Changing

"Edward," I asked without a breath –actually in sounded more like screaming -, the fire was burning trough my body.
Edward was still concentrating on the sound of my heart that was slowing down easily.

"Yes, love?" His voice sounded sad.

"I hurts, I can't handle it. Please stop it!" I was crying, tears rolled over my cheeks into his hair.

"Hold on. It will pass. I'm here and I am not going anywhere." He said to calm me down. I wish Jasper was here, that would help, but we were alone on honeymoon. He won't be here –for our privacy -, neither did Alice. It was already terrible for her to see me suffer so much. Probably she was crying in Jaspers arms now, waiting for her visions to stop, for my heart to stop.

"Edward please!" There was too much pain. "You know I love you, and I always will, but please stop it. Kill me now. I will see you in heaven. Please, Edward!"

"No, Bella. I can't do that. I love you too much for that. I am already stopping your life. The pain will pass, I promise. And you are strong, you can handle it, I know that." He didn't look away from my face, still waiting for my heart to stop beating. He brushed my cheek. With his other hand, he took mine again to help me through this.
"Shall I call Jasper?"

"No! Don't leave me, I know I want this, I…" I couldn't speak –scream –anymore. Everything went black. I tried to resist it, but I couldn't.

"Bella?" His soft, panicking, voice sounded all around the bedroom, but I couldn't answer.
I felt Edwards hand release mine.

"Carlisle?" He sounded in panic…

"I don't know, she doesn't answer anymore."
Was he crying?...

"I know, I tried already."
No, he can't cry…

"Probably."
But he sounded so…

"Yes, please do that."
What?...

"See you soon."
What, Edward. What's going on?... But I couldn't find my voice.

He took my hand back.
"Everything's going to be fine, my love." He kissed me wherever he could reach without leaving my chest. I could hear everything he said, and I felt his cold, marble lips on my skin. But the fire kept me down. I couldn't response. I wished I could.

"They are on their way. It won't take long." His hand kept brushing my cheek and his lips kept pressing kisses on my, still warm, chest.
Though, my heart no longer responded to his touch, it was slowing down now. I could feel that change…and I hated it already.
I kept crying. That even though for the last time.
I tried not to think about that. I tried to think about all the lovely human experiences I've had, including the last one. I was glad he tried, and that it worked. I already belonged to him officially, but now I belong also psychically to him. The memory made me feel better, a little. It was a better memory than Jacob had before he changed.
Where would he be now, would he miss me? Of course he thinks about me, and he would probably hate me when…
I tried not to think about him either, but I failed.

"Edward, Bella?" Esme called.

"Over here." Edward still sounded in panic.

"Is she alright?"

"What do you think?" His voice sounded hard now.

"Let me take a look." Carlisle went closer, I could feel it, I could feel everyone of them. Even Rosalie. Was she here to? Yes, she was, I could feel.
Only Jasper wasn't in the small bedroom.

"Where is Jasper." I wanted to ask, but still I couldn't find my voice.

"She fainted." Carlisle said. "Alice, get a cloth and some water."
A couple of seconds later, I felt the wet cloth on my forehead.

"It's going to be fine, Bella. I can see it." Alice spoke soft.

"Jasper's on his way." Edward said desperate.
Could he here my toughs now I was becoming a vampire too?

"Yes." Emmet said. "He went hunting first, he was really thirsty and Bella isn't transformed completely yet."

"I know that!" Edward yelled almost. "You're not the one who can read minds." He still laid on my chest.
Emmet took a step back, maybe afraid from the abrupt change in Edward's voice.

"Perhaps it's better when you come off her chest." Carlisle said.

"No, I am not going to leave her. No!" If he could cry, tears were rolling on my chest by now.
It must be a silly view to see us here like this.
Me, struggling against the fire that burned in my veins, and Edward, refusing to leave me alone, holding me tight, maybe too tight.

"At least don't squeeze her to dead, she has to breathe sometimes."
Edward relaxed, and so did I.

"Thank God you're here."
I saw Esme going to Jasper, Though my eyes were closed. It was a clear view, like me eyes were open. I felt more strange then I already was.
But with Jasper in here, I was a little more calm.

"We're all here now." Edward said soft and he pressed his lips again against the skin of my throat.
I know! I wanted to say. And I really knew they were. I saw it. I felt it. But I still couldn't find my voice.
I wished I was able to kiss him back. I needed it right now.

I was sad. Sad for never seeing Charlie or Renée again. Sad for not being me again. Furious at the pain.
But I was glad. Glad I have them. Glad is was becoming one of them. Glad I was forever with Edward…my Edward…

I'm sorry for my terrible English. I'm from Belgium you see :D
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