Writers comment: Once again i'm shattered after a long day, but deprive myself of sleep by writing another terrible chapter. I wanted to put more but...I'm really tired. Sorry for mistakes. - Kodiie/Wolfie

Chapter 10 - I'm sorry

== Hey fucker, wake up already!

You blink open your red iriss and scan your room silently before you roll onto your side. "God...what time is it..?" You blindly grab around for your phone as you squint at a small note stuck to your wall in front of you.

When you finally grab the damned mobile device, you hit the unlock button and stare at the screen for a few seconds before your sleep deprived brain kicks into working mode.

"9:26 pm then, huh." You throw your iphone back onto your pillow and roll onto your back, staring up at the dull white ceiling. "I shouldn't of told him...I should of just kept my mouth shut..." You rub your eyes and sigh, "I'm so sorry Karkat.." You feel your eyes fill with tears but you quickly rub at them again. "Don't you fucking dare cry Dave Strider...S-Striders don't cry..." You curse yourself for stuttering and quickly sit up. You weren't going to let them pull you down any further. You were already drowning with no one to save you, But you weren't going to go down any quicker than you let yourself.

You swing your legs over your bed and head to your computer, quickly logging in. You spin around in your chair as you wait for your Skype to load and sign you in. You idly tap your fingers together and chew on your lip as you let your mind wonder back to your previous conversation with Karkat. "It felt like it never happened...It all just happened so...so...quickly..." You frown and shake your head as you hear the sound of your Skype sign in an- oh. Karkat is on.

Your face heats up slightly and you begin to get nervous all to quickly. Why are you so nervous all of a sudden? Was it because of your previous conversation...? You think it is...You hope it is.

You stare at his contact name before opening up a conversation and cringing at the messages from your previous chat. You stare at them with a guilty look before hitting the "Call" button and hoping for the best. You chew on your lip as you stare at your screen intently, almost like your life depended on this one Skype call. "It almost does..." you mutter to yourself then wonder where the hell that came from. You know he's not going to answer however, as he never answers Skype calls. And whenever he does, He's either very hyper, upset or someone needs tending to. "That kid needs to take a break...He's running himself ragged with all of these problems. And their not even his own!" You frown then widen your eyes as a very sleepy and depressed Karkat pops up on your screen.

"Strider, It's 9:30 in the fucking morning. What. Do. You-"

"I'm sorry." You cut him off and smile a little as you see his face change from angry to shocked and confused. You stare at your screen and take in his complexion.

The bags under his eyes have gotten worse than when you'd last seen him and his already ghostly pale skin looks even paler and greyish. His white hair is more messier than usual and you just know he has been up all night again. You frown slightly and he clears his throat. "...You don't need to be sorry..." he whispers and stares down away from the camera. You raise an eyebrow at him, "But I am sorry. I put you through hell and you didn't need that...Not after what you went through with Joseph...I'm really sorry Karkat... I didn't mean to hurt you..." You trail off and shift in your seat and as you fiddle with your fingers. You don't want to look up at him and you just know he's staring at his screen taken back by how vulnerable you're being. You haven't even put on your shades.

You swallow and look up at your screen and yep, you were right. He looks shocked again. "I'm sorry for everything Karkat...I'm so so sorry...I know when I signed in after not being on in a few days and you demanded to know where I was for the past 4 days, that I couldn't lie to you... But i also didn't want to tell you why I was in hospital... So I got Gamzee to tell you as I was too much of a coward to face you." You can feel the tears but you wipe them away on the back of your sleeve. "I'm sorry..." You repeat those two little words over and over again till he speaks up again.

"...I'm coming to get you..." You stare at your screen, locking eyes with the other.

"I'm coming up to get you, Dave. And i'm going to hug you and never let go. I'm going to help you get better...You can do this. WE can do this." He offers you a smile and you smile shakily back.

"I'll meet you at Central at 1. Be there or i'm getting Jade to come down with Bec." He threatens and you smile again. "I'll be there..." You whisper and he makes a small heart with his hands. You feel yourself blush but find yourself making the sign back till he ends the call.

You sit back in your chair and stare at the wall behind your computer. Your heart is beating like mad as it threatens to burst out of your rib cage and your head has went completely blank. You have an odd feeling stirring in your chest and you bring your hand to your racing heart, swallowing hard as you let the truth spill out of your mouth.

"I...I think I like him..."

I'm off to bed omw.