A/N: I've been gone ... probably will be gone more often than not. here is a longish chapter to tide you guys over. Enjoy- S.K.

Broken

Tori

I am so gay… I sighed as I lay on Jade's sofa bed alone because she got up in the middle of the night to give Aine a dose of medicine. I was cold her living room was huge and drafty. But I didn't want to move from my spot, It was delicious, smelled of us, and it reminded me that she was the only one that has ever made me this wet, or took me to a full orgasm.

She was so good with that tongue, and her long fingers… god I got wet just thinking about it. I sighed and began to drift back to sleep especially when she slid in behind me Just as naked as me warming me up instantly.

I turned to face Jade and kissed her again. She had brushed her teeth while she was up, unfair… now I feel my breath is rank. I started to pull away but she held me tight. Then she moaned and dropped her head to my shoulder. "Do you really have to go to a training this weekend?"

I pulled my fingers through her hair and caressed her body. "Can I come back tonight?"

She looked at me. "Yeah?" I nodded, and she smiled. "Of course." Then we spent the rest of the morning touching and caressing each other back to sleep.

"Tor," I heard as I was shaken awake. "Baby it's six, you have to walk home to get your car and stuff." She said she was dressed in something other than Gym clothes, she was hot.

"You going somewhere?" I asked as she walked toward the kitchen sink. She had a simple oatmeal and coffee sitting on the breakfast bar for both of us.

She turned to look at me. "I have to work. It is a make up from last year, they asked for a Saturday session."

I was embarrassed, I didn't know she worked… of course she did, she was a single mother. "What do you do?"

"I am a Spanish language instructor." She said taking a spoon full of oatmeal. I walked over to her and kissed her neck. We started to get into what we were doing, when there was a knock on her door. Her eyes widened and she stood up from the breakfast bar kind of jarring me back to life. "You're naked, and that's my sitter." She said pushing me toward the bathroom.

I heard her talking to her sitter in Spanish. She was really good at it, her little American accent was cute as hell. I stepped out on to the hallway. "Buen dia." The older Mexican lady said to me as I came out of the bathroom in my gym clothes.

I smiled, "Hola!" I said and looked over at Tori she was rushing to finish up her oatmeal.

"Es su perro?" She asked pointing at Brody. I nodded and called him over. "Que lindo. Muy bonito."

"Gracias." I said with a smile, I guess I was going to have to introduce myself. "Soy—"

"Ah, Elsa… esta es mi… novia Tori." Jade said as she headed for her bed and made it back into a couch. "Ella se tiene que ir, porque va tardicimo."

"Si, es cierto." I said looking at my girlfriend. She didn't look shocked that I spoke Spanish.

"Babe I'll drive you and Brody to your apartment or you are not gonna get inland in time." Jade said , it was like she was in a totally different mode. She didn't even notice Elsa's shocked expression because she came out to her.

"Jade, tu novia?" Elsa said in shock. "Le dices a tu tia se muere del shock."

Jade just laughs "Elsa, my family disowned me the first time I came out to them. Mommy died right after."

"Ah… bueno… bienvenida Tori," She said with a warm smile. I nodded and I smiled at Jade who waited patiently by the door. I called Brody to me and walked with her out of the door.

She drove Brody and I silently to my apartment I really needed to know what was up with her. I hated her silences, and as I was about to speak, she said. "Elsa raised me. She was my nanny." I bit my lower lip and let her speak. " My parents Traveled a lot and Spanish was my first language."

Well that was one question answered. "You were disowned?"

She nodded. "They thought that I was acting out at first, then I hooked up with my professor in college. They stopped funding me I had to find my way. I met Andre at school… They really didn't like that either. They refuse to acknowledge the twins. But Elsa… she said she would help, when things with him got bad. So she watches them for me for free when I need to work."

"She's all the family you have." I said softly. She nodded and I realized I hadn't really asked her much about hers last night. She doesn't talk about herself much. "Well… now you have me."

She looked at me and smiled. She only took my hand and squeezed it then let go and turned into my parking lot. "I see you later?" she asked.

I nodded and leaned in to kiss her. We lingered for a bit until Brody whined . I smiled and headed out of the car. I had to get into work mode. I have never been this love fogged in my life.

Jade

I sat in a room alone in this stupid building with a man. I couldn't help but feel nervous because it was the weekend and like I said, I was alone with him.

The halls were eerily silent just the sound of he and I having a conversation about the meals we like to eat in Spanish. "Jade, tienes novio?" The question threw me off and I looked at Sam with a raised brow. Why would he ask me something so personal. It's none of his business whether I have a boyfriend or not.

"Yo? No." I answered

He seemed to fumble with what he wanted to say to me. "Quiero salir con tigo."

I sat there stunned for a second. Why all of a sudden was I getting propositions in every direction. Now that I didn't need it. "No puedo, soy su instructora." I told him I coulndn't go out with me because I was his instructor.

"You are way more fascinating to me as a woman than an instructor, can't I just get reassigned." He dropped all pretense of practice and moved to hold my hand.

I removed my hand from his grip. "I wouldn't go out with you even if you did." I answered.

"You said you weren't going out with anyone."

"You asked me if I had a boyfriend… You are not my type."

"What is your type?" He asked.

I blinked at him really slowly. "Besides, I don't think my girlfriend would appreciate that."

"But…" he said a little dumbfounded. "You have kids, you were married…"

"See how that worked out?" I mumbled. I looked at my watch and said. "Look lets break for lunch and get back into it after."

He nodded and hung his head… needless to say I came back after lunch, but he didn't.

I had come out of class and saw I had a message from Tori. "Having a fantastic time at the training wish you were here."

"I miss you too," I texted back.

"I'm coming straight to you tonight Cat's got Brody"

My heart skipped a beat. I wished I had somewhere to send the twins. I don't I hope she isn't disappointed that my attention will be so divided. "Okay."

"I wanna show you some really relaxing poses I learned today." She continued.

"No wild acrobatics please, I am still not quite in as good a shape as you are." I texted back. I could imagine her tilting her head back and laughing at this, then getting in trouble with a yogi or something for not paying attention.

I had a few hours before I had to be home, since my student bailed, so I went to the spa and spent seventy dollars in grooming that Tori better appreciate because it isn't something I can do often. When I got home, my door was open, and Elsa was arguing with "Andre! What the fuck?" I screamed taking Aine from his hands by force letting Elsa go after Aiden.

"I want to see my kids!" he said.

"You need to leave, you can't just come here and see them whenever you want. That's not how it works." I said kissing my little girl's burning head. "Aine is sick anyway."

"I can take care of my kid." He said faltering a little bit I knew he wanted to run. He looked me over and caught a glimpse of something I was not quite aware of. He ran his hands trough my hair and tilted his head biting his lower lip. "You been fucking someone haven't you?"

I moved out of his reach and turned away from him taking Aine to her crib. "That's none of your business. And you have them one weekend a month while you are stationed in California. Please stick to that schedule."

"Look girl, I should have a say as to who spends time with my kids." He stated.

"Well, that was not in the divorce papers. So I suggest you just stop trying to cock block and continue screwing that cow you cheated on me with." I smiled and pushed him toward the door.

"Bitch you know what?" He stopped and he turned to leave. "I'll be back."

"I'm sure you will," I murmured closing the door behind him.

"Ese hombre es un idiota."

"I know he is an idiot, but I was trying to play things straight Elsa. It just didn't work for me." I answered coming toward her and hugging her. "Thanks, mama I owe you."

"Me muero por estos niños, sabes?" She stated stroking then patting my cheek. "I see you next time."

"Yeah…" I stared off into space as I walked her to the door. She would die for my children. She is more of a grandmother than my own mother ever was.

Tori

I rushed through her parking lot searching for a guest spot at her building. I nearly ran over this black dude. He looked a little familiar, but everyone looked familiar to me I saw so many people every day. Maybe he was a participant to Body Combat or Body Pump. Dude was huge. I waved and smiled then stopped my car and ran up the stairs by two.

Just as I was about to knock on the door, Elsa opened it. I smiled widely, and she kind of looked off to the side and smiled back. "Hola hijita, voy corriendo que tengo un compromise ahorita."

"Yeah, don't let me keep you." I said and waved goodbye. And there she stood my girl. She smiled and I launched myself at her wrapping my arms around her and kissed her deeply. She moaned and staggered back a bit and leaned up against the wall in front of the door.

I let my hands roam her body and just as my hands reached the zipper of her skirt and pulled she stiffened completely. I pulled back and her eyes were wide. Confused I turned to look at what she saw. The door was wide open and standing there was the dude I had almost run over. "I'm taking my kids."

"You are not ." Jade said rushing to close the door before he got inside. Too late. She pulled on his arm and was knocked down on to the floor.

"Jade!" I screamed. But she got up off the ground and went after him. I picked up my phone.

"Andre! Leave! She's about to call the police." She said getting in front of him and pushing him back with all her strength. "You don't need that on your record and tell me the judge who would take a kid from a mother who has been hit and has no record." She tried to reason, and I paused before calling.

He stopped. "I don't want her with my kids. My little girl don't need to be seeing faggery."

At that Jade pulled her arm back and was about to hit him but I held her back. "Babe, if you hit him he wins." I whispered.

"GET OUT!" she growled in frustration. Then she charges him and pushes him out toward the door.

He yelled and screamed all the way out. My phone was clutched in my hand and I didn't know if I should call the police or not. I didn't and he stayed out there screaming until another neighbor called and he ran off before they got to him.

Once Andre was gone, Jade collapsed in a heap by the door. This was not what I had planned for us, but I could love her through this. I dropped to my knees and wrapped myself around her cradling her.

The twins were in their cribs and began to cry. She was not responding. They couldn't see her like this. I looked around the room and craned my neck to see if they had eaten. Not that I could tell from the floor. I stroked her hair kissed the base of her neck and stood up.

I saw their high chairs were in a mess. I looked in the fridge and saw their bottles were full. I pulled them out and placed them on the counter. I looked out at her and she hadn't moved. I walked into their room and saw bed clothes laid out for them and realized it was bed time. They were about to get their baths. I headed into the bathroom started a bath and made sure everything I needed was in there before I picked them both up and perched them both on my hips.

I bathed them both at the same time. I played with them a bit. Every time I spent time with them, I fell for them more and more. Aine was feisty. Something I hadn't seen the day before. I suppose it was because she had been feverish. She was a lot like her mother much more shy than Aiden. Aiden was a flirt, and I loved him. He was my boyfriend.

Once I had got them dressed and in their cribs with a bottle, I went over to check on their catatonic mother. She was no longer on the floor, but laid out on the couch, not yet turned to a bed. I released the hatch and converted it. She didn't stir. I kicked off my sneakers, and climbed in next to her and held her again. "Thank you." She whispered. I kissed the top of her head in response.

Jade

She held me and stroked my hair for hours. Her closeness made me feel safe, and I knew I was sprung. I needed to end this, and fast. But not right that moment. Not that night. I just got her. I didn't want her to go just yet.

I turned my head and kissed her neck. She was shocked then she moaned as my hands began to explore her. "Jade…"

"Sh…" I said and captured her lips with mine. My hands made their way under her yoga shirt and I pulled it off, taking her nipple in my mouth.

She moane tangling her fingers through my hair. "Jade, god… yes."

I grabbed her arms and pushed them up over her head, but I didn't look at her, I went for her neck, yet again. I put both of her hands in one of my hands, and with the other I tugged at her yoga pants and panties at the same time... She kicked herself free of them and opened herself up to me. "You have far too many clothes on."

I murmured and made my way down her body kissing a trail down to her center. I devoured her. Wanting to taste her one more time before I did what I had to do and end this whole affair. I loved her first with my mouth, then with my fingers. Tori allowed me to get lost in her folds, I made her quake then collapsed next to her. Her eyes were closed tightly as she bit her lip.

I lay next to her my eyes closed. I felt her shift next to me. I slit my eye open and she was staring at me. Her brown eyes taking in the look of my wrinkled blouse and skirt; She reached out and unbuttoned my blouse. She unzipped my skirt once she was done and her hands left white-hot trails of sensation wherever they touched.

I trembled as she straddled me and kissed my neck, then my cheek then my jaw, then my lips subsequently melting into me. When I thought I could no longer breathe she pulled away and I could feel her eyes on me. "look at me." She whispered

I opened my eyes, and I bit my lower lip. I had to tell her now, before things get more complicated. She is just trying me out, she is just figuring things out for herself. Now she knows, and she'll find the girl of her dreams but I had to get out of her way.

She must have read all of this in my gaze , because she began to shake her head. "Are you kidding me? You can't do this to me."

"I can't loose my children." I whispered. "I'm just your starter girlfriend, and it's better if we end this now before emotions get too deep."

She didn't seem to know how to respond to this. She stood up and reached for her clothes quickly putting them on. "I can't believe you are gonna let that jerk run your life."

"They are my children. I birthed them. I care for them. It is my job to raise them and there isn't anyone better to do it but me." I answered angrily sitting up in bed. How the tide had turned in this conversation. "I can't think about me and what I want right now."

She began to cry. "You can't let him dictate your happiness."

"Tori, I am so glad you know who you are now. But I am just your starter girlfriend. You would have gotten tired and moved on eventually." I managed to say this with a straight face, I am just so glad the lights are low. Her face looked aggrieved. "The last thing I need is a temporary relationship right now." I completed.

"Fuck you Jade." She said. "You can't possibly understand this. I watched you cry over what that idiot did to you and I loved you through that. You can't tell me it didn't help."

"Yeah it helped, thanks." I said casually shrugging. " But you only think you love me right now."

She shook her head looking toward the children's room then back to me. I couldn't look anymore. I turned and faced the wall. Suddenly I heard the door slam and I collapsed heartbroken on the floor.