The next few days went by too quickly. Before I knew it, we were standing in the airport waiting for our flight. I didn't want to leave. I loved being in L.A. and I loved being with Kendall. I heard them call for our flight, and I was dreading having to board the plane. Kendall wrapped me in his arms for a hug. "Call me when you land?"

I nodded, and I could feel the tears flow. He pulled my chin up so I was staring into those dazzling green eyes. "Nothing is going to change. I promise. It's going to suck not seeing you but we will still talk or video chat every day." He pressed his lips to mine. "I love you too much to not talk to you."

"I love you too, Kendall." Sadie and I said our goodbyes to the other boys, and with that, we were headed back to Iowa. As soon as we landed I sent Kendall a quick text.

Made it home safe. Miss you.

It didn't take long for him to reply. Glad to hear. I miss you too, gorgeous.

I smiled. I love when he complimented me. I had never felt like I was very attractive, but Kendall took every opportunity to tell me how beautiful or amazing or special I was. I couldn't get over the feeling. I glanced over at Sadie who was laughing but holding back tears. No doubt she was texting Carlos. It made me miss Kendall even more.

I love you so much. I can't wait to see you again.

I love you too. I can't wait to see you either. Time will fly, I promise.

I dropped Sadie off at her house and headed home. My parents and siblings were there to greet me, asking me all about my adventures in California. I pulled out my camera and showed them all the sites that Kendall had taken me to see and told them all crazy stories from my trip. Despite having slept on the flight, I was exhausted. I headed up to my room and laid on my bed. After the night of the storm, I spent almost every night in Kendall's bed. I missed it; it was a lot more comfy than mine.

As if he was reading my mind, my phone rang. "Hello?"

"Hey, you. How was the flight." I felt my heart break a little. I missed him so much and it had only been a few hours. How was I going to survive a few weeks?

"It was okay. I slept through most of it, had you on repeat again."

He laughed. "Well I hope you get used to it. I sing a lot, especially at home doing menial chores."

"I know you do." I had spent days laughing at him as he made dinner, cleaned the house, even checking the mail, singing the entire time. "It's one of the things I love about you." He had also been singing every night before he feel asleep. I loved his voice being the last thing I heard every night, and sometimes, it actually helped me sleep.

We talked for a few more hours before we hung up. I was exhausted and he was going out with the guys. He swore he'd be on his best behavior and promised to let me know when he got home. Despite being completely worn out, I couldn't sleep. I tossed and turned all night, but I missed Kendall too much. This went on for a week and a half. I missed the way his arms felt around me, I missed his voice in my ear, and I missed the way he smelled. I pulled the shirt out of my closet that he had given me. It was one of his famous plaid shirts, and he promised me he wouldn't miss it. I had cuddled up with it a few nights and was able to sleep a tiny bit better, but not much. I tried to hide it from him as much as possible, but he could still tell.

"Are you okay, babe? No offense, but you don't look so good." It was one of the rare occasions where they didn't have a show that night and we were taking advantage of it.

I nodded. "Yeah, I'm fine, just not sleeping very well. You said you had some important news, what is it?"

He looked like a little kid Christmas morning. "We just found out that we are going to have our own movie! As soon as we're done touring, we're headed up to Canada to shoot it."

"Kendall, that's amazing! I'm so proud of you." I smiled, wishing I could be there for him. This was huge for them, and I hated missing out. "I wish you didn't have to go to Canada, though."

"Oh, I've got it all planned out. After tour, you're going to come stay with me in Canada while we shoot. Maybe not for the whole thing, but for most of it."

I laughed. "Sign me up. I'd love to spend a few months away from everything, especially if I'd get to spend it all with you."

He looked at me, seeing right through my lie from earlier. "Yeah, and then maybe you'd get some sleep. I could cuddle you, it'd smell like me, and I could sing to you. But it wouldn't be my bed, I hope that's okay."

I knew I was blushing. "As long as I'm with you, I don't care. Plus, I don't think it's all you're fault I'm not sleeping well, it could be a ton of things."

He knew as well as I did that it was a lie. I missed my boyfriend, and everyone could see it. I heard him being called away and we said our goodbyes. I spent the rest of the evening with my family playing board games. I wasn't seeing Dr. Stephens as often, and I was starting to feel like my old self. I wanted to do things with my family and friends, and she flat out told me I had Kendall to thank for that. In our last session, I had told her that I felt like Kendall had saved my life, and she agreed with me. It was nice being able to laugh with my family and not have them look at me like I was broken and fragile. I was healing, and I was me again.

It was nearly two in the morning when I finally went up to bed. Knowing I wouldn't be able to sleep right away, I pulled out my computer. I had an email from Kendall with a video attachment. I downloaded it, completely unsure of what it could be. I smiled when I saw his face, and couldn't help but notice the guitar in his hands.

"Hey, sweetie. I know we were kind of joking around about you not sleeping very well, but I'm hoping this helps. First you should know, there is a new shirt and a bottle of cologne on the way for you, as I'm sure the one you have smells more like you than it does me. I know it's not the same, but it will have to hold you over. Second, I know how much you love it when I sing to you, so this is to help you sleep."

He started strumming his guitar. It was a slow, sweet song that I didn't recognize, but I loved hearing his voice natural and not in the studio. As much as I couldn't believe it, I felt myself drift off to sleep. The song ended, he smiled at the camera and said, "Goodnight, I love you." My screen went blank and I felt tears in my eyes. I had the most thoughtful boyfriend ever. I sent him a text.

I loved the video. I love you too.

I was finally able to get a peaceful night of sleep. Kendall did this every night for the next week. He'd send me a video or we'd video chat right before bed and he'd sing me to sleep. It was the sweetest thing anyone had ever done for me. I kept thinking he'd run out of ways to amaze me, but so far, he hadn't.

We had both begun to count down in anticipation; two more weeks and we'd get to see each other. Little did he know, Sadie and I were planning another surprise. The guys were going to be at a state fair that was about six hours away, and we had gotten VIP passes. We were going to surprise him and Carlos just like when I had surprised him in California. We weren't worried about the drive, all we cared about was seeing our boys. I couldn't wait. Sadie had decided we needed to get new outfits. If we were going to have to compete with every other girl at the venue, we might as well look the hottest. I was getting ready to leave for the mall when I heard a knock at the door. I swung it open and couldn't believe who was standing in front of me.

"Charlie?"