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Chapter 9: "My fault"

"I took a walk on a Saturday night, Fog in the air,

Just to make my mind seem clear. Where do I go from here?

I see my breath pushing steam through the air, Shaking hands run through my hair,

My fears, where do I go from here?" -Imagine Dragon, My Fault

In the last four months of seeing wheaton as my doctor, I'm positive he doesn't know me from a can of paint.

He hasn't asked anything about the father so I don't share. Jo thinks its a bad idea and that it's gonna turn around to bite me in the ass. I agree but can't bring myself to stop. It's like having a tiny piece of peeta here with me each time.

After getting over the initial morning sickness, being pregnant isn't half bad. I could do without the aches and pains but all in all I can't complain.

Today I find out the sex of the babies and I'm actually pretty excited. Jo has been calling and bugging me for months. Between her and Prim I'm not sure which is more excited.

They even have a bet going to see who guesses right. Jo votes for boys, Prim says girls and they somehow roped Haymitch in with his vote for boys also. He claims there's too many girls around.

"Ms. Everdeen?"

"Here" I say rising from my chair. She leads me into the usual exam room telling me Wheaton will be back shortly.

I'm waiting for about 20 minutes when someone finally shows up.

" My apologies Ms. Everdeen, I'm Dr. Cato Williams. Mr. Mellark had a family emergency and had to step out for the day. He asked if I could step in and cover his patients. If that's alright you?'".

I smile nervously at him nodding my head.

" Your welcome to reschedule, if this makes you uncomfortable. I'll completely understand".

His smile is so sincere and warm that I find myself smiling too.

" No it's fine, I don't think my family could wait any longer to find out what these babies are" I joke.

"Alright well let's get this show on the road".

Dr. Williams goes through the usual examination and questions before asking me to lye back so he can do the ultrasound.

My heart beats with excitement and joy as I see my babies come on the screen. Dr. Williams moves the instrument up and down my belly trying see who is who and who is what.

When we finally a clear view of the sexes I'm a sobbing mess. He prints several pictures sticking them in an envelope for protection as I sit up fixing my shirt.

"Congratulations Ms. Everdeen" Dr. Williams says handing me the envelope. He has such a boyish smile. It suits him with his short spiky blonde hair and baby blue eyes.

" Thank you Dr. Williams".

He places his hand in mine and I find that it's surprisingly soft.

" Pleasures all mine". I blush heading to the front desk and making my next appointment.

After I leave the build I pick Prim up from school and we hurrying home so I can share my news with everyone. As I pull in the drive way I notice a red truck parked next to Haymitch.

" Who's car is that?" I ask Prim. Maybe she was meeting a friend of hers or something.

" I don't know, we should go see" she answers throwing the door open and practically runs in the house.

I frown sensing something fishy about this whole thing. I grab my things entering the house only to be met with a voice I wasn't expecting.

" Surprise bitches!" Johanna yells. It only takes a moment for me to run to her hugging her as best I can.

"What are you doing here?" I cry against her. And Where's everyone else? Are they here? Oh God is Peeta here?!

" No worries, it's just me. I came to visit before the tour starts" she whispers reading my thoughts.

I hug her tight once more before letting go and wiping my eyes. I look at Prim and she beams bouncing on the balls of her feet.

"You knew about this didn't you" I accuse and she shrugs innocently. I roll my eyes taking my envelope and sitting in the one of the arm chairs. Jo plops down on the sofa with Prim following.

Haymitch appears from the kitchen with a can of soda popping the top and taking a sip.

He's been sober since before I returned. Prim told me he replaced all his beers with soda and attends several AA meeting a week. I'm proud of him, even though I can tell he struggles sometimes and a minute to himself.

"Alright sweetheart tell them I won so I can collect my 40 bucks" he jokes.

" Technically you would only get 20 old man. You and I guessed the same and Prim is our only competition" Jo smirks.

He huffs plopping himself in the other arm chair.

I shake my head opening the envelope and pull at the picture with both babies on it.

"Ok so baby A is a...boy!" Prim sighs dramatically still smiling and Jo and Haymitch high five each other. "And baby B is...a girl!"

I lay the pictures out on the coffee so they can take a better look. Prims eyes water and Jo screen shots them, I assume for Gale.

"I wonder who they'll look like you or Peeta" Prim thinks out loud. I stiffen closing my eyes briefly. Peeta, I hadn't allowed myself to think about him much.

" I'm so sorry Kat, don't cry. I didn't mean to make you sad" Prim says as she wraps her arms around me. I touch my face and sure enough my cheeks are wet with tear.

"It's fine little duck I'm just hormonal". Her eyes still hold concern so I smile gathering the pictures to put in the baby book I started last month.

"Sweetheart why don't you take Johanna up to get settled and Prim and I willing brain storm about dinner" .

I nod hugging Prim and kissing the top of her head so she doesn't feel bad.

Jo grabs her bag and follows me to my room shutting the door.

"So hows everyone doing?". She rolls her eyes ignoring my question " You know how everyone is doing. We talk everyday. Ask what you really want to know. What you've been avoiding for 4 months".

I hate how well she knows me. "How's Peeta doing?".

She frowns deciding whether to actually tell me or not. Which is fair I couldn't even handle hearing his name. I mean Ive seen the magazines and the gossip blogs but I need to hear it from someone who really knows him.

" He's fine Katniss really. The first couple months was hard for him. He moped around, only going out when it was for the band. It was tough for him having to put an act on for the cameras when in reality, he was hurting so bad. But now, I think he's finally moved on. He's hanging out more and even met a girl at the club"

"Ok, that's enough. Thank you Jo" I say cutting her off.

" I know, I know I asked but I'm not interested in who he's fucking at the moment".

She shrugs hold her hands up in surrender. " It could still have been you, but you went AWOL and left the poor boy in the dark".

" Remind me why were friends again?" I scowl.

"Because I keep shit real".

***M&B***

" Let's go pamper ourselves today. I'm talking manicures, pedicures and facials. The whole nine yards" Jo says as she stretching.

I'm usually not one for these things but the thought of someone rubbing my aching feet some amazing." That sound wonderful actually. Then we can go get lunch somewhere nice, my treat".

" Actually it's my treat! As the official God mother I over rule you" she boasted.

I laugh genuinely for the first time in days " I'm not sure you understand the duties of a god mother Jo". Of course she just shrugs and yells at me to get dressed so we can leave.

Jo calls ahead so that when we arrive we don't have to wait and are seated immediately. I readily ease my feet in the relaxing warm water sighing in contentment. " you have no idea how amazing this feels".

She starts to reply when her phone rings loudly in her pocket.

" hey...oh yeah what's up?...your kidding me". At this point I'm trying not to easy drop but her whole body has gone tense. I try and catch her eyes but she's purposely avoiding me.

" I'll let her know Gale, just text me the details...yeah, thanks for the heads up. Talk to you later...love you too..bye". Jo hangs up the phone muttering curses still avoiding my stare.

" what is it? What did Gale say?" I question. She sighs lifting her eyes to mine finally " pesetas father died, he'll be in 12 by morning ".