A New Found Love
Chapter 10 Confessions
Disclaimer: See Chapter 1. I only own Ashley and the plot.
(A/N: Sorry for the late update. I've been very busy lately with all the lessons and extra activities. I'll try to update as soon as possible though. I hope you don't hate me for this chapter.)
Bella's POV
I certainly do not like the look that was plastered on my mother's face.
It was a look of both triumph and excitement—so much that it scares me to death.
I would rather face Death Eaters than facing my mother and her questions.
She cleared her throat loud enough for me to hear and that snapped me out of it.
"So, Bella, will you care to explain to me what I saw a while ago in that dark corner?" she asked, smiling.
"Uh, um, we were just…ah, bonding together?" I answered, not quite sure.
Truth be told, I did not know what happened a while ago either.
Sure, I enjoyed it but I have no idea what kind of entity possessed me and had driven me to do that.
"Typical. Cousins bonding together by making out in a dark corner of a school. Very typical, indeed." She replied with the same calm tone and smile on her face.
I blushed a deep scarlet color and looked at the floor and everywhere else to avoid having to look at my mother's eyes.
Her face suddenly turned serious and placed a gentle hand on my cheek.
"Bella, do you love him?" she asked seriously.
"I-I don't really know." I stuttered.
"How will you not know? It is your feelings, not anybody else's." she replied, in an understanding tone.
"I am confused. But what if I do, what would you think?" I asked quietly.
"I? You are worried of what I will think? I do not really care who you love, just as long as you are happy with him." My mother replied fondly.
I looked up at my mother and realized that so much has changed since I first met her.
The deranged and slightly insane woman who tried to kill me countless times was gone.
This woman was my mother.
Somebody who understands, loves, cares for me and will never leave me.
Not again, at the very least.
"I can tell her anything." I urged myself.
I need to tell her what happened back in Forks.
I need to get rid of this before my entire body explodes with the pain and stress of keeping it from other people.
I breathed deeply and sighed.
"Mother, can I tell you something?" I asked, looking into her dark black eyes which were identical to mine.
"Of course, dear, what is it?" she asked worriedly, placing an arm around my shoulders.
"You remember when I went into hiding after the war because of the Death Eaters?" I started questioningly.
She nodded and I took that as a yes.
"During my first day at that Muggle school, I saw vampires in the cafeteria at lunch." I continued.
"You know that I drank some potions so that my scent will smell like a human's and my body will be more vulnerable as a precaution."
"They all have mates, except one, to whom my blood sings."
"We fell in love with each other and he didn't know I was a witch, or even my real name or identity."
"The coven planned a party for my supposed 18th birthday and they all gave me gifts."
"I was unlucky enough to give myself a paper cut and one of them attacked me."
"H-He decided to leave me a few days a-after that incident, telling me in the forest that he did not love me anymore, b-but I knew it was a lie because I-I extracted memories from his mind u-using Legilimency." I managed to choke out, because I started to sob at this part.
"I-I tried to change his mind and stay with me."
"N-no, beg i-is more a-appropriate." I corrected myself despite the tears that ran down my face.
"He didn't even reconsider, he left me with my heart broken on the forest floor."
"What is even worse was that he lied to me, he could have told me the truth, but no, he simply had to lie." The tears stopped now, my sobs replaced with an angry tone.
"Shh, shh, it's okay, Bella, everything will be okay." My mother consoled me, rubbing soothing circles on my back.
Her head snapped up and I swear, I think I heard the click in her mind as she put two and two together.
"It's the Cullens, isn't it? The one who is called Edward—the one who has reddish-brown hair." My mother said angrily through gritted teeth.
"Yes, Mother, but please do not tell them it is me." I pleaded with her.
"Why? Do you still love him?" she asked softly.
"I will always love him—in some way, but sometimes, love is not enough and I swear to Merlin I will tell them when I am ready, when I am a stronger person." I told her reassuringly.
"I will let you have it your way, dear, but I swear I am going to Crucio him until he wishes he just died if he ever hurt you again in any way, do you understand?" she asked me seriously.
Merlin, the woman looks like she is ready to kill.
I caught a glimpse of what she was before her mind was back in its right state.
"Yes, Mother." I replied.
"Now, get up or you and Draco will be late for your next class." She said, as if nothing had happened.
"Bye, Mother, I'll catch up with you later." I told her, already running to the door.
I turned the door knob and poked my head out.
I saw Draco waiting for me patiently and smiled ear to ear when he saw me.
"I thought your mother devoured you whole already." He joked, even though I only talked with her for five minutes and we still have plenty of time to get to class.
"Yeah, she tried but I was too quick for her so she did not catch me when I ran away." I replied, playing along with his joke.
"What did she ask you?" he asked, suddenly serious, turning around to face me.
"Nothing. She just asked about things that happened…recently." I replied.
It took me a long time to think of a word to complete my sentence, maybe because of the nervousness.
"What did you tell her then?" he asked, his tone filled with worry.
"I told her we were just ah, um, bonding." I replied, using the same word I used with my mother.
"Bonding?" he asked, confused.
"Yes, bonding. I could not think of a word and it came to my mind.
"What else did she ask?" he asked again, really curious this time.
"She asked if—" I bit down my lip and started fidgeting, which I seemed to be doing a lot lately.
"If what?" he demanded, clearly dying to know the answer.
"She asked if—if I love you." I whispered the last part, hoping he did not hear but at the same time hoping that he did.
"And?" he pressed on.
"I told her I am not sure." I replied honestly and went back to fidgeting.
I swallowed and had the courage to look him in the eye.
There, I saw many emotions, but only one stood out from the rest—pain.
I felt the urge to comfort him as I always did nowadays and this time, I comforted him by putting my arms around him.
I felt tiny compared to his very masculine figure which consisted of a lot muscles and abs.
He gently pushed me away and looked down, avoiding my eyes.
"It's okay, you don't need to pity me." He said with a hard voice.
I didn't say anything, just merely watching his face.
"There's something you should know, but I don't need you to do anything. I love you, Bella, ever since we were in sixth year and you use Sectumsempra on me. Maybe earlier, I don't know." He told me.
I was too flabbergasted and surprised that I merely gaped at him like a fish.
When I finally mustered enough courage to say something to him, he said,
"That's all, you need not say anything."
With that said, he turned his back to me and walked away.
"I love you too, Draco." I whispered, even though I knew he could not hear.
Tears flowed freely down my cheeks, tears of loss and pain.
Just when I had the courage to tell him what I really feel, he walked away.
I don't know why all the people I love the most leaves me.
Maybe some curse Merlin himself placed on me since I was born.
Maybe I am not really destined to be happy with a man whom I love and loves me back.
Whatever the reason, I just know one thing.
Life is unfair.
(A/N: Don't hate me for this. I'll promise I'll update and they'll be together soon. Please review and thank you to all who did.)