Chapter 10

JJ stirred slowly, trying to open her eyes. Everything hurt so bad. She opened her eyes to see the sterile white walls of the hospital. What the hell had happened? Where was she? She took a breath in as she realised what had happened. The team had come to save her! They managed to save her.

But why?

She had given up. She did not want to live anymore. All she wanted to do was be with her son. Her precous little baby, his life cut short becaus she had failed to see the signs of him struggling. Her little star that she always held close to her heart, thinking that he would someday grow to be handsome man. But she would never see him grow up. He was gone. Gone from her life.

She swallowed hard, not wanting to cry. Henry did not at all like it when she was sad or when she cried. He used to cry when she did too. But today, all she wanted to do was cry but there was no one whom she could hold, no one to comfort her, no one to tell her that it is okay to say goodbye to him because he will stay in her heart forever.

And now she had lost her aunt to a serial killer. Damn. She was a trained FBI and she was supposed to keep the people safe but how could she do if she couldn't keep her own family safe. How could she help others when she couldn't help her aunt and her self. She needed others to save her. She was a weakling and she was going to be burden on them.

But wasn't Hotch going to remove her from her job?

He would do that. And then she would have nothing at all. She would be totally alone and there would be no one to think about her. There would be no one to miss her. She was going to be all alone. All alone.

"Hey, buttercup, how you feeeling?" Garcia managed to smile be her usual self. But she was not sure how JJ was going to react. She felt stupid for letting her best friend go through so much without even noticing that she was even going through something. "Okay," JJ managed to say. In truth, she was in a lot of opain, but it was no use telling her about it. She didn't care.

"We were all so worried about you when you did not check into the hotel," Emily said.

"I am sorry that I caused you guys so much trouble," JJ said.

Hotch remained standing outside the door with Morgan and Rossi. "She is sorry because she caused us trouble?" he muttered to himself. How bad had she been hurt. "It was all my fault and she says she is sorry."

"It wasn't your fault alone, Aaron," Rossi said. "It was all our fault. beating ourselves about it isn't going to help us. We have to show her that we care."

"You are right," Morgan agreed. "Let's go in there and be with her."

"Hey," Hotch said as she looked at them.

"Don't you guys have a report to write or something?" JJ questioned.

"Nope," Morgan replied cheerfully. "It can wait till we get back."

"Strauss will..."

"No one can handle Strauss better than me,"Rossi said."You know the Rossi charm works on her quite well."

Reid stood silently amongst the others. "Reid, are you okay?"

"Yeah, you should probable get some rest before we come to get you once we arrange the flight."

"It's okay, you guys can go on," JJ said slowly. "I just need to be here for sometime."

"Then we all are staying with you. Besides all of us need some break from work," Hotch said. "I'll inform Strauss."

"You can't stay here, Hoth," JJ protested. "Jack needs you to be home with him."

"Jack is on a flight here," Hotch said.

"No, he isn't," Jj knew when Hotch was lying.

Hotch almost smiled. JJ knew them so well and yet they never knew her. "No but he is coming out here if we are staying here."

"I'll get him on the next flight out here," Rossi said and went out to make the necessary arrangements.