Sorry that I haven't written that much lately. Middle of some exams and I haven't had a chance to write!!!!! Well, here are the recommendations and then onto the story.

Music: Elliot Minor. Very good band, though only one album so far and I don't know if they have any Ireland dates coming up. I hope they do Oxygen this year (Irish music festival, though I think the band is American)…..

Book: Skulduggery Pleasant. Very good book. Two of them actually.

Disclaimer: Nil twilight agam. Tá leabhair twilight agam, ach nil twilight agam. That's very bad irish!

EPOV

"maybe it would be better if you went to your room now, Nyamh. I have to speak to our friend."

I'm so sorry Edward. I never meant for you to see her like this.

Everything in my world was disappearing. Bella didn't want me, didn't know me! What else was there apart from her? It was then that I realised how much she had changed me. How different I was from the monster that I had been before I met her.

"Okay Dad." To hear here calling Aro such an affectionate term was indescribable. Then, she reached up and gently place a kiss on his cheek. On his cheek. Not mine, as she had promised to be the only lips she would every kiss. His cheek.

I watched her as she gracefully walked through the door and I kept my eyes on that opening for a while after that. That walk was so different to that of my Bella. So graceful and carefree. Her shoulders weren't hunched over because of the worries that she always seemed to have. Her eyes weren't staring at her feet, waiting for them to trip over something.. Without her memories, she couldn't remember anything bad that had happened to her. I thought for a second that this might be better for her, but another thought crept into my mind then. She couldn't remember the good either.

"Edward, I am so-"

Before even I knew what was happening, I slammed Aro against the wall, my hand around his throat. At the moment that my hand clenched his neck, my thought, my memories, my hopes, my fears flooded into Aro and I saw ever bit of it and his reactions in his thoughts.

Alec was on duty then, and he began to cut off my senses. Everything went black, but that was good. That meant no pain. But everything came back. I could hear Aro thinking what have I done? He had told Alec to stop. He believed that he deserved this. He had finally realised what he had taken away from me. I thought that maybe right now this is what he wanted. To be punished for what he had done. I only wanted one thing more that to be the one to deliver that punishment, but I wouldn't give him the satisfaction, so I let go of his throat and retreated to the centre of the room.

"Edward. I am sorry. I knew that you felt attached to her, but I didn't know that it was to this magnitude. If there was anything could do, I-"

"Give her back her memory." I whispered. If it had been possible, there would have been tears streaming down my face.

"Pardon?" Trust Aro to never forget his manners. I know he heard me. I wonder if his precious Daragh would be able to wipe that from his memory.

"GIVE HER BACK HER MEMORY!" I screamed at the top of my voice.

Aro's face and thoughts showed me that he felt sorry for me, but I didn't believe it. Not unless he would be able to give me back my Bella.

"I'm sorry Edward. Even if I wanted to do that, I don't think that could. We haven't quite worked out that part of Daragh's power yet."

"Then give her back to me and I will make her remember."

"Once again, Edward, I know from your thoughts how much you love her, but the fact of the matter is that she doesn't love you any more." I let out a whimper as he said that. That was really below the belt. "She considers this her home, us her family and me her father. You're welcome to be a part of it, if that is what you desire. She may even grow to love you again, but know this. She will never again be Bella. She is Nyamh now, my daughter. I will leave you to think about it for a while." Then, he left. He had ripped my whole world out from under me and expected me to be okay with that. To just adjust.

My pride nearly stopped me there, nearly made me leave without another thought, but I couldn't. I had a chance to make her love me again. Maybe her memory wasn't completely gone. Maybe one day, she would see something and it would all come flooding back to her. Maybe, but until then I had no way of knowing. I made my decision then. She was happy and I wasn't going to change that. I would talk to her, see if she wanted me, but I would not reveal the truth to her. Not unless she remember something.

I had made my decision, but I still needed to grieve for all that I had lost. I curled up into a ball again and let the dry sobs overcome me. I may have screamed at some stage, but it seemed as if I was watching from the outside. Like I couldn't come to terms with what I had been reduced to. I remained like this for what seemed like a few days, though it might have been hours, minutes, seconds. I didn't know. I finally pulled myself together and looked around me.

Sitting by the door was Bella, watching me. She looked concerned as her eyes searched my face. "Aro said that you read minds." her voice seemed to be accusing me with every word. It broke my heart to have her talk to me like that.

"Yes. I can read most people's minds. Not your's though, I could never read your's."

Her face lit up then. "Oh, that's ok. Dad taught me how to lift it off. I'll show you later. So you knew me from before I lost my memory. Where we friends?"

"We were a lot more." I breathed, not even loud enough for a vampire to hear, and she didn't. she had a questioning look on her face as she waited for an answer that she could hear. I would have to make sure that this would not upset her. "Yes, we've been friends for ages."

She let out a giggle, ran over at vampire speed and sat down beside me. "So are you going to tell me why you are so sad?" Even though she didn't remember, she seemed to really care. She always did, even before this.

"I would, but I'm not sure you would understand."

She instantly flamed up at this, crossed her arms across her chest and pouted. I longed so much to kiss her then. To feel her lips against mine. But I couldn't. there was no way to tell how she would react.

"Try me." What came to my mind at that moment, was a memory of thinking how she was a kitten trying to roar like a lion. Her eyes were on my face, waiting to see my reaction while I told her. If it was the old Bella, I would have known that she thought I was going to lie.

"You really want to know?"

"Why wouldn't I?"

"Because it's about you."

"And that would make me want to know less, why?"

"Because you don't remember"

Her face fell as I said this. "I'm sorry. I would tell you that I do remember you, but I don't, so that options out. But what is it that I don't remember about you that makes you so sad?"

I thought that maybe I should just put it out in the open, so that if she decided that she wanted me, she would know that I would always be there.

"That I love you." I felt something that might resemble happiness as I said this. I felt it at the start, but I looked at her then and Bella's face looked so confused. I would have to start getting used to calling her Nyamh. There was no way that I would leave here if there was a chance that she might one day love me.

"Oh." Her eyes had left my face and she was now examining an imaginary piece of fluff on her cloak.

"Yeah."

"I see."

"That's good."

It was a very awkward moment, but I was ecstatic that she hadn't run away and hid the moment that I had said that. She must at least like me so.

"Wanna see a trick?" Her head spanned up again to look at me as she said that.

"Sure. What is it?" I would have to be patient if I wanted her to love me again.

"Have you ever wanted to hear my thoughts, from before?"

"You have no idea…"

She seemed to be getting awkward for a minute, then she went back to her new bouncy personality. It reminded me a bit of Alice actually.

"Well, now you can, but I have to really concentrate." She was going to let me into the place that no other person had, though they thought they did. She was going to let me into the only place where she could be truly alone, where she could keep her secrets. That had to mean something.

"Ok. I won't move, I promise."

She flashed me a big, heartbreaking smile and then her face screwed up as she fought against her shield. After a minute, just as I started to hear her "voice" I heard the real voice of someone else.

"Now, Nyamh. What did I tell you about showing that to people?" Bella looked guiltily over her shoulder as Aro walked into the room.

"Sorry, Daddy. I know that I have to ask you first. I just got really excited. Well, can I?"

"Maybe you should wait a while." Once again, I watched the expressions

"Okay, Daddy. Can I take him on a tour around?"

Aro deliberated for a while and then looked questioningly at me. I gave my head a slight nod to show that I wanted to.

"I suppose that it would be all right. As long as you do not annoy our guest too much."

"But he knows me."

"What? Oh, yes. Of course. You met him a few months before."

Bella's face was truly confused then. She must have been trying to figure out which one of us was lying, and my guess was that she was leaning more towards Aro for that, with his dodgy answer that kept changing.

"Yes. Of course. We'll go now." She was up off the ground as quick as a shot. She paused to brush herself off and then grabbed my hand. A familiar electricity shot through me as her skin touched mine. It felt so good. It may have been familiar for me, but it wasn't for her. She dropped my hand just a quickly as she had grabbed it.

"Come on, then. Let me show you around." She began to walk out of the chamber. As I always had and always will do, I followed.