Hey it's me. No I've not forgotten you all nor this story.

Chapter 10-

Lily took the story in without so much as a blink and she was on her feet heading toward the boys dorms. James, who was more in shock than she was because he thought she would be in shock, followed her quickly. Before she opened the dorr she turned towards James.

"I'm going to need you to do something. Go to the Hospital Wing and nick a bottle or two of pain relief potion. Though I can heal the wounds, I can't make the pain disappear. If you have to get Remus to moan a couple times to distract Madam Pomfrey. Think of something, I know you're good at that."

James gave a half grin. "Anything else?"

Lily frowned in thought and shook her head a moment later. "No that's all, except I wished you had told me this sooner."

James cleared his throat nervously. "I'm sorry, Lils. I..just didn't..-"

Lily smiled. "It's okay James. After all, it's not really you're secret to tell."

She bent down and gave him a quick peck on the cheek. "Now go, go on."

Lily escaped through the door and James turned on his heel a bit dazed. He headed down the stairway on clouds.

Lily watched him an amused smile on her face and then turned towards the boys room. She walked inside, peering first then fully imersed herself inside the room. She shut the door gently so to not disturb Peter, who was snoring so loudly she didn't think he'd hear anything anyway. Lily looked at the last bed on the right side and sighed at the shaking ball under the blankets.

"Sirius?" Lily said softly putting a hand on the boy's shoulder.

The sahking minimized a bit and Sirius poked his head out. Lily gave him an encouraging smile, or at least she hoped it looked encouraging, and Sirius threw the blankets off his face.

"Hey Lils, you're not a boy," Sirius said weakly. His eyes were a bit unfocused and he looked feverish.

"Well I'm gald you notice that. I've come to try to heal your wounds, dogboy."

Sirius gave a smile. She was the only one Sirius would let call him dogboy. Lily pulled the covers down and helped unbutton his shirt.

"Wait..till ol' Prongsie hears 'bout this. You're touching me sooner than you did him," Sirius said chuckling a bit mad like.

Lily put her hand to Sirius' forehead. He was clammy but no fever. She pulled the shirt open and sucked in her breath. The gashes were the most horrible ones she had ever seen. Sure she could heal little ones, but she didn't know about wounds this big...

"S'not that bad really. Moony had worse..he always had it worse...but I guess I have it worse now too, right? Lily..promise you won't tell anyone if I tell you a secret?"

Lily drew her wand from her pocket and began to minister the spell. She concentrated harder then ever and absently nodded to Sirius' last question.

"Okay, I..I'll take that as a yes. I've been thinking...and this..this curse..it isn't Remus' fault, I could never blame the one I love..."

Lily kept nodding. The wounds were finally starting to react a little to her charm. The began to seal and the area around them was becoming less red.

"..but I don't think that I can handle this y'know. I mean, true I'm Sirius Black, the infamous Marauder, but this is something new...and..and.."

Finally they closed enough that she stopped and performed a little disinfectant charm she had glimpsed in her book one day. She was concentrating so hard she almost missed Sirius' last sentence.

"I might just kill myself."

Lily looked up into the face of Sirius Black and stared in shock.

Remus, with the help of James slowly made their way back to the dorms. With an all go from Madam Pomfrey James had no need to steal any potion because Madam Pomfrey always sent at least three bottles back with Remus.

They made their way without interruptions in which Remus was glad. James went before Remus and opened the door to their dorms and made his way to Lily. He smiled when he saw that the wounds on Sirius' chest were just about healed and that they looked much better.

"Lils, you did it. You're so awesome. You're the best..you're..you're not listening. Lily why are you staring at Sirius like he grew another head?"

Remus made his way much slower over there. He looked at Lily's face. She was satring at Sirius, the look of pure shock on her face. Sirius' expression was unreadable. He looked so many different things but Remus could smell fear but determination. Sirius was determined, but about what? Remus suddenly grew wary.

James pulled Lily away from the bed. "What did he do Lily?"

Lily looked at James her face going back to normal. She looked back at Sirius, who shook his head ever so slightly. Remus could tell a war was going on inside of James' girlfriend. Lily swallowed.

"Sirius..he uh..-"

"No! you promised Lily Evans!" Sirius nearly yelled then moaned.

Remus grabbed Sirius' hand trying to calm him down. Lily opened her mouth then closed it. She knew inside that if she didn't tell them this, it would ruin everything.

"Sirius, I have to. This isn't something to play around with."

She looked James in the face. "James he just told me that he wanted to kill himself."

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