his eyes fix on Felix, whose back is to me, he lunges at him.

"What the fuck man!" James catches Edward, "we don't need to start a fight now, plus, you know what my old man would do to you if you gave him another broken nose, so let's go and let Felix have his fun." With that Edward quits struggling and stormsoff, but not without looking at me again. There is something in his eyes, but I don't know what it is. More than likely it's the disgust he usually has for me these days, but I'm not sure.

"I'm sorry Bella. Are you okay?"

"What kind of fucking dumb ass question is that Felix?! Would you be okay after a day like I've had, or the past fucking months I've had? You know what, I know you're trying to help me and everything, but I give up. I'm fucking done here."

I leave him there, go home and never return to that school again.

End Flashback

Beep…Beep…Beep…

Oh man, my head hurt, and what was that beeping noise? It's not really helping my headache at all.

"No, I don't want you here, get out!" I heard someone raise their voice, but at that moment I couldn't concentrate on whose voice it was or even open my eyes to check who it was.

"Edward, I am her doctor. If anyone shouldn't be here it's you! You're the one that caused her to end up here." another voice said harshly.

"I am not going anywhere until she wakes up."

"You do know that I have the power to kick you out of this hospital if you don't behave, and believe me I'll do it in a heartbeat if you don't settle down!" That voice was starting to sound oddly familiar.

"Settle down! Why should I trust you? Who knows what you're going to do when I leave this room, you could-"

"Will you two stop!" Alice yelled in a whisper at them. The room went completely silent for a moment.

"Fine, I'll be back in a little while to check on her." The familiar voice stated.

I heard Edward growl at him as his footsteps slowly faded.

"Edward, what the hell were you thinking?" Alice raised her voice, "How could you be so fucking stupid?"

"Alice, I'm sorry. I wasn't thinking. I was caught up in the moment."

"You think sorry is going to make this better?"

"You don't think I feel bad about this? You don't think that I feel guilty?" Edward snarled.

"You never have before!" I heard what I assumed was Alice stomping her foot.

"Alice, stop right there, you don't know what happened, you don't know anything."

"You're right, I don't know what happened between you two, nor do I really want to know what happened to make you guys like this. Edward, I know that you've had a hard time and have been through a lot, but she did too! You have no idea what kind of stuff she did. What she went through."

"She started it first! She deserved what she got back then for what she did to me, I mean, look what happened to me!"

"God Edward, you sound like a fucking four year old. Stop thinking you were the only victim in this, when you weren't at all!" Alice jeered.

"What did I do?" Edward sounded taken aback.

"You sent your little bitch to do your dirty work."

"What are you talking about?"

"I'm not going to sit here and tell you, this is between you and Bella, and if that little slut was still around you could ask her!"

"Yeah, but you and I know that I can't ask her now can I."

"STOP IT!" I shouted making my head hurt even more in the process and sitting up.

I couldn't take it anymore. I really didn't want to hear anymore of this shit. My brain hurt too much at the moment. I really didn't want to deal with the past now, I only wanted to focus on where I was now, and get out of the situation I was in.

I slowly opened my eyes, but the lights hurt them so I closed them and lay back down.

"I'll go get the doctor" Alice said giving Edward a dirty look as she left the room.

Once I realized Edward and I were alone in the room, I forgot my headache, sat up and grabbed whatever I could and started chucking things at him.

"You….Fucking….Asshole…" I yelled at him in between tossing pillows, magazines, and anything else I could get my hands on. Edward skilfully dodged them all, so I gave up and leant back against the bed. I guess he'll have to pay later, but I didn't know how.

"Bella, God Bella I am sooooooo…. Sorry." Edward walked a little closer to me running his hands through his still slightly green hair.

"Are you really?!" I snapped at him. I picked up more things and chucked them at him. Edward dodged another pillow but the TV remote hit him in the head.

"I guess I deserve that, but I really wasn't planning to hurt you. It's just that, I guess I got carried away in all this."

He was right. He did get carried away, we both did. We had let things go too far. You know what they say - it's all fun and games until someone gets hurt.

I let out a deep sigh.

"You think?! Maybe this is a sign telling us to stop with all of the pranks."

"You're right…, so what will we do now? Do our best with angry stares, and quick dumb ass witty remarks?"

"Yep." Edward chuckled.

"I didn't think you would get so scared."

"Yeah, because it's not at all scary when you wake up at night to a bunch of noises coming from inside your house and when you get up to investigate it, it turns out that one of your worst fears is sitting at the top of the stairs offering you candy." I said sarcastically.

"Sorry, I thought everyone loved a clown."

I punched him as hard as I could with my clenched fist but only hurt myself more in the process. I noticed that on the hand I had hit him with my finger was in a tiny cast. Great, just great, I broke my finger. How sad is that, I fall down a bunch of stairs and end up with only one broken bone and that is my god damn finger. I should be thankful that only my finger is broken, but I kind of wished it was more, and then Edward would feel even worse for scaring me nearly to death.

"You know, just because we aren't going to play pranks on each other anymore doesn't mean we're friends, or that I have to be nice to you. I still hate you." I was being really grumpy. Maybe it was because of the medication they gave me, and the fact that my head was throbbing in pain.

"Whatever floats your boat, Bella." He started to move away from the bed but patted my hand first, it shocked me. Not the fact that he touched me. It really shocked me. I felt that familiar jolt that I used to feel when we were back in school and still friends.

As he headed towards the door, I grabbed my hand and held it to my chest.

It was all in my head, just me, nothing else.

"So, you're awake!" The doctor came into the room. He looked as familiar as his voice sounded. I saw Edward give him a death stare as he left the room, and the doctor returned it.

"Do I know you?" I had to ask because it was really annoying seeing him but not fully recognizing him.

"I don't know if it's a good or bad thing that you can't remember who I am." He checked the machines around me, and then smiled, but what really gave him away were his dark hazel eyes.

"Felix?" My mouth hung open in disbelief.

"The one and only."

I didn't know what to make of this or what to do. Edward hated Felix with a fiery passion, which would explain why he was yelling at him earlier.

Felix was good looking in high school, but now, *whistles* he was pretty amazing to look at, and a doctor too. That's pretty good.

"Bella if you don't close your mouth, bugs are going to fly in it." I instantly closed my mouth.

"So, doc, what's wrong with me today?" I asked as he looked at his clipboard. I pretty much knew what was wrong-I just didn't want to sit in silence any longer.

"Well, you took a nasty fall."

"No shit Sherlock." He laughed and continued.

"You have a sprained ankle, but if you keep off of it, it should be good in the next couple of days. You have a concussion on the right side of your head, an ugly bruise under your arm that we worried there might have been internal bleeding, but that was a false alarm, and a broken finger." He pointed to everything with the end of his pencil, and then went back to writing on his clipboard. "You probably knew all that didn't you?"

"Yeah, it's kind of hard to miss when some part of you is aching as though a ton of bricks had landed on it. So when can I leave?"

"Someone is a little anxious to get out of here."

"You have no idea. This place could be a second home, although I haven't been here in awhile, surprisingly for me."

I smile tugged at the corners of his lips, "You should be released sometime tomorrow morning."

I nodded my head, "So you're a doctor now, that's pretty cool. I really didn't peg you for someone who would go into a medical field."

He folded his arms across his chest after he shoved his pen into his coat pocket, "Yeah, well, I decided that I really wanted to help people out."

"Makes sense, you helped me out in high school."

"Except in high school, I was more brutal towards the people who hurt you and mostly attacked them, rather than fixing your injuries. Maybe I should've become a hit man or something instead." He shrugged and looked out the window as if he was serious but he then smiled at me, to show me he was joking.

"Felix, why did you help me out back then? Before, I thought you hated me, so when you started sticking up for me, it didn't really make a whole lot of sense."

"Bella, I never hated you, I just didn't like the person you hung around with."

"Well, turns out I don't like him too much either." I smiled at him and we both laughed.

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For the rest of the night Felix was in and out of the room checking on me and sometimes when no one else was in the room we would sit and talk. He talked about what Medical School was like for him, and I told him that I was trying to get a degree in Fine Arts and Photography, with a minor in Sociology.

We talked about our plans for the Holiday season and what we enjoyed most about it. So far, I hadn't enjoyed any of it, apart from coloring Edward's hair. Felix told me his favorite part so far was seeing me again. I wanted to roll my eyes at him, but didn't.

We were in the middle of discussing what it was like for me working at a Doggie Hotel when Edward came into the room.

"Bella?"

"What Edward?" I was still irritated with him. I really didn't want to talk to him right then.

"Just letting you know that Emmett is signing papers so that we can go." His voice was rough and callous as he looked at Felix.

"Oh thank god."

After the papers were filled out and I said a good bye to Felix, I got my stuff together. This included a pair of crutches for use until my ankle got better, which Felix said should be by the next day if I kept off my foot for the rest of the day.

"So what did Felix say to you?" Edward asked looking down at his feet as we made our way out of the hospital.

"Nothing. Why does it matter to you anyway?"

"Because, he is an ass and I hate him. Bella, you shouldn't hang out with him again."

"Who are you to tell me what I can, and can't do? I hate you, he hates you, and you hate both of us, so I guess we're all even."

"But Bella I -"

"No Edward, I don't want to hear it. Felix stood up for me, and helped me out when you were making my life hell."

"But Bella-"

"Bella!" Felix ran towards me before we made it outside. Edward tensed beside me.

"Hey Felix."

"Bella, I was wondering, do you want to get some dinner with me? I have work until Wednesday, but then I have the night off." I thought Edward couldn't get any tenser but he did. He was begging me with his eyes to say no to Felix.

I would have given in to his intense gaze, but after he had almost killed me I wanted to get back at him, since he still seemed to hate Felix so much.

"Sure, why not?"

A great grin spread across Felix's face, as Edward ran off and burst through the hospital doors. I looked back at Alice. She looked scared and ran after Edward. Emmett and Rose looked between us, not really sure what was going on.

"Great! I will umm..Pick you up then." Felix couldn't get rid of the smile on his face.

"Yep see you then"

I left the hospital with Emmett and Rose tagging along behind me hand in hand, but going as slow as humanly possible so I ended up far in front of them. When I reached the car I heard hushed whisperings.

"Edward, it's nothing. I'll talk to her alright, but please don't do anything stupid. I don't want you to end up having to go back there because of this one thing. It's already been hard enough lying to everyone and telling them you were in New York. Please relax."

"Alice, how can you say that? It's reminding me of high school all over again, and I want to get over that, but I can't knowing he's back here and is going to be hanging around with her again."

"Bella!" I jumped in the air and Alice and Edward snapped their heads in my direction.

"You walk really fast for someone who's limping." Emmett said motioning towards my leg.

"You could've probably kept up if you and Rose didn't stop every two feet to admire each other's mouths."

"I'm sorry. It's like an amusement park in there." He cooed looking at Rose and starting to kiss her again.

"Kay, I'm going now." I made my way over to Emmett's Jeep.

This was not good.

"Why are you just standing there?" Rose asked once she and Emmett finally reached the vehicle.

"Well I kind of need help into the car. This thing is like 10 feet off the ground. Do you expect me to jump into it with a sore ankle and a broken finger?"

"Here I'll help you." Edward said from behind me, his voice toneless.

Before I could protest I felt his hands grip my waist and lift me up quickly. Edward soon followed, shutting the door behind him. The whole way back he sat as far from me and as near to the door as possible while Alice looked out the window.

"Hey Alice, where's Jasper?" I realized Jasper wasn't with us and I hadn't seen him at all.

"He had to work. He says he wants some money so that we can do something really special for Christmas." Her face lit up as she thought about what he could do. I nodded my head and looked back at Edward. He was still as far from me as possible, his eyes fixed out the window.

I thought about everything that had happened in the last few hours. There was so much going through my head I wasn't sure if I understood it all. I was sure something had happened to Edward to make him who he was now, I just didn't know what. I knew he hadn't been to New York, but then where was he? I also couldn't help feeling that a lot of this had to do with Tanya, but I also had a feeling there was a lot more that Edward wasn't even letting his own cousin know about.

AN: Whew, longest chapter yet. Sorry for any mistakes.

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