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(BPOV)
I winched as I used my injured hand to change into a tank top and pyjama pants getting ready for bed the hospital trip had taken so long. The doctors said she hadn't broken any bones but she had sprained it quite bad the doc gave me some painkillers and he wrapped up my hand in a splint.
'Stupid fucking Paul' I thought as a flash of pain ran through me from my hand when I tried pulling my pants up 'stupid fucking werewolves' I kept muttering curses in my head. Then all of a sudden I stopped and stood straight up as soon as I had finished changing a sudden feeling washed over me.
I can't explain it or why but I had a sudden longing to open my curtains and let the moonlight in it had been months since I opened them I have wanted too so many times but I would stopped myself everytime.
Something now was asking me, begging me to go and open them now it had never been this strong before instead of giving in to the feeling I walked out my room and went into the bathroom. I stared at myself in the mirror for awhile you could tell I didn't have much sleep the past few months the dark circles under my eyes stood out against my pale skin.
I finally pulled myself away from the mirror and padded back into my room it seemed brighter as I walked in I smiled at that it seemed to make my mood feel a bit lighter. It's like I had been living in the dark for so long and now finally a sliver of light streams in opening my eyes to everything around me.
Wow that sounded just right for my present situation for so long I was in the dark about Paul and his group I would never have guessed werewolves not even in my wildest dreams I mean I guessed drugs at one point I mean the size of those boys never seemed natural.
I think I even thought that they were those nuts you know who are mad about pumping iron and building up their bodies until they look absolutely ridiculous with muscles popping out everywhere but werewolves would never have even have entered my head.
As I moved closer to the bed I noticed a pile of clothes on my bed I smiled to myself Sue must of come in whilst I was in the bathroom it was then that I noticed my curtains were open she must of done that to.
Now that I could see outside I was drawn closer as I stepped fully to the glass I looked across to Paul's window on instinct I didn't know whether I sighed with relief or disappointment at the fact he wasn't there.
I looked around trying to figure out what had drawn me to look when I felt my eyes hold onto a spot in the forest and gasped when I saw Paul stepped out. His eyes were fixed entirely on me I could see he was panting very hard I could feel his eyes baring into me it was as if he was stood directly in front of me.
Something inside of me knew he wanted me to come out to him without thinking I quietly made my way downstairs Leah and Seth had gone to patrol whatever that is so Sue and Charlie were sat watching the TV snuggled against each other.
I made my way out into the back garden without them noticing I slowly walked towards the forest I could see Paul stood just within opening of the trees waiting for me. I slowly stepped into the tree line my eyes adjusted to dark slowly and before I could see anything Paul was panting directly in front of me.
He was close enough to touch me yet a sliver of air remained between us and he stared down at me hard I had to tilt my head in order to look at him I wasn't gonna shy away from him I would be damned if I showed him any fear.
After everything he had done to me I wanted to show him I wasn't broke he hadn't broken me his eyes scanned all over my face and body I could tell from his looks that it wasn't anything sexual he was checking I was ok.
His eyes landed on my wrapped wrist I swear a look of pain flashed across his face along with something like guilt 'what's he got to be guilty about I hit him' I thought as he slowly lifted my injured had to inspect in more carefully.
I noticed he made sure his fingers never touched my skin I guess he didn't want to make me uncomfortable something in me wanted to ease the guilt in his face. "It's just a sprain doc says if I keep it still for a while it will heal up in a few weeks" I explained his eyes shot up to mine for a brief second before looking back to my hand.
Eventually he seemed satisfied with whatever he was thinking and he let go of my hand and it dropped down his eyes found mine again his gaze was now very heated I could see his eyes move from my eyes to my lips.
I gotta tell ya the thought of kissing Paul again my mind went completely blank everything I was mad at him about vanished all I could think about was wanting to feel his lips on mine. Paul growled I guess he could smell my arousal that sound just caused more heat to flood to my nether regions.
"Bella!" both me and Paul jumped the very loud voice of my dad calling my name was enough shake us out of whatever hold we had been in I turned to leave until Paul stopped me. I turned back to look at his hand that gently gripped my bare arm just the contact of his skin on mine was enough to set me on fire.
"Please Bella" he said with pained eyes I know what he wanted he wanted me to stay he wanted to touch me a second ago I did want that I wanted him to touch me I wanted to feel him against me but Charlie calling for me was like a cold shower everything he had done to me came flooding back.
I shook my head and backed away he reluctantly dropped his arm and let me walk back Charlie had gone back inside by the time I got to the door neither Sue nor Charlie asked me what I was doing I was glad for that I just went up and quickly shut my door and my curtains and climbed straight into bed pulling the sheets over me completely.
The next day was a Monday I had to go to school I groaned as I got out of bed and as I finished getting dressed I did something I haven't done in ages I opened my curtains Paul was already standing at his window I guess waiting for me.
I gave him a small smile and reached for my little white board it felt strange writing to him something we haven't don't in so long. 'Hey' I wrote he gave me a small smile back and wrote the same back.
'Forgive me Bella please' he wrote on his board I sighed I wanted to I really did but he only wanted me now because his wolf gods told him I was the perfect match for him.
'I can't Paul you've hurt me' I put back I could see him visibly deflate at my words 'I'll make it up to you Bella' he put back I couldn't see how he could even begin to start making it up to me.
I sighed 'you can't Paul' I put on one side then I spun it over 'you only started liking me because the imprint told you to' with that I put the board down and went downstairs I didn't want to see his response.
Leah and Seth were waiting downstairs for me they didn't ask what was taking me so long they just asked if I was ready I nodded and we all got into the car and drove off I didn't see Paul at all.
In fact all day I didn't see him until dinner I was sat in my usual spot Embry and Quil had said that now I was apart of their group I could sit with them but I really didn't fancy that so I declined and just sat at my usual table alone.
I could feel their eyes on me as I sat down I knew the instant Paul came into the cafeteria I could feel his presence I managed to keep my eyes down on my book which is probably why I jumped when he sat down next to me his leg touched mine.
I looked up at him in surprise he just smiled at me and took my book from me "so what you reading?" he asked as if it was the most common question he has ever asked me. I couldn't respond I was still in shock 'what the hell is he doing' I thought he chuckled at my expression and just kept on flipping through the pages of my book keeping his finger on the page I was reading.
"Pride and Prejudice huh looks pretty worn I guess you like this story" he said he looked at me and smiled whilst he gave me the book back. He turned in his seat and faced me stretching his legs and arms so that they almost circled around me I had seen him sit this way with girls he was seeing.
"Paul" I whispered "what the hell are you doing?" I demanded I could see the rest of the gang watching us Leah was ready to pounce if Paul hurt me but I could also see Kira and her gang of sluts watching us with great interest.
He quirked an eyebrow and me "I'm sitting here with you" he said with a hint of humour in his voice it was my turn to raise my eyebrow at him. "Your friends are over there" I said pointing to the gang he looked where I was pointing and smiled before turning his head back to me.
"Yeah they are but your over here and though it should of been a long time ago I started thinking like this but if I have to choose between you or them" he leaned forward and whispered close to my ear "you win everytime" he said I gasped the feel of his breath against my hear was intoxicating.
To anyone on the outside looking at us it probably looked like Paul was giving me a kiss he pulled back and smiled before pulling my tray of untouched food his way and started eating. I looked at him in shock he stopped eating long enough to give me a quizzical look.
I shook my head and stood up and walked away I so didn't want to deal with him but just my luck he followed me I stopped at my locker he leaned against the one next to it and watched me as I pulled stuff out and put some things in.
I finally couldn't take it anymore I slammed my locker shut "what!" I almost yelled at him he chuckled at me which only cause me to groan in frustration and again I walked away and again he followed me all the way to my next class.
"See you after class Bella" he said before leaving me at the door and going to his own I walked in quickly and kept my head down I could feel many eyes staring at me luckily Embry was in this class with me so he sat down next to me as usual and kept away any prying question when the teacher left the class or asked us to talk in pairs.
At the end of class I was surprised to see Paul stood leaning against the door frame he smirked at me when I noticed him waiting for me I rolled my eyes and kept on walking pretending I hadn't seen him and just my luck he followed me again.
He stayed behind me as I looked though my locker he was stood directly behind me I could feel the heat rolling off of him in waves again I finally had enough I turned around in anger.
"Will you quit it" I said I was tempted to push him back away form me but that meant touching him and god knows what would happen if we touched. He smirked and stepped forward which caused me to step back.
My back hit the lockers as he continued to advance I could see lots of kids milling around us all stopped and every single one of them was staring at us. Paul didn't seem to notice the attention they were creating as he continued to move closer.
He lifted his hand up and places them on either side of my head effectively trapping me he lowered his head down to mine and for a split second my heart stopped at the thought of him kissing me in front of everyone.
Instead the bastard leaned his forehead against mine and closed his eyes and breathed deep I involuntarily closed my eyes savouring the feel of him. He pulled back after what seemed like hours which probably was really only a few minutes he nodded his head in the direction of the exit and smiled.
I couldn't breathe let alone say anything so I simply nodded and started walking he took my bag of me and like a gentlemen carried it as he walked me back to my truck. He gave me my nag back once I was in and he smiled and said "I'll see you later" and then he left with a wink.
I started the truck quickly I could see Kira coming out of school I didn't want to deal with her right now I quickly made it home and rushed inside Sue and Charlie were working and Leah and Seth were back at school so I was alone.
I suddenly felt closed in so I quickly collected a drink and snack along with my book and headed for my favourite spot my little meadow. I quickly got myself comfortable and lost myself in one of my favourite all time classics.
"Hey beautiful" called Paul I jumped 'god what is with him and making me jump' I thought I attempted to ignore him but when Paul sat down behind me putting either of his legs beside mine and pulling his chest up to my back.
He pulled at my shoulders a little causing me to lean back against him he moved my head and the hair to the left so he could look over my shoulder I did my best to ignore him I just kept on reading my book but the fact that this felt so right and good didn't escape my attention.
We sat like that for several hours me just reading leaning on Paul's chest Paul looking over my shoulders playing with my hair it was the first time in a long time I felt truly relaxed Paul wasn't trying anything with her.
After a time I closed the book I needed answers and I tried earlier but it wasn't good enough Paul cocked his head at me as I shifted around so I could see his face I made sure I was still leant against him only this time it was my side instead of my back.
"Paul what's going on" I asked he smiled before tucking a stray hair behind me ear the care and dare I say love in his eyes as he did that simple task. He just looked at me for a long time I thought for a second that he wasn't gonna answer me until he just closed his eyes and smiled.
"The first time I saw you was the first day you arrived here you were so wrapped up it was funny but then your dad bundled you inside and that's all I saw of you until you showed up that first day in school" he rambled I didn't know what to say.
"Your clothing choice was a bit better this time faded jeans, sneakers and a nice fitted jumper I remember thinking 'wow nice curves' all the girls on the reservation even then where so consumed with their looks that they were too skinny and looked like hookers".
"I kept watching you I would laugh when you tripped over air but you always got right back up and laughed at yourself" he watched me as he spoke I can bet my eyes were wide with surprise my breaths were coming out is rapid successions.
"I used to get hard watching you fight back against Kira and her bitches you weren't like everyone else you stood up to her instead of backing down why do you think I never defended you I loved watching your face get red with anger how you puffed out your chest in defiance of her it was extremely sexy".
I looked at him "why are you telling me this" I asked my voice sounded so small nothing like the person he had been describing he smiled whilst lifting his hand to touch my face.
"You think I only started knowing you or wanting to know you when I imprinted on you but that's not true ever since you came here I have wanted to know you but by the time I truly realised it I was wrapped up in the wolf stuff I couldn't talk to you".
"So instead I found another way why do you think I got you that whiteboard" I chuckled I had wonder how and why he had done it but at the time I hadn't given it much thought.
"I know when first imprinted on you I didn't deal with it so good but that wasn't because it was you it was because I ..." Paul stopped he looked down I could tell he was having difficulty and normally I would try and help anyone that was like that but I needed to know this.
I knew a little about his childhood his parents weren't great to him but that's all I know I knew he had a reasons for staying away from me but I couldn't figure out what they were.
"The reason I stayed away was because ... I ... I didn't think I was good enough for you... Or that this life would be good enough for you I mean I can't leave the reservation and as my imprint you can't either I mean you can go to college anywhere you like but because of the pull it would be painful to be apart".
He looked so horrified at saying these words to me they didn't hold much weight I wasn't planning on leaving the reservation anyway I was thinking about going to college in Port Angeles so I could stay at home.
Paul pushed me of him gently and stood up he paced in front of me slightly pulling his hair until he suddenly stopped and sighed as if he had just figured something he didn't like. He came up to me and held out his hands for me I slowly took them and he pulled me up and then quickly let go of my hands.
"Bella the wolf can be whatever the imprints wants them to be friend, lover or brother they will be Bella if you tell me right now you don't want to be with me I'll accept that and if you want to go away to college I'll accept that I wont stop you I will be waiting here for you for as long as it takes".
It looked like those very words hurt to say but he did and he looked like he meant them every word I sighed and lifted my hand to try and ease some of his pain.
"Paul I never planned on leaving La Push for college I always wanted to stay here and go to Port Angeles for college or even learn online in all my life I never liked the idea of leaving here I love living here as for you and me I'm willing to try but you have a lot to make up for" I said I could see Paul's face light up from my words.
He placed his hand over mine and leaned into my touch "I can do that for you I promise Bella I'll never hurt you again I'll be the man you want me to be I promise" I actually believed him.
I smiled "Paul I don't want you to be someone you think I want I want you to just be you ok can you do that?" Paul smiled and nodded before leaning down and capturing my lips in a very passionate kiss.
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