Chapter ten- 'A Time to Forget
Usagi walked into the garden, and sighed. She felt safer out here, from outside danger, from everyone inside, and the shaky feeling she got, near the dark haired man. But then she also felt vulnerable outside alone, where so much had happened, where she couldn't stop herself, and held no control.
She casually glided to the bench, and pulled her knees to her chest, after she sat down on the wooden planks, held up, by black iron. 'Maybe I should go back to Otosan? Maybe, I can get answers from him...Oh Otosan.' She buried her face in her knees, as the pain, and horror of last night came flooding back to her. She couldn't believe he would do such a thing.
'I feel so alone...and I'm scared. I...I don't want to be alone anymore.'
She looked up, and tears fell from her crystalline eyes. She sighed, and in vain, tried to rid herself of her tears. She wished, all the pain would go away. She wasn't ready to face the pain she felt in her heart, even though it was ready to come out.
"Hey babe, you should cheer up. It's a beautiful day."
Startled, Usagi turned around, to see Jadeite looking at her intently. His piercing eyes seemed to stare right through her. She shook her head, and turned her gaze away from him, to the green grass below. Jadeite frowned slightly, and sat down behind her. He felt her shudder in fear, and something else. He hated the fact, that she felt scared in his presence. He touched her shoulder and was relieved she didn't pull away. He wrapped a protective arm over her shoulder, and drew her against his chest. She tensed, but he bowed his head, and kissed her temple, that was slightly marred. He whispered, "I'll protect you."
Usagi tried to look at him, but she could barely see his face out the corner of her eyes. She felt reassurance in his words, as if she believed him whole-heartedly. "Why?" He smirked, and kissed her temple again, "Because I care about you." Usagi turned her head this time, to stare at him in surprise. Out of everything she expected of him, caring about her wasn't one of them, "You do?"
He grinned, and pressed his forehead against hers, "Do you think, I kiss all the pretty girl's, that come my way?" Usagi bit her bottom lip in shame, and nodded. She had believed so, and felt terrible, that she had judged him too soon. Jadeite chuckled, and shook his head amused, "Iie. You're the only one, that I see." Usagi swallowed the lump in her throat, and she heard her own words from earlier, in her mind, 'I don't want to be alone.'
As if he heard her desperate cry in her mind, he leaned in, and kissed her softly on the lips. His lips caressed her unlike she had ever felt. His lips on hers, felt different, from when Trowa had kissed her. His kiss was so tantalizing, it jumbled the emotions inside her, till they became too great. Her arms snaked around his neck, and she twisted herself around to face him. She was now on her knees, trying to press herself closer. She heard him groan against her lips, as she pressed her body against his. His hands tenderly, rubbed her shoulders. As she tried to climb onto his lap, to have better access to his lips, she felt him chuckle against her lips, and she tightened her grip on him. She was afraid he might leave her. His lips parted, and his tongue ran lightly over her bottom lips, and he gently sucked on it. She was about to comply, but he reached up, and removed her arms from around his neck. "Very tempting Usa, very. But I know you're not ready quite yet." He helped her off his lap, so that she sat where she had been earlier.
Usagi watched him pull away. He sadly smiled, and took another step back, away from the bench, and repeated, "I'll protect you." He turned, and left her alone. All alone.
She watched him go, till he disappeared, and lowered her gaze to her hands. She bit her bottom lip, and frowned slightly "Maybe I'm meant to be alone." It was all she could think of, for now.
"No one is meant to be alone, they just choose to be." Usagi looked up, to see Trowa. She flushed with embarrassment, and looked away. He frowned, but replied indifferently, "I respect your privacy." She looked up, but still wouldn't look him in the eyes, and whispered, "Artigato Trowa kun."
She felt, as if she had done a horrible deed.
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Quatre stared oddly at the young woman in the doorway. He shook his head, "Shouldn't you be in your room Miss Relena?" The young woman blinked, and suddenly burst out into nervous laughter. Quatre reeled back with shock, and stared at her.
Relena waved him off, and replied airily, "Hai I know, but I felt so cooped up." When she saw his confused expression, she cleared her throat, and spoke with more authority. "I want to see my itoko. I wont be kept locked away, while she runs free, and most likely in danger."
Quatre blinked once, and again, "Uh...sorry Miss Relena. Well Usagi is in the garden. She wanted to be alone..."
As he said the words, Relena went still. She heard a faint cry in her mind, as if the wind had carried it silently to her ear. 'I feel so alone...and I'm scared. I...I don't want to be alone anymore.' She frowned, and turned from Quatre, "why on earth would she want to be alone? She went through hell last night, she needs a shoulder to cry on." Quatre nodded, but then frowned. "When did you start cursing Miss Relena?"
Relena pumped her arms in the air, and replied, "Right now! I'm going to go cheer up Usa."
'I don't want to be alone.'
Relena blinked, but the voice in her head, didn't stop her. She marched down the hall, heading straight towards the garden. "Relena sama!" At the mention of the name, she stopped, and looked at the open door. "Hai Noin?"
Noin sighed, but replied, "I just got word what happened to your cousin. I'll station more guard at the gate, and ocean entry. I promise, there won't be anymore intruders." Relena nodded, "Artigato Noin." Before she continued, Noin stopped her again, by clearing her throat. She looked up at the taller woman questioningly. "Your brother just called, and has asked for you to prepare a room. He's staying over for a few days, to help protect you. And he will be arriving tomorrow."
Relena nodded, with a sigh, "Artigato. We'll, if there isn't anything else, I'll be leaving." Noin nodded, and turned back into her room. Relena walked down the hall, and didn't notice the two young men she passed.
"Did you see that???"
"Hn."
"She walked right passed you!!! Just like this." The shorter of the two, motioned with his hands, one swooping pass the other. The other, grunted, and continued down the hall. "But Hee man, don't you just find that at least a bit odd?" The other glanced over his shoulder, at the hime's retreating form. 'Hai, I do.' Outwardly, he replied, "Hn."
Duo nodded, "I knew you agreed. Do you think she's sick?" Heero scowled at Duo, and walked on, leaving the braided haired youth behind, to ponder in his thoughts.
Relena made it outside, and found Usagi sitting on the bench. She was looking up at someone, and she glanced over. She saw Trowa standing not too far away, nodding to something Usagi had said.
She sighed, and watched them closely. From where she stood, they looked like good friends, but yet, there was something else between them. 'Hm...looks like I have some snooping to do...'
She grinned, and raised her hand in the air, and shouted, "Usa chan!!!" Usagi's head snapped up, and turned to look at her. She stood slowly, and asked, "hai Lena chan?" Relena asked eagerly, "Usa chan, want to go to the mall with me? I have the whole day off. So it will be just you and me."
Usagi's face lit up, and her eyes seemed to sparkle with new life, "Hai Lena chan!!!!!" She turned to Trowa, and bowed to him several times, before racing towards her. "Lets go, lets go!!!!" Relena laughed out loud, and nodded, "Alright."
Relena turned, to see Quatre in front of her. "Konnichi wa Quatre kun." Quatre smiled, but then it faded, as he stated, "I thought you had a meeting with Lady Une in an hour." Relena saw Usagi back up a bit, as if she had been discarded. "Don't be silly Quatre. My itoko, and I, are going out, to spend time together. Just tell Lady Une, our meeting will have to wait." Usagi shook her head, "Iie Lena chan. This Lady Une sounds important. Maybe you should..."
Relena whirled around to face the blond. "Iie. I want to spend time with you Usa chan. I haven't seen you in ten years, and so far, I've been to busy, to be a good enough host. So we're going shopping. End of discussion." Usagi smiled, and hugged her itoko, "artigato Lena chan!!!"
She pulled away, just as Wufei joined the group. "You won't leave, without an escort onna." Usagi frowned at the dark hair man. Wufei scowled at her, but Relena never noticed the dark looks, the two shared towards each other. "Fine, Wufei, you're hired." His glare, changed, and was directed towards her. "I'm not going shopping." Relena shrugged, "Then we go alone." With that said, she grabbed Usagi's hand, and tugged her along.
Usagi walked into the garden, and sighed. She felt safer out here, from outside danger, from everyone inside, and the shaky feeling she got, near the dark haired man. But then she also felt vulnerable outside alone, where so much had happened, where she couldn't stop herself, and held no control.
She casually glided to the bench, and pulled her knees to her chest, after she sat down on the wooden planks, held up, by black iron. 'Maybe I should go back to Otosan? Maybe, I can get answers from him...Oh Otosan.' She buried her face in her knees, as the pain, and horror of last night came flooding back to her. She couldn't believe he would do such a thing.
'I feel so alone...and I'm scared. I...I don't want to be alone anymore.'
She looked up, and tears fell from her crystalline eyes. She sighed, and in vain, tried to rid herself of her tears. She wished, all the pain would go away. She wasn't ready to face the pain she felt in her heart, even though it was ready to come out.
"Hey babe, you should cheer up. It's a beautiful day."
Startled, Usagi turned around, to see Jadeite looking at her intently. His piercing eyes seemed to stare right through her. She shook her head, and turned her gaze away from him, to the green grass below. Jadeite frowned slightly, and sat down behind her. He felt her shudder in fear, and something else. He hated the fact, that she felt scared in his presence. He touched her shoulder and was relieved she didn't pull away. He wrapped a protective arm over her shoulder, and drew her against his chest. She tensed, but he bowed his head, and kissed her temple, that was slightly marred. He whispered, "I'll protect you."
Usagi tried to look at him, but she could barely see his face out the corner of her eyes. She felt reassurance in his words, as if she believed him whole-heartedly. "Why?" He smirked, and kissed her temple again, "Because I care about you." Usagi turned her head this time, to stare at him in surprise. Out of everything she expected of him, caring about her wasn't one of them, "You do?"
He grinned, and pressed his forehead against hers, "Do you think, I kiss all the pretty girl's, that come my way?" Usagi bit her bottom lip in shame, and nodded. She had believed so, and felt terrible, that she had judged him too soon. Jadeite chuckled, and shook his head amused, "Iie. You're the only one, that I see." Usagi swallowed the lump in her throat, and she heard her own words from earlier, in her mind, 'I don't want to be alone.'
As if he heard her desperate cry in her mind, he leaned in, and kissed her softly on the lips. His lips caressed her unlike she had ever felt. His lips on hers, felt different, from when Trowa had kissed her. His kiss was so tantalizing, it jumbled the emotions inside her, till they became too great. Her arms snaked around his neck, and she twisted herself around to face him. She was now on her knees, trying to press herself closer. She heard him groan against her lips, as she pressed her body against his. His hands tenderly, rubbed her shoulders. As she tried to climb onto his lap, to have better access to his lips, she felt him chuckle against her lips, and she tightened her grip on him. She was afraid he might leave her. His lips parted, and his tongue ran lightly over her bottom lips, and he gently sucked on it. She was about to comply, but he reached up, and removed her arms from around his neck. "Very tempting Usa, very. But I know you're not ready quite yet." He helped her off his lap, so that she sat where she had been earlier.
Usagi watched him pull away. He sadly smiled, and took another step back, away from the bench, and repeated, "I'll protect you." He turned, and left her alone. All alone.
She watched him go, till he disappeared, and lowered her gaze to her hands. She bit her bottom lip, and frowned slightly "Maybe I'm meant to be alone." It was all she could think of, for now.
"No one is meant to be alone, they just choose to be." Usagi looked up, to see Trowa. She flushed with embarrassment, and looked away. He frowned, but replied indifferently, "I respect your privacy." She looked up, but still wouldn't look him in the eyes, and whispered, "Artigato Trowa kun."
She felt, as if she had done a horrible deed.
?????
Quatre stared oddly at the young woman in the doorway. He shook his head, "Shouldn't you be in your room Miss Relena?" The young woman blinked, and suddenly burst out into nervous laughter. Quatre reeled back with shock, and stared at her.
Relena waved him off, and replied airily, "Hai I know, but I felt so cooped up." When she saw his confused expression, she cleared her throat, and spoke with more authority. "I want to see my itoko. I wont be kept locked away, while she runs free, and most likely in danger."
Quatre blinked once, and again, "Uh...sorry Miss Relena. Well Usagi is in the garden. She wanted to be alone..."
As he said the words, Relena went still. She heard a faint cry in her mind, as if the wind had carried it silently to her ear. 'I feel so alone...and I'm scared. I...I don't want to be alone anymore.' She frowned, and turned from Quatre, "why on earth would she want to be alone? She went through hell last night, she needs a shoulder to cry on." Quatre nodded, but then frowned. "When did you start cursing Miss Relena?"
Relena pumped her arms in the air, and replied, "Right now! I'm going to go cheer up Usa."
'I don't want to be alone.'
Relena blinked, but the voice in her head, didn't stop her. She marched down the hall, heading straight towards the garden. "Relena sama!" At the mention of the name, she stopped, and looked at the open door. "Hai Noin?"
Noin sighed, but replied, "I just got word what happened to your cousin. I'll station more guard at the gate, and ocean entry. I promise, there won't be anymore intruders." Relena nodded, "Artigato Noin." Before she continued, Noin stopped her again, by clearing her throat. She looked up at the taller woman questioningly. "Your brother just called, and has asked for you to prepare a room. He's staying over for a few days, to help protect you. And he will be arriving tomorrow."
Relena nodded, with a sigh, "Artigato. We'll, if there isn't anything else, I'll be leaving." Noin nodded, and turned back into her room. Relena walked down the hall, and didn't notice the two young men she passed.
"Did you see that???"
"Hn."
"She walked right passed you!!! Just like this." The shorter of the two, motioned with his hands, one swooping pass the other. The other, grunted, and continued down the hall. "But Hee man, don't you just find that at least a bit odd?" The other glanced over his shoulder, at the hime's retreating form. 'Hai, I do.' Outwardly, he replied, "Hn."
Duo nodded, "I knew you agreed. Do you think she's sick?" Heero scowled at Duo, and walked on, leaving the braided haired youth behind, to ponder in his thoughts.
Relena made it outside, and found Usagi sitting on the bench. She was looking up at someone, and she glanced over. She saw Trowa standing not too far away, nodding to something Usagi had said.
She sighed, and watched them closely. From where she stood, they looked like good friends, but yet, there was something else between them. 'Hm...looks like I have some snooping to do...'
She grinned, and raised her hand in the air, and shouted, "Usa chan!!!" Usagi's head snapped up, and turned to look at her. She stood slowly, and asked, "hai Lena chan?" Relena asked eagerly, "Usa chan, want to go to the mall with me? I have the whole day off. So it will be just you and me."
Usagi's face lit up, and her eyes seemed to sparkle with new life, "Hai Lena chan!!!!!" She turned to Trowa, and bowed to him several times, before racing towards her. "Lets go, lets go!!!!" Relena laughed out loud, and nodded, "Alright."
Relena turned, to see Quatre in front of her. "Konnichi wa Quatre kun." Quatre smiled, but then it faded, as he stated, "I thought you had a meeting with Lady Une in an hour." Relena saw Usagi back up a bit, as if she had been discarded. "Don't be silly Quatre. My itoko, and I, are going out, to spend time together. Just tell Lady Une, our meeting will have to wait." Usagi shook her head, "Iie Lena chan. This Lady Une sounds important. Maybe you should..."
Relena whirled around to face the blond. "Iie. I want to spend time with you Usa chan. I haven't seen you in ten years, and so far, I've been to busy, to be a good enough host. So we're going shopping. End of discussion." Usagi smiled, and hugged her itoko, "artigato Lena chan!!!"
She pulled away, just as Wufei joined the group. "You won't leave, without an escort onna." Usagi frowned at the dark hair man. Wufei scowled at her, but Relena never noticed the dark looks, the two shared towards each other. "Fine, Wufei, you're hired." His glare, changed, and was directed towards her. "I'm not going shopping." Relena shrugged, "Then we go alone." With that said, she grabbed Usagi's hand, and tugged her along.