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Did I say this wouldn't be a regular thing? I meant this would happen every day from now on. Every day after that night I would get a tap on my window and Jacob would come spend the night with me. I know that it's ridiculous and shouldn't be happening, and if it were anyone else it wouldn't be. But with Jacob it doesn't feel like I'm doing anything wrong. Unfortunately, not everyone feels the same way.

"I just don't get it Lila." Tiffany started again as we walked through the hallway at school. "You can't be sleeping with Jacob if you're dating Mike. It's wrong."

"But we really are just sleeping Tiff!" I argue. "It's not a big deal."

"Oh, it's not a big deal?"

"Yeah."

Tiffany scanned the hallway for a moment.

"Mike! Hey Mike!"

"What're you doing?!" I yelled at her.

"Well if it's not a big deal then you can tell Mike." She said with an evil grin on her face.

"What's up girls" Mike said as he threw his arm over my shoulders.

"Lila has something she wants to tell you." Tiffany said happily. "And I'll leave her to it, Ta ta!" And then she skipped off, leaving me with an expectant Mike.

"What is it?" He asked me.

"Uh," I tried to think of something to tell him. "I...have been sleeping really well lately."

Mike's face scrunched up in confusion as he tried to work out why I was telling him this.

"Having really good dreams." I hinted at him. I truly had be having good dreams, just not what I knew Mike would assume they were about.

"Oh have you now?" Mike smiled coyly at me. "Well then my dear Lila, let me walk you in to class." And he bowed and held out his hand for me to take. I felt bad about lying, but I wasn't really lying, if you thought about it.

Mike didn't get the chance to flirt with me much more since I had to work with Bella on our project.

"So are you going out again with Mike?" She asked me.

"I am, actually."

"Good, good. So you like him then? Enough to date him?"

"Uh, yeah." Gosh this girl could be so nosy. "If you don't mind me asking, why do you care?" I tried to say it with as much politeness as I could. Still, she was caught off guard.

"Oh, uhm." She blinked a lot and looked confused. I was starting to get used to this look from her. "Lila can I tell you something without you getting angry?"

"Sure." I said, a little unsure. What exactly was she going to tell me? Oh no, Mike really was on drugs wasn't he? Boy I could really pick them...or rather...he picked me. But let's forget the technicalities.

"I think you should be with Jacob."

I stared at her blankly. I had certainly thought about being interested in Jacob, since Tiffany was so obsessed with the idea. He and I hit it off really well and what girl wouldn't want her boyfriend to be her best friend? But the only way I could justify us doing the things we did was that we weren't dating. As long as we weren't romantically involved he could come see me every night without it being unacceptable. If we were dating then we would have skipped the important awkward beginning and gone right to sleeping over and telling each other everything. I couldn't go that fast, it wasn't okay. So for the sake of keeping what made me happy, I couldn't be with Jake that way. But how could I express all of this to Bella?

I settled for, "Excuse me?"

Bella took a deep breath. "I really think you should be with Jake instead of Mike. Clearly you guys have a connection, whereas you and Mike are formal and well...it's just a high school relationship."

"And, just for argument's sake, what would that make a relationship between me and Jake?"

Bella fingered a miniature wolf that dangled from her bracelet. "Forever."

"What?" I scooted my chair closer to her. Part of me laughed at her; she was just another silly teenaged girl who was convinced romance movies were realistic. However, another part of me was incredibly jealous. I wanted to know how she could be so sure. I wanted to know this wisdom that she supposedly possessed.

"I think what you and Jacob have could last forever." She looked away from the little wolf and up to me.

"How...why?" I stuttered.

She smiled warmly. "It is possible, you know? To find someone who only wants to be with you for the rest of their life. Who makes you laugh and holds you when you need them. The person you loves you not because you're perfect, but because you're perfect to them, in all you're flaws." She was now beaming over at Edward, who was beaming right back. I couldn't help but giggle, they made life seem so simple and happy.

"I want that for you Lila." She looked back at me, nodding. "More importantly though, I want that for Jake. He's my absolute best friend, I know him better than anyone else, and I KNOW you're good for him. I see it in his eyes, he's fulfilled when you're around. Whole, you know?"

"But is he good for me?" I whispered. I couldn't be with someone just because it was helpful for them. A relationship is a two way street.

Before we could talk more the bell rang and I had to continue with my day. On the way to 4th period I was walking with both Mike and Tiffany, and Tiffany decided to check that I had told Mike the truth this morning.

"So Mike," she began, "did Lila tell you what she needed to this morning?"

"Sure did." Mike leaned down and pecked me on the cheek. Tiffany seemed confused, and must have assumed I told him a lie, so she went further.

"She told you about how's she's been sleeping?" She pressed.

"Absolutely." Mike winked at her and I tried incredibly hard not to laugh as Mike kissed me goodbye before going into his 5th period room. Tiffany had this dumb look on her face as she tried to understand his words. Clearly, she thought he was into some sort of kinky stuff and thought me sleeping with Jacob was a good thing. Before she could ask any more questions though I walked into my classroom shouting my goodbye at her as I went.

During class, however, I started to feel guilt. Was it really wrong of me to sleep with Jacob while I was dating Mike? And now I was lying to him about it? Well not really lying, but not telling the truth? Jake was my friend, and I enjoyed his presence while I slept. It was like having a big, warm cuddly bear to sleep cradled in. Not to mention since he's started sleeping with me my nightmare hasn't been occurring as frequently, and if I do have my nightmare, he's there to calm me down. How can that not be good for me!?

Good for me? Oh, no. That's what Bella said. My heartbeat started to pick up as I wondered if my feelings were changing. NO. Absolutely not. I would not ruin this great thing that I have with feelings. And if I have feelings then I'll feel worse about not telling Mike because I won't just be sleeping with my friend Jacob but I'll be sleeping with a boy that I have feelings for! That's completely out of the question and I-

"Hello Lila." My inner battle was interrupted by Edward, standing a few feet in front of me with Bella. I hadn't realized that I had been through all of class and was already out in the hallway walking to lunch. Wow, I must've seemed like a zombie to everyone.

"Oh, hi guys." I said as I walked up to them. There she is, the girl who ruined my peace. Fucking Bella Swan with her stupid "love knowledge". And her fucking "perfect boyfriend with her fucking "happiness". Fuck fuck fuckidy fuck fuck.

"What's up?" I said pleasantly.

Edward burst out laughing at what I said and struggled to control himself. What in the world was so funny about "what's up" ?

"Lunch is outside today." Bella said as she rested a hand on Edward's shoulder and tried to calm him down.

"What? Why is lunch outside?" I hadn't heard about this.

"Yes, well when it's somewhat nice outside the teachers like to let us get some fresh air, since Forks is always so dreary and all." Edward said as he gained his composure.

"Oh?" I said skeptically, raising my eyebrows at them.

"Yes. Follow us." Edward answered automatically and turned around with Bella, walking away. I followed obediently, though still confused. They took me outside, but I didn't see anyone there.

"Guys come on, no one's out here." Obviously they were just playing a joke on me.

"Oh, it's up here." Edward answered as he and Bella started climbing up a hill into the woods.

"You've got to be kidding me." That's ridiculous.

"Come on Lila!" Bella yelled for me and I started after them. We went pretty deep into the woods and I started to question what exactly was going on. They weren't going to kill me were they? Like people did in horror movies? They had taken me to the woods...and I hadn't known them for that long. Suddenly, they stopped.

"We're really sorry Lila, but we lied to you." Bella said.

"Lunch clearly isn't outside today." Edward followed after her.

"Clearly." I said, anger in my voice. What the hell were they doing?

"We didn't want to lie to you," Edward said but I cut him off.

"I don't give a fu-" But then something came out of the darkness of the trees, and it was huge.

"But we heard you liked wolves." Edward finished as a huge wolf emerged from the trees and stood before me. I yelped and jumped back.

"Are you out of your minds?!" I screamed as I backed away more and tripped over a tree root, falling on my butt. The wolf was enormous, literally taller than me. He was probably bigger than a bear.

"He won't hurt you!" Bella exclaimed at me. "We promise!"

Then, as if the wolf wanted to prove what she had said, he started taking steps towards me. I struggled to get up and start backing away again.

"He really won't hurt you, Lila!" Edward pleaded with me. "You don't have to be afraid."

Why should I trust them? Why should I put my life in danger? Oh, I'll tell you why. That wolf was beautiful. The most magnificent creature I had ever seen in my entire life. All I needed were Edward's words telling me to stay, and I stayed rooted in my place, staring at the wolf.

He started moving towards me again, slowly. I wondered if this was how my life would end. "Ignorant Girl Let's Wolf Eat Her" or "Video Games Lead Kids To Crave Violence" could be some of the headlines after my death. Even though I knew he could kill me, my heartbeat started to slow, and I began to want him to come closer.

His giant eyes never left mine as he crept forward. They had a pleading look in them, as if saying "if you just let me come to you, I'll be a good boy". It kind of made me want to laugh, this giant wolf acting like a little puppy that just wanted affection.

The gap between us was closing, and I held my breath and closed my eyes, waiting for whatever would happen next.

A hot wind of air was blown in my face, and I slowly opened my eyes. I was staring at a big wet nose, until the wolf lowered his head and met my eyes again. He then leaned his head down further, waiting for me to pet him.

I breathed out heavily, unable to grasp exactly what was happening. The wolf, on the other hand, was impatient, and he knocked his head into my hip. I squealed and the wolf's body shook like he was laughing at me.

Extremely hesitantly, I raised my hand, and placed it on the top of the wolf's head, right between the ears. I could hear everyone sigh, including the wolf. He leaned into my touch and I started to rub him. I scratched behind his ears and eventually used both my hands. I looked down at his eyes and found that they were closed in pleasure, and I giggled at him. He really was just a giant puppy.

"This is amazing." I muttered to myself.

"It is." Edward said calmly while he put an arm around Bella.

"I mean I had no idea wolves could be like this!"

"Certain wolves, and with certain people." Edward answered me again.

"What, like I'm the freakin' dog whisperer?" I asked, confused by what he had said.

Edward and Bella chuckled, and the wolf's body shook again like he was laughing with them.

"No, no, no." Edward chuckled. "Some wolves form bonds with certain humans, making them a companion for life." He paused for a moment, looking at me and the wolf. "I believe this wolf has that bond with you."

"What?" I exclaimed as I cleared my head, slightly upset that all this stuff was actually happening. More angry at myself, however, for actually believing it. "That's crazy. This is obviously just a really nice wolf. He would act like this to anyone."

Edward walked forward suddenly and the wolf pulled his head out of my arms and growled at Edward, baring his teeth.

Edward laughed, holding up his hands in surrender as he backed up into Bella's arms again.

"See? It's you." He said with a smile on his face.

"That's...no...it doesn't make any sense...why would..." I stuttered out and began backing away again. Wolves don't form bonds with humans. That was silly mumbo jumbo Edward pulled out of his ass. I couldn't handle the situation. I couldn't handle the way the wolf was staring at me, or the way Bella was pleading with me that everything would be alright.

"I-I have to get back to class." I said and I turned to leave but the wolf grabbed my shirt in his teeth and held me there.

I sighed and turned around, the wolf releasing my shirt to let me. I pulled his head down so that he could look me in the eyes.

"Look, Mr. Wolf," Edward chuckled at my words, "I really have to go, okay?"

The wolf whined and pushed his head into my shoulder.

"I'm sorry, but I really really really need to leave." I stepped back slowly, and as soon as I couldn't see any of them anymore I turned around and broke into a full sprint to get back to the school, back to reality.