Terra Nova- Day 8
So today was how should I say interesting.. We have a um guest at in our home for a few days. She's a young girl who apparently has run away from the sixers. I don't really know much about the sixers other than that they were some of the people for the sixth pilgrimage to Terra Nova and that they really don't like Commander Taylor. But back to the little girl, her name is Leah, but other than that I really don't know much about her since she really didn't say anything when she came in. She was very shy and seemed a little scared of us. Scared that we might try to her hurt her or something else.
She's sleeping in Josh's room which Josh is completely ecstatic about… and by ecstatic I mean he's completely annoyed by the fact that a little girl is taking over his room and he's being forced to sleep on the couch until she leaves. He just doesn't get why she has have his room and why she just can't stay in Zoe and my room. I could try to explain it to him but let's be honest he really wouldn't listen to what I have to say since he's way to into himself and whatever is going on his world.
I've been stuck at home all day getting ready for Leah to come that I didn't have a chance to even try to find Mark to talk to him. I actually haven't seen him since the night he came over to check on Zoe and I… Maybe he's losing interest in my already… I really hope not because I really like him and it would hurt him he'd just stopped caring about me already. But he is slightly older than me so it really shouldn't surprise me if he had gotten over me already I mean he's a couple years older than me… Maybe he found someone his age and decided to move on from me? Gah I don't know, I need to stop speculating it just makes me worry way more than I need to be and I already have enough to worry about.
Like tomorrow, I'm supposed to be starting my apprenticeship with my mother and the hospital tomorrow and I'm really nervous about it. I mean what if I do something wrong and someone dies because of me or what if I tell my mother the wrong thing and something goes wrong with one of the patients. I'm just really scared something will go wrong and that I'll disappoint my mother. I mean she's so excited that I'll be following in her footsteps as a doctor and I'd hate to disappoint her. I mean she's in one of my role models and I'd hate to let her down. It's always been her dream that I become a doctor like her and since I'm such a bookworm like her she's just so sure that i'll be exactly like her… but honestly I'm not so sure if being a doctor is what I'm meant to be. I mean being around the doctor stuff you're supposed to be able to handle all the situations and the blood and the other things that could be wrong with people and I'm just not sure that I can handle all that. I mean I nearly throw up whenever I see just a little blood so how am I going to be able to be a doctor if I can't handle that? I really don't know but I guess I can give it a chance and hope for the best.
Well I should be heading off to bed, don't want to be late to my first day of my apprenticeship. I mean you know what they say, first impressions are everything…