A/N: I do not own Twilight. Stephenie Meyer does.
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Chapter 10
'Dangerous games'
Edward
Time passed by painfully slowly while the preparations for our engagement seemed to be on fire. My relationship with Bella was very cold and typical now, the way it should have always been under the normal circumstances of our world.
I didn't see her as often as I used to, on an everyday basis. Her commitments to the dressmakers and other things that had to do with Rosalie's wedding were taking up most of her time. So I visited her only when she had nothing else to do, early on some afternoons and just for a little while. She hadn't asked me to take a walk in the gardens again, nor had she given me any more secret notes. I hadn't even had the chance to kiss her on the lips, I could only give her a kiss on the cheek since Renee was always present when we were together.
Most of the time I would just play the piano and she sat by me as always. However, now she seemed lost in deep thoughts, lost in her own world, silent. She was being very proper in her behavior, like any proper fiancée that respects her husband-to-be and this made me sick.
Bella, my Bella, the one who melted in my arms and searched for different ways for us to be alone, had disappeared. The shine of her eyes was gone and she had turned into someone else who had nothing to do with the woman I had adored. In a way she had pushed her away, had hidden her deep inside and never let her surface.
At first I had thought that I should clear the matter up straight away, asking her to meet me so we could talk. Then I understood that Bella needed time. She needed to be alone for a while to think. I would give her the time that she needed then and when she would be ready she would come to me on her own. Of that I was certain.
I'd never imagined that all this would cost me so much. I blamed myself all the time, for having been such a coward and not having told her I had seen her on the meadow before our formal meeting. I was sure that if I had done this, Bella would have appreciated this and wouldn't have felt so bad about this. Now it was too late and things had taken another turn. So the only thing left for me was to be patient and to hope that sooner or later Bella would get over this. If that didn't happen, I would call the engagement off.
I didn't want a wife who would be with me just because someone was forcing her to. I wanted Bella like crazy and didn't know how I would get over it if something like this happened, but if she didn't want me any more and was with me just out of pure obligation, it would all be meaningless.
Rosalie had calmed me down because she had met with Bella and they had talked. She felt somehow responsible for what had happened even though I'd never blamed her. The only one to blame was myself. So now she was trying to atone herself, assuring me that Bella had just been hurt and that she was trying to come to terms with her own self. However, I knew there was more to this. She didn't trust me anymore and this was breaking me up. Just one wrong action was enough to make her lose her trust in me. I wondered how it would be possible that everything I had done and told her all this time could have no value and make no sense to her.
In the end, I decided that I should be patient and things would take their course. Of course I was moody and that could not be hidden. Emmet had grown tired of pampering me and my father worried, thinking that I had changed my mind. Of course I talked to him and reassured him that not only had I not changed my mind, but, on the contrary, I could not wait for the engagement and this was the truth. Something inside me, like a premonition, told me that from then on everything would change. That Bella would once more be happy and that when I looked into her eyes I would only see her love and desire for me instead of the sorrow I saw now.
Bella
This was the great evening I was so anxiously expecting for such a long time now. Angela stood above me softly brushing my hair. Mina had just helped me wear the most wonderful dress I had ever seen. It was exactly as they had described it to me the day I ordered it and even better. Ice-white fabric that shone with a silver shine under the soft light and small sparkling crystals, all hand-embroidered, decorated the dress all the way from the bust to the hem. The square neckline made my chest look voluptuous, with small pleated folds ending on one side completing the picture.
Renee and Alice were ready and stood smiling by the door looking at me. Everybody looked pleased and happy apart from myself. Deep inside there was a thorn piercing my heart. A wall had been raised between us since the day I had discovered the truth about the meeting between Edward and me. At first I thought it was something we could overcome easily. Of course I had forgiven him at once and I believed that everything would go back to the way it was. However, Edward was cold and distant. He didn't dare touch me not even look me in the eyes.
Not knowing what to do, I had just accepted the situation as it was. In the meantime, all the preparations for our engagement and those for Rosalie and Emmet's wedding were taking up most of my free time. Edward visited me at home only for a little while and not daily as he used to. That didn't give me enough time to talk to him and ask him the things I wanted to. Most of all I feared that he would suddenly tell me that something had changed, that I wasn't what he needed, that he wanted to cancel the engagement and that had me petrified.
My heart was beating like crazy in anticipation for this evening, hoping that some magical force would come and demolish this hard wall that had been raised between us. I looked at my reflection in the mirror and felt like bursting into tears from agony. Everybody was telling me how beautiful I looked, that Edward would be so excited when he saw me, but I wouldn't bear it if I saw the ice in his eyes when I next looked at him. The only thing I wanted to see was warmth and that smile that I had seen so many times in the past, the one that made my knees turn to jelly.
Renee and Alice left the room to take care of some last details. The guests would start arriving shortly and their reception would start. I would not get involved in it, I was to turn up last, when everyone would have arrived, escorted by Charlie. That meant that when I walked downstairs to the living room, Edward would be there waiting for me.
Mina and Angelique gave me their wishes and followed my mother and sister. They were also invited as guests and they didn't have to serve me up to the last minute. They had already done more than enough anyway.
Angela's soft hands started breading my hair into a complicated bun twisting it on the top of my head and securing it there. She let some loose strands that fell softly by the sides of my face. Her smile was reflected on the mirror as she looked at me but I couldn't form one on my lips to return to her.
-"Miss Bella, what is wrong?" she asked me, being able to see through me better than anyone as always.
-"Nothing", I lied, trying to smile unsuccessfully.
-"Would you like to talk to me?" she asked politely. I had to hold back my tears. I would ruin my makeup if I cried and I didn't want anyone to know I had been crying, especially Edward.
-"It's Edward" I said with a broken voice. "He is not the same any more, something has changed between us."
-"Miss Bella", said Angela with a lowered head looking at the floor, "can I speak to you openly?" she asked for my permission.
-"Angela, you know you can always speak freely to me", I touched her arm softly, encouraging her.
-"I don't know about love, I don't have a clue about such things, but I am sure that Mister Edward loves you very much. That afternoon, he acted like crazy and took care of you better than anyone. The way he looked at you and touched your body, I have never seen something like that", she paused.
I knew what she was referring to. I had received his love and his regret in every possible way as he looked after me. I tightened my lips and took a deep breath.
-"I know that Edward loves me," I said, "but I think he finally saw that I am not a good match for him. My reaction made him realize we are different people."
Angela kneeled in front of me and put her hands on my knees.
-"I think he is just as scared as you are. He stepped back in fear that if he pushed you further he would lose you completely. Now he is waiting for you to make the first step". She nodded as she looked at me in the eyes. Would it be possible that Angela was right? Could it be that both of us were dumb and afraid? How could something like that have happened?
Ever since the beginning, before I even got to know Edward, there was a connection between us even when we didn't speak. I could feel his needs and he could feel mine. Even though my inexperience and naivety created a problem between us, there was so much understanding from his side. How was it possible that that had disappeared now?
-"Listen to me", Angela pressed her hand on my knee. "Make the first step tonight. Forget everything that has happened, enjoy the party which is thrown in your honor and show him exactly how you feel. Show him your love".
-"But what if…." he rejects me? I wanted to ask but Angela didn't let me go on.
-"He loves you," she repeated, absolutely sure of this. I waned to trust her instinct and for the first time I managed a smile. I looked in the mirror and liked what I saw and hoped that Edward liked it too. Angela got up and finished up my hair securing a small white flower on the left side.
-"It is very pretty," I told her and thanked her for having thought of something so beautiful.
-"Mr. Maisen sent it," she said and smoothed her apron. My eyes met hers and this time one single tear rolled down my cheek.
-"He loves you Miss Bella" she repeated in a warm voice and after I dried away the tear with my fingers I got up to meet my father. I didn't worry any more about my tears. Everyone could understand the emotional state of a bride.
Edward
Bella's house had been transformed to a flower-flooded warm place that had already started filling up with people. In every corner of the room stood large vases filled with flowers of different colors and a mesmerizing scent was filling up the atmosphere. A small orchestra had started playing classical music and the chandeliers were full of candle lights that flickered and softly lit the great living room and the ball room. All of Chicago's high society had been gathered and they were all waiting to see the bride.
My nervousness had exceeded all limits. My palms were sweaty and I was asphyxiating under the scrutiny of all those unknown relatives and friends of the Swan family. Of course there were many of our relatives too as my father had invited all of our family and his colleagues. Thankfully Emmet and Rosalie's presence calmed me down and made me remind myself that all this did not matter.
This charade set in front of us was simply to satisfy our parents and the special relationship Bella and I had was something ours, something personal and I hoped that I would be able to find a bit of time to come closer to her and to enjoy this moment like we deserved.
I was standing last in the guest reception like and I was getting tired of the handshakes and the "thank yous". I was hoping that all this would end soon and then the presence of a familiar face took me out of this unpleasant position. My best friend Jasper was now in front of me and smiled at me with a warm and naughty look in his eyes.
I am certain he hadn't easily believed that I was getting ready to be married when he received the invitation and now he was here to find out for himself if it was true. He gave me a strong hug and laughed in my ear,
-"When you are ready to escape, just say the word and we are out of here' he said and burst out laughing.
-"Jasper Whitlock, not this time" I said seriously and hugged him back patting him softly on the shoulders.
Jasper and I had grown up together, our families were very close and a life-long friendship joined our fathers too. A little while ago, Jasper had decided to crawl behind the dresses of a young actress and had followed her to Broadway in New York. Naturally his father was not at all pleased about this and had tried in every possible way to make him come back.
Finally the romance between him and Analise faded and ended soon but Jasper didn't want to come back. He stayed in New York under the pretence of studying economics and his father succumbed to his whims hoping that sooner or later he would return home.
Now he had come just for me and of course I hadn't had the chance to talk to him about Bella. I hadn't seen him for a few months, I had just sent him an invitation for tonight.
-"You are looking fine, Edward" he said and looked at me admiringly and playfully like he used to.
-"You too" I returned. I wanted to get out of the reception line and found the perfect chance at last. I went close to my father and asked for the permission to leave in order to speak with Jasper. In any case, Bella would not make her appearance for a little while, not until all the guests were here.
The two of us escaped to the garden straight away and Jasper immediately offered me one of my favorite cigars. We walked for a while and reached the pavilion Bella and I had spent one of the best afternoons. I sighed and deeply inhaled my cigar smiling at my friend.
-"Well, I am waiting to hear what is going on here" he said smiling raising an eyebrow.
-"What can I say…" I said and knocked a leaf on the ground with my foot. "I am getting married" I said and shrugged. Jasper started laughing and looked at me in a way that said "yeah ok, nice joke"
-"No, really" I went on seriously. Jasper became serious and coughed.
-"Did your father force you into this?" he asked worryingly.
-"At first, yes," I admitted "And, to be honest, I didn't want to hear a word about it when he talked to me."
-"So what changed?"
It was so difficult to explain. Jasper and I had been around all the red light districts of this city and had spent many nights in different arms drinking and having fun.
-"I am in love" I said simply, although I could imagine my friend's next reaction. A second wave of loud laughs came out of him and he brought his hand to the side of his head looking at me playfully.
-"Really?" he asked sarcastically
-"Really," I answered seriously.
-"Oh, finally, tell me, who are you and what have you done to Edward?" he asked seriously
-"Nice joke," now I laughed too.
-"Do you mean this?"
-"I would never say something like this unless I really meant it." I looked him in the eyes and for a moment he said nothing. He lowered his head looking to the ground.
-"You will get to meet her shortly and I don't know what you'll think of her. She's got nothing to do with anyone I have met so far. She is different," I said and it was the truth. No other woman combined the natural beauty, the innocence and strength of will that Bella had. Perhaps I was the only one that saw her like this, perhaps it had only to do with me, but I knew very well that she was exactly what I wanted.
-"What is so different about her, then?" asked Jasper?
-"I can't put it into words. I just feel that way"
-"OK!" he said happily. "Let's head inside because your sweetheart must be about to turn up and I have to see for myself what has made you lose your mind," he laughed again and hugged me. I laughed too and headed towards the house.
As soon as we stepped inside, my mother and aunt run to me saying a bunch of flattering comments about my looks.
-"Edward, a little bit longer and we would start looking for you. Bella is about to come downstairs" said my mother, so I immediately took my place next to my parents waiting patiently. Emmet and Rose looked happy and couldn't wait to have their wedding. There was only a week left for the ceremony and I hoped that by that day Bella and I would have bridged that gap between us. I was to be her date for the wedding and that would give us the chance to spend more time together as a couple.
After tonight, that our engagement would be formal, at last everything would start changing for the better. The box with the ring made me feel like a heavy weight was in my pocket and even though I knew that Bella had loved it, I couldn't wait to place it on her finger so that it stayed there forever.
The orchestra was now playing a light happy tune and Bella appeared on the top of the stairs by Charlie's arm. I almost lost my balance, almost got dizzy looking at the woman who was soon to be mine. I had greatly underestimated her. Bella, who walked slowly down the stair, one step at a time, shone and sparkled under the soft candle lights.
Her porcelain skin was radiant and the dress hugged wonderfully every curve, flattering her silhouette.
Her hair was done in an up-style with airy light curls surrounding her face and her appearance was completed by the white flower that decorated her hair. It was the flower I had sent earlier to her, hoping that she would wear it on her wrist if she wanted to do me this honor. However, now that I saw it in her hair I knew that this was its rightful place. A small white daffodil pure and in full bloom just like the girl wearing it on her hair.
My heard skipped a beat when she stepped down the last step and the rest of the world disappeared. It was just the two of us standing there and I couldn't wait to take her in my arms and tell her how much I love her. Everything that had happened had been gone, disappeared and my feelings were so strong inside me that soon I would not be able to contain them any more. I wanted to confess everything to her as soon as we would be left alone.
Charlie stood in front of me, hugged me politely and placed his daughter's hand in mine looking at me pleadingly like he was entrusting his biggest treasure to me. I answered his look with one trying to reassure him that Bella was the most valuable thing to me too.
My love's hand nested inside mine and I looked at her hoping that in my eyes she would be able to see all my love, everything that I felt for her. Her eyelids flicked and she seemed so emotional that I kept my mouth shut with difficulty. If it would have been possible, I wanted to confess everything right that moment, but I waited until we were left alone.
I brought her fingers to my lips and gave them a light kiss while everybody's eyes were turned on us by now. Then I touched my lips on her cheek leaving an airy kiss there and the only thing I had the chance to whisper to her was:
-"You are beautiful". Then I took her arm and we headed for the living room, where I was to put my ring on her finger and we would toast to our future.
We walked with slow paces and I couldn't hide how happy I felt right that moment and at the end of the day why hide this? I wanted everyone to see that this wonderful woman was mine and that she felt the same way about me too.
When we, at last, reached the great hall, the music stopped playing loudly and not even a whisper could be heard. Charlie started the speech and my father continued talking about all the happiness that this marriage would bring to our families. I didn't pay attention to much more as my attention was elsewhere and in reality the only happiness I cared about that moment was that of Bella.
Once we were done with the formalities, I took the little box out of my pocket and opened it in front of the surprised eyes of my beloved who reacted as if she saw it for the first time. I had to admit she was a very good actress. Had I not been the one who had already shown it to her, I could easily believe that this was the first time she saw it. I put it on her finger and kissed her hand again smiling and then hugged her whispering in her ear:
-"My heard belongs to you," I closed my eyes and let myself breathe in close to her hair. As always, she smelled of orange blossoms and that scent made me get goose bumps reminding me that it was enough to make me start thinking of more indecent acts. I took a step back and when my eyes met hers I saw that they shone from happiness and emotion confirming all that I felt.
My Bella had returned, she was there with me and I wanted to draw her into my arms and run outside, far from everyone.
The glasses were raised high, everybody was toasting to our future, but my eyes never left, not even for a moment, to look elsewhere. Bella was simply the center of my universe, my entire life.
Then the orchestra started playing a lively waltz and everyone waited for us to start the dances.
Bella bit her lips and looked at me troubled.
-"I was afraid of this" she said down casting her eyes. "I am not the best dancer and everyone is looking at us". Her cheeks turned a bright red and I wanted to kiss her hard until I had no breath left.
-"Don't worry" I said touching her shoulders lightly. "Let me lead and you will see that everyone will think you were born a dancer". She laughed lightly. "The secret is to look me in the eyes"
-"If I do that, I will get dizzy and fall down" she said in a low voice. I wanted to tell her how flattered I was by what she said but instead I smiled and pulled her by her hand because our guests were waiting.
We walked to the center of the ball room, I brought her as close to me as I dared and held her firmly by the waist. One of her hands held mine and the other rested on my shoulder. We slowly started waltzing and Bella's eyes never left mine. My steps led the dance and her body followed not missing one step.
-"See? There was no need to be afraid. You are a wonderful dancer" I said.
-"I am terrible and you know it. But perhaps I can improve, if you teach me slowly"
-"I will teach you everything you wish to learn," I promised and held her hand firmly because she had to turn. When she faced me again I noticed that she almost held her breath, so I quickly pulled her near me forcing her to look up at me again and her body relaxed.
-"Breathe" I said as I was afraid that she would soon run out of air. She followed my advice, her eyes lit up and a light smile formed on her lips.
One dance led to another and now the room was full of dancing couples. Our parents, Emmet with Rosalie, Jasper with a young girl I didn't know, Jacob with Mina and the other two seamstress assistants with two good looking young men.
A while later, we retreated to a smaller circle and our families came to offer us their wishes. The glasses filled up again and everyone seemed to be having a great time.
I filled a glass for Bella, who until now hadn't drunk at all, and touched it with mine.
-"I have never had champagne before," she confessed.
-"Then it is about time to have some," I told her and winked at her. I don't know what went through her head right then but her cheeks took on that lovely rosy color I loved to see. Not being able to hold myself back I bent to her ear.
-"Tell me what you just thought," I demanded
-"I thought that you are so handsome that if I drink alcohol I will get dizzy and will not be able to control myself," she admitted.
My Bella was really back. Her words aroused me right that moment, but this wasn't the most appropriate evening for this kind of seduction. Moreover, I had promised myself that I would not touch her in this way again before our wedding. We had played with fire enough by now and I also wanted to prove to her that I respected her fully.
-"This is what I am here for," I answered. "To make sure you will try only as much as you need to". Bella said nothing and simply touched her rosy lips with the edge of her glass and hesitantly took a little sip. Her face took on a happy expression and she let a little giggle come out.
-"It makes my tongue tingle she said and brought the glass back to her lips drinking a good sip now. Right that moment, what I wanted to do was to take the champagne glass away from her and kiss her until we run out of breath but instead I took a sip too and then took the empty glass from her hand.
-"Enough for tonight," I said and touched her nose with the tip of my index finger. "Let's not overdo it from the first time," I pretended to scold her. She was ready to answer back, but I saw Jasper coming to us and the change in my expression made her stop.
-"Let me introduce you to my best friend," I told Bella and looked at Jasper who was now in front of us.
-"This is Jasper Whitlock and here is my fiancée, Isabella Swan"
Jaz took a step forward, took hold of Bella's hand and bringing it to his lips kissed it. His eyes had this cunning look that he knew very well was enough to charm a woman.
-"I am happy to finally meet you, Isabella" he said with a smile
-"So am I," said Bella, nodding her head in a polite way. A little pinch in my heart made me feel uncomfortable. I took Bella's hand and held it in mine looking at Jasper meaningfully. It was rather silly for me to behave like this, but just the thought that Jaz was flirting with my fiancée made my stomach turn.
Our eyes met and I am sure that my friend got the message which read 'Do not touch'. A wide smile formed on his face and he raised his hands in a show of retreat.
-"Isabella"
-"Bella" she corrected him
-"Bella, then," said Jaz and looked back at me, "are you sure that you know everything about Edward?" He had started being smart again and anger was boiling up inside me.
-"I know everything I should know," said Bella answering straight on without leaving him any room to continue.
-"Oh, I am sure he is very good at telling stories"
-"Jaz…"and my expression showed that if he said one more word, I would slit his throat.
-"Edward, you really work yourself up for no reason" he said and looked at me with pretend innocence. "I wanted to tell her about that time when we were kids and got lost in the woods."
-"Yeah, a very interesting story" I said and laughed indifferently having a sip of champagne.
-"Everyone had been looking for us for the entire day," he went on and looked at Bella.
-"Of course, since we were going towards the opposite direction thanks to your broken compass" I threw at him.
Jaz laughed and Bella looked at me with interest in the story.
-"Really?" she asked. "What happened next?"
-"Nothing, we fell into the river, got soaked to the bone and I spent the rest of the month in bed" I frowned as I remembered my confinement.
Bella laughed but with a hint of worry on her face.
-"Oh my God, you could have run into so much more trouble" she said seriously
-'In reality we were going around the same spot in circles. If we had stayed in place from the first moment, we would not have gotten lost."
Emmet and Rose came to us then and we started telling stories from our childhood. I was surprised to hear that Bella was quite a rebellious child. She liked to climb on trees because she liked the view from up there. Her parents had to change three different governesses for that reason alone until Charlie had to cut down some of the trees in the garden.
I laughed my heart out and I tried to imagine little Bella up on tree branches. Since she liked to look at the world from high up, I should do something about that. I kept that thought in the back of my mind for later.
Rose pulled Bella away from us and I noticed they were talking about her ring.
-"My God, it is wonderful' she said enchanted. "The stones are all real precious stones' she assured her.
-"It is beautiful and it would still hold the same value for me even if the stones were fake."
I smiled and felt like taking her in my arms.
-"Well?" asked Emmet, but I had no idea what he was talking about.
-"What?" I asked looking questioningly and then Emmet and Jasper burst out laughing.
-"Will you join us at the club? Jaz wants us to remember the old times," he winked at me.
-"Of course I will come" I answered assertively. "We can play chess or bridge," clarifying that I wasn't interested in any other kind of adventures. Jasper sighed but Emmet went on making him understand that he was with me in this. "Just one week left until the wedding," he said and looked at him seriously.
-"That is exactly why we should get together and remember the old days" said Jasper playfully.
Instead of carrying on in this meaningless conversation, I neared Bella and Rose, who were now talking about Rose's wedding dress.
The evening went on with more dancing, talks and congratulating wishes. A couple of hours later Bella had had another two glasses of champagne. Now she didn't care at all about her dancing insecurities. She hugged me and was moving rhythmically opposite me always looking at me in the eyes turning happily around herself. She had obviously become a bit tipsy and I should not let her have more drinks.
At some point, when everybody was dancing and laughing and while they were drinking and looking like they were having a great time, Bella grabbed my by the hand and pulled me looking at me meaningfully. She didn't speak, but something told me that her mind was racing, coming up with naughty plans. I followed her on without thinking and once we were out in the garden she opened a balcony door and we found ourselves in a small sitting room.
-"Not here," she said and bit her lip. Then, still holding my hand, she unlocked a single little door in the room, took the key and then I realized we were inside Charlie's study. She locked the door behind her, dropped the key inside her corset and licked her lips with the spiciest look on her face.
-"If you want us to get out of here, you are going to have to find the key first!" she clarified and I stood looking at her stunt. I was certainly lost for words and didn't know what to do.
Dear Lord…this woman was meant to kill me.
-"Bella…" I stuttered, "you are drunk and you don't know what you are doing," I said battling inside in order not to grab her and force her onto the locked door.
Instead of giving me an answer, she threw herself in my arms and rose on the tips of her toes. Her lips quickly found the base of my neck and deposited a fleeting kiss there. Her tongue traveled to the button of my shirt and her trembling fingers managed to undo it. I grabbed her wrists in an attempt to stop her.
-"I love you and I want you" she whimpered. "Make me yours now, here!" she demanded.
-"No" I said still holding her hands. "Not like this, please" I begged. "We have to wait…we have to be patient," I repeated, more to convince myself than anyone else.
-"Show me you want me too," she pleaded. Her lips went higher, they found my chin.
-"God, I want you," I said and groaned. How could I be refusing her? I don't know how I could contain myself. My defenses lowered, I bent my head and my lips finally met hers after all this time.
I kissed her deeply, desperately and passionately. My tongue danced on hers and she responded breathlessly, taking in deep short breaths. Our soft moans filled the silent room and I brought her closer to me.
-"Bella…" I shivered lowering my face on her bust. My hand slid along the fabric, looking for the key, hoping I would be able to find it soon so that we would get out of there before it would be too late for both of us.
My teeth captured her soft skin and she threw her head back taking the pleasure in. My hands were on fire and I had trouble stopping myself from tearing her corset apart, something I would definitely regret doing afterwards.
I held her and turned her onto the door and my hands traveled down from her shoulders to her ribs and further down to her buttocks. She sighed and said my name in a husky voice making me shiver. It had been such a long time since I had last heard that, and I automatically felt my arousal wanting to escape its prison.
-"Bella..." I said and plunged my lips into hers while I had trapped her between my arms and there was no way she could find a way out unless I left her.
I kissed the tip of her nose, her eyelids, and then lower, her chin and neck. This moment was so unique! I felt like I was drowning in my urges and feelings simultaneously.
-"All this time, I thought that something had changed…your behavior was killing me," I said without breath in between our kisses. Only then did she stop, raised her head and looked into my eyes steadily.
-"Edward, I…" she tried to speak but I didn't let her. I put my fingers on her lips making her stop.
-"Shhh, I don't want us to ever talk about this again. I love you," I said simply, and put my face on her hair softly so that I wouldn't ruin her hairdo even though I was dying to let it loose around her face and on her shoulders. My nose passed over the fresh daffodil that decorated her hair and I shivered again.
-"Thank you for wearing it," I said and closed my eyes with relief.
-"It was Angela's idea. I didn't know it was you who'd sent it, she told me afterwards." Her eyes looked at me full of love and desire. I was fighting to keep my urges in control so that I wouldn't fall uncontrollably on her.
It was impossible for me to resist her. My hands closed around her with force trapping her onto my chest, her warm breath enfolded me and her fingers stroke the opening of my shirt. Her lips came in contact with my skin spreading little fleeting kisses. My entire body was on fire and I lifted her into my arms breathing heavily. I walked a few steps in the dark and put her on Charlie's desk.
I was getting scared now. I was afraid that I would loose control. I was incapable of any thinking, the whole world had been lost around me and the only thing there was the two of us.
Just like the flower on her hair, she was in full bloom and was daring me to cross all boundaries. For a moment I resisted, looked at her in the eyes and all I saw there was desire. If I turned her down then I would hurt her. I closed my eyes, and lowered my face onto her bust. I really had to find that key!
Bella
Every inch of my body was shivering desperately under his touch. I don't know if it was the champagne, the atmosphere or the fear that any moment the door would open and we would be caught, but a hot lava was flowing through me and I felt the greatest desire ever…
My heart was racing and the shivers between my legs were torturing me with desire. His lips were traveling down my décolletage but the dress was so tightly done up that if he undid it, there would be no way we could put it back in place.
-"Don't touch it," I sighed. "Put your hand inside it." He obeyed me and his long fingers managed to pry their way under the fabrics.
-"Damn it Bella…this corset is so tight that I wonder how you are able to breathe," he said and bit the base of my neck.
-"Difficult times for women," I commented throwing my head back to help him out. My hands grabbed the desk for support.
Edward groaned on my breasts and immediately his hands lifted my dress with violence. This move was enough to make me feel an even greater need for him. I had never felt so alive before. I was ready to explore every love path with him.
His fingertips dragged on my thighs meeting my silk stockings. Another groan followed by my name made me let out a stronger sigh. I don't know where I found the strength, but my hands grabbed his and brought them right where I needed them the most.
-"Oh, God….Bella, you drive me crazy," he said and this statement made me party inside. I would never, ever doubt myself again. Yes, I was able to bring out the passion of this man. He wanted me, body and soul, to be his completely.
His hands suddenly pulled my silk underwear and I had trouble holding back the scream that was ready to come out of my lips.
-"Yes…" I said knowing very well what was that I wanted. His fingers kept going and touched my burning flesh. My reaction was spontaneous. I sighed deeply feeling very close to my limits.
-"God, it has been such a long time since I last felt this," I confessed. I felt so alive and so free that I didn't feel ashamed of asking what I wanted and needed.
-"Do you know how much I want you Bella?" he asked whispering in my ear and those whispers sent vibrations through my whole body.
-"No, I don't. Tell me" I said challenging him to go on. Then he suddenly took my hand and brought it on his arousal. This was the first time Edward did something like that. I touched his hard sex and lost my breath. His fingers kept stroking me mercilessly, pushing me closer to the edge. His teeth trapped my earlobe and I run my fingers through his hair pulling it hard.
He never stopped torturing me. He stroke my sex repeatedly dragging his magical fingers on me in little circles driving me more and more to my limits. How was it possible that he knew my body needs so well? It was as if I was a musical instrument that he could tune and play the most overwhelming tunes.
-"See your rainbows my love. Cum for me" he ordered me speeding up the rhythm.
A deep moan escaped my lips before Edward's mouth covered mine. My screams drowned in out deep kiss as my body trembled in continuous spasms. And just as I thought that everything was over, more tremblings took me over and stronger spasms went through me. The words 'pleasure' and 'satisfaction' were too little to describe what I felt. I didn't see colors and rainbows now, but a bright light that burned through every inch of my body.
Edward still panted on my neck and as soon as my brain started working again, I quickly undid the buttons of his trousers. I pulled him on to me with force and for the first time I felt his sex onto my mine.
-"Oh…" I let out again, bit my lips and closed my eyes. Reality was much better than any fantasy of this magical feeling.
Even though I had just felt the absolute pleasure and I believed there were no more ways in which I could be satisfied, my body was on fire again, ready to respond to him completely.
-"Damn…" I heard Edward curse through his teeth. "You are so warm and wet..." He was about to say something more but stopped. With tight lips, he took in a deep breath and pulled himself back.
-"No," I said and tried to bring him back close to me but he resisted.
-"Not here, not like this." He covered his lips with mine giving me a sweet soft kiss.
-"Edward, please," I begged but it was pointless.
-"I love you too much to do this." I could see it in his eyes, that were full of desire and love but more serious than ever, that he meant every word he said.
-"In that case…" I gave in and stretched my hand touching his manhood "let me please you," I begged.
-"You make it so difficult for me to resist you," he complained and rubbed himself on my palm. My fingers closed around him. I pulled him near and we kissed again.
I lowered my head dying from the desire to take him into my mouth when we heard a strange noise coming from the room next door. We both froze still
Edward buttoned his trousers quickly taking away the object of my desire, but I couldn't complain any longer. He immediately put my underwear back in place and smoothed the skirt of my dress over me. I felt such a disappointment when my eyes met his. I desperately wanted to please him. Ι hugged him close and the strange noise was heard again. It sounded like an object falling on the floor.
I stood from the desk with shaking knees, and pulled the key that was still trapped in my bra. Just a few moments ago I was hoping that Edward would have found it and he would be pulling it out with his teeth dragging it on my sensitive skin. I quickly turned that thought away since there was no chance of this happening now.
Curiosity was now burning me to discover what the hell was going on in the little sitting room next door.
I unlocked the door and felt Edward standing behind me silent. The sight I saw before me left me speechless.
Jasper Whitlock was spread on my sister. The bust of her dress was undone, his mouth was on her breast, her skirts were lifted up and his hand was placed high on her thigh.
Before I had the chance to see anything more, a hand covered my eyes and a second my mouth before the strong screech left my lip.
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