Previously on End of Time: Either a) I was dead or b) I was the last person on the planet. I didn't like either option.
BPOV
Now that I had my options I needed to figure out which was true. I thought back to the last time I saw Edward. What had happened? If I could figure out what happened I would be able to fix it. I had just put out a fire. I went and sat in Edward's lap. He had started laughing about something. But I didn't hear his laughter. I had just felt him shaking. And it was very very short. It was only like a second long and then I woke up here. So maybe he wasn't laughing maybe it was an earthquake. Maybe a piece of ceiling fell and I got hurt. That was it I was dead. Great! Out of nowhere I saw a bright light. My grandmother walked out of it. She walked right over and got in the car.
"Am I dead Grandma?" I asked.
"No dear. You are in the middle. You have to find your way back home before it's too late. You are in between the land of living and dead. Hurry now find your way home." She instructed.
"How do I go home Grandma?" I asked.
"You have to find your heart. Once you find it you will be home." She told me.
"But Grandma where am I supposed to look?" I questioned.
"Where ever you've always been truly happy." She told me.
"But-"I started.
"I have to go dear. I love you." She said.
She walked back into the light and I was stunned. What did she mean by `find your heart'? I had to find the one place I was truly happy. Edward's arms were an option but he wasn't anywhere to be found. The Cullen house was an option but I had already been there. The meadow maybe. I stepped on the gas and sped off towards Forks. I turned on my iPod and listened to Matchbox 20; how far we've come.
I'm waking
up at the start of the end of the world,
but its feeling just like
every other morning before,
now I wonder what my life is going to
mean if it's gone,
the cars are moving like a half a mile an hour
and I
started staring at the passengers who're waving goodbye
can
you tell me what was ever really special about me all this
time
chorus: I think it turned ten
o'clock but I don't really know I believe the world is burning
to the ground Well I,
believe, it all, is coming to an end its gone gone baby it's all gone but I
believe the world is burning to the ground
but
I believe the world is burning to the ground
oh well I guess we're
gonna find out
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far
we've come
Well I, believe, it all, is coming to an end
oh
well, I guess, we're gonna pretend,
let's see how far we've
come
let's see how far we've come
then I can't remember caring for
an hour or so
started crying and I couldn't stop myself
I
started running but there's nowhere to run to
I sat down on the
street and took a look at myself
said where you going man you know
the world is headed for hell
say your goodbyes if you've got
someone you can say goodbye to
oh well I guess we're gonna find out
let's see
how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
oh well, I guess, we're gonna
pretend,
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've
come
there is no one on
the corner and there's no one at home
it was cool cool, it was
just all cool
now it's over for me and it's over for you
well
its gone gone baby it's all gone
there is no one on the corner
and there's no one at home
well it was cool cool, it was just all
cool
now it's over for me and it's over for you
oh well I guess we're
gonna find out
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far
we've come
Well I, believe, it all, is coming to an end
oh
well, I guess, we're gonna pretend,
let's see how far we've
come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've
come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've
come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've
come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
That song was just too appropriate. Even with my iPod on shuffle mode it still played that song. And it's the end of the world. I seriously needed to talk to somebody before I lost my mind. The next song that started playing was I hate my life by Theory of a Deadman.
So
sick of the hobos always begging for change I hate how my
wife is always up my ass I hate my job, all of my
rich friends How
come I never get laid, nice guys always lose. I hate my job,
all of my rich friends I hate that I can't tell when a girl's underage, So if you're pissed like me I hate my job, all of my rich
friends So much at
stake, can't catch a break
I don't like how I
gotta work and
And they just sit around and get paid
I hate all
of the people who can't drive their cars.
Bitch you better get
outta the way
Before I start falling apart
She always wants to buy brand new
things
But I don't have the cash.
I hate everyone to the bitter end.
Nothing turns
out right, there's no end in sight
I hate my life!
How could she have
another headache
There's always some kind of excuse
I still
hate my job, my boss is a dick
"I don't get paid nearly
enough
To put up with all of his shit"
I hate everyone to the bitter end.
Nothing
turns out right, there's no end in sight
I hate my life!
Yeah!
You
know, I tell her she's a nice piece of ass,
Then her daddy
punches me in the face
Bitches,
here's what you gotta do
Put your middle fingers up in the air
Go
on and say "Fuck you!"
I hate everyone to the bitter end.
Nothing turns out
right There's no end in sight
I hate my life!
I hate my life
No, it's nothing new
hear "it sucks to be you"
I fuckin hate my life
The next song that started playing was This Afternoon by Nickelback. The song did not sound familiar at all. I would kill Emmett when I got back.
Oh, looking like another Bob
Marley day We got weeds in the backyard,
four feet tall Beer bottles laying
on the kitchen floor Better
hang on if you're tagging along Get up and
go out, me and all my friends Landlord
says I should buy a tent Down on
the corner in a seedy bar Better hang on if you're
tagging along Get up and go out, me
and all my friends Wear a wristwatch and alarm clock to see what time
it ends It's not a human walk, it's the human race Better hang on if you're tagging along Get up and go out, me and all my friends Just sitting around, hanging out this afternoon Just sitting around, hanging out this afternoon
Hitting from the bong like a diesel train
And now
we're hanging out this afternoon
Cheech and Chong probably would have smoked them
all
So, I'm on the couch this afternoon
If we take them out back, we can buy some
more
So I doubt we're going out this afternoon, oh
'Cause we'll be doing this till
six in the morning
Nothing wrong with going all night long
Time
to put the brakes on, doesn't matter when you gotta
Drink up, fall down, we'll do it all
again
Just sitting around, hanging out this afternoon
But he can kiss my ass 'cause I paid the
rent
So I doubt, he'll kick me out this afternoon
Jukebox cranking out the CCR
Had a
few to Suzie Q this afternoon, oh
'Cause we'll be doing this till six in the
morning
Nothing wrong with going all night long
Time to put the
brakes on, doesn't matter when you gotta
Drink up, fall down, we'll do it all again
Get
up, go out, me and all my friends
Drink up, fall down, we'll do it
all again, yeah
Just sitting around, hanging out this
afternoon
From the moment I wake up, I just love being with my
friends
We barely get by, but have the best times and hope it
never ends
We drink all day until we fall down, so we can do it
all again
If we
were living on the edge, taking too much space
So I'll doubt I'll
figure out just what to do
But to kicking around, hanging out this
afternoon, oh
'Cause
we'll be doing this till six in the morning
Nothing wrong with
going all night long
Time to put the brakes on, doesn't matter
when you gotta
Drink
up and fall down, we'll do it all again, yeah
Get up and go out,
me and all my friends
Drink up and fall down, we'll do it all
again
Just
sitting around, hanging out this afternoon
Just sitting around,
hanging out this afternoon
Just sitting around, hanging out this
afternoon
Just
sitting around, hanging out this afternoon
The rest of the way home I listened to stupid songs. When I got back to Forks I headed straight for the meadow. When I got there I saw my Greek god.
"Why didn't you answer when I called you?" I asked.
"All I can do in this life is sit on this rock and talk. I am not allowed to answer my phone. If I had you would've died." He explained.
I walked forward and sat in his lap. At that second I found a huge vacuum pulling me. What the hell is going on?