Again sorry about the long wait! this is the penultimate chapter (i know so sad) :). Short, but sweet ( hopefully).
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Chapter 10
Bella's POV
I woke slowly, my eyes blinking with the pale strand of sunlight shining through my window. I groaned a loud, stretching the stiff muscles in my back. I buried my face into my warm bed, it took me a minute to register that it was much too hard and much too hot to be my bed. My eyes flew open to spy a large russet chest. I was laying on Jacob, his face was turned to the sunlight. In sleep his features had relaxed into an easy smile. The worry lines that creased his forehead were gone, his eyes turned up (as if he were smiling) even when they were closed.
Visions of last night flooded through me. His warm touch, searing hot, melting my insides. His low moans and growls as he filled me with such an exquisite feeling of ecstasy. I could see his eyes, so tender and loving but burning like fire. His heat burrowing through my body, leaving no place untouched. Healing me, making me Bella again.
He was so tired I could see that now, in the light of day. His eyes had dark circles under them. I reached out one hand to softly trace them. My naked body lay over his, pale ivory and dark brown. I did not feel uncomfortable being naked, not with Jacob. It felt natural, it felt sort of good.
In the sunlight I could fully appreciate his body, completely bare beneath me. The cover that usually lay on my bed was on the floor, sometime in the night I must have kicked it off. Warm enough with Jacobs's presence. I followed the line of veins down his arms, almost invisible beneath the dark skin. The hard, emphasised shape of his abs. So warm and soft, so unlike Edward.
In the long months with Jake I had often wished to reach out and touch him, to feel if his skin was as smooth as it looked. He groaned slightly in his sleep, opening one eye and seeing me. I buried my face further into him, smelling his beautiful musky scent.
"Good morning beautiful" his voice was low and husky. He ran a hand over his eyes and yawned. We were silent for a moment as his arms wrapped around my waist and his face lay in my hair. I looked over to my digital clock on my beside table.
6:15
Charlie would be up soon and no doubt would check on me, after my "accident" last night. I wanted time to just stop, just for a while. Stay here in the comfort of his embrace, so warm and soft. Jacob noticed my gaze.
"Ugh I better go" Jacob groaned, not making a move to go. In fact he pulled me closer, kissing my forehead with his dark lips. I closed my eyes and just felt him; I could feel all of us, his long fingers interlocked around my waist, his warm breath on my head, parting my hair. The steady drum of his heart and the whoosh of his lungs.
It felt good to be so aware of everything, to feel every little detail of him. I turned my face to kiss the place over his heart, the place that had started it all. His good heart, beating so strong and so steady.
He chuckled. "You're nice in the mornings" he noted.
I scoffed at him, meeting his sleepy gaze with mine.
"I'll have to remember that" he whispered, his black eyes burning again. He caught my face in one of his big hands. He leant down to kiss me slowly, almost hesitant. His lips met mine for just a second, but it was enough for my heat to race, my palms to sweat. He moved away, leaning his forehead against mine.
"I have to go, Charlie is waking up" he whispered, stroking a hand through my hair. "Come and see me later".
I nodded; it was hard knowing I wasn't going to see him for ten minutes let alone the hours we would be apart. He left my bed, picking up his jeans off the floor and pulling them on, his back to me. It was impossible not to watch the lean muscles of his back as he dressed, rippling beneath the thin layer of his skin. He wondered to my window, opening it as wide as it would allow. He perched on the sill, like a cat.
"Bye Bells" he smiled, my smile. It light up his whole face, making him look even more beautiful, then he dropped from sight. I heard the dull thud of his landing and then nothing. Jacob was so quiet now. I smiled to myself.
Disastrously beautiful visions where clouding my vision. I saw Jacob picking me up from school, gorgeous in his white tee and dirty jeans. I saw him taking me to my first day of college, kissing me goodbye. Whispering he would be back later. I saw lazy Sunday mornings where I would wake up beside his naked body, everyday his beauty would stun me. I saw a small white house in la push, surrender by flowers. I saw Jacob in an old tee and sweats painting our house room pale yellow, wet paint running down the left side of his face.
I saw his friends, Quil and Jared and Sam and Emily. I saw mine too; Jessica and Mike, Angela and Ben. I saw La push and forks, I saw our family. We could have all this. The white house was always busy, people running through. Full of laughter and music and fun. I saw myself cooking dinner for when Jacob came home, heavily pregnant. He still looked at me like I was the most precious gift. I saw Jacob in a pale grey suit standing under a big tree, his eyes bright with tears as I marched down the aisle. Soon to be Bella Black. I liked the sound of that.
Finally I saw two dark haired children, running into the forest they loved so much. Jacob, older but still beautiful running after them. I could hear their laughter mixed with his low voice and I realised with a start. I wanted this, all of this. I wanted the simple beauty of a life with someone you loved, filled with all the mundane things that made us human. But also all the extraordinary things that made us human, no magic needed. Just love and family and friendship.
I pulled on some pj's, for Charlie's sake and turned my face to the pillow that was still clouded with his scent. The scent of earth and air, of childhood memories and of the home.