Chapter 10
I know it sounds strange / I know it sounds crazy / But being your friend just won't settle with me / I want more of you / I need more of you / To make my dream come true / I don't want anyone else / No one is like you / Please say you love me back / Please
Some time later…
Particularly during and after "Sexy"…
"I wanted to thank you for performing that song with me in glee club. Because it's made me do a lot of thinking. And what I realized is why I'm such a bitch all the time. I'm a bitch because I'm angry. I'm angry because I have all of these feelings, feelings for you, that I'm afraid of dealing with because I'm afraid of dealing with the consequences. And Brittany, I can't go to an Indigo Girls concert. I just can't."
"I understand that."
"Do you understand what I'm trying to say?"
"No, not really."
"I want to be with you, but I'm afraid of the talks and the looks. I mean, you know what happened to Kurt at this school."
"But, honey, if anybody were to ever make fun of you, you would either kick their ass or slash them with your vicious, vicious words."
"Yea, I know, but I'm so afraid of what everyone will say behind my back. Still, I have to accept that I love you. I love *you*, and I don't want to be with Sam, or Finn, or any of those other guys. I just want you. Please say you love me back. Please."
"Of course I love you! I do! And I would totally be with you if it wasn't for Artie."
"Artie?"
"I love him, too. I don't want to hurt him, that's not right. I can't break up with him."
Santana played the conversation over and over in her head as she laid down on her bed going through the numerous pictures of her and Brittany in her cell phone. She was debating whether to delete them or keep them. Every time she found her finger on the delete button she pushed the clear button and looked at the picture all over again.
She didn't know how to feel. She knew for a while, a very long while, that she had feelings for Brittany. She didn't really need the help of Ms. Holiday like Brittany might have suggested, she just didn't want to admit that she loved Brittany. For the life of Santana she didn't want to prove Joey right. But she couldn't hide it any longer, she was in love with Brittany Pierce but Brittany was in love with Artie too.
Santana flipped her phone shut and turned on her stomach and yelled in her pillow. How could Brittany love Artie? Artie was a rebound; he had no real effect on Brittany. He was only there because Santana couldn't admit that she enjoyed those sweet lady kisses more than she wanted to admit.
Ugh!
Santana screamed louder in her pillow. If only things were easier…
Author's Note: Sorry it's so short . :/