Chapter 10

"Now, let's sit down calmly and talk about this" Carlisle said in his fatherly voice.
Jasper wavered at the backdoor, anctious to flee if needed.
Alice huffed at his reaction "Come on Jazz, she's family and she won't hurt you" she said as she darted to the dining table.
Esme led me towards the right side of the oval table, guiding me with her hand at the small of my back "Come on dear, let's sit down" she said motherly.
I nodded sternly and kept my eyes intently on Jasper who slowly stifeled towards the opposite seat at the table.
Carlisle sat next to me, patting my figetting hands softly and Edward kissed my cheek while he hovered over me, ready to strike.
My hand stroked his arm absentmindedly "Calm down love, I'll be fine" but he didn't relax one inch.
He sat down, clearly reading his brothers mind for any sign of attack.
My eyes turned apologetically towards Alice "I would never hurt you Alice"I whispered and she smiled an easy smile "I know.
I've had pleasant visions of us" she whispered back to me.
That brought me some pease, because that also meant that Jasper wouldn't attack me.
The silence was tangible so I decided to go first "Jasper, will you tell me of the 'daywalkers'? I whispered hessitant.
My eyes crossed the table and he gave me a warning glare "They're the most lethal assassins that ever walked the Earth.
Bred to kill, carrying all the strength of both humans and vampires. And NONE of their weaknessess.." He glanced at Alice and quickly continued when he met Edwards warning glare "they're supposedly bred by inpregnating human females with vampire seed. Supposedly the newborn chews their way out of the whomb..."Edward growled at him for that detail and I cringed into his chest.
I gasped for air "And you think I'm that kind of monster?" I growled fiercely as I straightened myself up. Edward instantly took hold of my arms so I couldn't leap over te table to attack him.
He looked at me with a sarcastic glare "Aren't you?"he spoke nonchalantely.
My lungs grew weak as I couldn't find the oxygen to calm dowm, I could feel my fangs growing as my desparation increased.
They gasped in horror at the sight of my monsterous teeth, to them it was a sign of truth.
I wrenched my arms from Edwards grip and flew towards the kitchen, and I leaned my back against the counter and collapsed onto the floor.
My arms wrapped themselves around my waist as an attempt to stop my aching heart from falling appart.
A cool hand touched my cheeks, wet with the hot teers that ran from my eyes.
My head turned automatically "No, don't touch me.. I'm not what he sais I am..." I could only whisper in intense pain.
The cool hand didn't leave my face and when I looked up, I saw it was Carlisle "Then tell me what you are" and he sat down next to me.
His voice was patient and warm, but also heavy with grief.
I cried out in desparation "I don't know. But Emily was human when she got pregnant with me.. And she was pregnant when she was bitten.." my last words sounded like a whisper.
My thoughts swirled like a vortex in my mind, flashing colours of green and purple before my eyes.
Then, in one sudden instand, I was dead calm.
I whiped the tears from my face and my expression was pure business "Carlisle, I can't be around him.. If I'm a danger to him.. if there's any possibility I might hurt him.." I trailed of, pemporarily numbed by my pain.
Carlisle stared in the direction of the white kitchen kabinets and deliberated for a while "Do you think you COULD hurt him?" he said, a million miles away in thought. My eyes were shocked again when they turned back to him "Not if I live another hundred thousand years, uncle.."
His attention seemed to get back to the here and now because he rubbed his hands and his lips puckered a light second. He stood up and he reached out his hand in invitation "Let's get back inside, child" and he took my hand to lead me back.
Edward looked at me in wonder and cringed at the sight of my pain "My love" he spoke softly "I love you, as long as we both shall live, one way or the other" and he stood up to kiss my eyes, my cheekbones and then.. my lips with my horrible fangs underneath.
I kissed him eagerly, not knowing what outcome this dreadfull night might bring "My brave, stupid Edward" I smiled weakly.
We sat back down and Jaspers expression was blank "Your mother was impregnated by a human man, and them.. bitten? As in.
the change came, with you in her whomb.. and you survived?" he asked, searching my eyes for the truth.
I nodded in agreement and his mind wandered off, deep in thought.
Esme's hand crossed the table and I took it thankfully. She'd clearly made up her mind "It must have been hard for you, knowing there isn't anyone like you" She asked concerned.
I tried to compose my blank expression, but failed terribly "Yes it was, I spent my years of puberty feeling like a freekshow. And after Elvira died, I was even more alone than I was already accustomed to. I've been searching the globe for you and carlisle.. Almost two centuries, and who knew.. Finding family is one thing, but I'd never thought I'd find happiness in the purest sence of the word" I said looking towards Edward.
I couldn't fathom the fact that someone so perfect was meant for me.
He had the kindest heart I've ever encountered and the purest nature in every way imaginable.
Suddenly, Alice put her hand on top of mine and Esme's and Carlisle quickly followed.
Edwards reply was to wrap his arms around me and wiggle himself in between me and the back of the chair so he could sit behind me.
My gut told me I had to ask him the most vital question "Jasper, could you ever learn to accept me?" I breathed, truly scared of his responce.
He took a concidering look at all of us and then his eyes flinkered back to mine.
We senced him tasting my mood for a moment, and then there appeared a softer edge to his facial features.
Somehow more relaxed without really relieving the muscles.
And finally, beyond my hope, the last hand landed hessitanly on top of their pile of trusting hands.
We sat like that for a while, and I felt my heart defrost by the second.
"Thank you Jasper"I said silently, looking up at him with a small but greatful half-smile.
He slightly bowd his head "I'm sorry, old habbits die hard"
I don't know what that meant, but I nodded "They do..".
Edward softly kissed the tatoo between my shoulder blades to regain my attention "I know It's not a school night, but shouldn't you sleep?"
I thought about that "Why? What time is it?" I'd lost all my perception of time.
Esme cleared her voice disaproving "It's four thirty in the morning" he said reprimanding.
"Ow!" I gasped and stook up to walk towards the coatrack, but Edward pulled me back "exuse me, what do you think you're doing?" he said in a disaproving tone.
This confused me "Well.. since it's four thirty in the morning, I'm going home" He sighed, rolling his eyes "Why don't dive in upstairs? there's plenty of room in the bed, as I won't have to use it. Maybe Alice has some pajama's for you?" he turned sugestively.
And Alice was already up and away leaving behind and echo of what sounded like "I'm on it!"
I couldn't help but chuckle and I looked towards Esme for permission "Do you mind?"
She smiled "Offcourse not. you are 359 years old and that means old and wise enough to do what you think is best. Besides,
you are family Mi'kha.. this is your house too" she said and softly kissed me on my cheek.
Edward moaned "Old and wise? Do what you think is best? Mother! She'll get ideas" he said in a teasing voice. I growled playful at him and kissed his father on the cheek as a goodnight wish.
My eyes wandered to Jasper and I went to stand beside him "Goodnight Jasper" I said in a courteous tone while I reached out my hand.
He glanced at it and looked back into my eyes, exameningly.
Then he sighed with some kind of private relieve and hugged me softly "I am sorry Mi'kha, old habbits really do die hard"
he said sternly, not comfortable with emotions around everyone besides his Alice.
When Jasper released me from his brotherly hug, he held me by my shoulders "I had a very violent vampire upbringing. I was changed, chosen to fight and manipulate.." I put my finger on his lips and shushed him.
I kissed him lightly on both his cheeks "All is forgiven. We'll talk about this later. Have a good night, brother"
Alice stood exuberantly behind me, a blissfull expression beaming off her face "Sleep well sister, I laid some pajama's on the bed. And a little underwear and such for tomorrow"
She winked and hugged me "Come on Jazz, I'm getting thirsty" and they flew out the door.
Without a warning, Edward scooped me up into his arms "Bedtime for the human" he joked and he jolted up the stairs.

He laid me gently down on the bed, and went around the bed to lay down next to me "an eventfull night" he said leaning his head on his right arm.
I rolled over to face him and placed my head on my left hand "You can say that again! Do you regret your decision?" Edward answered me immediately, his face pulled up in a frown "I could never regret any decision I made concerning you. I love you and I want to spend my life with you. Fangs or no fangs" he said in total earnest.
I smiled, but I was also serious "Edward, you could always back out.. I mean, if.. in time, you get tired of being with me"
It seemed to take ages before he answered but he just gave me and unwilling smerk in return "So could you, my love. You are my hearts every desire. What else could I wish for?" he shrugged nonchalantely.
A chuckle came unexpectant "Hihi, yeah! what else could you want more than a 359 year old girlfriend with a bad temper,
lethal fangs and a very dark past?" I pretended to deliberate "I couldn't possibly think of anything" a sarcastic edge marked my tone.
He laughed a happy laugh "exactly" and he kissed me sweetly, tender and soft.
"I should probably see what terror item Alice mistakes for sleep wear. I reckon this'll be really bad" I groaned.
I looked around the room and there it was, and as far as I could see.. It would be worse than "really bad".
My eyebrows furrowed and I groaned "My god, it's worse than I'd imagined.. Well.. no more bickering today, I'll just get back at her for this AFTER I've slept" and I got off the bed and snatched the tiny peaces of blue silk on my way to the bathroom.
I was larger that I'd thought, there stood a big vintage bath in front of the large window.
And the shower was a large glass cubicle that made me remember 'Charly and the glass elevator'by Roald Dahl.
The colours were a perfect combination of Edward personality, RVS and anthracite with dark blue tiles.
On the sink stood a brand new toiletry bag, black with skull patches.
"Nice!!" I cheered, this was at least one thing that looked like it could belong to me.
And soon enough, I was janking off my clothes and brushing my teeth intently.
Ten minutes later, I ruefully 'admired' the skimpy outfit Alice left me as pajama's "This is to little fabric to me" I yelled at Edward, complaining.
He laughed "That's probably just to do me a favor. Let me see!!" he sounded impatient.
The sound of his voice made me feel a little but more confident and I straightened myself up in an attempt to look more confident.
One more time I checked all of the ribbons from my waist to my chestline and folded the stitched bra into place.
The cups didn't quite fit and it looked like I was wearing a huge push-up bra, but the tiny hotpants were comfy.
I figured that to be a blessing on it's own.
"Mi'kha, stop stressing. Come on" he sounded from the bedroom.
Looking at it objectively, it made me self-confident.
Edward would deffinately love this, and with that knowledge I flicked my chin up and marched into the bedroom to endure the grand entrance of the skimpy PJ's.
His eyes were widely staring and his mouth fell open.
When he hadn't spoken for several minutes I said impatiently "What do you think?" and walked over to the sofa.
I wanted one more jult of nicotine before bed, so I lit a sigarette and went to lie down on it's white leather.
"Eh.. you look.. absolutely irresistable, highly unapropriate" he said bemused.
His voice sounded like liquide honey "Reminde me to thank her for that.. Wow" he murmured. I giggled and laid my body sideways so he'd have a better view "Oh, you're too tempting Mi'kha" and a low, aroused growl roze from his chest.
With a dazzling smile I pulled up my eyebrows in false innosence "Too tempting? I'll put my t-shirt back on in a minute"
I teased.
He unexpectedly leapt off the bed and in a wide flight he landed crouched over my body, hardly jousteling the sofa.
"Haah!" I shriekt and he looked at me as if I were edible "No you won't" and he kissed me deeply.
His tong licked invitingly at my lower lip and they slowly parted.
His cold tongue traced the contours of my warm, pulsing lips untill my tongue answered his burning question.
They rubbed together, stroking eachother in a passionate and eager kiss.
I felt his strong arms under my body as the carried me to the bed.
Softly he laid me down and his lips traced the contours of my collar bone, up towards the hollow below my ear.
His cold breath raised my skin in goose bumps and my body shivered exitedly. We would eventually stop kissing.. but not tonight.
He pulled me onto his lap, facing eachother "I thought I'd never find you" he whispered lascivously.
My breath was slow and deep "I'm here" I whispered softly in his ear.
Hard fingertips pulled gently on the hairs at the back of my neck, pulling my head back.
They scratched downwards tracing the contours of my muscular but feminine body from my neck to my shoulders and down my spine.
Then we lost all tract of time until the sun roze above the trees.