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Chapter 9

So, once again Jacob and I parted on a sour note. After the second time, there hadn't been much talking. Only getting dressed. Then, he left. And, I went home...angry. I wasn't sure if I was angry at him for pushing the jealousy crap on me yet again. Or if I was mad at myself for being stubborn and arguing with him about it. Especially, when deep down I knew all too well that he was definitely on to something.

Goodness gracious!

Why did I have to be born so damn stubborn?!

I just couldn't admit it.

I just couldn't let myself admit it, out loud, because then the guilt would set in. The guilt, that I was hiding, of not only me cheating on my boyfriend, but the guilt that was me actually starting to realize I was feeling something more for my best friend than I ever thought I would. I didn't want to ruin what we had now...or before now.

Oh my god!

That's it!

That's my problem!

I'm starting to feel more for him than just on a best friend level.

And, as much as the thought made me want to run and hide and pretend like nothing from the past two weeks had actually happened at all...I knew that I couldn't.

I wouldn't be able to.

No matter how hard I tried.

I was in this for the long run.

And, I was the main one to blame.

I should have known that something this would happen. Deep down, I did. But, I still agreed to it. Maybe, it was the part of me buried deep, that wasn't one for playing games, coming to the surface. Maybe it was taking over my judgments and making me agree to things that deep down I really did want or know was right, but on the surface I wasn't sure about.

Gah!

This is just too much for me to handle!

Why me?!

Are you there, God?!

Why me?!

What did I ever do to deserve any of this?!

~HM~

The next day, a dreaded Monday, at school the only thing I could think of was when the next time I'd see him would be. It had actually been the only thing I could think of since my revelation the night before. I was starting to feel more for Jacob than just on a best friend level, and it was coming over me so quickly that I couldn't stand having the feeling that he was mad at me.

After how we ended yesterday together what else was I suppose to think? That everything is sunshine and rainbows between us? Yeah, right. I wish. There was no doubt in my mind that he wasn't exactly my biggest fan right now. Between the jealousy issue that I wouldn't admit to and my stubbornness of not admitting to how I really feel about him...yeah, put those two together and I'm sure they equal, he's mad at me.

Just my luck.

I suddenly felt the overwhelming need to see him and to make things right between us again.

And, soon.

My thoughts were intercepted just then by the musical voice that I had come to know quite well as late.

"Bella," the voice called my name.

Instinctively, my head turned towards the voice. I turned just in time to see Alice joyfully skipping over to my locker, well me, but anyways whatever, like she had no care in the world, which in a way was the truth.

"Hi, Alice," I offered a small smile, momentarily pushing my thoughts of Jacob to the side out of respect for Alice.

"Can we talk?" she asked with a smile that was bigger than the one I gave her.

I nodded my head. "Sure."

She looked around as if she was worried about something. "In private," she spoke again."

"Yeah, okay," I said eyeing her curiously as I closed my locker door and followed Alice outside to the picnic tables area where there were only a few other students. "So, what's up?" I asked sitting down at one of the table.

Alice sat down next to me with one legged crossed under her. "What's been going on with you lately, Bella?" she asked me concern written all over her face.

Well, that surely wasn't was I was expecting. "What are you talking about?" I asked her, half already having a feeling of what she was talking about, but also half still clueless and confused.

"You've been distancing yourself from Edward the past few weeks," she answered. Moments later, she added, with an even sadder tone, "And, me, too."

"Yeah, sorry about that," I apologized, my doubtful tone, shocking me.

What the hell? Was I honestly not sorry? If I was sorry, then what's with the doubtful tone?

Before I could question it any further, I heard Alice speak up again.

"And, you've been going blank quite a bit lately," she said. Then she gave me an accusing look before adding, "A lot of times after you've sent Edward away."

Mix up how she said it and the look she gave me and I was suddenly angry. How dare she? "You're watching my every move still?!" I asked, outraged.

"Edward and I just want to make sure you're safe," Alice answered defensively.

"Yeah, well, that's good and all, but..." The need to stand up for myself jumped to the surface like a shark out of the water for it's prey. "Cut it out," I demanded in a harsher tone than I was originally planning.

Alice's eyes widened at my outburst. "Bella..." she tried.

I didn't give her a chance. "No, Alice!" I exclaimed jumping up from my seat on the picnic bench. "I am tired of constantly being watched like I'm some kind of reality tv star!"

"Bella, please, calm down. Don't make a scene," Alice whispered, nodding her head behind me.

I turned my head to see that everyone who was outside now had their eyes on Alice and me. Yet, I couldn't find it in me to care. Let them hear and see. See if I give an actual fuck right now. This was all just getting to be way too much for me too handle. I was suddenly a ticking time bomb just waiting to explode. And, this right here was only the beginning of what I'd be like when the timer went off.

I turned back to look at Alice and shook my head, ignoring her pleas for me to not make a scene. "Who cares about making a scene?!" I asked continuing on with the unintentional, at first, harshness. "Stop it! Just stop it! Now! No more!" I yelled at her, grabbing onto my hair and pulling on it like a person who's completely lost it would to keep from reaching out and punching or slapping someone. "I'm sick and tired of being treated like some fragile doll who can't make proper decisions for herself. Just back off! No more watching over me! No freaking more!"

And, with that I turned and stormed off leaving a more than likely very shocked Alice behind.

I stormed up the stairs and into the school, pushing past and ignoring the crowd of students that had stopped to watch and or listen to my seconds earlier outburst.

I honestly could care less at this point what anyone thought of me.

I was on the edge of breaking down completely.

And, nobody and nothing could help me.

Well, okay, maybe there is one person who could.

~HM~

After that I was on edge every minute of every hour. As I had thought before, the only thing that kept me from losing whatever left over sanity I had was my thoughts of him. My instant, over and over again, replay of the day before when everything was good and hadn't gone to hell yet was all that was keeping me sane.

I have no idea how he held such a power over me. But, I'm thinking it might have something to do with him always being there for me when I need him. Yet, when those times that I need him come he doesn't push me and freak me out more. He listens and he's there for me. So, therefore, he's like my calming element.

And, in this situation, whether he's mad at me or not, thoughts of him are keeping me calm and sane enough on the outside, that no one suspects that on the inside I'm screaming my freaking heard off, that I can continue on with my day. Even if I did want to run and hide away instead of facing anymore of it. I knew that I had to keep it together. I couldn't let others and their words and actions have any negative effects on me anymore.

Just keep thinking of him. Happy thoughts, Bella. Happy thoughts. Such as...

Thoughts of how it feels to be touched by him.

Thoughts of how it feels to be kissed by him.

Thoughts of how it feels to be filled by him.

Thoughts of...

Damn it!

In an instant, I was brought back to reality with a not so fun headache.

Only then, when I felt my butt connect with the still slightly muddy ground, from the rain a few days ago, did I remember that I was in gym class.

I had zoned out and as a result I quickly realized that I had just been hit in the head with a football.

Just my luck.

"Bella, I'm sorry! I didn't mean to hit you! I swear I didn't!" I heard a familiar voice exclaim as I slowly got my bearings back.

I shook it off and slowly got up off the ground, brushing off my back, wincing at the pain that coursed through me when I brushed off my butt. I had definitely hit my butt good when I fell back. Damn.

"It's fine, Mike," I assured him, waving a hand at him as if to brush him and the accident off as no big deal.

"Are you okay?" he asked, concerned.

I nodded my head. "I'm fine, Mike" I said offering him a small smile.

"Isabella, go to the locker room and get cleaned up. You can sit out the rest of class since that looked and sounded like a hard fall," I heard the gym teacher, Coach Clapp, call to me from where he stood on the sidelines.

I looked over at him and nodded with a smile. "Thank you, Coach," I called back to him.

And, just like that I was actually thank God that Mike hit me with that ball and knocked me down onto my ass.

Although, I wasn't exactly happy that he had disturbed me from my thoughts.

My amazing, pleasurable thoughts.

But, getting out of the rest of gym class was perfectly fine by me and, just a little bit, made up for Mike interrupting my thoughts.

With another reassuring smile to Mike that I would be fine, I turned and made my way to the gym and into the girl's locker room. I grabbed a towel from the towel bin and made my way to the showers. I wanted to rinse the mud off of me and also see if the hot water would soothe the slight pain still in my butt from where it got most of the impact when it broke my fall.

~HM~

About ten minutes later, I was rinsed off and feeling better. I wrapped the towel around myself and stepped out. Just as I was about to go to the locker where my book bag and clothes were, it was made known that I wasn't alone. And, quite frankly, I wasn't sure if I had been alone at all the entire time. But, I wasn't completely sure.

"Care for another shower?" the very familiar voice, from my reality, dreams, and thought, asked from behind me.

I jumped at the voice and spun around quickly. "What?"

I couldn't control the smile that broke out across my face when I first saw Jacob standing there. But, then I frowned slightly. "What the hell are you doing here?" I asked giving him a confused look.

"I wanted to see you," he answered like it was the easiest answer he had ever spoke. "Is there a problem with that?" he asked, cocking an eyebrow at him.

"Well, Sort of," I answered honestly. "I mean, that's great and all that you wanted to see me..." I trailed off for a moment wondering what I should say next. "But this is the girl's locker room, Jake! A girl's locker room at a school you don't even go to!"

Oh, yeah, and there's the other thing.

"And, also, I figured after we parted on a sour note yesterday that you'd..." I trailed off again trying to think of a good way to word what I was going to say next. "You know want to be away from me for a while," I said the last part quietly, hating the thought and possibility that I could be right.

"So?" he asked, and I had a feeling it was his response to the first part of my worry. Yep. I was right. His next response proved it. "And, not possible. I could never stay away from you for a while, even if I am mad at you."

"So, you shouldn't be here! Wait, how'd you even get in here?" I asked, instinctively tightening the towel around me as I saw him eyeing me up and down. "And, oh, okay," I said to his latter response.

Jacob grinned and I knew he was about to say something sarcastic. "I walked. What? Do you think I teleported here or something?" Called it. "And, that's all you've got."

I rolled my eyes at him. "How'd you even know I was in here?" I asked before the thought of if I even wanted the answer could run through my kind. "And, yes. Yes, it is."

"I saw you fall and heard you get sent in here to clean up," he chuckled.

I flushed a light shade of embarrassed red and groaned. "Of course you did."

"I think it's adorable," he laughed taking a step closer to me.

I sarcastically laughed back "I'm glad my clumsy self amuses you."

"One of the many things," he smiled continuing his steps towards me until he was right in front of me.

For a moment, I couldn't speak or move. I don't know why, but I couldn't.

And, then I remembered something. "Wait, what did you say about another shower?"

With a mischievous grin on his face, Jacob leaned in close to me and my heart started to beat out of my chest. "You're gonna need one to get my scent off of you," he whispered huskily.

"Wha..."

I didn't even have a chance to get anything out before his lips were on mine, effectively muting me and throwing all sensible thoughts out of my mind.

I could definitely get used to these meet ups in random places like this.

Oh god, how much I wanted this right now.

But, something was keeping me from giving myself into my want completely.

After a few seconds I broke the kiss and pushed Jacob away from me. "Wait!" I exclaimed breathlessly. "I don't have anything to use to get your scent off," I frowned, realizing that that was the only thing keeping this from happening right now.

"Well, you're lucky that I came prepared then," Jacob smirked as he moved his lips to my neck, sucking and nipping, making my mind spin around in so many different directions.

I moaned managing to ask, "Prepared?"

Jacob nodded against my neck, not once stopping his torture. "Stopped by your house." Suck. "Got shampoo." Nip. "Body wash." Lick. "You're good."

And, that's all I needed to hear.

"Oh...okay," I smiled brightly grabbing his head and pulling him up to my level.

"Good," he smiled back leaning forward. "Now, shh," he murmured against my lips. "We don't have much time to do this."

I nodded my head in understanding and practically lunged at him knocking him back into the lockers behind him, attacking his lips with my own.

~HM~

The next few minutes were a blur. I don't know how or really remember what else happened between then and now. All I knew was that now, I was towel less, Jacob was without his shorts, and we were attached like leeches, no pun intended, on a human source while the hot water was pouring down onto us like a heavy rain storm.

Words couldn't even begin to describe how happy and relieved I was that Coach Clapp gave me the rest of gym off. This was so much better than football could ever dream of being. And, besides, with my clumsiness, I'd say out of the two things I could be doing right now...this was the more pleasurable, and less dangerous of the choices.

"So, what were you thinking about earlier?" Jacob asked bringing all of my attention back to him and only him.

"What?" I asked out of breath as I moaned and squirmed against the two fingers he currently had inside me, teasing me mercilessly.

"When you got hit with the ball you looked to be deep in thought," he said with a straight face, yet the smirk was in his eyes this time.

I could see the gleam that was taking over them.

Oh, god. He knew? But, how? How did he know? Oh, yeah, right. He was watching me. Wait...why? No, don't. It doesn't matter. There's no time to be thinking of anything else other than the task at hand. You're running on borrowed time.

"Oh, uhh...yeah," I breathed out.

"What were you thinking about?" he asked leaning forward again, but past my face this time.

I whisper moaned when I felt him nibbling at my ear while breathing into it, "You."

"Me?" he asked, once again looking at me now.

I groaned in protest at his mouth being away from me.

I nodded my head quickly like I had no control over it. "Yes, you."

"What about me?" he asked with a knowing look on his face.

"Oh, god," I moaned out, my eyes closing and rolling into the back of my head, as he quickened the pace of his fingers in and out of me.

"Bells...what about me?" he asked again.

"How you...how...oh, god..." I couldn't get it out.

He teasingly stopped his movements.

My eyes snapped open and I glared at him.

"Answer me," he demanded with an evil glint in his eyes.

He knew damn well what he was doing to me.

"How you felt inside me yesterday," I forced out.

He seemed happy with my answer and began his fingers movements again, making me cry out.

Thank god for the water masking out the sound of my loud cries. Otherwise, someone would've rushed in on us by now. I could only imagine what kind of an eye full they would get.

"Like this?" Jacob asked me.

I shook my head no. "Not exactly."

He cocked an eyebrow at me and withdrew his fingers from me completely. "Oh?"

I opened my mouth to protest, but didn't get the chance.

"Like this, then?"

Before I even knew what was happening he was inside me with a snap of his hips, filling me, oh so perfectly.

I cried out again, this time louder than before. "Yes!"

"Thought so," Jacob grinned before kissing me hard, taking my breath away even more than when he first filled me.

He quickly set a punishing pace as he kissed me frantically. I knew it was because of where we were and how much time we did or didn't have left. I almost wanted him to go slower so that I could savor this moment for a while. But, that was going to have to wait for another time. We had a deadline, for lack of better words, right now.

"Oh, god, Jake!" I moaned pulling away and leaning my head back against the shower wall.

The water cascading down us provided a bit of a lubricant for Jacob to slide in and out of me a bit easier.

I tried my best to keep up with him, bucking my hips to meet his movements. But, in the end it proved to be too much, and I just gave up and decided to enjoy the ride.

It didn't take too long for both of us to be at the brink of an orgasm. All it took was Jacob slipping a few fingers down between us and rubbing my clit at a speed that matched his pace for me to clench down and come so hard around him.

He kissed me quickly to silence my screams, which were so much louder than before.

"Holy fuck!" I exclaimed, in no control of my words still, when I came down from my high.

Jacob continued thrusting in and out of me not once breaking the pace that he had set to start with.

Before I knew it, I was close to my second orgasm. Oh, god. If this was anything like my first...

"JAC..." I started before being silenced by his mouth yet again as I rode through my second orgasm.

I didn't want to come alone this time, though, so I clenched around him as tightly as I could. I smirked in satisfaction as I got my wish and he was suddenly coming along with me.

~HM~

"That will never get old," I smiled brightly, beyond happy and content, as I finished getting dressed and smoothed down my clothes.

"No, it won't," Jacob agreed buttoning up his shorts.

I turned my head and smile at him, biting my lower lip. "When are we going to do this again?" I asked wiggling my eyebrows suggestively at him.

Jacob laughed. "You are insatiable," he said shaking his head.

"Hey!" I exclaimed. "You're the one who planned this. Not me," I scolded shaking a finger at him.

Jacob shrugged and moved until he was standing in front of me. "That may be, but if I remember correctly..." he leaned forward and pressed a gentle kiss against my lips. "You jumped me, not the other way around."

I jumped back and slapped his arm. "You ass!"

"Call me whatever you want," he grinned.

Just then the bell rang, and my eyes snapped open wide.

"Damn! That's the ending of this period bell! You need to go. Now," I ordered, very serious now.

"Afraid to get caught, Bells?" he asked me, not making any move to leave.

"We don't have time for this, Jacob! Go!" I ordered again, ignoring his question.

Jacob still didn't move. "Answer my question."

So, we're gonna play this way, then? Well, two can play this game.

"I swear on all that is holy, Jake...if you don't leave now, I'm never having sex with you again," I said sternly, crossing my arms across my chest.

Jacob quickly held his hands up in defeat. "Okay, okay. No need to go that far," he said with a small laugh. "I'll go," he said giving me one last quick kiss. "I'll see you later," he winked at me before disappearing in the way he apparently came in.

And, just in time, too because the locker room door flew open and in came the other girls from my gym class.

Now that was an extremely close one.

But, not close enough.

What a complete and total relief!

~HM~

During lunch, I sat alone avoiding all of my friends and the Cullen's. I didn't feel like talking to any of my friends because I was still slightly angered from earlier in the day. Which, brought me to the fact that I most definitely didn't want to have to deal with Alice and the other Cullen's, who I'm sure Alice told about my outburst from earlier. So, for all of lunch, I was perfectly content with just sitting alone replaying Jacob and I's sex session in the locker room during gym.

I was so busy replaying what happened between Jake and I that I didn't even realize that someone had sat down next to me until they spoke.

"Hello, Bella."

I jumped, not having expected anyone to sit down next to me. Especially her. She was the last person that I ever expected to sit with me. "Umm...Rosalie...what are you doing over here?" I asked looking over at her. "With me?"

I was anxious as to what she wanted with me. Also, at the same time no words could describe how happy I was that Jacob had brought me my shampoo and body wash before coming to see me. Otherwise, I'd be so royally screwed right about now.

"I wanted to talk to you alone before the others get here and can overhear," Rosalie answered looking at me intently making me just a tad bit uncomfortable.

Oh god. Was she about to confront me about my outburst at Alice earlier? I really hope not. Only one way to find out for sure, though.

"Umm okay," I said swallowing the nervous lump in my throat. "What's up?"

"I saw you yesterday," she said skipping right to the chase.

What was she talking about? Oh, god! Why couldn't she just confront me about my outburst, instead?

"Saw me yesterday?" I asked, trying to fight the urge to jump out of my skin.

Rosalie nodded. "I was out for a stroll in the woods and I saw you and the m...Jacob."

My eyes widened and I felt myself growing faint.

This was so much worse than if she'd been here to confront me about earlier. Oh, god. Not good! Not good at all!

"Oh my god! Rose...it's...I can explain..." I started to say, completely freaked out now.

Rosalie held a hand up to stop me. "No need to explain, Bella."

Wait, what?

"But, Rose..." I began to protest.

Rosalie shook her head. "No, there's no time," she told me. "Just be quiet and hear me out."

I nodded and sighed, "Alright."

"I'm not happy about what you're doing to my brother," Rosalie said giving me a stern look of disapproval.

"I'm sorry," I apologized letting the guilt start to consume me.

She shook her head again. "Don't. No time."

"But..."

Rosalie ignored me and continued, her facial expression softening up a bit. "I'm not happy with it. But, at the same time if this is what you need to do in order to realize that you should stay human, then I'm not gonna try and stop you."

Umm...uhh...well, that's weird. I mean, I know she's pro-human and all...but, being okay with me cheating on Edward with Jacob? Umm...so, apparently she values human life a lot more than I originally thought.

"Why'd you tell me you knew then?" I asked, confused now.

"To make sure you're more careful from now on."

"Oh," was all I could say.

"Anything to keep you human," Rosalie said with a small smile, but just as fast as it came, it was gone.

This was so weird. It definitely wasn't going how I thought it would when she first brought up the topic.

But, then a thought began flashing in my mind and I went back into freak out mode. "Wait, what about Edward? If you know, then...he can read your mind!"

"I've been keeping my mind busy with other things. Don't worry, he won't get anything from me that I don't want him to. I've had many years of practice," she assured me, surprisingly me by placing her icy cold hand on my shoulder.

Weirdly enough, I actually calmed down a bit and sighed a sigh of relief.

Rosalie looked past me just then, and her hand was gone. "Alright, I've got to go."

I turned to where Rosalie was looking and saw that the other Cullen's were getting ready to enter the lunch room. "Okay. Umm...thanks. You know, for not killing me for what I'm doing to Edward."

What the hell was wrong with me? Why wasn't I feeling as guilt as a normal person in my position would?

"Anything to keep you human," Rosalie repeated from earlier as she stood up. "Oh, and, again, be more careful from now on," she said giving me a knowing look before walking over to Emmett.

Oh my god!

Rosalie knows! And, she's okay with it. Well, no, she said she wasn't. But, she's not gonna do anything about it because she wants me to stay human. Will I actually choose to stay human in the end? Or will I still want the vampire life? I honestly wasn't sure at this point.

But, Rosalie knowing and what she said definitely made me think about some things over again. A lot.

What the hell was I going to do now?

Hehe! I wonder where Jacob was when I was in school?!

What are your thoughts on Bella going off on Alice?

And, what do you think of that ending there? Was anyone expecting it? And, is everyone shocked or understanding of how Rosalie is handling the JB situation?

Also, as you might be able to tell, I'm trying my best to incorporate some plot into every chapter...you know, so that this story doesn't just become some huge smut fest...not that it would be the end of the world or anything like that.

Review, pretty please, and let me know what you think about the chapter. Oh, and, also about whether or not you think I'm handling the plot and smut together well enough?