Lost and Found
Disclaimer – sadly I do not own Twilight or its characters . . . oh a girl can wish
Bella is human, the Cullen's are vampires.
You need to find "Just Dance" by Lady GaGa for this chapter . . . the drama gets good
He grinned before taking a deep bow as the whole room exploded into applause for him. Instead of getting of the stage he looked at me and beckoned me up. I wasn't going to go but Rose actually removed me from my seat and pushed me to the stage.
"Bella and I are going to sing a song that you all will enjoy. You have to get up and dance to this song." He yelled down his microphone. The room went wild. I got onto the stage and glared at him. He whispered the song into my ear.
"Fine. I'm still mad at you though!" I snapped at him down the microphone before turning to face the room. I glared at Alice for not telling me the song. She beamed at me.
"Right people. You have to get up and dance as we are going to be singing "Just dance" by Lady GaGa." I screamed down the microphone as the room went crazy and people started to jump up and get to the middle of the floor where there were no chairs.
Jacob held his hand out for me and I took it. He spun me as I started to sing. He beamed at me and just smirked at him.
(AN:Bella - Jacob)
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GaGa, oh-oh, eh
I've had a little bit too much, much
All of the people start to rush, start to rush by
How does he twist the dance? Can't find a drink; oh man
Where are my keys? I lost my phone, phone.
We started to dance together. It's a good job Edward didn't have a right to be mad at me right now or he would have dragged me off the stage the way Jacob and I were grinding.
What's going on on the floor?
I love this record baby but I can't see straight anymore
Keep it cool, what's the name of this club?
I can't remember but it's alright, a-alright
Just dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, gonna be okay, d-d-d-dance
Dance, dance, just, j-j-just dance
I glared at Jacob for the next bit and he winked at me. I stopped dancing with him and twisted and spun around the stage causing my family . . . Emmett . . . to scream and cheer my name.
Wish I could shut my playboy mouth, oh oh oh-oh
How'd I turn my shirt inside out? Inside outright.
Control your poison babe, roses have thorns they say
And we're all getting hosed tonight, oh oh oh-oh.
What's going on on the floor?
I love this record baby but I can't see straight anymore
Keep it cool, what's the name of this club?
I can't remember but it's alright, a-alright.
Just dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, gonna be okay, d-d-d-dance
Dance, dance, just, j-j-just.
He moved his hand up and down like he was showing me off. I spun around before we started to grind together again.
When I come through on the dance floor checkin' out that catalog
Can't believe my eyes, so many women without a flaw
And I ain't gon' give it up, steady tryin' to pick it up like a car
I'ma hit it, I'ma hit it and flex and do it until tomorr' yeah
Shawty I can see that you got so much energy
The way you're twirlin' up them hips 'round and 'round
And now there's no reason at all why you can't leave here with me
In the meantime stay and let me watch you break it down
He sang that part glaring at someone in the audience. I ignored that and hit his arm but managed to make it look like it was part of the dance. He smirked at me before raising his eyebrows.
And dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmmWoo! Let's go!
Just dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, gonna be okay, d-d-d-dance
Dance, dance, just, j-j-just dance
I leant over the stage as I sang the next part; I watched as everyone went crazy and were dancing like we were in a club. My eyes flashed to Edward and he just smiled slowly at me.
Half psychotic, sick, hypnotic.
Got my blueprint, it's symphonic.
Half psychotic, sick, hypnotic.
Got my blueprint electronic.
Half psychotic, sick, hypnotic.
Got my blueprint, it's symphonic.
Half psychotic, sick, hypnotic.
Got my blueprint electronic.
I grabbed his arm before moving around him.
Go! Use your muscle, carve it out, work it, hustle
I got it, just stay close enough to get it
Don't slow! Drive it, clean it, lights out, bleed it
Spend the lasto
(I got it)
In your pocko
(I got it)
Just dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, gonna be okay, d-d-d-dance
Dance, dance, just, j-j-just dance
He took my hand and we both took a large bow once people stopped dancing. They clapped and screamed. Some random music started to play and everyone carried on dancing like we were at a club not at school.
Jacob grabbed my arm and pulled me outside. It was silent apart from our breathing. I looked at him questionably as he started to pace back and forth in front of me.
"Do you still love him?" he demanded. His voice was strong but I could see he felt week.
I knew the answer to that, I didn't need to think about it . . . and it annoyed me.
"Yes. For some reason I do love him." I told him honestly. Jacob sighed before pulling me into his arms and giving me a huge hug.
"If he or any of them ever hurt you again, you come to me or go to your dad's house. I'll meet you there if I have to. You should give him hell, you know." He breathed into my ear. I nodded not trusting my voice.
"Jacob I love you too, just not like I love him. I swear that if anything does happen to me, I'll come find you." I told him honestly. He smiled slowly at me his eyes glistened like he had just figured something out.
"Good." He sighed at me. He turned back to school but I stayed put. "Coming in, or what?" he asked.
"Or what." I answered. He nodded before walking back into school.
I just started to walk around, not thinking about anything but the cold wind that was hitting my face. I longed for someone to be here, someone to wrap their arms around me. I could picture Edward doing that but that caused my heart to shudder and splutter.
He says he loves me but he was kissing her. It was so much more alive then the kisses we share, it wasn't so safe and thought-out. They kissed in the moment. Sure Edward and I had sex and a lot of it . . . I wonder if they had sex. If they did it wouldn't have been so careful it would have been in the moment and wild.
Maybe he loved her and was waiting for her and I was just to pass the time. Maybe he believed he loved me but really he doesn't. Maybe he realised that Tanya was his soul mate . . . what if they are mates?
I don't know if I could handle him leaving me also. All the people I love leave. Before I could stop my self I was crying again. I leaned against one of the trees that surrounded school and rested my head on my knees as my tears soaked them.
I felt someone wrap their arms around me and hold me to them. It didn't take me long till I realised it was Edward. The electric sensation raced through me and I hated it.
I started to hit him, I moved me legs down so I could easily turn and hit his chest. Pain started to shoot from my hands as I slapped and thumped him. I knew I wasn't causing him any pain but it helped me get my anger out. He took each hit and just held me closer to him.
"Why did you do it?" I whispered once I stopped hitting him. I swear I've almost broken my hands. My voice broke as I pictured them together again. I stopped crying but kept my head buried in his chest. I didn't want to see him but I wanted him to be here.
"She said she would stop being a bitch to you, she said that she would leave you . . . us alone if I did it. I thought it would be better in the long run for you, I didn't want her making you feel bad . . . obviously it didn't work like that." He mumbled into my ear.
My head snapped up and I looked him dead in the eyes. His golden eyes still looked dead but pain was covering them.
"You kissed her to stop her being a bitch to me?" my voice was heavy with the disbelieve I felt. His eyes were dead again but seemed to burn with something I couldn't understand.
"I am telling the truth Bella." He said slowly.
"How do you expect me to believe that!? I came home last night to see my boyfriend the person that I love; kissing a person he used to sleep with when no one else was home. If you saw me kissing Jacob . . . no she isn't even the same as Jacob, if you saw me kissing Mike. How would you feel? Would you believe what ever I said to you Edward, would you?" I yelled at him. My words jumped out fast and full on venom. He looked down before shaking his head.
"Then how do you expect me to believe you? You wouldn't believe me and I haven't even slept with Mike, and I only slept with Jacob once . . . I know you must of slept with Tanya more then once!" I told him. I hit him again and he took it.
"I don't know Bella. Do you think you can forgive me or even trust me?" he asked. He sounded so upset and weak. I hated myself for what I was about to say. I couldn't. How was I supposed to go out with someone I can't trust? I love him, with all my heart but I don't trust him.
"No, I don't think I'll ever trust you Edward." I whispered. I moved closer to him, knowing that soon I would never be doing this again. He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me to his chest. He was taking deep breaths. We both knew what was going to happen soon.
"I'm going to fight for your trust Bella." He spoke slowly and his voice was hard with determination. I just nodded into his chest. I felt him kiss the top of my head.
"I love you Bells, I'm so sorry I screwed this up!" if vampires could cry I'm sure he would be crying. I could feel tears streaming down my cheeks. My heart was breaking all over again and my head was screaming at me; it was telling me to stop what I'm about to do!
"I love you to Edward but I can't be with you at the moment." I whispered when we both knew we couldn't put it off any more. I tilted my head up and looked him dead in the eyes. His eyes held sorrow, pain and regret. I gently placed my lips to his cold lips. The image of him kissing Tanya flashed into my head and I pulled away gasping.
His eyes widened and he dropped his arms from around me. I wanted him to promise it would be okay, that we would be together again soon and that it would be perfect again. I wanted him to tell me; it was all in my head that none of it ever happened. He couldn't promise or tell me anything.
I pushed my self of the floor at the same time he did. We walked silently side by side to the door. I turned to face him before we went in.
"I don't think I'll ever be able to hate you Edward." I told him honestly. It felt like I needed to tell him that. His head shot around to look at me. His eyes seemed ablaze with emotions. He nodded and we both slipped into the room.
People were still dancing; the music sounded like it was my un-even heart beat. It was giving me a killer headache. Happiness flowed from them all. I resented them for it. My family were watching us. We looked at each other for a second before going separate ways. I walked left and went to Jacob, leaving my heart at the door. He went right and went to Alice. They all watched with wide eyes. The Cullen's watched in horror – they hated Edward for what he did but they never expected us to not be together. Jacob looked happy and it made me feel sick.
I got to Jacob and before he could say anything or pull me into a hug. I talked.
"I'm going home. I'll ring you later Jacob." I sighed before kissing his cheek and walking out that stupid fucking door.
I walked home. I felt empty. It was like I had no reason for being anymore. I had everything I had wanted and I threw it away. I let him go. I really am fucked up. The only sound was my feet hitting the cold and wet floor or the odd miss beats as I tripped over air and stabled myself before I fell completely.
Before I knew it I was sat in my living room. Esme came into the room. She sighed before sitting next to me; she took one of my hands in her cold comforting hands. She didn't say anything as I broke down and cried into her shoulder.
"I left him Esme. I said I couldn't do it. Why did I do that?" I sobbed at her. She started to stroke my hair and she gently patted my back.
"It's just something you have to work through. You two are meant to be, you have just hit a rather nasty bump." She sighed. I smiled at her before rubbing my eyes.
"I hope your right." I told her as I rose from the sofa.
"I'm going to go have a shower. If school rings can you tell them I'm ill and came home early." I asked whilst walking up to my . . . our . . . room.
"Sure dear!" Esme called.
I got to the door and it was open again. I shuddered at the memories but pushed them away as I remembered the times Edward and I had spent in the room. I felt my self smirk.
I slammed the door before walking into the bathroom. I felt all the pain and tension rush away with the hot water. When I was clean and relaxed as some one can be after leaving the love of their life, I stepped out into my room.
I froze and my heart picked up. Hate – pure hate pulsed inside me. That bitch was sat on my bed. Her stupid hair spread out on my pillow.
"Get out!" I snapped as I slammed the bathroom door shut. I grabbed the clothes that Alice had already picked out for me – she had started to do that after a month of me living here.
"Now why would I want to do that?" Tanya asked me like I was a baby.
"What do you want bitch? Why are you even still here? I'm surprised my family haven't ripped and burnt you yet!" I said calmly at her as I started to put my clothes on. Pretending she wasn't in the room. I saw her flinch at the end. I smirked at her. Stupid vampire!
"You're a feisty human, aren't you?" She said. She looked at me like I was a little puppy. I glared at her.
"I think you would be to if you walked in on your boyfriend kissing some slut and probably getting infected with too many STD's to count." I sighed at her. Pretending that I wasn't insulting her. I sat down at my desk and started to read my book.
She screamed. It was full of outrage. She came flying at me.
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