A/N: I really am sorry for the (very) late update these past two months are crazy. I'm having my final exams and now it all pouring in my head. Damn. Sorry if the chapter wasn't as good as you expect.
Anyway, Happy reading!!!
Chap 10: The Revealed Secret.
Meilin grabbed the cell phone and dialed Sakura's number. No one answered. She patiently waited for a while until the phone said that there was no one answering the phone. She angrily threw the cell phone at the door: "Damn." But the cell phone didn't hit the door, it was caught by a big hand: "Don't throw things while you're angry. What's the problem?" Meilin glared at Syaoran. What did he just say? He was the one that always throw things when he was angry, not her: "Oh, is it you, Syaoran? Come back from a hot night, eh? Do you even fucking care about our little "undercover agent"? Or all you care about was having se… Uhmmmm" She struggled when Eriol covered her mouth and said through gritted teeth: "Calm down, you're getting nowhere if you talk to him with that kind of tone." Then, he looked up at a still-calm Syaoran, explained: "Meilin is worry about Sakura. About half an hour ago, when I called her, she seemed to be in a very bad situation." Syaoran walked to the coffee table, poured him a cup then turned back, raised his brow: "So what's the problem? Just a bad situation." He looked at Meilin like she was so crazy for being worry in such a small thing. She didn't say anything, left the rest of the explanation for Eriol and sat down on the corner of the bed. Eriol continued: "That's not it. She cried and screamed and seemed to be panic in what she did. She said that she killed people and now she can't take it anymore. I'm afraid we'll have to pull her out soon, if it's not for the safety of her own, then let's do it for the safety of Black Wolves." Syaoran was still cold. Actually, Eriol totally understood why he was so calm beyond this kind of situation. It was just another daily thing to him. But this time, looked at his face and the movements of his hand clutched the cup of coffee like he wanted to crush it then a moment later, let loosed was enough for him to jump on conclusion that Syaoran mind was working like crazy.
Syaoran trusted them. Eriol and Meilin were his two cousins and his two closest people to him. He trusted their instinct. So maybe he was too hard on Sakura? Should he trust her more? To solve the questions, he must talk to her first. Syaoran slowly walked out to the balcony, pulled out his cell and started to call Sakura.
Sakura ignored the ringing sound of the phone. She knew what Eriol would say. She just didn't want to hear about those things anymore. After a while, the phone's ring tone stopped shouting into her ears, made her feel more comfortable. She lied helplessly on the bed, her eyes was dull, all she could think about is that at that moment the Black Wolves trusted her, so she would do it no matter what. But part of her called her devil, told her that she didn't deserve to live once she killed others. Who was she after all? A normal school girl? No, it's gone. A kind girl? No, if she was, she wouldn't have killed people. A killer? No. Not yet. She still had heart. So who was she? Sakura cried silently, tears poured out all her face, left the trail from her eyes to her cheek then her chin and dropped on the blanket. Suddenly, her cell rang again. She slowly turned her head to look at the cell phone.
It was Syaoran.
Sakura looked at it with wide eyes. Did he know? That's the reason why he called right? She reached out to touch the phone and pressed the answered button.
Syaoran realized that Sakura answered the phone but she didn't say a thing. He cleared his throat and called her: "Sakura? I know you're there. If anything happened, tell me. I don't have time to play the "I want to be alone" game with you. Just fucking tell me what happened." Behind him, Meilin face turned red when she heard the tone he used to talk to Sakura. But it did work. On the other line, a small female's voice was heard: "If I say that I'm okay and you don't need to worry, will you accept it as the problem that I have to tell you?" Syaoran press the loud speaker button and continued to talk: "No." They both silent for a while then Sakura's voice rang through the air again. This time more clearly: "Then I'm not okay. I want to come back… but I won't." Before anyone can say a thing, she continued: "I killed people." Her voice trembled. "I'm asking myself why I have to do these things. Then I found the answer was because to me you guys are my family, more than my real one. So I want for once, sacrifice myself for the big family I just had. That's all my problem. What do you say?"
Silence.
Eriol and Meilin looked at each other worried. It seemed like she wouldn't come back no matter what. Now it's all on Syaoran's decision whether she should stay or leave.
A little while, Syaoran sighed then he coldly said: "Stay there. No need to come back." With that, he shut the phone. Eriol frowned: "Damn. What did you just say? Stay there? Are you crazy?" Syaoran put the cell phone back to his pocket, his eyes wandered far away: "I'm the leader. People do what I tell them to do. So this is my command: Let her stay there and you guys shut up, k?" He threw the coffee cup out of the balcony and got out of the room, shut the door loudly. Meilin glared at the door: "See who's throwing things. Stupid Syaoran."
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The day after, every one in the Red Lion could all see Sakura's tired face. It seemed like she didn't sleep much last night. After the breakfast, when everyone was in the living room, Sakura went back to her room. But she wasn't alone. A slim figure was coming after her. When Sakura closed the door, a hand pushed the door back and stepped in. She looked up with wide eyes: "Yukito? Why you.." But her mouth was covered by his lips. She started to struggled, tried to push him out but he was too strong. His hands grabbed her twists and pushed her back to the wall. His kiss was sweet and hot. Sakura's mind went blank when she felt his tongue entered her mouth and started to play with her. She didn't know what happened, just knew that a while later, she totally gave in. Their kiss was like an eternity then suddenly, Yukito broke it: "Cherry, don't push yourself too hard. I know you don't want to kill. Then don't kill." He said, his hand gently caressed her cheek. Sakura looked at him without blinking: "Why did you…?" Yukito smiled and kissed on her forehead: "I don't know. Maybe because of your stubbornness and kindness? I lived in the world of gangster for too long, already forgot how to being kind. You brought it back to me. I just wonder why a girl like you wanted to join a gang?" Sakura startled. She could see some kind of suspicion inside of Yukito' eyes. She needed to take the risk so she decided to lied: "Because I know that your gang is the biggest opponent of Black Wolves." Just like she thought, Yukito let her go immediately and looked at her with wide eyes: "Who told you that? And what do you want?" His voice turned back to the careful tone it's always been. Sakura answered like there was nothing: "I did some research after all. It took me a very long time, though. And what do I want? I want revenge. They killed my parents. They were undercover agents of government's organization that were sent to find the information about a few big gangs that were working in the underground. When they discovered that, they killed my parents." Her eyes show no emotion. She hid it so well that even Yukito can't read her. He frowned: "Revenge? That's not a so good purpose to get in here you know?" Sakura bit her lower lip. She knew that she had to be a lot more careful or she may be discovered. She looked up: "You're not going to kick me out, are you?" Yukito benched down, lift her chin up: "As long as you didn't do anything to harm the gang then, I won't do that. For now, you should get rest before you fall down because of exhaustion." He then turned to the door and stepped out of her room: "Oh, one more thing. What do you think if I ask you to be my lover?" with that, he left.
***
Sakura sat on her bed, her face was red and her mind was gonna be crazy. She couldn't believe that Yukito kissed her and told her he loved her. What should she do now? What was her feeling toward Yukito?
Sakura shook her head madly to kick away stupid thoughts. Of course that she could never be his lover. He was Black Wolves' enemy, there was no way she gonna fall for him... wasn't there? She started to think about him, considered of what to do.
The first thing she saw in him was "he is my enemy". But what about the others? Even he was the co-leader of the Red Lion but deep inside, Sakura knew she did have some feeling for him, despite the fact that he was an enemy. The word "enemy" echoed in her head again and again, refused to let her get away.
"...I found the answer was because to me you guys are my family, more than my real one. So I want for once, sacrifice myself for the big family I just had." Things she said the night before made she feel pathetic for herself. Sacrifice? Who was she kidding to? If she could sacrifice or whatsoever then why did she keep thinking about Yukito? She didn't do the right thing. If she did that, she could never dare to see Black Wolves again.
Suddenly, the phone rang make she startled. Sakura looked around to find her cell. Grabbed it under a blanket, she looked at the calling number, realized that she didn't know the caller. After a while, Sakura pressed the answer button and carefully asked: "Who's that?" At the other line, a familiar voice was heard: "Sakura? Where are you? It's been four months since the last time I have seen you! What are you doing? I tried to find you everywhere but you're nowhere to be found. Your dad got mad. He said that if you keep running away, he'd call the police no matter what. Now it's not the problem that he'd ashamed if people, especially Kang president know that you ran away anymore. He swore that if you don't come back in one more week, even if he'd have to call Interpol, he'll definitely find you. Do something Sakura! I'm begging you." Tomoyo's voice was rush and full of worry. Sakura knew that if she didn't do anything, her dad would definitely make things worse. She wasn't afraid of him, she only afraid if how heavily this would affect the Black Wolves. If she tell Tomoyo, maybe Tomoyo could do something for her to help her stop Fujitaka. After thinking clearly, she made her decision. "Tomoyo, I'm in Beijing." As she thought, Tomoyo gasped: "What are you doing in Beijing, Sakura? Where are you exactly? I'm in Beijing, too. Can we meet? Please, Sakura. I'm very worry about you." Sakura didn't say anything. At the other line, Tomoyo's voice heard like she was ready to cry at any minute if Sakura dare to say no. Finally, she chose to agree: "Okay. Let's meet at Luna Coffee on xxxx Street, k? I'll tell you everything."
***
Tomoyo nearly beat Sakura to pulp when she first saw Sakura. Tears that poured out from her eyes could definitely become a flood soon if Sakura didn't try anything to stop her. Sakura asked gentle: "What are you doing in Beijing?" Tomoyo sobbed: "I came here because my mother is going to open another small company in here. But that's not the problem. The problem is what the hell did you do these past four months?" She angrily asked Sakura with a dangerous tone.
Sakura smiled at her cousin's reaction. She's never known she missed her friend that much until she met Tomoyo.
Sakura looked at the sky and sighed: "Well, my story began in the day you know about the engagement. That day, after I bid you goodbye..."
...
Tomoyo listened to Sakura's story with a frightened expression. The more information Sakura told her, the more pale her face turned to. After Sakura has finished with her past four months, Tomoyo said in a soft tone: "Why did you do such a silly thing? Are you crazy? You went to the enemy gang for 3 months? What if they discover and kill you?". Sakura smiled sadly: "I did it because to me, Black Wolves are very important. They are my other family. They even care about me more than my dad cares about me." Tomoyo trembled "But I'm really scare Sakura. I don't want to ever be able to meet you again. Please, Sakura. Come back with me. We'll persuade your dad. Please, don't stay here any longer." Tears started to pour out of her eyes once more time. Sakura looked at her friend, her eyes were wet too. She needed to hold back or else she would burst out crying right in front of Tomoyo, which was an unnecessary thing to do right at this moment. Sakura avoided talking about she killing people so Tomoyo didn't know a thing about it. She didn't want her friend to be afraid of her.
Sakura used her fingers to wipe away tears on Tomoyo's face, gentle said: "I can't. I don't want to. Please Tomoyo. I beg you. You must keep my dad from doing anything that might involve the Black Wolves. Let me stay here. I will do this no matter what. This is what I've chosen. I don't regret about it. So please, don't try to make me come back."
Tomoyo has been with Sakura since they were born so the she was used to the stubbornness of Sakura. She knew that once her friend has chosen to do it, there was no way she can make her go the other direction. Tomoyo decided, if she can't pull Sakura back then she'd help Sakura to get deeper into the organization. She wiped away her tears then smiled: "If you want to do it that much then I'll support you no matter what. You said that you're confused about Yukito's confession right? Then it's easy to answer. Accept it." Sakura looked at Tomoyo with wide eyes: "No. I can't do that. It's like betray Black Wolves". "You do have feelings toward him." She affirmed: "But if you can push that to a side and love him back in the way of business then it's okay. If you become his lover, I'm sure he will tell you more things about Red Lion. The only problem is you mustn't love him for real, or don't let your sensibility passes your sense." Sakura thought about things Tomoyo just said for a while, then she nodded: "I don't love him so of course this kind of fake feelings I can handle it. No need to worry." Tomoyo smiled sadly at her: "Hope you will do a good job. I'm still here for a few days more, if you need anything, call me, k? I gotta go now." Before Tomoyo left, she told Sakura: "Be careful. I'd love to see you again someday."
Being left alone, Sakura calmed herself then she sighed and stood up. She's made a decision.
A/N: It's been a long time since my last update right? But i was really busy last 2 months so i guess that did irritate you guys a lot. I apologize for all the waiting time but Im really sorry to inform you that i need at least two more weeks to finish all the problems i'm having. So my earliest update would be around mid May, hope you guys don't mind.
Thank you for stil support such a lazy author like me.
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Crystal Rose
P.S: Sorry (again and again and again; i started to think that you're tired of hearing these words from me) if this chapter was short^^