To apologize for such a long wait for the last chapter I have written chapter 10 as quickly as I could =D
He didn't know what to do, what to say, how to act…he wanted to show happiness, but his mind kept saying no, the logic thinking he should hate the man for hurting him, the logic telling him to walk away and just ignore him.
After all, he ignored him for the last seven months…
Clenching his fists he growled before turning around and walking away from the two, only to stop when a thought ran through his head, turning towards Namie an evil smile played at his lips; "Now Namie, I believe I told you before, I don't allow animals in my apartment. The same rule applies for degenerative cavemen."
Hearing her boss' cold words Namie's eyes widened, she thought the brunet would be happy to see Shizuo, yet instead he insulted him from the word go!
"Izaya what the hell is wrong with you! Do you know how hard it was for me to find him for you! God why are you such an asshole!"
Snarling at her words Izaya turned so he was completely facing the two; "Why? I'll tell you why…I depended on him" on the word 'him' the brunet pointed his finger at the blonde sheer rage in his eyes "I needed him…yet what does the bastard do? Leaves me without a word as to why, then I find out he tried to kill himself! Then…then…" Izaya couldn't finish his sentence, just like he couldn't stop the tears falling from his eyes as he tried to catch his breath through the hiccups.
Bringing his hands up, he covered his eyes, he wouldn't let this man see him cry…he wouldn't; "huh!" eyes widening, Izaya pulled his hands back a bit, blinking a few times when he realised Shizuo was hugging him…
He wanted to push him away, wanted to scream at him…tell him to leave him alone…but the words and actions just wouldn't come…he couldn't do it…
"I'm sorry Izaya…I'm so sorry…I never wanted to hurt you…I…I thought by leaving I was helping things…"
Pulling back Izaya gave him a scrutinizing look of sheer disbelief; "you thought you were helping things…? Shizu-chan if you wanted to help things you never would have left me!" Reaching down the informant grabbed both of Shizuo's wrists, swiftly pulling the sleeves up revealing a large scar running down the blonde's right wrist. "If you wanted to help…you wouldn't have tried to kill yourself…now, we're going to sit down, and you're going to tell me what happened that day. And I want to know everything."
Biting his lip, Shizuo turned his head away; he was expecting a reaction like this… a part of him was happy, happy to see the brunet's mental recovery was going so well, but another part of him hurt badly…
Eyes wide Izaya was lost for words…he couldn't believe what just left the blonde's mouth, his mouth opened and closed a few times, but nothing would come out, he just didn't know what to say…
"I'm so sorry Izaya…I never wanted this to happen…"
"Just…just leave me alone."
With that the brunet stood and limped away from the blonde; ignoring the man's calls, he felt sick…to think he'd given his heart to the man responsible for his pain…it made him feel physically ill and emotionally drained.
Closing the door to the guest room, he slumped to the floor, his back resting against the hard wood, by now the tears where streaming down his face as he stared at nothing with his knee's drawn to his chest and his arms wrapped protectively around them…
-Living room Namie and Shizuo-
"I…I think it would be best if I left…he obviously doesn't want me here, and I don't want to upset him further…"
Frowning Namie shook her head before raising her hand in signal for the man to stay; "No, just give him a little while to calm down, then I'll have a word with him…I understand why he did it, but I still find his behaviour childish, and I stick with what I said to him earlier, a good nap will sort it out."
"Who…who are you exactly? To Izaya I mean…"
"His secretary, but most of the time I feel like his freaking mother…"
At the words, Shizuo chuckled; he honestly couldn't imagine the flea having need for a mother figure…
"Have you…ever met his parents?"
Shaking her head Namie sighed before sitting down beside the blonde; "No, they hold a permanent residence in Russia, so I don't hear of them very often, they used to call Izaya once every couple of months to check on things, but they had an argument and he hasn't heard from them since." "Do you know what it was about?" "Not a clue, but from what was said I get the feeling they know about his job, and they aren't happy about it."
Lowering his head Shizuo nodded, he got that…when he told his father about his job with Tom-san he went mental…but it was the same situation as it was with Izaya; "It pays good…"
"Izaya's parents don't care for money, they're rolling in the stuff, so the way they would see it is as a sleaze bag job that will ruin the family name…"
"I see…"
The next couple of hours were spent with random conversation, to which in the end; Shizuo found he had more of an understanding about the red eyed brunet…
"Well…I think he's had enough time to cool off, I'll go have a word with him. If all goes well I'll be back with him for you."
Nodding, Shizuo watched with anticipation as the dark haired woman walked away…
Knocking softly on the door a few times Namie sighed; "Izaya, I'm coming in." with that she opened the door and walked into the room, shaking her head softly when her so called boss' sleeping figure came to view in the blacked out bedroom.
Sitting on the side of the bed she gave him a gentle nudge, chuckling when his hand came out and swiped like a kitty; "Izaya wake up, you're going to ruin your sleeping pattern if you don't."
Groaning, Izaya hid his head further into the pillows, wanting nothing more than to block the woman's voice out.
"Izaya."
"Leave me alone Namie…I'm tired…"
"I don't care, up." With that she pulled the covers of the man's body, smirking as he curled into himself moaning about how cold the room was.
"Now, we're going to talk about Shizuo."
His moans stopped at the name, but instead of gracing her proposal he simply glared before turning over; "If that's all you want, you can leave me alone now."
"Izaya will you stop acting so childish! Do you have any idea how hard it was for him to agree to come see you, how much I had to go through to find him! I get why you're upset, really I do, but you can't blame him for an accident, you know as well as I that back then, if he realised he'd hit you, he would have never just walked away!"
Eyes widening Izaya's breath hitched, Namie was right…Shizuo wouldn't have missed an opportunity back then…but still…he felt a small bit of blame towards the man…sighing, he closed his eyes, then with a small groan he pushed himself up, hissing as pain ran down his legs; "I'll talk to him…but I'll need some help getting up…"
Smiling, Namie nodded before helping the man up and out the room.
Sitting on the sofa Izaya sighed as he leant forwards playing with his fingers; "So…where have you been the last 6 months?"
Watching the brunet intently, Shizuo frowned; "I thought Kasuka told you?" "Nope." "Oh, well I was staying with him…he travels a lot though, so I was never in one place too long…it was nice being with him, but at the same time I felt like a huge burden…he wouldn't leave me on my own for a minute…"
"Over protective syndrome ai?" Smirking, Shizuo nodded before leaning back on the sofa, they'd been talking a little over an hour by now, and so far it had been small chat…but hey it was a start…
"I'm glad…that you're getting better…it's nice to see you almost normal again…"
Shrugging Izaya looked away; "I still have set backs…but I'm not a shaky crying mess anymore…"
"I noticed…"
"Yeah, but Shizu-chan…there's still one thing I want to tell you, but first you have to close your eyes and lean forward."
At first the blonde raised a brow, but soon it set in what the brunet planned to do, so closing his eyes he leaned forward and prepared for the sting of the man's hand, only for his eyes to reopen in surprise as he felt something on his lips, no…not something, it was Izaya, Izaya's lips where on his…
The brunet was…kissing him…and he was kissing him back…
And he liked it…no not liked, he loved it…
Pulling back Izaya blushed, unable to make eye contact with the blonde as he played with the oversized sleeves of his hoodie; "Shizu-chan…I wanted to tell you before…I…I…lo…lov…I…"
Smiling Shizuo placed a finger over the brunet's lips silencing him, then with a gentle pull he placed his lips on Izaya's once more for a quick but gentle kiss;
"I love you too Izaya."
Gah writers block fuck off D!
Meh another chapter done not my best, but hey what is xDDDD