Epilogue….

Inuyasha sat at his large oak desk in the middle of his home office working on work papers that needed to be done. Another year had passed by rather quickly and he had work to catch up on. He sighed and began to file all the papers away. Kikyo walked in and peeked her head in the door. He looked up and gave her a small smile before standing to kiss her cheek. "Is it time?"

"Yes." She said, smiling at him walking to the car to take the long drive to their marriage counselor.

He and Kikyo had made up not long after the discovery of the twins. They knew that the chapter in their lives that had come back and destroyed them had to be opened again and closed peacefully, every dirty little secret and every dirty little deed.

They pulled up and Inuyasha dropped Kikyo off, He parked the car, stepped out, and walked slowly to the office building. "I'm sorry everything is the way it is Kags…" He said looking up in the sky. 'Where ever you are.' He thought, sighing. His cell phone went off and he answered swiftly moving a loose strand of hair out of his face.

"Inuyasha?"

"Yes, Sango and Rin?" He replied leaning his back against the building already knowing who was on the other end of his phone.

"Is everything ok with Ai and Aoi? How are they?"

"They are fine … I am on the way to marriage counseling… I will…"

"Inuyasha!" Rin squealed, while laughing at the yelling Sesshomaru. "Sorry, he is having a little trouble with Aki." Rin giggled. "He said to tell you hello and that he wants to see the twins again."

"You guys just found out about them and you are in love with them now?" Inuyasha was standing by the door of the building smiling.

"Well duh!" Sango said. "They are… the last thing of Kagome we have left…" Everyone grew silent. They felt awkward and bad talking about her. It was still fresh and they didn't want to deal with it just yet, even though they all were going to have to when the twins got older.

"I've got to go guys, but I will bring the twins by soon." Everyone said their byes and Inuyasha hung up the phone, and released a breath of air, and looked at the picture of the twins and him. He caressed the picture and slid it back in his wallet. He stepped into the office building finally and walked into the room. "Hello doctor." Inuyasha said in a business like tone.

"Well hello there, Inuyasha. I thought you weren't coming." The doctor said with a chuckle. Inuyasha smiled and took a seat. He didn't like the shrink and now he understood how Kagome felt, but the difference was he knew it was for the best.

"How are things with Kikyo?" The counselor started off.

"Well she is still mad that I had the affair with Kagome… she went to the extreme to get a sperm donor for the child she is carrying now… but I mean I deserved that. I'm dealing with my problems… even though I wish I could have helped Kagome get better… Kikyo does to. We are working together to make our marriage work… but I believe she may want to get a divorce..." He sighed looking out the window to stare at a white dove that fluttered by. The doctor nodded and looked at Inuyasha before speaking.

"So Inuyasha… care to tell me about Kagome?" His doctor asked with an earnest face, sitting behind is large oak desk. He knew that Inuyasha avoided talking about her. He always had this painful look on his face whenever he did. He folded his fingers together and looked at him. He hoped he would actually open the chapter so it can be fixed.

"She was a dear friend of mine. As well as my school day sweet heart… Um… We dated until we lost contact. I heard she was dead... and then discovered she wasn't…" Inuyasha looked at his doctor, chewing the inside of his cheek.

"And how do you feel about her death?"

"It hurts… I should have been there to protect her… but... I wasn't… I was sleeping with her sister... Kikyo… at the time when she was sexually abused I was... Then I married Kikyo…" Inuyasha sighed feeling the pain rise up in his throat and the tears build up in his eyes. He sniffed and cleared his throat.

"Did Kagome believe Kikyo did it on purpose?" The doctor asked taking notes.

"I don't know what she thought anymore." Inuyasha sighed and leaned back in the chair he sat in. "By the time she told me she was… not there mentally…But... in my heart… I think it was her breaking point…"

"What do you mean?"

Inuyasha sighed and looked at him. "She was mentally unstable. Some of the things she said were true; some of the things she said weren't true… Her mind was protecting her... I guess…. But it was her down fall… I walked in the room and saw her... you know so her mother wouldn't have to... Kikyo was with me… It was hard for both of us… Kikyo told me... some things…"

Inuyasha's counselor looked at him urging him to continue. Inuyasha closed his eyes trying to get the mental picture out of his head.

"What did Kikyo say?"

Inuyasha's bottom lip trembled. "She said… that Kagome had called her when she went in… and said that… their father was in the room. But their father had a heart attack a long time ago… she said that he was trying to hurt her then the phone went dead… That was before she died… Kikyo couldn't tell me anymore… she broke down… I hated seeing here there…."

The doctor nodded his head and looked at the sad eyed man sitting before him. He didn't know what to say. This man was broken about things in his life and there was so much to say yet no real question could even begin. "When did you and Kagome meet…"He asked cautiously.

"Ok… from the beginning. Kikyo and I are… well were... 3 years older than Kagome… Everyone thought something was wrong with Kagome since she rarely spoke. Kikyo and I stood up for her all the time. Kikyo was like her best friend. Kagome blamed Kikyo when her mother pushed her out of the house to live with her father. So she stayed with my family. Everything was fine and we had been dating for 2 years… our relationship was deep… we were in love… you know… Last time she and I did anything sexual she was 15… I had to leave for a business boarding school and I promised Kagome I would be with her and protect forever... I couldn't though." He sighed and ran his fingers through his shaggy hair. It was shorter and laid on his shoulders. He reached in his pocket and retrieved a small diamond ring. It the promise ring he had given to Kagome so she would have something to remember him with. He took a second to breathe before continuing.

"I gave her this before I left… after we made love… she cried when she saw it and told me she would wait for me until I came back….I landed safely and talked to Kagome every day. Well, one day Kikyo ended up meeting me and said that their father wrote them a letter saying Kagome died, and he wasn't going to have a funeral or anything… her family was crushed… I was devastated… It took me a long time to get over it… but it had to be worse for her mother. Her mother had actually realized what she had done… but I later find out that when Kagome turned 16 she went back to her mother's house. Her mother was more than happy to see her. Kagome never left her sight and she kept Kagome's safety and whereabouts to herself and the exception of Souta that was until Kagome began to say that her father and grandfather sexually abused her. Mrs. Higurashi didn't believe her daughter so she sent her to the mental hospital. The one that recently shut down for all the patients being sexually abused and molested…"

He sighed. It took him a while to continue without his throat hurting due to the large lump that had grown in it. Inuyasha inhaled deeply before continue.

"Her mother had a sexual relationship with the doctor and allowed him to do things to Kagome… after a while she stopped it and protected Kagome… I don't know why she did so late… well... Kagome applied to work for Kikyo and I and we accepted her. Kikyo said she thought she knew her, but she didn't recognize her sister and the last thing we heard was that Kagome was dead… And now... she really is... and my wife and I couldn't save her because something had rotted her soul… Kikyo and I went to check on her mother after Kagome was admitted where we discovered that I was a father… of twins… Kagome didn't even know they survived… No one could save Kagome… a life filled with torture… and I said I would protect her and I didn't… But a life full of torture ripped her out of our lives… out of our hearts…" Inuyasha bite at the dead skin of his lower lip. "I feel bad… you know..." Inuyasha's voice broke. "I feel bad for not protecting her and actually coming back to protect her… for not falling deeper in love with her… I still love her… that's why I want to get over her... since Kikyo and I want to be healthy… we want to raise the twins… and the baby that's on the way…we might name her Kagome… since she meant the world to us…"

The doctor stared at him in disbelief. He cleared his throat. "I … uh ... I heard there is an investigation on Kagome's death… what do you think?"

Inuyasha laughed a little. "They should let her rest in peace…. She would never hurt anyone… and the fact that her father ripped our children away from her and did those things to her… she just… needs to rest... but if someone killed her… I hope they catch him, mainly for Kikyo's sake and my comfort…I hope… that he understands the pain he put us through… but... I honestly…believe she lost control and did it to herself…"

"What makes you say that?"

"Kagome and Kikyo were close, like I said they were best friends. Kikyo would do anything for Kagome and vice versa. Kikyo felt distraught after this discovery. She also feels the way I do and wished we could have been there for Kagome and helped her. Kikyo felt that as her older sister that it was her duty to protect her sister, but I made the promise, if I would have come back sooner to check on her… I dun no. Maybe she would be living her life…and the fact that when I looked in her eyes and saw nothing... like she was a corpse …I knew that something bad may happen…I just wish she could have had the chance to be living her life happily…"

"With you…?" Inuyasha looked at his doctor for a moment and shrugged. He fingered the small diamond in his hand. He didn't know the 'what if's' of mazes in love and with life. It ate him up inside and he felt selfish for wanting that life that he neglected.

"I can't tell what would have happened in the past and I can't tell the future... I just... want to be a good husband to Kikyo… and a good father to Ai and Aoi…"

The counselor raised an eyebrow. He smiled a little, "Your son and daughter?"

Inuyasha smiled and nodded.

"Ai looks like her… when she was younger. She is just beautiful…breathtakingly beautiful. She has a pure heart and reminds me of flowers. She dances like an angel sings like a goddess and when she gets angry… the whole world will know. She is a force that will make you understand about life's little gifts just like Kagome did." He smiled, then continued describing the twins. "And Aoi... he has her eyes and her spirit. He is quiet just like her but when he speaks it's on a level like mine... He doesn't get angry often but when he does he is a silent but deadly force. I made the mistake of doing that when I first met him. That's when I had to tell him about their mother... he was the first one to come see me… He is a curious kid… but he cried… he cried and punched at me and I let him… I couldn't help but to cry to because he never had the chance to be with his mother…When I told Ai... she cried like a baby and I held her whispering to her that everything would be ok…She got mad then and I got to see both their tempers and I allowed it… they needed to get it off their chest somehow… They stay with their uncle Souta, but Souta is giving me custody… the court has issued a DNA test and everything." Inuyasha said with a smile on his face.

"Do you think it will be hard to be a father to your kids if they remind you of their mother so much? How often do you see them?"

"No. I love them with all of my heart, and I loved their mother the same." Inuyasha sighed once more and stare the doctor in the eyes. "Souta is a good uncle. He brings them over every day to spend time with me. Last time I saw them was last night and this morning on a webcam chat with Souta because Ai wanted her daddy." He smiled and then it faded. "I had to compose myself a couple of times because it reminded me of the times where Kagome would run to me crying because her parents fought…. Kami knows how much I loved her…" Inuyasha covered his face trying to fight back the tears feeling the pain and torment rip through his body. He let the tears fall. "Aoi had taken her toy and said that I loved him more so she was upset about it. I calmed her down and told her that after I was done at the doctors I would come get them and I and their aunty Kiki will take them to the park. She asked me if I loved their mother and thought she was beautiful. I said yes and told her that I loved their mother with as much love as I can give just like I love them. She smiled and said she loved me and got off to go make fun of Aoi." Inuyasha laughed and wiped his eyes. He looked at the doctor with a loving smile as he thought about his children.

"Where does this leave Kikyo in your life?"

"My supportive wife, I love her. No doubt about it. I just… I just loved them both… don't ask… I was young… But I want to make things work with my wife even though we plan on ending the marriage. No matter how bad I fucked up…I will always be in love with Kagome… I know it's messed up but she was and always will be my first love… And Kikyo is my love. She is the wife that I would have wanted when I got old if Kagome wouldn't have shown up, not that I am blaming her. I'm just glad Kikyo is sticking by me with all this that is going on. After seeing Kagome the way we did the last time… and after seeing Kikyo break the way she did… I know that we were destined to be together if something like this happened. We both admitted it. She was mad when I told her how I felt about Kagome... but then she realized it was inevitable. When we met the twins she was shocked and left for a minute to cry…anyways… we ended up losing the baby… when Kagome snapped… we don't blame her even though some people say we should. It wasn't all her fault that she went insane like she did…" Inuyasha grimaced. "She looked at me and said that we can make something work for the twins. They need a mother figure in their life and she knew how much help I would need." He looked up at the doctor who smiled at him before writing his last note.

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Ok so i finally have full access to this site and i wanted to edit this. Thank you to my Beta Anna for helping me with this chapter and giving me tips. (I apologize for not typing this in my story when i had it published.) Thank you to the readers and the reviewers your feedback meant the world to me and helped me figure out how i wanted to end it. To Yennie chan who wanted something similar to this to be written and the only person who read the ending before it was published and even read by my beta lol. Thank you to those who have alerted and favorited this story. All in all if your reading this now have ever read and/ or reviewed thank you so very much and i will have another story as soon as I can complete it. =] till next time.

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