I should have updated this fic ages ago. If you read my fic The Game of Life, then you know my grandma is sick and I'm going out of town to be with her. I haven't left yet because my mom can't get off of work. We're leaving in two days. I just haven't felt like writing, but today I got the sudden desire to write. Well, yesterday I did, but then too much was happening for me to get a chance to write. Today I'm putting things off to make time for it because well, I love to write. :) Seriously, I was in the middle of doing something then randomly stopped and exclaimed to the air, "I should be writing because I am... CAMILLE CAYDEN! CUE DRAMATIC MUSIC!" Yeah... I talk to myself... Got a problem with that? XD

I do not own The Mortal Instruments, Tessa, or the devil. I do own Vicky, Ryan, Omar, and Myron.

Chapter 10

Love Me Please

Isabelle, Jace, Simon, and Tessa sat with Magnus in his living room. Tessa was helping Magnus sift through spell books in demon languages while Isabelle and Jace read spell books that were in Latin. Simon was just there for refreshments and other odds and ends since he couldn't read any of the books. Magnus had piles and piles of spells books. Several with broken spines from the times he had thrown them against his walls in frustration. So far, they weren't having much luck.

"Do you have any more spell books, Magnus?" requested Tessa with her nose stuck in one of them.

That's when memory struck him like a train wreck. He got out of his chair and raced to his room so fast that his chair tipped over. He had hid the Book of White in his room to keep it out of the eyes of others. Tessa would deeply frown at him for it being in his possession, but the Book of White was full of spells of bindings. Parabatai runes were a type of binding. Surely there was a spell in there to unbound them in it.

As he opened his closet to go through it, he heard his door close, but he was far from it. Someone had to do that. He turned away from his closet and gazed straight into burning blue eyes. Just one look at those eyes and Magnus knew that Alec was still dangerously full of Hellish Fire. It coursed through his veins and alighted his eyes with an enchanting cerulean colored fire. His skin was so pale that Magnus could see the silent dance of the flames under it.

The shock of seeing Alec standing there made Magnus freeze up and stare at him with wide eyes. Alec gave him a smile, but it was not his Alec's smile. It was closer to a smirk than a smile. He slowly moved his hand away from himself and flicked a slip of paper onto the ground beside them. Magnus didn't even look at it. He couldn't tear his eyes off of Alec. Right after he let the paper go, he brought his hand back up and snapped as he whispered words Magnus barely caught, but recognized. They were something he chanted so many times he barely even had to think about it, but never once thought they would ever come out of Alec's mouth.

A portal opened. Alec grabbed Magnus's hand to whisk him away into it. Kidnapping him, too.

Magnus slowly opened up his eyes and blinked. He glanced around, realizing he seemed be in some sort of dungeon for the walls and floor were brick and he was chained to one of them. There was a wooden door in front of him with bars at the top. At first he thought the reason he could see was because of his night vision, but after a few moments, he realized there was lighting in the corner by a heap of clothes. That couldn't be right. Magnus blinked a few more times. There was a pain at the back of his head. Had he hit his head on something?

"Alec?" he croaked. His voice sounded very raspy. How long had he been out?

The heap of clothes stirred then picked its head up. A small circle of enchanting blue fire danced their silent dance around him.

"You've been out for awhile now," he muttered. The fire shined in his eyes and made them appear even more blue.

"How long is that?"

"I don't know."

Magnus frowned and looked at his chains. They were a good length. He could wrap his arms around himself and still have plenty of chain left. It was probably so he could go to the other side of the room with ease. "You sure say that a lot."

A small smile tugged at the corners of Alec's lips as he fiddled with the frayed ends of his pants. Today his clothes were closer to his usual ones, but not exactly the same and his face was clean. "It doesn't matter how long you've been here already because you aren't leaving."

Magnus narrowed his eyes. "What do you mean by that?"

Alec looked straight into his eyes as he answered, "Because we are going to be together forever now."

Magnus didn't reply. He just stared at him in shock as Alec got up and walked over to him. He sat on his lap and ran his hand along his cheek.

"You can't leave me now. Not ever again," he continued in the silence.

"You clearly aren't in the right state of mind," Magnus finally stated.

Alec jolted off of Magnus's lap and across the room at that. Hellish Fire creeped in the corners, making their presence ever known.

"You never understand me! You never listen to me! You always make my decisions for me!" he fumed as he paced all over the room like a caged animal. "You said I betrayed you, but you betrayed me first. You said you loved me, yet you never opened up to me. You said I wasn't trivial, but you have never done anything to prove that to me. How am I suppose to trust and love you when I don't really know who you are? I don't know you're real name. I don't know your age. I didn't know where you were from until I asked Camille. I didn't know who your father was until he came to me and told me. Did you think I would stop loving you if I knew you were the son of the devil? Do you really think I'm that shallow? I want to know these details about you because I want to know you. They won't change how I feel about you.

"I went to Camille because she once loved you, Magnus, and I was lonely. I have never been in a relationship and I have no idea how to keep one together. I couldn't ask Isabelle because she's just as clueless as I am. She doesn't know anything about love. I couldn't ask Jace because he was too busy being new best buddies with my little brother's murderer. I was alone, Magnus.

"Then Camille came along and she's offered to make you mortal. Yeah, I thought about it because she caught me in a moment of weakness, but I couldn't do that to you. I couldn't take something away from you that was rightfully yours since birth. I wanted to be with you, but I knew going through her wasn't the right way. I kept going back to Camille after I made that decision because she was someone to talk to about you and about love even though most of her dating advice didn't make much sense to me. She helped me sift through matters that I never thought I was ever going to have to deal with.

"Do you know what my plan was? It was to love Jace from afar because he was straight and could never possibly love me back and get a lot of cats. That way I would never have to come out. That was my plan. Then you came along and screwed it up. Truthfully, I think the reason Camille told you about what we were doing was because I was driving her nuts with all my questions and not doing what she wanted."

By the time Alec was done with that speech, he was gasping and crying. It didn't make sense. At this stage, Hellish Fire should block all his emotions besides his anger and hatred.

"That's the most I've ever heard you say," Magnus said after a few moments of stunned silence.

"That's all you can say?" Alec yelled.

Magnus's eyes softened. "No. Why didn't tell me all that earlier when I asked?"

"I tried, Magnus. Then you broke up with me and my whole world came crashing down and the words got lost. You never gave me a chance to explain. You were so sure that what Camille said we were doing was the only thing that was happening."

Magnus looked at Alec sadly. "I didn't think anything else could be happening."

"That's why I said you never understand me."

Magnus thought back to what Alec had said. "You said five things I don't do. We've only answered four of those. I don't understand you being this. I don't listen to you being I was listening to Camille. I don't open up to you being the obvious. I never showed you that you weren't trivial by all of those combined. What about I make decisions for you?"

This time Alec looked sad. More of morbid actually. "You won't let me become immortal. Isn't it my choice what I do with my life span? Isn't that the reason you broke up with me? That issue right there? Just in reverse?"

Magnus looked at Alec in surprise. He had never thought of it that way. "Forever is a long time."

Alec frowned. "Do you not want me forever?"

"It's not that. You have family, Alec. If you were to become immortal, you would have to watch them grow old and die while you stay young. If you became immortal, you wouldn't be a Shadowhunter anymore. Do you really want that?"

Alec slowly walked over to Magnus and knelt down before he threw his arms around him. "I'll be fine if you're with me. I just don't want to grow old while you stay young. It's the only thing keeping you with me."

Magnus leaned away from him and grabbed his chin to look into his eyes despite the light burning he was receiving from touching him.

"What are you talking about, Alexander?"

"Camille said you were only with me because I was young and beautiful, but as soon as I grow old, you'll leave me."

"That's bullshit, Alexander. I love you. Not because you are young and beautiful. I love you because you are sweet and kind. Loyal and innocent. And so straightforward. You put others first. You do good in this world. I only do things if it benefits me. You do them like it's second nature. I love your blush and the way you have no fashion sense. No matter what you look like, Alexander, you are beautiful to me."

Alec graced Magnus with one of his blushes that he loved so much and in that instant, he knew that there was hope in getting Alec back. He should have known after talking so much with him, but seeing that blush was solid proof that his Alec was still somewhere inside of him.

"What other so called dating advice did Camille give you?" Magnus requested. Whatever she told him couldn't have been good. It probably helped wedge the space between them.

Alec tilted his head in thought. "She said that the reason you weren't opening up to me was because there should be some mystery in relationships to keep it interesting. So I tried to put some in it."

Alec tried to be mysterious? Magnus thought back to around the time Alec had to have been seeing Camille. He had to think hard to connect two and two together, but once he did, it clicked.

"I caught you coming home after a visit from Camille once and I asked you where you were. You said you went to mysterious places," Magnus replied incredulously. He was almost in disbelief that was Alec's attempt of mystery. Surely he was over thinking things.

"No good?"

Magnus smacked his head against the wall behind him causing black spots to appear in his vision for a few moments from the bruise that was probably on the back of his head that was most likely the reason he had passed out in the first place. Of course that was his attempt. "No good."

A small smile was playing at the corners of Alec's lips. "I think it was a good attempt. We did make love after it after a long time of celibacy."

Magnus smiled a little at that. When he had realized where Alec was going during the night, he had felt that time was a little bit tainted. Now not so much. "That we did, but it wasn't really mysterious. It was more of cute. Even more now that I know that was your attempt of mystery. You don't need to put any mystery in our relationship, though. It's fine how it is. I don't see why you thought it was a good idea to get dating advice from my ex. Obviously I'm not dating her anymore for a reason."

He stroked Alec's hair. The burning hurt, but it was worth it.

"But you weren't opening up to me, so I thought I was doing something wrong. That's why I was trying something else."

"You weren't doing anything wrong, sweetheart. I just have problems with opening up."

Alec pulled a little bit away and looked into Magnus's eyes.

"I know people have hurt you in the past, but you can trust me. I won't hurt you."

Alec ran his hand along Magnus's cheek. It burned and reminded him he might very well hurt him. Who knows how long this Alec might last? This Alec was very close to his Alec, but still not quite right. Any moment, he might be Lucifer's lover again. The chains that bound him had magical qualities to them. They burned his wrists and when Alec changes back, he will most definitely be in danger.

"You know, when you talk about our relationship, you talk about it in present tense," Alec said after a few moments of silence.

"That's because I still love you. I told you that you are the last person I will ever love. When will you believe me?"

Alec gave him a breathtaking smile before he pressed a burning kiss to his lips. Magnus was at least going to enjoy the Alec that still loved him while he could. Even if that Alec wasn't completely right in the head. He did kidnap him and lock him up after all.

Why Alec has emotions he shouldn't have is going to be explained later on. Just be patient. But look, they are together now! In a messed up sort of way...

In other news, I was in my backyard today picking blackberries from my blackberry bush when my dog comes up and tries to eat them. Off the bush. That has thorns. Guess how well that worked out? XD

~Camille Cayden